Shu and I were in the car and as usual we were looking at random cars on the road and commenting on them. We'd usually begin with how they sound -looking at their exhaust pipes- and then guessing their engine specs and so on. What happened tonight was Shu decided to pass another "mid-life crisis" remark.
SO......what I said next was "I would like to see what you (Shu) would be driving when you hit 30 onwards" And his comeback was "I won't have such problems coz I dress my age........." His theory is that people with mid-life crisis are often people who try to grow up or rather dress up older than they are and halfway through the growing up process, they decided that they wanted to dress like a younger person again.
A theory is a theory. We have time to see how this will turn out. Haha! I admit to being a bit of an eccentric but at least I am consistent about being eccentric and yes, maybe at some point I may turn out a bit weird to some people but we'll just see how you would turn out ok,Love ;)
Sunday, December 30, 2012
Thursday, December 27, 2012
53 days and counting
My tummy isn't that huge according to most people but I feel like I am gonna pop real soon. I've heard stories from friends and family about how they did not see the baby coming and the next thing they know, they were rushing to the hospital. I kinda like to not panic or freak out coz I know myself better than anyone and when I do freak out, things could get messy.
My butt hurts. Maybe its coz my pelvic is expanding and so my bones are moving, making way for the coming baby. I am estimating the baby would weigh about 2.5-3kg. I read that the bigger they are, the more pain. Well, labor is pain. It is said to be the most painful of all pain one could ever imagine. I try not to think about it.
I have been trying to keep myself occupied with small chores around the house like cleaning the dishes and doing laundry and ironing clothes. On better days, I would vacuum the floor. I have problems sleeping at night in the last couple of weeks.I can't sleep on the bed anymore so I have been pretty much falling asleep on the couch. My legs hurt when I sleep on beds. No idea why.
I've been watching a lot of animal documentaries lately. They keep me happy. I have been missing my cats. Georg, especially. He's always doing something funny. Pebbles does a lot of strange things. Speaking of cats, we saw 2 kittens downstairs under the abandoned car near the dump area of our house. They look really cute and they must be cold and hungry. Maybe I should bring some food down the next time I ever go down. God knows when that would be.
Anywho, I am still obsessed with laundry and it frustrates me when my clothes does not dry when I want them to :-/
I need to get the baby clothes washed and packed by next week. I should get my overnight bag ready just as much. I have a check up next week and it MIGHT be my last. I am just bracing myself and hoping for the best.
My butt hurts. Maybe its coz my pelvic is expanding and so my bones are moving, making way for the coming baby. I am estimating the baby would weigh about 2.5-3kg. I read that the bigger they are, the more pain. Well, labor is pain. It is said to be the most painful of all pain one could ever imagine. I try not to think about it.
I have been trying to keep myself occupied with small chores around the house like cleaning the dishes and doing laundry and ironing clothes. On better days, I would vacuum the floor. I have problems sleeping at night in the last couple of weeks.I can't sleep on the bed anymore so I have been pretty much falling asleep on the couch. My legs hurt when I sleep on beds. No idea why.
I've been watching a lot of animal documentaries lately. They keep me happy. I have been missing my cats. Georg, especially. He's always doing something funny. Pebbles does a lot of strange things. Speaking of cats, we saw 2 kittens downstairs under the abandoned car near the dump area of our house. They look really cute and they must be cold and hungry. Maybe I should bring some food down the next time I ever go down. God knows when that would be.
Anywho, I am still obsessed with laundry and it frustrates me when my clothes does not dry when I want them to :-/
I need to get the baby clothes washed and packed by next week. I should get my overnight bag ready just as much. I have a check up next week and it MIGHT be my last. I am just bracing myself and hoping for the best.
Thursday, December 13, 2012
2 years of growing up
I was just talking to Shu the other night about how much the 2 years of being married has changed us and made us grow up eventhough in our minds we are the 16-year-olds we were when we first met. We fought and cried and many things happened to get us to where we are today and yet, our lives are still in the midst of changing again real soon.
Shu managed to not only change himself but changed me as well. I learned what it is to be a wife and to be a Muslim. I have more family members who love me and care for me. I have in-laws who are always looking out for us. I have new siblings who are constantly checking on how we are doing and providing us advice for issues we require some help with. I have family members who are constantly praying for us.
Shu has opened me up to the world of mosques. We can be anywhere and when it is time to pray, we would visit mosques which is something I was not used to. I wasn't sure how to perform certain prayers and he taught me how it is done. He's exposed me to so many ways of learning the religion from scratch.
