back from Underland

Tim Burton has yet again got me hooked to his latest piece of work.And of course,Danny Elfman as the composer,I could not ask for more.........oooh!But wait!Johnny Depp and Alan Rickman (voice only) are in the movie too!And Helena Bonham-Carter!

Haha!

I lurve Alice's dresses!Especially after she fell down the rabbit hole!They are so very preeeeeeeeeteeeeeeee!!!!!!I am lurving Depp's Mad Hatter make up (not the hair!)

I thought the Fudderwhacking moves were fuh-ney.It got me laughing a whole lot!

So why is a raven like a writing desk again?

in case you haven't noticed.......

We are in the 21st century.If and unless you change the way you preach,no one will listen to you.Hell,I won't listen to you.Maybe it's because your language of choice does not suit me.It's a major turn off factor,really.It's like I have to reconstruct each and every sentence......word you say to English before I can fully understand what you're trying to say.

Or........

Maybe it's just your approach.I personally wouldn't bother listening to what you have to say coz it makes absolutely no sense to me and it's kinda hard for me to relate to what ever it is you're saying.Of course,I don't know about other people but despite it being a sensitive issue,I don't really like listening to religious talks especially when it comes from people with the whole "holier than thou" tone.

So please,do us all a favor and shut the hell up.If and unless you change your style or what ever,I think you really should just not bother ;)

It's either you love God too much or you 'think' He'd love you more than others when you do this sorta shit.

like everybody else.......

I too have skeletons in my closet (not that I have a closet to begin with) I sometimes have trouble keeping them to myself.Some skeletons are just too big to be stuffed into a closet.This is the part where I'd panic coz if the closet doesn't fit,where the hell am I supposed to chuck this crap at?

Well.....back in the day,I had a counselor to thrash (and cry) at.Yes,I did have sessions with a counselor only because I had trouble sorting out the shit I have.Nowadays,I no longer have that advantage.The problem is,my depression issues hasn't resolved much.Instead,it's beginning to get out of hand.

I can't explain what being depressed feels like coz if and unless you are depressed will you know how painful this is that to a certain extent you become too numb and immune to everything around you.At that point,I would either resort to inflicting external pain onto myself just so I can feel again.........or ignore it.Sleep through it or what ever.That would not be the best thing to do coz eventually it would resurface and create a worst outburst later on.

I've tried letting it out in different ways but everything fails.This causes insomnia which I have been having lately. *extensive use of concealers!* The best thing about being depressed is that I would lose weight easily from loss of appetite.I'd usually go on for days without food and to a certain extent,I'd start to hallucinate.Its kinda fun to hallucinate coz I'd see things in a whole different level.Most of which I cannot tell if they are real or not.

*I know,why can't I just get freakin' high on marijuana?!*Well.......I have issues dealing with runners.Also,when I have the cash,they don't have the goods.It's all just bad timing,really.......

My other option would be to overdose myself with random things.Now I know what taking too much paracetamols could do to ya ;) so I'd try other drugs........in forms of medications.I haven't done this in a long while.Not sure if its a good thing.

Sometimes I think I just need to sleep a little more.And stop thinking too much!God DAMN IT!

fighting demons

We all have 'em.It's just a matter of how we do it.Been doing this in a long while.Getting quite immune to the pain it causes.It's no biggie.I'll get over it ;)

back and kickin'!

Those people at Streamyx said that it would take them a maximum of days to get our internet connection back on track (coz we moved AGAIN).Shu went for his training today and he took extra time to learn troubleshooting and he fixed our prob ;) easy peasy!

Yes,Shu is working for Streamyx and he's working in TTDI.Hahaha!How ironic is that?I live here but I have to go all the way to Puncak Alam to work.Anywho,I drove Shu to work today.He went in at 2:30pm today.Yesterday,he went to work at 4:30pm.

I love working in the afternoon coz I'd have time to do whatever I want in the morning ^_^ But I guess working only 2 and half hours a week isn't the best thing to do :/ To a certain extent,I do have the tendency to go completely mad.

Speaking of work,I had my very first experience in invigilating a mid term test on Tuesday.One student gave me some problem by failing to inform about her name being blocked off due to fees.Apart from that,I had a pretty slow week.Was hanging out at my aunt's office on Monday.Got to know another lecturer who is also teaching in Puncak Alam.

