Rest In Peace Bedah...........

I have never cried so much.Not as much as I did yesterday.I was cleaning out Bedah and Patrick's house and I saw Bedah lying on the floor of the place.She was sick.Her eyes were opened and she looked like she had difficulty breathing.I brought her out.I was hoping she'd jump up and start running around but she didn't.I kept asking her get better but she didn't.Finally,Shu decided to take her to the vet.

We went to a nearby vet.The nurse there said sometimes we should just give the hamster some glucose water and they'll be fine.I couldn't even get her to drink,how the hell was I supposed to give her glucose water?!The vet took a look at her and had no clue wtf was going on.All he could derive was that it looked as though something was wrong with her lungs.He gave her a shot of some medication and he told us to wait.

We made a few stops on our way home coz we needed to get dinner.Bedah never made it home.She died in the car and I saw her take her last breath.It was almost 7pm at the time.I had to be at work at about 8:30pm.I didn't want to go to work but after a while I sobered up and went anyways.It's not like staying at home could bring her back.

I miss her a lot and I'm going to miss her.I'd usually scream out "BEDAH!!!!!" whenever we come home.Now,I can't do that anymore :( She's the smartest hamster I've ever known and she was family.

Patrick

Finally got Bedah a friend......a housemate........someone whom she can supposedly relate to.......

Well.......we went ahead to a pet store and got Patrick.He's small.Smaller than Bedah.Half her size.That's coz we've had Bedah for quite some time now and she's kinda been on her own and stuff and all the hamsters at the pet stores are usually sold when they're still babies.

It was tough trying to get them to like each other coz Patrick was stuck in a small plastic container for a few hours already and he's probably hungry and Bedah is just territorial.SO.......after breakfast,Shu and I decided to run some tests before letting them move in together.

We put them both in a box and let them get to know eachother for a bit.Meanwhile,we cleaned up Bedah's original house.Scrubbed every inch of the floor and walls with soap and stuff.Oh,the wheel too!We had to make sure that every inch of the place doesn't smell like Bedah.

Finally,we moved them both in.They seem to be getting along fine.........well,except the fact that Bedah is a bit of a bully.A huge bully.Literally huge too.She pushes Patrick around and coz he squeaks a whole lot,it makes a lot of noise.A lot more than when Bedah was running around on her own.They're fine.Patrick makes a lot of noise even when Bedah is not near him :/

radiator problems

We (Shu and I) so freaked out when we were at the traffic light coz we heard a sound like someone's water broke!Well.......probably a car's water bag broke......which would most likely be the radiator.Of course,Shu's car did have some problems with the radiator earlier this year but he managed to seal it off.Well,the whole damn thing probably needs to go now.The car temperature gradually went up and eventually,we decided to let it cool off and hungout at the warung.Later on,Shu got a bottle of water and filled up the radiator tank but there was water dripping.....no,more like raining under the car....if that made any sense at all.Well,yeah.It was the radiator.We managed to get home but we're gonna have to get it fixed or replaced first thing tomorrow morning (which is anytime after this actually.....)

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Hahahaha!!!!!

Anywho,our wedding invitations finally arrived.The ones for the reception.We were busy filling up what ever needed to be filled up and writing down names on them as well as the envelopes and carefully checking lists,making sure we didn't miss out anyone's names.We'll continue tomorrow.What ever deliveries we can do shall be done ASAP.

NOW I'm nervous.We have 5 weeks left and I have yet to make sure everything is in place.Well,the wedding planner called up my mum one morning just to tell her that he was so happy to know that I agreed to having inai on my fingers.Haha!I told you he's super enthusiastic!

I've been having muscle cramps from the badminton game yesterday.SHIT!I can hardly walk properly!

It's been crazy.The last 24 hours had been super intensed (for Shu) so he and I and my 2 brothers decided to hit the mall through the storm.Hahahaha!My brothers thought I was losing my mind which occasionally happens.We hung out for some drinks and food and headed for the game arcade.We sucked at every game we played but we kept on playing anyways.It's weird but Shu said that the Para Para Paradise 2nd Remix was not functioning properly.Hurmm........Of course,I insisted on trying out this whacked out Japanese game which involved throwing a bunch of balls to a huge screen.I like that game but the balls kept getting out of control and bounced everywhere.