I made the decision to cover myself up this year only because I realize just how much I love Shu and that the last thing I would ever want to do is to have him suffer more from my sins. We are not perfect and we make mistakes and for as long as we live, we will keep making mistakes but I just want to make sure that if he has to suffer at all, it is not caused by me.
Shu managed to not only change himself but changed me as well. I learned what it is to be a wife and to be a Muslim. I have more family members who love me and care for me. I have in-laws who are always looking out for us. I have new siblings who are constantly checking on how we are doing and providing us advice for issues we require some help with. I have family members who are constantly praying for us.
Shu has opened me up to the world of mosques. We can be anywhere and when it is time to pray, we would visit mosques which is something I was not used to. I wasn't sure how to perform certain prayers and he taught me how it is done. He's exposed me to so many ways of learning the religion from scratch.
I made the decision to cover myself up this year only because I realize just how much I love Shu and that the last thing I would ever want to do is to have him suffer more from my sins. We are not perfect and we make mistakes and for as long as we live, we will keep making mistakes but I just want to make sure that if he has to suffer at all, it is not caused by me.
Wednesday, December 12, 2012
update ^_^
- I have loads of mosquito and insect bites on my arms and legs that I am beginning to look like a leopard.
- I am back to my insomniac self. Actually, I can't sleep due to my inability to breathe properly when I sleep in certain positions. The cramps I get from my legs also wake me from my sleep from time to time which suck.
- I got myself another massage slot today. It's only my second time. I was desperate. The pain from my hips are killing me and it's been creeping up all the way to my neck.
- I met my sister-in-law who is one month (pregnant) ahead of me and her gynea tells her she may have to be induced within the next few weeks. I have about 68 days to go and I am nervous as hell.
- I am about 7 months +- pregnant now and I put on about 6kg. I read that I am supposed to be putting on at least 10kg by the end of my pregnancy but since the gynea says that my baby is fine and is growing according to schedule, I am guessing that things are OK.
- Managed to do a bit more shopping for the baby. I hope we have everything. Someone once told Shu that we have 9 months to prepare ourselves mentally and physically for the arrival of the baby. Once the baby is born, there is no excuse for not being able to adjust ourselves. He has a point.
Monday, November 26, 2012
change
As we get older, our views towards a lot of things change. Most of the time, we hope its for the better. Many years ago, my sister and I would sit somewhere (probably a mamak) and just chat away about our views and opinions about many things pertaining to our lives. We were always in agreement with one another eventhough it may not be up to the same degree. She had always been the humanitarian and I've been an animal lover all my life.
We'd talk about our brothers, our parents, our family and the people that we love. I remember us talking about comfort zones and how difficult it is for one to change and eventually leave one part of their lives in order to move on into the unknown. We were young and still living with our parents and having to sell the house and my dad losing his job was the biggest change we'd ever had to go through because it was all that we've ever known. Alongside that was also the issue of the world of politics which was constantly pestering us as we don't share the same political views with our parents. Either ways, we've always had each other.
Years later, I got married and moved out and started living a completely different life. I was adjusting to a lot of things in the last couple of years and so was my sister. It's funny how I always thought she'd be the first one to marry and not me. Anywho, her decision to further her studies in Australia separated us for a bit and when I got pregnant, I felt like it wasn't the same when I'd go to my mum's and have pregnancy chats and she's not around. Little did I know was that in the couple of years whereby I was busy getting myself adjusted to my new life and all, she too was going through a spiritual path.
When she came back last week, we finally met up and just chatted at a nearby cafe. Yes, we were talking about the changes we were going through. Yes, we are still on the same page. We just have much more difficult problems at hand. Delicate problems. But we are willing to work together on sorting things out for the sake of our family.
The last thing we talked about before calling it a day was how good Shu had been to me as a husband and as great support. She liked the idea that I married my best friend and that marriage didn't change our friendship and instead, it made us open up to one another even more. I hope she'll find someone who will share her dreams and views and would take good care of her ^_^ I love my sister.
We'd talk about our brothers, our parents, our family and the people that we love. I remember us talking about comfort zones and how difficult it is for one to change and eventually leave one part of their lives in order to move on into the unknown. We were young and still living with our parents and having to sell the house and my dad losing his job was the biggest change we'd ever had to go through because it was all that we've ever known. Alongside that was also the issue of the world of politics which was constantly pestering us as we don't share the same political views with our parents. Either ways, we've always had each other.