My sister is right.Apart from my supervisor,all my other colleagues are pretty much older than me.Not that it's a bad thing.Well......I hope not........ ;)

bobbi brown,one utama

Been doing a lot of heavy lifting in the last couple of days.We've moved!

That didn't stop me from carrying on adding things to my shopping list.

Well,I was at the mall in the last couple of weeks.Went to check out Laura Mercier.I was curious about their much talked about concealer pot.But then I was also curious about M.A.C. and Make Up Forever.Before I could find time to go over to those 2 places,I somehow ended up at Bobbi Brown yesterday.

The sales girl was really helpful.Shu was there the other day coz he was looking for the kabuki brush.Anyways,he did mention that he learned a lot from that girl.Well,I did too.She sat me down and put the concealer on and stuff.I lurved the end product so I just went ahead and got those ^_^

The thing about me dragging Shu along when I go shopping is coz his opinion really matters to me and the fact that I always need a second (sometimes 3rd) opinion,he's always the first person on my list.Well,there's my sister and Sarah (whom I'd always ask online) I just think that make up needs to be seen and felt unlike clothes and shoes........or handbags!

Shit!I just realized that it's already the end of February!I haven't got much time to plan anymore!Damn it!

And it doesn't help that I seriously think my students are NOT prepared for their midterm exams!SHITTO!

Terrified by Katharine McPhee

You by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world full wrong you're the thing that's right
Finally made it through the lonely to the other side

You said it again my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark,
And I'm in love and I'm terrified.
For the first time in the last time
In my only life.

This could be good
It's already better than last
And love is worse than knowing
You're holding back
I could be all that you needed
If you let me try

I only said it cause i mean it
I only mean cause it's true
So don't you doubt what i've been dreaming
Cause it fills me up and holds me close
Whenever i'm without you

did what I do best at the best time in the bestest way ever

Hahahahahahah!

And I am still laughing (out LOUD) about it :p

I got lost.It was the first time I drove to work and I got lost.The best part was that I did NOT get lost on my way THERE.I got lost ON CAMPUS itself!After class,I figured that there shouldn't be any problems at all to get out.I took a wrong turn and accidentally got into the wrong side of a one way street.This happened still WITHIN the campus grounds!

It got worse as I made my way OUTSIDE the campus gates.My first turn to the right was correct.Everything was fine right up till the point I got to the biggest junction traffic light.I was gonna turn right but then there was a huge lorry that came straight through where I was gonna turn.That got me puzzled thinking that I wasn't even supposed to turn right there.Weird though coz there was a road.A proper road.

I went straight ahead and ended up in some kampung area.There was no kampung on my way to campus.Finally,I decided to call Shu coz we were supposed to meet up halfway before going home.He told me to turn around.Then,it got better but not as I hoped it would be.I was on a highway that lead me straight to Kota Damansara.

Earlier that day before I left the house,Aunty Intan was at my place and she was telling me about a faster way to get to my work place through Kota Damansara.That must have been it.I was on it and it really was fast.

So yeah,I got lost but learned a new route which is awesome ;)

weekend with my sister

I spent Saturday night laughing so hard in the bedroom with my sister coz she found a whole stash of things like photos and autograph books and journals from her days when she was in school.Primary school.The pictures she found were priceless!Like a photo of my grandma back in the way when she was still a minister!And the photo of us celebrating my sister's birthday at TGIF when I was still a goth chick.Hahahahahahah!

The autograph book was hilarious!My sister used to have Eno's friends around her (coz they all had a crush on her) So what some of these boys did was that they signed the damn book but with super fuh ney things written in it like "I ---- ---"<---which was I Love You (Doh!) and some of them would write stuff like "Ingat lah Allah......." and my sister and I were like "WHA???" Where the hell did that come from?!

The funniest part was that I too signed the book.TWICE!The last thing I wrote was "LURVE ME!"

And we were laughing at the things she wrote in her journal when she was 15.She wrote this awesome poem though which never remembered writing.

