Terrified by Katharine McPhee

You by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world full wrong you're the thing that's right
Finally made it through the lonely to the other side

You said it again my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark,
And I'm in love and I'm terrified.
For the first time in the last time
In my only life.

This could be good
It's already better than last
And love is worse than knowing
You're holding back
I could be all that you needed
If you let me try

I only said it cause i mean it
I only mean cause it's true
So don't you doubt what i've been dreaming
Cause it fills me up and holds me close
Whenever i'm without you

did what I do best at the best time in the bestest way ever

Hahahahahahah!

And I am still laughing (out LOUD) about it :p

I got lost.It was the first time I drove to work and I got lost.The best part was that I did NOT get lost on my way THERE.I got lost ON CAMPUS itself!After class,I figured that there shouldn't be any problems at all to get out.I took a wrong turn and accidentally got into the wrong side of a one way street.This happened still WITHIN the campus grounds!

It got worse as I made my way OUTSIDE the campus gates.My first turn to the right was correct.Everything was fine right up till the point I got to the biggest junction traffic light.I was gonna turn right but then there was a huge lorry that came straight through where I was gonna turn.That got me puzzled thinking that I wasn't even supposed to turn right there.Weird though coz there was a road.A proper road.

I went straight ahead and ended up in some kampung area.There was no kampung on my way to campus.Finally,I decided to call Shu coz we were supposed to meet up halfway before going home.He told me to turn around.Then,it got better but not as I hoped it would be.I was on a highway that lead me straight to Kota Damansara.

Earlier that day before I left the house,Aunty Intan was at my place and she was telling me about a faster way to get to my work place through Kota Damansara.That must have been it.I was on it and it really was fast.

So yeah,I got lost but learned a new route which is awesome ;)

weekend with my sister

I spent Saturday night laughing so hard in the bedroom with my sister coz she found a whole stash of things like photos and autograph books and journals from her days when she was in school.Primary school.The pictures she found were priceless!Like a photo of my grandma back in the way when she was still a minister!And the photo of us celebrating my sister's birthday at TGIF when I was still a goth chick.Hahahahahahah!

The autograph book was hilarious!My sister used to have Eno's friends around her (coz they all had a crush on her) So what some of these boys did was that they signed the damn book but with super fuh ney things written in it like "I ---- ---"<---which was I Love You (Doh!) and some of them would write stuff like "Ingat lah Allah......." and my sister and I were like "WHA???" Where the hell did that come from?!

The funniest part was that I too signed the book.TWICE!The last thing I wrote was "LURVE ME!"

And we were laughing at the things she wrote in her journal when she was 15.She wrote this awesome poem though which never remembered writing.

On Sunday morning,she and I followed my dad to Ampang to see this Burmese family.Their son was begging at our front door the other day and that's how my dad got to know him.We decided to help his family out coz apart from the fact that this boy's folks were refugees,the boy and his 8 other siblings never made it to school after primary school.Also,the kid doesn't even have an I.D. card!AND.....his 15 year old sister has a 6 months old baby girl!Oh yeah,in case you're wondering,the boy is only 16 years old.

Anywho,after that we headed home.I took my siblings out for lunch.We had a good laugh over Indian food.I dragged my sister to the mall with me to catch the flee market.There was a booth that sells make up brushes and stuff and I wanted to try them.The market is only during the weekends and I have no idea where to find the brush supplier otherwise.Had a drink.We were talking about stuff.

Actually,we did a lot of that.Talking.We haven't done that in a long while and my sister just needed a second opinion about the predicament she is currently in.Seriously,I wish we had that conversation earlier.I just hope she'll decide to do the right thing before going completely insane.

I,on the other hand,have been going through some serious guilt trip..........I'll probably save it for another entry.

Shu got a job and he's already started work today.Yey! ^_^

slowing down and taking a step back

Maybe I was going a bit too fast.The way I was living my life would have had me killed in a couple of months time.Slowing down is not easy but I'm gonna try working on it.Maybe it's the thing I need.

What about shoes?!

A VERY VERY UNBIRTHDAY!!!!

Got up super late today.Had this disturbing dream about someone going missing and a whole bunch of people turning into zombies.It was really weird.

Managed to get stuff while running around doing errands and driving mum today.Got Kecik,Snow Bear and Gemok aka Fei Mao flea collars.They need it.They so need it.Especially Snow Bear and Gemok.Snow Bear is now known as the City of Kootoos.HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAA!!!!!!