Years later, I got married and moved out and started living a completely different life. I was adjusting to a lot of things in the last couple of years and so was my sister. It's funny how I always thought she'd be the first one to marry and not me. Anywho, her decision to further her studies in Australia separated us for a bit and when I got pregnant, I felt like it wasn't the same when I'd go to my mum's and have pregnancy chats and she's not around. Little did I know was that in the couple of years whereby I was busy getting myself adjusted to my new life and all, she too was going through a spiritual path.
When she came back last week, we finally met up and just chatted at a nearby cafe. Yes, we were talking about the changes we were going through. Yes, we are still on the same page. We just have much more difficult problems at hand. Delicate problems. But we are willing to work together on sorting things out for the sake of our family.
The last thing we talked about before calling it a day was how good Shu had been to me as a husband and as great support. She liked the idea that I married my best friend and that marriage didn't change our friendship and instead, it made us open up to one another even more. I hope she'll find someone who will share her dreams and views and would take good care of her ^_^ I love my sister.
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
for dear life
I am aware that mortality is something we can never fight or predict and should the world end before we'd ever get to meet, I just want to tell you that we had been waiting for you for so long that it feels like forever.
I am willing to go through the pain just to know that you are alright and that I would do anything for you.
We love you with all our hearts even though our brief meetings had only been in dreams.
I am willing to go through the pain just to know that you are alright and that I would do anything for you.
We love you with all our hearts even though our brief meetings had only been in dreams.
Thursday, November 08, 2012
4D scan
Went for our 6th month check up today. Got a Tetanus shot. My gynea laughed at me for being so blur. Later on, we headed over to a polyclinic in SK to get a 4D scan done. It was exciting! ^_^
Thursday, October 25, 2012
moments
- Before I discovered I was pregnant, I thought I was putting weight and that I couldn't fit into my jeans anymore :p
- As my tummy grow bigger, I feel funny whenever I realize that I can't see my toes anymore.
- I have awkward sleeping position issues now that my tummy is so much bigger than before.
- When I first felt the baby kicking, I was sitting on the single chair in the house in Bangi watching TV. I thought my tummy was popping like gastric.
- My baby kicks the hardest when I am about to relax or doze off to sleep.
- Shu has only felt the baby kicking once. It was a really strong kick.
- I cried when I first heard the baby's heartbeat during an ultrasound while I was hospitalized.
- The baby was jumping all the time during the first few times I had an ultrasound.
- My first trimester didn't go too well but everytime I thought I was dying and went to the hospital to check on the baby, he is jumping and fine.
saying goodbye
2 years is most probably the most commitment I have ever given when it comes to work. All seems good on the surface but I am slowly decaying of boredom. I don't know if I did it all myself or if it is someone else's fault but I just need to get away from all this and do something completely new. I feel like my mind cannot expand being there. The same people I encounter would be talking about the same old things no matter how many times I've suggested solutions for them even though I didn't have to.
I seem to have that effect on people. Everyone just stops by at my cubicle and start talking to me about their problems regardless if its work related or personal. At times, I really don't mind but if you come back over and over with the same problem, it tends to get annoying. If a lot of other people have managed to move on, why can't you? I must admit, getting sick and getting things done from home has given me a lot of space for myself and not have to get engaged with annoying conversations anymore.
Again, I am not sure if my decision to leave is solely based on my boredom of working in an office environment or if it is caused by other individuals. Sometimes the lines are blurry. I have my own problems to think about and I just refuse to be found. Hahahaha..........Does that even make sense?
All I know is at this point, I can clearly see that I have absolutely no interest in the world of IT and computers. Most of the time, I know the things regarding computers only because they relate to the things that I do. I am just not interested in getting certificates like ITIL or CCNA. If I was interested in them, I would have gone ahead and spend the last 6 years of my life getting a degree in IT :-/
I seem to have that effect on people. Everyone just stops by at my cubicle and start talking to me about their problems regardless if its work related or personal. At times, I really don't mind but if you come back over and over with the same problem, it tends to get annoying. If a lot of other people have managed to move on, why can't you? I must admit, getting sick and getting things done from home has given me a lot of space for myself and not have to get engaged with annoying conversations anymore.
Again, I am not sure if my decision to leave is solely based on my boredom of working in an office environment or if it is caused by other individuals. Sometimes the lines are blurry. I have my own problems to think about and I just refuse to be found. Hahahaha..........Does that even make sense?