On Sunday morning,she and I followed my dad to Ampang to see this Burmese family.Their son was begging at our front door the other day and that's how my dad got to know him.We decided to help his family out coz apart from the fact that this boy's folks were refugees,the boy and his 8 other siblings never made it to school after primary school.Also,the kid doesn't even have an I.D. card!AND.....his 15 year old sister has a 6 months old baby girl!Oh yeah,in case you're wondering,the boy is only 16 years old.

Anywho,after that we headed home.I took my siblings out for lunch.We had a good laugh over Indian food.I dragged my sister to the mall with me to catch the flee market.There was a booth that sells make up brushes and stuff and I wanted to try them.The market is only during the weekends and I have no idea where to find the brush supplier otherwise.Had a drink.We were talking about stuff.

Actually,we did a lot of that.Talking.We haven't done that in a long while and my sister just needed a second opinion about the predicament she is currently in.Seriously,I wish we had that conversation earlier.I just hope she'll decide to do the right thing before going completely insane.

I,on the other hand,have been going through some serious guilt trip..........I'll probably save it for another entry.

Shu got a job and he's already started work today.Yey! ^_^

slowing down and taking a step back

Maybe I was going a bit too fast.The way I was living my life would have had me killed in a couple of months time.Slowing down is not easy but I'm gonna try working on it.Maybe it's the thing I need.

What about shoes?!

A VERY VERY UNBIRTHDAY!!!!

Got up super late today.Had this disturbing dream about someone going missing and a whole bunch of people turning into zombies.It was really weird.

Managed to get stuff while running around doing errands and driving mum today.Got Kecik,Snow Bear and Gemok aka Fei Mao flea collars.They need it.They so need it.Especially Snow Bear and Gemok.Snow Bear is now known as the City of Kootoos.HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAA!!!!!!

Oh yeah,was going to get my grandma some cookies she wanted over at the mall so I decided to stop by at the drug store to get some eye liners.I really lurve Maybeline liners.Got meself a brown color 2-in-1 Impact Shadow Liner by Eyestudio and the Impact Express smooth felt liner in black.Yes,definitely expect some wings!YEY!

Got those kids some flea treatment shampoo too.They should all be tick and flea free in no time ^_^

I had a blastt yesterday.Shu took me to the Sepang Gold Coast.I would LOVE to have a photoshoot done there!I had a great dinner.

The night before that,Shu took me to a place called Cerana for supper somewhere in Cheras.I lurve that place too.It would be a perfect place to throw a dinner party!

Was at the Blues Bred studio (2nd time) on Monday night.We finally narrowed down our play list for the gig on the 28th.WOO HOO!!!!!!I was so not there in the studio that night.I was literally playing with my eyes closed......well,sorta.I was thinking about lion dances and more lion dances and sang when I had to.There were times when I forgot to go to the mic to sing coz I was walking around a little too far.Hehe........

The whole of Sunday was about lion dances.Monday afternoon was about the Tiger dance I've been waiting for all week.It was awesome!Spent Tuesday morning with my mum and sister.We sent my brother Qarim to Central KL coz he had to catch a bus.

I had a blast.Still looking for Tiger dance performances coz I only have till February 4th of 2011 before the end of the Tiger year ;)

Thanks for everything,baby!And thanks for all the birthday wishes people!Me lurves yous!Have a prosperous year!RRRRRRRROOOOOOAAAAAAARRRRRR!!!!!!!

my new favourites!

I cannot explain how much I am super lurvin these new 3/4 pants from Giordano!I am so getting more real soon!

OMFG!I cannot believe that Shu got me the kabuki brush I wanted so much from Make Up Forever Professionals!Its texture is super awesome!I really3 lurve it!

M.A.C.'s mineralized skinfinish powder is my favourite thing right now!

I absolutely lurve the new knee high boots Shu got me!OMFG!They are so damn awesome!!!

Oh yeah,I got meself a CNY Tiggerlicious tee!LURVING that too!

RRRRRRROOOOOAAAAARRRR!!!!!!!

RRRRRROOOAAAAARRRRR!!!!!!

Was at the mall AGAIN yesterday.I was hunting down the tiger dance and we actually got around to stopping them from making the round for a picture ;)

Yes,I actually ran straight for one tiger and said "WAIT!I WANNA TAKE A PICTURE!" and the dudes actually posed for a picture and then more people joined in for more pictures! :D

Puas hati!

