alibi

Shu freaked out when my mum called at about 7:30pm today.He was afraid if my dad really was angry at me for not coming home on time.I figured out a timeline that made sense and we just worked out on it in case my folks got upset.

Hahaha.........this is what we do.........manipulate situations.......hahahaha.........

The good news is that Shu's thesis is NOT due on Wednesday but he's gotta pass it up by Friday.
The bad news is his mum is in bad shape.Really3 sick.I hope she recovers soon.

here comes the sun..........

Aunty Gina's been diagnosed with cancer of the breast.She had a lump removed last month and the results to the diagnostic done onto the lump piece came back as cancerous.That would mean that she has to remove a huge portion of her chest.Apart from it costing so much,her family depends on her.

She takes care of her folks and she's got 3 kids to look after.Also,just before the surgery last month,she lost her job coz her boss is an asshole.Maybe it was written in the fine prints of the contract she signed when got the job but is cutting her some slack and giving her a few days (at least) off for medical reasons so much to ask?

I cannot imagine the pain she is going through right now.She is one of my mum's oldest closest friends here in TTDI.Her kids and my siblings and I are around the same age group.God,I wish I could help her..........

Oh yeah,at the same time,Aunty Intan shall be moving into an apartment somewhere in Bandar Seri Damansara.Farah is in the middle of buying a unit and she insists on paying for a place they own rather than paying rents.Aunty Intan isn't very happy about it but she's going with the flow anyways.........

less than a week

Suddenly,I feel as though time is passing by really fast.I have less than a week till Shu's folks come over to see mine and until then,I keep telling myself to just carry on with my daily activities and pretend that we'd all have enough time to prepare ourselves for what ever comes next eventhough I somehow have this feeling that we won't have enough time to prepare although we'd have about 6 more months to go.

Was asking my mum why was it so damn hard for me to write new songs these days.She said it's coz I am complete now so I'm not actually looking for anything anymore to write about.My sister,on the other hand said that maybe it's coz I'm not inspired anymore.Maybe she meant it's coz Shu and I practically see each other everyday.He lives here with me and my family for God's sake!

I don't think my disability to write is caused by being uninspired.Maybe I'm just trying to grasp things one at a time.I've been a little spaced out these days.It's kinda good to have some gap till my next paper.It just isn't my thing to wake up super late and not have any plans at all.Also,I am worried about Shu's final year project.Eventhough I am no engineering student,I could always help out with the field work ;)

Anyways.......every now and then,I'd fall back and think of what's really happening and how things are going to change from here onwards.Well,time changes everything but I'd never get over the fact that I'm not the only one whose life hasn't move since the break-up back when I was 17.We kept in touch but it wasn't the same.I never saw us getting this far.Hell,I didn't think we'd be on the same page on this!

How can I decide what's right.......

When you're clouding up my mind?
I can't win
You're losing sight
All the time
Not gonna ever own what's mine
When you're always taking sides
But you won't take away my pride
No, not this time
Not this time

How did we get here?
I used to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And it's hanging on your tongue
Just boiling in my blood
But you think that I can't see
What kind of man that you are
If you're a man at all
Well, I will figure this one out

On my own(I'm screaming, "I love you so")
On my own(My thoughts you can't decode)

Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves
Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves

There is something I see in you
It might kill me
I want it to be true

-ParamorE-

Anis was the one who introduced me to this band (Paramore) Now I can't get enough of 'em ^_^

been helping Shu finish up his EMS project last night

He and my dad and even one of Qarim's friend were up all night working on taking apart an adaptor and soldering wires and some wood work (for the mounting).The objective was to build a motor.I suck at trying to figure out which way is positive and which way is negative in creating a magnetic field :/ A lot of wires were stripped so we didn't have to buy much stuff.

Shu and my dad carried on working till 4am this morning.

driving

*sigh*

Eversince I've started driving,I realized that a lot of people on the road are either reckless or just a bunch of idiots when they got their license.I doubt if anything they read in the rule book is understood nor do they even know why it is crucial for people to understand the road rules.

Are people aware that every single mirror on the car has its purpose and that there is this called a 'blind spot'?Do people know that they'd have to first turn the signal light on and CLEAR THE ROAD before changing lanes while driving and not just switch lanes after a second of turning the signal light on?Are people aware of the existence of signal lights and that there is a use for it?

My late grandfather once told my mum that when we drive,we are actually driving everyone else as well.

How do we ensure that people who get a driver's license aren't idiots?

:)

Shu's dad called him up yesterday.He was in town.It was funny how he finally blurts out how freaked out he is about us getting married coz Shu just never bothered to talk to his dad properly about it.Last night,Shu stayed over at his sister's place in Bangi where his folks were at.He and his dad finally got to talking.

Now........Shu is freaking out about his folks meeting mine.Hahaha!All this while,it was me who was freaking out in case my mum (or my dad) would behave weird (coz they always had been and since my dad's been home,they sorta get a little bit too much for my brain to take)

?????

I realized that I would make the best yet most cruel ruler ever in the history of mankind.This is because I tend to list out the punishments I'd impose onto people who just cannot make use of justice in general.

For instance,to those who cannot get a job done properly and accepts bribe money at the same time would first be sacked and then be blacklisted for life so that the next job they'd get (if they ever get another job) would have a record of such crime commited by the person.So they'd probably live their lives on probation until the day they die.

