My Go-To jamming playlist

 

Shu was telling me how worried he is getting about raising our kids in this mad world we currently live in

 It's mad and it's a whole lot worse than before. There was a time when we would be left at home on our own as kids and we felt quite safe. We can't do that anymore. Houses get robbed and broken into within an hour. 

And then, there are pedophiles. It's sickening to think that there is such a thing and it's not something new. I did point out that 14 year-olds today are not like how I was back when I was 14. Then again, I was naive and not very good at being a typical 14 year old...........14 year olds today look like they are 18 so......there's that.........I was still asked for my identification card even when I was 21 everytime I was going anywhere where underaged kids weren't allowed in :-/

I don't know why but the more I speak about shitty crazy mofos like pedophiles, I can't help but think that my guardians didn't do a good job at keeping one at bay back when I was 15. He was 10 years older than I was. I was naive. I had no idea about a lot of things and to think that my mum kept saying he liked me the whole time..........I was 15..........how is that flattering in anyway? He was allowed into my home. He was always talking to me about sex. He was always looking at my friends around me who were my age and passing remarks about pretty they are. We were 15. My dad was a pilot so he was hardly around. 

Anyways, one day this guy went somewhere overseas and came back and said he had something for me. It was a G-string........thong.......whatever you wanna call it. I told my folks. My dad never let him back near me or our house ever.

I'm still trying to understand why my mum did let him come over even to my wedding. Growing up, I was always asked why I was 13 and did not have a boyfriend. Why I never had a social life. Why I never went out with friends or even had a lot of friends. I had friends. A small number of friends.

I don't have a social life even until today. I don't have friends to go out with. Not these days. My friends are all working and are grown up parents.

My mum cleared out some stuff and found a whole lot of books

.... And my old ginormous scrapbook. 

Here is a newspaper double spread from LinZy (I think)

I tried for the Rock Star SuperNova competition just coz I was a huge fan of Jason Newsted.

Spot me with the black shirt and orange neck tie ;)

I kept this ad. Shu and I went to this concert. It was bomb! I sang to all the songs throughout the entire concert <3

I attempted painting with different materials 

I was obsessed with Alex Kapranos and Franz Ferdinand (the band,not the archduke)

Summer Shower by Emily Dickinson

 

This was worth every penny

I was team Inviso and we lost

 

More photos

 

Hard Rock Hotel Penang

 

Shu was in his zone

Shu rented this guitar for me. It's Alex Kapranos's touring guitar. I was Dying. I was so psyched! Omgomgomg!!!!! 

Africa Cover

 

Where I'm at

 A lot of people have a lot opinions or perception towards me. A lot of people also don't understand how my mind works. What you see in pictures are just as is. What I write about are just is. I have my interpretation about other people too. I think it's normal. 

The one thing that I seem to never learn is that I am naive when it comes to human interactions especially online. I always think everyone I come in contact with has good intentions and that they truly want to be friends with me. That's not the case. I still can't seem to tell if people are just using me or just lying to me.

It's true when people say that animals have instincts and they act or react based on just that but people have different intentions and they sometimes manipulate situations. Shu always tells me that I need to watch out before I get hurt. How?

If I say something nice to someone is only coz I mean it and they should take it just as it is. There is no need for underlying meanings. Well, at least that is how I usually take things anyways. I don't know how to dig deep about other people coz I just don't know how to and most of the time, I'd like to think it's more of a personal space thing.

As it turns out, there are really bad,sick people out there. Shu is looking out for me as he always does. I really hope that my kids won't get online with these crazy mofos.

To kiss in cars in downtown bars was all we needed

 You drew stars around my scars and now I'm bleeding

The Secret Garden AURORA

Where have you been hiding?
You seem lost within your body and your mind
A beam of light can still remind you who you are
Wounded by the world
Your fragile nature needed shelter
In the night we made a sanctum
Out of mind and out of sight

Won't you let me take you there?
Won't you let me take you there?

Let me take you into the garden, into the garden
I'll be there, painting the flowers, give them color
I'll be there

Listen to the anthem
Hear the flowers like their hymn has healing power
Take my hand and breathe in, the colorful

Won't you let me take you there?
Won't you let me take you there?

Let me take you into the garden, into the garden
I'll be there, painting the flowers, give them color
I'll be there

Let me take you into the garden, into the garden
I'll be there, painting the flowers, give them color
I'll be there

Try to heal the heart of mind
In the garden we find
Try to heal the heart of mind
In the garden we find
Inside, inside

 

We were in Legoland just before the Merdeka weekend

We decided to get a pirate themed room this time around.

Lego Mario had just launched so this was their display outside. Lego Mario is AWESOME!

Safiyya is still crazy about Lego Friends

Because of the pandemic, the hotel's SOP is to serve us instead of us walking around the buffet area to get food. The good thing is we don't have to budge from our seats. They just don't have as many selections as they would if it was like the old times but the upside is that they have way less waste which always good in my book.

Yusuf loves Legoland to bits eversince he was a baby.

We were at Sea Life coz I love that place to bits! Also, we finally got ourselves the triple park annual passes so this makes things a whole lot easier for our next visit.