Oh yeah,was going to get my grandma some cookies she wanted over at the mall so I decided to stop by at the drug store to get some eye liners.I really lurve Maybeline liners.Got meself a brown color 2-in-1 Impact Shadow Liner by Eyestudio and the Impact Express smooth felt liner in black.Yes,definitely expect some wings!YEY!

Got those kids some flea treatment shampoo too.They should all be tick and flea free in no time ^_^

I had a blastt yesterday.Shu took me to the Sepang Gold Coast.I would LOVE to have a photoshoot done there!I had a great dinner.

The night before that,Shu took me to a place called Cerana for supper somewhere in Cheras.I lurve that place too.It would be a perfect place to throw a dinner party!

Was at the Blues Bred studio (2nd time) on Monday night.We finally narrowed down our play list for the gig on the 28th.WOO HOO!!!!!!I was so not there in the studio that night.I was literally playing with my eyes closed......well,sorta.I was thinking about lion dances and more lion dances and sang when I had to.There were times when I forgot to go to the mic to sing coz I was walking around a little too far.Hehe........

The whole of Sunday was about lion dances.Monday afternoon was about the Tiger dance I've been waiting for all week.It was awesome!Spent Tuesday morning with my mum and sister.We sent my brother Qarim to Central KL coz he had to catch a bus.

I had a blast.Still looking for Tiger dance performances coz I only have till February 4th of 2011 before the end of the Tiger year ;)

Thanks for everything,baby!And thanks for all the birthday wishes people!Me lurves yous!Have a prosperous year!RRRRRRRROOOOOOAAAAAAARRRRRR!!!!!!!

my new favourites!

I cannot explain how much I am super lurvin these new 3/4 pants from Giordano!I am so getting more real soon!

OMFG!I cannot believe that Shu got me the kabuki brush I wanted so much from Make Up Forever Professionals!Its texture is super awesome!I really3 lurve it!

M.A.C.'s mineralized skinfinish powder is my favourite thing right now!

I absolutely lurve the new knee high boots Shu got me!OMFG!They are so damn awesome!!!

Oh yeah,I got meself a CNY Tiggerlicious tee!LURVING that too!

RRRRRRROOOOOAAAAARRRR!!!!!!!

RRRRRROOOAAAAARRRRR!!!!!!

Was at the mall AGAIN yesterday.I was hunting down the tiger dance and we actually got around to stopping them from making the round for a picture ;)

Yes,I actually ran straight for one tiger and said "WAIT!I WANNA TAKE A PICTURE!" and the dudes actually posed for a picture and then more people joined in for more pictures! :D

Puas hati!

Now,I am back on my hunting trail for make up brushes.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!

Muahahahahaha!

This ain't the day to be sad and angry.......Got me dose of annual lion dance.Awesome!Was chasing 7 lions from Ikano to The Curve.Tomorrow,there will be a Tiger dance.Don't wanna miss that.

Oh yeah,tomorrow is a day to be good to dogs (and cats!MEOW!) So please,if you need to abuse,by all means,go find some homosapien to beat up.Bang into someone or their cars.Burn down someone's house or something.Do NOT let it out on animals ^_^

Happy New Year!

eve of the year of the Tiger

I am so psyched!I feel like I should do something extra this year.I am torn between either helping those stray cats living behind my house by sending them all to SPCA or.....I should adopt 2 more kitties ^_^ I think I'm gonna adopt regardless if I do ever get those stray cats help.

I think the world should be dominated by cats.Hahahaha!

I have been having this urge to eat worms lately.I just feel like digging up a few from the ground and throw them into a frying pan complete with salt and pepper.And probably some flavoring.Hurmm........sounds pretty good.

Can't seem to push myself to eat these days.I know that I've had my round of Yee Sang the other night but I think I want more ;)

Oh yeah,I was at the mall today just hopping from one store to another looking for a good kabuki brush.Those made from horse tails are the best.I am kinda liking the one from Make Up Forever Professionals.I was talking to the girl at the Bobbi Brown counter and she showed me some really awesome stuff.Their brushes are da bomb!

between God and I

I don't have a problem with this relationship.I completely understand that if I fuck around or screw up,I am definitely up for a good whoopin'.HE also knows that I hate Him sometimes but the feeling usually won't last.He's the only one whom I cannot get into a physical fight with and if He ever wants to remind me of my position in this relationship,He'd do it without fail.