Now,I am back on my hunting trail for make up brushes.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!

Muahahahahaha!

This ain't the day to be sad and angry.......Got me dose of annual lion dance.Awesome!Was chasing 7 lions from Ikano to The Curve.Tomorrow,there will be a Tiger dance.Don't wanna miss that.

Oh yeah,tomorrow is a day to be good to dogs (and cats!MEOW!) So please,if you need to abuse,by all means,go find some homosapien to beat up.Bang into someone or their cars.Burn down someone's house or something.Do NOT let it out on animals ^_^

Happy New Year!

eve of the year of the Tiger

I am so psyched!I feel like I should do something extra this year.I am torn between either helping those stray cats living behind my house by sending them all to SPCA or.....I should adopt 2 more kitties ^_^ I think I'm gonna adopt regardless if I do ever get those stray cats help.

I think the world should be dominated by cats.Hahahaha!

I have been having this urge to eat worms lately.I just feel like digging up a few from the ground and throw them into a frying pan complete with salt and pepper.And probably some flavoring.Hurmm........sounds pretty good.

Can't seem to push myself to eat these days.I know that I've had my round of Yee Sang the other night but I think I want more ;)

Oh yeah,I was at the mall today just hopping from one store to another looking for a good kabuki brush.Those made from horse tails are the best.I am kinda liking the one from Make Up Forever Professionals.I was talking to the girl at the Bobbi Brown counter and she showed me some really awesome stuff.Their brushes are da bomb!

between God and I

I don't have a problem with this relationship.I completely understand that if I fuck around or screw up,I am definitely up for a good whoopin'.HE also knows that I hate Him sometimes but the feeling usually won't last.He's the only one whom I cannot get into a physical fight with and if He ever wants to remind me of my position in this relationship,He'd do it without fail.

We're good......

I just cannot stand human beings.......I sometimes wonder why He'd create idiots........morons.......

nein nein nein nein NEIN!!!!!!!

Not again!Shit!

Got a call from my mum on my way home today.First,she sounded all bubbly and happy about The Age of Innocence being aired on TV and stuff......then,she moved on to news about Kecik.She said he's limping.He might have gotten hit by a car coz he hasn't been home all morning.

The thing is,I cannot figure out WTF is wrong is wrong with this little guy.He's a cat.He's a male cat.He should at least be agile and swift enough to go against what ever the hell that's ahead of him.Seriously,Snow Bear hasn't got into any major shitty-ness since he first arrived.He causes damages onto others :/

If he was a kid,I would totally send Kecik for therapy!

The so called Lightning Thief

I think I expected too much from the movie.The cast was not bad but I expected the movie to be so much better.Ah well........

We had some awful service over at The Cathay Cineplex over in Mutiara Damansara today.Let's begin at the very beginning........

The snack parlor.......There was a LONG line of people and there was only one counter opened.How annoying was that?!While there was only one miserable person taking care of the cash register,the rest of the snack crew clan were at the other side preparing the orders!That was annoying!How many people do you actually need to prepare food stuff if only one customer was at the pick-up counter?

And then,we were allowed in to sit.The credits from the previous movie session was still playing on screen!Maybe that didn't bother us too much.What did was the stupid idiot in charge of that particular cinema!The lights were already dimmed down which meant that there would be some movie trailers up next.....but what instead was that the stupid back ground music of the waiting period was still playing while the trailer was on so we couldn't hear anything from the trailer.That went on for quite a while.......

That was super annoying!

M.A.C. again.......

Was it my sister who told me that M.A.C. store over at Sunway Pyramid?........Yes.....yes,she was the one........

I have splurged AGAIN......this time it was on the Mineralized skin finish natural powder.I am an addict to face powder :p

AND.....I also made a quick stop over at Elianto to get some eye shadows.Me gots them duo shades in blue(s) and green(s).....yes,yesss.....me dids.......

I am kinda annoyed by the fact that NYX is not available here :(

But....nevermind.......at least we have Make Up Forever ^_^

me lurves them!

<---Lightning

<---Yun Fang