All I know is at this point, I can clearly see that I have absolutely no interest in the world of IT and computers. Most of the time, I know the things regarding computers only because they relate to the things that I do. I am just not interested in getting certificates like ITIL or CCNA. If I was interested in them, I would have gone ahead and spend the last 6 years of my life getting a degree in IT :-/
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
quench my thirst with gasoline
It's weird how I started playing the guitar back when I was 13 and my influences were mostly pop bands like Hanson and The Moffatts. After that there were Blink 182 and Sum 41 and Greenday and Sugarcult.
When I started going for guitar lessons, I found that my guitar teacher loves Metallica. I'm not talking about just one of my guitar teachers. I'm saying all of them. I mean it's not like we were constantly covering Metallica all the time. There were times we'd play Deep Purple and sometimes some random single from some random band.Well, I like Iron Maiden as well but depending on who my band mates are at the time, I wouldn't be able to play metal music all the time.
Anywho, my world was opened to Metallica when I saw S&M on tv. I was thinking that hey,that's not a bad song at all. Then I got hooked for good. Of course, I discovered other bands along the way like Coheed and Cambria which I super love!!!! Oh! And then, there was Justin Hawkins and The Darkness! After that there were Franz Ferdinand and Black Tide. Woah! I love Black Tide! Not to forget Red Hot Chilli Peppers and Korn and Limp Bizkit and System of a Down and Incubus.........
When I started going for guitar lessons, I found that my guitar teacher loves Metallica. I'm not talking about just one of my guitar teachers. I'm saying all of them. I mean it's not like we were constantly covering Metallica all the time. There were times we'd play Deep Purple and sometimes some random single from some random band.Well, I like Iron Maiden as well but depending on who my band mates are at the time, I wouldn't be able to play metal music all the time.
Anywho, my world was opened to Metallica when I saw S&M on tv. I was thinking that hey,that's not a bad song at all. Then I got hooked for good. Of course, I discovered other bands along the way like Coheed and Cambria which I super love!!!! Oh! And then, there was Justin Hawkins and The Darkness! After that there were Franz Ferdinand and Black Tide. Woah! I love Black Tide! Not to forget Red Hot Chilli Peppers and Korn and Limp Bizkit and System of a Down and Incubus.........
Monday, October 15, 2012
Baby name
Although we have already thought of the baby name(s) long before I got pregnant, last weekend, Shu's family finally found out what our baby's name is ^_^ and everyone loves it.
Monday, October 08, 2012
South Bound
Shu and I were on the verge of going insane so we decided to take a trip down south. I have relatives there and there are new things to do and explore at the same time. We took leaves on Thursday and Friday and stayed on till Saturday.
We arrived in Johor at about 6pm and checked in to our hotel. Cleaned up and rested a little and headed out for food. Then a little later, we drove around trying to look for roads for where we were heading the next day. We eventually lost our way and headed back to town. We ended up hanging around Danga Bay having drinks while watching everyone else eating and walking and just going on and off the colorful rides nearby. Danga Bay is calmer on week nights compared to weekends. After that we headed back to our hotel and slept.
The next morning we got up early and had breakfast. Then we got ready to head over to Legoland. I knew that I wasn't gonna be allowed on a lot of rides since I'm pregnant and all but we just wanted to take a look and what the hype was all about. Legoland wasn't far at all. I would suggest parking your cars at the Medina Mall parking area rather than having to walk all the way from the other end of the parking area just to get to the entrance.
Legoland was fun but it would be funner if we already had our son and that he's about 3 years of age coz then, he'd be able to enjoy the kiddie rides and playgrounds all over the park. It was a great experience and we had a blast walking all over the park.The rides we tried were fun and unique.It would have been funner if my sister-in-laws were to join in with their kids.
Anywho, at about 3 in the afternoon we were done with the park and headed back to the hotel.The plan that night was to meet up with my cousins and aunties.There was a breakdown in communication so we ended meeting only half the people we were supposed to have met that night.It was pretty fun though.
We got up the next day,had breakfast and packed up and checked out. Then we headed over to my grandmother's house to see her and my aunty.Stayed for a bit and then we headed out to the Johor Premium Outlet which was all the way out in the middle of nowhere.
We just wanted to see what it was all about but we didn't shop much coz we weren't planning on getting anything at the time.Yes,the things are cheap.We ended up having drinks and a slice of cheese cake over at the Coffee Bean. Then we headed back to KL.
We stopped by at Machap R&R for lunch and prayers. The surau there is nice. Our next stop was very near Cyberjaya. We just needed to stop for prayers and then we headed back to Bangi.Had something to eat and then went home.