We're good......

I just cannot stand human beings.......I sometimes wonder why He'd create idiots........morons.......

nein nein nein nein NEIN!!!!!!!

Not again!Shit!

Got a call from my mum on my way home today.First,she sounded all bubbly and happy about The Age of Innocence being aired on TV and stuff......then,she moved on to news about Kecik.She said he's limping.He might have gotten hit by a car coz he hasn't been home all morning.

The thing is,I cannot figure out WTF is wrong is wrong with this little guy.He's a cat.He's a male cat.He should at least be agile and swift enough to go against what ever the hell that's ahead of him.Seriously,Snow Bear hasn't got into any major shitty-ness since he first arrived.He causes damages onto others :/

If he was a kid,I would totally send Kecik for therapy!

The so called Lightning Thief

I think I expected too much from the movie.The cast was not bad but I expected the movie to be so much better.Ah well........

We had some awful service over at The Cathay Cineplex over in Mutiara Damansara today.Let's begin at the very beginning........

The snack parlor.......There was a LONG line of people and there was only one counter opened.How annoying was that?!While there was only one miserable person taking care of the cash register,the rest of the snack crew clan were at the other side preparing the orders!That was annoying!How many people do you actually need to prepare food stuff if only one customer was at the pick-up counter?

And then,we were allowed in to sit.The credits from the previous movie session was still playing on screen!Maybe that didn't bother us too much.What did was the stupid idiot in charge of that particular cinema!The lights were already dimmed down which meant that there would be some movie trailers up next.....but what instead was that the stupid back ground music of the waiting period was still playing while the trailer was on so we couldn't hear anything from the trailer.That went on for quite a while.......

That was super annoying!

M.A.C. again.......

Was it my sister who told me that M.A.C. store over at Sunway Pyramid?........Yes.....yes,she was the one........

I have splurged AGAIN......this time it was on the Mineralized skin finish natural powder.I am an addict to face powder :p

AND.....I also made a quick stop over at Elianto to get some eye shadows.Me gots them duo shades in blue(s) and green(s).....yes,yesss.....me dids.......

I am kinda annoyed by the fact that NYX is not available here :(

But....nevermind.......at least we have Make Up Forever ^_^

me lurves them!

<---Lightning

<---Yun Fang

bloody vogons!

In the beginning,the universe was created.This made a lot of people very angry it was widely regarded as a bad move.........

Got up early this morning.Earlier than usual.Shu had an interview scheduled at 10am at a place about 5 minutes from my house.I wanted to drive him there so I woke him up and got ready.We spent the whole of last night preparing what ever he needed for the interview so while he had to prepare the papers and resume,I helped iron his shirt and pants and looked for a tie that would suit the shirt.Haha!It was hilarious!Coz I'd be running after the cats in between getting things done ^_^

We got to the building and headed upstairs.There was a girl sitting in the waiting room when we got there.She was waiting for her friend who was also there for the interview.Thinking that it was just gonna be a short interview,I sat down beside her.More people arrived later on.Finally,the dude who conducted the interviews peeked out to us and told us to go do something coz it was gonna take a long while till they were done with the interviews.He was right.The whole thing lasted for a good 4 hours!

I went to join my mum and brother at some coffee shop at the other end of town about 15 minutes after Shu went for the interview.Then,I went home and got some stuff and waited for Azim to get ready coz he was heading out to the mall to hangout with some friends so I had to drive him there.I headed over to the building to get Shu but I had to wait a little longer coz he had lots more things to do.

I ended up talking to that girl who was there earlier.She was waiting for 2 of her friends as it turned out.She lives in Kerinchi and she too is working for the company whom had people over for interviews.She said she was working at Maybank before this and the job sucked coz she was working 12 hours a day,6 days a week.She's supposed to just work half a day on Saturdays but she said she always ended up leaving at 4pm-ish.She said she couldn't take it so she quit.

Good move.I would have done the same.Haha!

Finally,Shu was done with his interview.We had lunch over at Devi's coz I refused to move the car (coz the fuel tank was close to empty :p ) That was one hell of an interview coz he had to do lots of test including an IQ test and a typing test.Interesting.

The thing about this job (that Shu applied for) was that Farah (Aunty Intan's daughter) managed to brief him a few days before so Shu knew what to expect.Also,unlike my job,he doesn't have to bring home his work.It's pretty good for sanity sake ;)

KA-BOOM!