I just had a yelling session at Snow Bear coz he was chewing off my Ugla!And he was acting weird between my bed and the wall.To prevent him from making a mess on my vanity table,I decided to kick him out immediately :/ Kecik is fat and so is Bedah.

hatred for cyclists

I was gonna run down a bunch of cyclists who were cycling at the side of the road.I wonder if these people are aware of the rules of "SINGLE FILE"?! Dah la tanak use the pedestrian/bicycle lane!Pastu nak nak obstruct traffic!

AND.....I hate it when people do NOT STOP at a junction!

Anywho,Shu and I couldn't stop singing out loud KYLE'S MUM IS A STUPID BITCH (in D minor) I kept telling him that if I ever had to deal with the people he'd be dealing with in the future,I'd end up passing racist statements and swearing BIG TIME!Hahahahahaha!!!!!We've been listing out really awful words and sometimes it gets loud and we'd forget we're in public places.Either ways,it would make us laugh our heads off.

Anywho,we got Bedah a maze yesterday.I was hoping so much that she'd be happy about it so that she can walk about without being disturbed or attacked by Kecik or Snow Bear.She's NOT happy with it.In fact,she'd get worked up and angry and starts rolling around,scratching and biting the walls.She looked furious.She can't even climb up the tunnels.WTF?!Have I spoiled her completely?!

I've spoiled Kecik......no wait!Kak Yah spoiled Kecik!Snow Bear is spoiled by my parents :p

spent the last 24 hours of my life TRYING to finish marking papers.......

I failed.I got loads of help from Shu though......I failed.I just couldn't do it.I'd go over one paper and get annoyed and stressed out and it would take me some time (lots of time) till I go over the next paper.Sometimes,I do feel that it's unfair for me to get upset with these kids coz they didn't get any form of proper education before they came to the city......or did they :/

Then again,maybe it wouldn't have been so bad if they actually bothered to take the initiative themselves to learn the language.I have no idea how to make them understand the depth of every single thing they do here and now and the damages it would cost them in the future......

Just fucking read some English books or articles or papers or something!

I miss Kecik and Snow Bear and Bedah.It's not hard to understand them or make them understand me eventhough we don't speak the same language :/

into the unknown

The last 24 hours of my life has opened my eyes and changed me.Hopefully for good.There's no turning back and I hope it won't be as bad as everything else that's happened.Maybe,my wish has come true and I really hope that I didn't ask for too much.

To think that it's only been a week,the pain that I went through might have gotten me seeing in a different view.What I'll leave behind would be things I once give a damn about.Of course,no one saw it coming.Not this way at least.

Well,I was online with Stitch the other day and he was telling me how unpredictable I am so this is just me living up to that.Oh yeah.....me haves a secret.He told me something.......well,now only Shu and I know about it ;) I am SO EXCITED!For Stitch,that is.........

So yeah.......I took baths in the last 24 hours in 3 different places.It was totally weird but things needed to be done and I do need to shower.It's been crazy.I didn't think taking such drastic actions would lead to where I am now.I think I've just come to a point whereby I just cannot care anymore.I have 1 person to think about now and it's Shu so as far as I am concerned,the rest of the world can burn in HELL!

Ok,that was not called for.I do care about Kecik and Snow Bear and Bedah as well.........

Naim said something to Shu and I yesterday and it still has me laughing till now.The dude is FUH-NEY!My sister takes bribes but since she's been great help to me at the very least,I don't really care so much about what she does.This ain't such a nice world to live in anyways.

I've been walking in the rain and it got me thinking a lot about where I'm going with all this.I'm not exactly sure about where I'm headed but I've definitely made a decision about what I'm gonna do from here onwards and that would be WHAT EVER IT TAKES.

OMG!

I so got up super late today! (yesterday) I think when I finally got UP up it was around 2:30pm-ish.THAT'S REALLY3 LATE!The last time I got up around that time was when I was sick.SHIT!

I've been getting lightheaded a lot these days and I have no idea why.I eat.At least once a day I do.I haven't gotten around to checking my blood pressure though.