It was fun ^_^
Oh yeah,I was at my mum's yesterday and we got to meet Fluffy who is the kitten my dad rescued from the drain in front of our house. She's so small and fluffy and playful. She and Kutip and Chomel and Persky are now the best of friends.
We arrived in Johor at about 6pm and checked in to our hotel. Cleaned up and rested a little and headed out for food. Then a little later, we drove around trying to look for roads for where we were heading the next day. We eventually lost our way and headed back to town. We ended up hanging around Danga Bay having drinks while watching everyone else eating and walking and just going on and off the colorful rides nearby. Danga Bay is calmer on week nights compared to weekends. After that we headed back to our hotel and slept.
The next morning we got up early and had breakfast. Then we got ready to head over to Legoland. I knew that I wasn't gonna be allowed on a lot of rides since I'm pregnant and all but we just wanted to take a look and what the hype was all about. Legoland wasn't far at all. I would suggest parking your cars at the Medina Mall parking area rather than having to walk all the way from the other end of the parking area just to get to the entrance.
Legoland was fun but it would be funner if we already had our son and that he's about 3 years of age coz then, he'd be able to enjoy the kiddie rides and playgrounds all over the park. It was a great experience and we had a blast walking all over the park.The rides we tried were fun and unique.It would have been funner if my sister-in-laws were to join in with their kids.
Anywho, at about 3 in the afternoon we were done with the park and headed back to the hotel.The plan that night was to meet up with my cousins and aunties.There was a breakdown in communication so we ended meeting only half the people we were supposed to have met that night.It was pretty fun though.
We got up the next day,had breakfast and packed up and checked out. Then we headed over to my grandmother's house to see her and my aunty.Stayed for a bit and then we headed out to the Johor Premium Outlet which was all the way out in the middle of nowhere.
We just wanted to see what it was all about but we didn't shop much coz we weren't planning on getting anything at the time.Yes,the things are cheap.We ended up having drinks and a slice of cheese cake over at the Coffee Bean. Then we headed back to KL.
We stopped by at Machap R&R for lunch and prayers. The surau there is nice. Our next stop was very near Cyberjaya. We just needed to stop for prayers and then we headed back to Bangi.Had something to eat and then went home.
It was fun ^_^
Oh yeah,I was at my mum's yesterday and we got to meet Fluffy who is the kitten my dad rescued from the drain in front of our house. She's so small and fluffy and playful. She and Kutip and Chomel and Persky are now the best of friends.
Wednesday, September 26, 2012
things
I'm liking:-
- baby clothes coz they are so colorful! ^_^
- baby cribs and playpens coz they are so colorful! >_<
- pashminas
- Yankees Hut's fried mushrooms
- sleep and beds
- TV Al-Hijrah coz I find a lot of their programs helpful and informative
- Upin & Ipin tv series- betul betul betul!!!
- plain water-cold or warm
- CHOCOLATES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- tummy rubs
- ironing and laundry
- spying on Georg and other cats
>.< I LOVE SHU!!!!!
Friday, September 07, 2012
Baby stuff survey and pre-shopping
It's been a strange transition overall. I have to suddenly get myself updated with all these things for maternity and nursing and baby care. I am slowly getting used to it. Slowly. Shu's sisters and my friends have been great help and a lot of people have been providing a lot of information based on experience and stuff.I just need to narrow down the important things first when the baby arrives. I know it's a bit early but you can never be too sure.I might accidentally miss some things out.
Well, yeah. Baby things are all so colorful and yummy looking. My mum has been keeping a lookout on playpens and strollers although,I don't think a stroller is necessary yet.A colleague of mine have been helpful about breastfeeding tips.A friend of mine gave me loads of info about being in confinement and things the baby will need.
I still can't believe I have a baby in my tummy and that I am going to be mom! O_o
Well, yeah. Baby things are all so colorful and yummy looking. My mum has been keeping a lookout on playpens and strollers although,I don't think a stroller is necessary yet.A colleague of mine have been helpful about breastfeeding tips.A friend of mine gave me loads of info about being in confinement and things the baby will need.
I still can't believe I have a baby in my tummy and that I am going to be mom! O_o
Wednesday, September 05, 2012
Husband
My husband and I have known eachother since we were 16.It's insane to think how far back that was looking at where we are now.I admit to being a pain in the ass. I was back then,I still am now although not as often (hopefully).He's always supportive of me no matter what I do but the best thing about him is that he is constantly steering me into the right direction (considerating the fact that I tend to get insane and make decisions in the spur of the moment).