Me likey me freedom very much ^_^ but sometimes it drives me mad :/

The truth is,Shu and I kinda like our lives the way it is now.......working but not over doing it.We have time and that's the thing we are slaves to.Extra time.It's contagious!

Boys and girls of every age......wouldn't you like to see something strange?

Come with us and you will see........the fun-ness of being free :D

I am addicted to driving the 2 cats mad.My hamster included.

I am addicted to finding ways to improve my students' English.

I am addicted to make-up.Especially HD Translucent Powder(s).

*Note to self:Do NOT bother going into Shins or SaSa for make up coz it's better to just get them from their respected counters.

*Was at the Make Up Forever Professionals counter the other day.I am so gonna get stuff from there real soon ^_^

P.S. :Good luck for your job interview tomorrow,Love! <3

far away land

It's strange how I have a job but I don't feel like I'm working much.It's kinda good coz I'm the type who'd get bored easily so doing something over and over again can kill me.Then again,I seem to have way too much time at hand.Shu suggested that I work on my make-up skills.He's right.This is the time for me to get my hands on as much make-up products as possible and I should work on my skills right away.

*Actually,I am rather picky when it comes to make-up artists so I'm trying to work on getting it done myself rather than having to hire anyone for the wedding.......or whenever necessary :p

So yeah,I've been hopping from one mall to another,one store to another,one brand to another.I'm beginning to see that getting make-up products from the states is so much cheaper.Thing is,I need them ASAP.I can't wait for anyone to go over to the states to get them for me from my brother.

BTW,today is Eno's birthday.Well,it's actually on the 4th.I had a good time laughing with him over a telephone conversation.He said he got us all a whole bunch of stuff *including the American Football helmet I asked for lat year ^_^* So I told him that I might just need to post things to his address there in the states and get him to post them over IF I ever start shopping online AGAIN.

Hahahahahahahaha!

I am super excited about this year's Chinese New Year!Actually,I tend to get this way every year coz I just lurve lion dance performances and I lurve the color red.Also,this year is the year of the Tiger so it would be a plus point if I'll ever catch a Tiger Dance performance ;)

traffic jams

Traveled all the way to the mall near my house just to get some stuff yesterday.In the end,the thing we were really looking for was actually at the mall near the place we stay :/ It's not that we underestimated the mall or what ever.It just never occur to us to look for it there in the first place.

Silly!

The surprisingly awesome we deal that went on at the mall yesterday was the Schwarzkopf Professional booth which were selling off all the professional products for either BUY 1 and get another item FREE OR BUY 2 items and get 3 items FREE.It does sound super unbelievable but the thing is,as weird as this may sound,I do not use as many Schwarzkopf Pro products as much as I used to.So that would totally be taking up space eventhough it was an awesome deal.

Shu ended up getting a hair gel and I got meself a shampoo and we only paid for my shampoo which was a couple of bux more expensive than the hair gel.It was pretty cool coz I'd usually end up buying those products from hair salons *which I already did some time last month!*

Anywho,we watched Case 39 the other day and it scared the shit out of us.Initially,I was a bit reluctant to watch the movie coz it starred Renee Zelweger but in the end we ended up watching it anyways and despite the fact that she looked weird in the movie,the movie itself was really spooky.

Coz the other night,we tried to scare ourselves by watching the Thai horror flick Haunted Universities but ended up not entirely disappointed,just a bit annoyed by the fact that it really wasn't that much of a horror flick at all :/

The Something,Something,Something Dark Side by Family Guy was fuh-ney!Hahahahahaha!

spent the last 24 hours of my life TRYING to finish marking papers.......

I failed.I got loads of help from Shu though......I failed.I just couldn't do it.I'd go over one paper and get annoyed and stressed out and it would take me some time (lots of time) till I go over the next paper.Sometimes,I do feel that it's unfair for me to get upset with these kids coz they didn't get any form of proper education before they came to the city......or did they :/

Then again,maybe it wouldn't have been so bad if they actually bothered to take the initiative themselves to learn the language.I have no idea how to make them understand the depth of every single thing they do here and now and the damages it would cost them in the future......

Just fucking read some English books or articles or papers or something!

I miss Kecik and Snow Bear and Bedah.It's not hard to understand them or make them understand me eventhough we don't speak the same language :/