My aunt just got back from her break and she got us all goodies.Us girls/ladies mostly.Haha!She's been shopping at Clark's (which is the place I have been going back and forth to looking at shoes!) but she DIDN'T get us shoes of course.Well.......she got my mum a pair of shoes.She got us all bags!Hand bags!Yey!Now,I don't have to go out looking for one anymore ^_^

Let's see......since my day was really short,I didn't get around to doing much.Shu and I had tea out somewhere nearby only coz we needed to get out.

Oh!I've been having dreams about Bedah in the last couple of days.No idea why.Strange isn't it?Haha!

waka waka waka!

After last night's curious case of random dance routine invention,I just realized that I have the entire lyrics to Celine Dion's Because You Love Me engraved into my head.I was driving Rashidinsky Petropavlosk and Shu nuts with my awful off-key screams in the car while singing along to the radio.

Shu and I had to meet up with my sister earlier this morning.The meeting was so secret that my mum got annoyed trying to figure out why the hell we were all the way in Subang so early in the day.The thing is,she didn't know that our discreet meeting took place in Sunway Pyramid instead.Let's just say my sister did Shu and I a huge favor and Shu promised to pay her for it ;)

Had brunch with Anas Bananas since he called in sick for work today.Funny.I could have sworn that the tee he had on belonged to either Shu,Rashid or me.Hurmm........

Then,Shu and I headed off.We made a quick stop at my aunty's place.I was playing with the cat (Oreo) and the 2 kittens.Watched some TV and then we went off to Putrajaya.

P.S. : Is it just me or is Bedah and Fei Mao starting to look alike these days.It sounds impossible since one is a rodent and the other is a feline.Still.........they seem to have a lot more similarities as the days go by.

babysitting

Funny.Considering the fact that I don't even have a baby.I do but he's obviously not a homosapien.Hah!

Kecik is just a few days away from having that cone collar removed from his neck.I'm just making sure that he's comfy so I'm always trying to do what he wants like giving him a scratch at spots he can't reach on his body.Giving him a good chin rub till he falls asleep.I even let him sleep in my room these days.I just want him to know that we're not doing this to hurt him.I don't care if he hates the vet but I hope he knows that we (Shu and I and even my folks and Kak Yah) are doing the best we can in trying to show him some love.

Ghost aka Snow Bear is altogether another problem.He's too smart for a kitten and it can sometimes annoy me.He's good at opening lids and doors with his paws.He doesn't even have fingers!How the hell does he do such things?!I was afraid if he'd fall into that hole in the kitchen.Its actually a drain hole like the ones in showers where there's a lid on it.Snow Bear is tiny enough to get himself sucked into one of those.

Bedah has shown signs of madness today.More than usual.I caught her biting the metal pipe on her water bottle several times.I have put every damn biteable thing in her home.What more does she need?!

Gemok and my sister were doing the usual cat communication in the room yesterday and then out of nowhere,there was a third mewing coming from the window.It was that cute grey cat whose usually downstairs behind the house asking for food.She lurves my window and she was actually talking to Gemok.That was pretty funny!

Shu's folks stopped by at my house this morning.They had some light breakfast and talked about a few things with my folks and then they left for Terengganu.Shu had gone with them to get a car and some stocks.He should be back by Sunday.I hope they'll all get home safely with the flood and all :/

WHAT THE......

Shu said that there is something seriously wrong with the pets I have living here at home with me.They seem to be acting strange.Very unlike the creatures they should be.For example,Fei Mao hates fish.She'd run away whenever Kak Yah tries to feed her fish.She only eats biscuits and she eats them at her sleeping place while she is lying down!

And Bedah won't eat her sunflower seeds unless they have been semi opened.I could leave a whole bunch of seeds in her house and they will be lying there till evening.WTF?!

I think the only normal cats at home are Kecik and Ghost.Well.......Ghost just broke my dad's baby plants out front.I don't think my dad will be happy to see those plants of his especially knowing that he's been taking extra care of those things since forever!Kak Yah and I are trying to figure out a good cover line for the little pest.Shu is so afraid if my dad would accuse Kecik of being the pest coz he's already in my dad's black list after being caught in the act of peeing at my dad's car the other night :/

disturbing behavior

I had always told my mum and Shu that at a certain age,kids are just super annoying and I am at the age where I just cannot tolerate kids so I try very hard to stay away from them.Sad to say,Kecik turned out to be one very annoying kid in the last couple of days.He just became super difficult and annoying.He woke me up 2 nights in a row with his meowing which sounds strange,scary and weird (my sister and my mum says he sounds buruk) He used to be so quiet growing up.Now,the only sound he makes is that and he'd wake the entire house up.