Yes,we fought a lot in the last couple of years of being married and even before that.I would say most of our fights are over the tiniest things which I can hardly remember.Other times,we fight over things to make things better for the both of us.I am childish,I'll admit that.
He's been taking really good care of me especially now that I am pregnant and all.My parents told me that I would never find someone who would take care of me as much as he does.It's true.I can hardly take care of myself and I wouldn't know what I would do without him.
Honestly,I cannot imagine myself being married to anyone else.
Yes,we fought a lot in the last couple of years of being married and even before that.I would say most of our fights are over the tiniest things which I can hardly remember.Other times,we fight over things to make things better for the both of us.I am childish,I'll admit that.
He's been taking really good care of me especially now that I am pregnant and all.My parents told me that I would never find someone who would take care of me as much as he does.It's true.I can hardly take care of myself and I wouldn't know what I would do without him.
Honestly,I cannot imagine myself being married to anyone else.
Tuesday, September 04, 2012
Pregnancy and being pregnant
Before I discovered I was pregnant, I really thought I was probably putting on weight starting with my tummy area. It's usually flat unless I have gastrict or something. I just couldn't figure out why it was bulging out the way it did. It wasn't obvious but because I know my body so well, I knew that something was wrong. Luckily, I did a pregnancy test first before jumping into my running shoes or I could have lost the baby.
So yes,it just after our second year anniversary and I discovered I was pregnant.We were so psyched! I was partially freaking out.I still am.I wasn't sure what to expect.I wasn't sure what needed to be done.One thing I did realize was that I suddenly realize how badly I took care of myself health wise.I was thin not because I was healthy but because I was constantly neglecting my needs especially where food is concerned.I just wasn't big on eating and it wasn't something I was much interested in.
When I got into my first trimester, I was sick.My hormones were changing drastically and I was sick. I was constantly throwing up.I couldn't eat the food I used to like.Things which had the scents that I like made me so sick that I would throw up.I hardly use perfume anymore coz they make me sick.I hate the smell of that Ambi Pur we hang in our cupboards.I can't wear anything with the slightest smell of that.
Then,I got hospitalized several times due to dehydration from all the throwing up.My body wouldn't let me drink plain water.I couldn't eat pretty much anything.It was horrible.But throughout it all,I was constantly praying and hoping that my baby would be ok.And he was.In fact,he was jumping everytime we had an ultrasound scan.I was almost in tears when I first heard his heartbeat.He seems like a happy baby.I hope he is.
Now I am 16 weeks into my pregnancy.I am not throwing up as much as I used to although,my gastrict problem is still pretty severe.I have to constantly feed myself which is a bit hard to do.I have also been losing weight instead of putting on weight and because of that,my baby is about a week smaller than the size he ought to be.I'm trying to feed him and myself but it's just not that easy.My gastrict needs to be tamed in order for me to get my diet back on track.
So yes,it just after our second year anniversary and I discovered I was pregnant.We were so psyched! I was partially freaking out.I still am.I wasn't sure what to expect.I wasn't sure what needed to be done.One thing I did realize was that I suddenly realize how badly I took care of myself health wise.I was thin not because I was healthy but because I was constantly neglecting my needs especially where food is concerned.I just wasn't big on eating and it wasn't something I was much interested in.
When I got into my first trimester, I was sick.My hormones were changing drastically and I was sick. I was constantly throwing up.I couldn't eat the food I used to like.Things which had the scents that I like made me so sick that I would throw up.I hardly use perfume anymore coz they make me sick.I hate the smell of that Ambi Pur we hang in our cupboards.I can't wear anything with the slightest smell of that.
Then,I got hospitalized several times due to dehydration from all the throwing up.My body wouldn't let me drink plain water.I couldn't eat pretty much anything.It was horrible.But throughout it all,I was constantly praying and hoping that my baby would be ok.And he was.In fact,he was jumping everytime we had an ultrasound scan.I was almost in tears when I first heard his heartbeat.He seems like a happy baby.I hope he is.
Now I am 16 weeks into my pregnancy.I am not throwing up as much as I used to although,my gastrict problem is still pretty severe.I have to constantly feed myself which is a bit hard to do.I have also been losing weight instead of putting on weight and because of that,my baby is about a week smaller than the size he ought to be.I'm trying to feed him and myself but it's just not that easy.My gastrict needs to be tamed in order for me to get my diet back on track.
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