What Shu and I suspect is that Kecik actually wants to get into my parents' bedroom but the only room door that would open to his sound is my bedroom door.He also likes Azim's room coz Azim would leave the aircond running all night long so it keeps Kecik cold on hot nights.Sometimes,it would get too cold for him so he'd wake Shu up to open the door for him.A couple of nights ago,Shu had to get Kecik off of Azim's leg coz at first,he was holding on to Azim's leg as he slept but after that,he started scratching so before Azim kicked him off,Shu picked him up and put him outside.

I really need to get Kecik a proper bed.He can't keep occupying my parent's bed all the time.He's not as clean as Fei Mao either.I also told Shu that I am gonna start a trust fund for Kecik so that should anything happen in the future (to Kecik) we won't have to fork up too much cash from our pockets :p

Bedah,on the other hand,spends most of her time rearranging the furnitures in her little house which could be noisy at times.Hahaha!But I've caught her sleeping in strange ways in the past few days.She'd even move while she's asleep like she's getting nightmares or something.

not a fosterer

I try very hard to not pick up cats or kittens from anywhere and make them believe that they can have a home here with me.It never works.The cats living behind my house seem to think that I am the one to call when they get hungry.The chomel grey cat even sits outside my bedroom window!Kecik and Fei Mao hates that cat.I don't mind her but she tends to make a lot of noise.

Earlier today,Aunty Intan asked Shu and I to take a kitten from her house and leave it somewhere where it won't go be able to go back to her house.The thing is,the kitten is very VERY tiny.It was hungry and cold and dirty and smelly.I couldn't just toss it out in the rain.It could get hit by a car.Or it could get attacked by other cats or dogs.Or it could end up drowning in some drain.

So,I took it home,fed it and let it stay in a cage so that it won't spread whatever disease it has to my other cats.Eventhough my mum doesn't like the idea of adopting another cat/kitten,she couldn't let that poor thing go out all alone in the rain.What she told me to do is to take that kitten to the vet tomorrow morning to get it cleaned up and possibly vaccinated and then think of what we're gonna do with it later on.

As much as I hate the idea,I figured that the safest place for it to go to would be SPCA.I cannot imagine what will happen to these cats and kittens once I get married and move out.I know that Shu doesn't want to leave Kecik (and Bedah the hamster) behind no matter where we go.

Speaking of Bedah,I decided to splurge some cash on her and got her some carrot cakes and bath salt.I feel sorry for her coz she's been all by herself for the longest time.But since hamsters can recognize their relatives,I figured she won't feel so alone nowadays.At least not anymore ^_^

Kecik,on the other hand,has a serious superiority complex.He refuses to sleep on the floor or any non-carpeted floor.His ultimate decisions would be my parent's bed or my tatami or maybe Qarim's bed or the sofa bed downstairs where he'd usually fight over which side to sleep on with Shu.

more holidays

My schedule have seem to get clearer and clearer as the weeks go by.I seem to have less and less things to do and the strangest part is that I am getting very comfortable with it ;)

Shu and I changed our numbers today.The previous service provider we used sucked and the coverage is hopeless.The new service provider has full bar coverage everywhere we gone to so far.The rates are sickly cheap!We lurve it!LURVE love it!LURVE IT!!!!!!

Oh yeah,our hamster's name is Bedah (bay-da-h) MUAHAHAHAAHAHAHAA!!!!She's so chomel and kecik and Kecik has been trying to get his claws on that little rodent since yesterday's incident.He's been watching and staring and lying around looking at her all day.Fei Mao did show a little interest but she'd usually run off when spotted doing such kitty things.

Mum took us out for ice cream to celebrate Shu's birthday at Swensen's.I like that place.I like the ice cream and the food is nice ^_^

I hope Shu enjoyed his share of thin mint chocolate crunch :)

Happy Birthday,Foxburr-san!!!!!!

P.S.: Ada orang tuh pakai kasut baru!!!!!!!! ;p