Shu was telling me about some bigshot food company who was sued for not dumping their trash properly and polluted some river somewhere.Think about it,as it is,big shot companies get a whole lot more than anything anyone could ever get in a month.Punishing them by making them pay MYR20k would mean nothing to them.They should be put out of business for at least a month and let them learn (if they actually have such ability to do such a thing) from their mistake.

As far as I am concerned,smokers should be punished as murderers because secondary smokers suffer so much more than the smoker himself.Since smoking in public is taken very lightly (especially here where I live) I propose that all smokers should only smoke in a small room with absolutely NO ventilation so that these smokers would inhale the smoke they produce only because the particals of burnt tobacco is so small that it can hardly be filtered.Yes,those so called filters sold at pharmacies are actually bullshit.

*I still have doubts about smoking being makruh.I have a strange gut feeling telling me that it is actually haram in the teachings of Islam*

I really try hard to not think about how unfair it is for people who have passion to save the one and only planet we live on and yet,there are ignorant idiots destroying everything we work so hard to save.How shallow and self-centred can people be?And the worse part is that most of the time,people who do not deserve to be punished gets the worst torment from MotherNature.

*I am still smiling about wud happened at the recent F1 Sepang circuit race.It's as though Mother Earth's timing to react is so perfect*Yes,to those who condone to contributing to such pollution should be punished full force!

Long live Mother Nature!

at last!

isn't it ironic?

The media went all out about Earth Hour and at the same time promotes (macam giler) F1 at the Sepang Circuit.I mean,technology aside.Economy aside.It pollutes the Earth either ways.

I find it kinda sorta strange......don't you?

RadioEdit update!

Kamal-san called earlier today saying that Ayie's workplace has some acoustic thingy going on and he's booking a slot for us.KOOLNESS!!!!!I so need a break now!

sometimes........the only way out is the hardest path to follow.........

It's ok to cry.Sometimes,crying helps clear off the smoke from the frictions of anger you have accumulated over the years.Hopefully you can see and think clearer now.

I'll always be here for you cry out to.

I love you........

Sweep slides on my stereo

Short wave ’round my rodeo
Became from that of Savalon
But I’m flying to Istanbul
Oh so why don’t you meet me … there?
There is no nation of you
There is no nation of me
Our only nation lives in Lucid Dreams
Lucid Dreams I’m living in Lucid Dreams
I’m living on short based dreams tonight

-Franz Ferdinand-

auf achse

It seems like forever waiting for Franz Ferdinand's new album to be released (HERE specifically!!!!) I love their single Lucid Dreams and No You Girls.I still love watching them perform live.I just wish I could see them perform live (HERE specifically!!!!) I'd still watch their videos from Take Me Out to Matinee to Michael to Darts of Pleasure to Do You Want To to Walk Away to The Fallen to L. Wells to Wine In The Afternoon to Your Diary...........Eversince the forum where I'd got all the latest updates (and B-side/rare downloads) from got hacked into and eventually shut down,I've been at a complete lost.I want a fresh new slice of them Franzies!

insanely self-destructive beings

It's quite disappointing to know that a lot of people make such a big fuss about not wanting to be part of saving the earth and the environment but still wants a spot living on this very planet.At the very least,they should be thankful that there are things being done to reduce pollution and the destruction of earth.

People complain about the weather being super hot and that the weather is becoming unpredictably dangerous everyday when they aren't doing anything about it.Little messages on commercials like recycling or things we can do to help reduce pollution are more of reminders but most of the time,people choose to ignore these messages and carry on complaining.

Of course,these are the people whose minds cannot think further than themselves.People whose lives revolve around what they do and their comfort and stuff.Things like how the pollution we fail to stop or reduce causes bigger impacts on other beings like the polar bears losing icecaps for them to cling on on fishes die in the sea or rivers or even mutate becomes a problem for those whose source of food comes from the sea.

I often express my hatred for mankind which had lead me here.Not wanting to save the lives of human beings but instead,I would rather spend my time and effort on saving animals because the live by the code of nature.Human beings destroy.I have no guarantee that the human beings I can save would turn out to be people who care about mothernature.Human beings in general are selfish.

Having said that,I would have to extend my apologies to UNICEF for not being able to help them because I would rather help WWF or SPCA or PAWS.

a cat named Drac

He started off as an ordinary black cat who just happens to come by the house every now and then for food.Then,he decided to stick around for a little more that he's come to be so comfortable at home.He is very manja.Mum thinks that he probably had an owner once but was abandoned or something.That poor thing.He tends to get a little noisy sometimes when he's hungry but otherwise he's alright.Fei Mao loves him which is a sort of reason for us not to kick him out completely.

Once,he came back looking all beaten up.We thought he broke his front left leg but later,he recovered.Today,he came back looking so much worse.My dad freaked out that he told Shu,Ash and I to take him straight to the vet coz he thought Drac was going to die.He lives.The doctor gave him loads of meds to make him better.I got a little scared looking at him shaking in pain on the vet's table but after the jap,he looks so much more alive.

We have to keep him in the cage until he recovers.Hopefully,he hasn't got any fungal infections or anything.Apparently,it's contagious to humans.Hurmm........

perfect timing?

Maybe.......

Shu will be done with his exams once my finals begin.Shu's folks will be coming over on the last day of my examination.My senses tell me that things shall be moving fast forward then onwards.How fast?Not quite sure just yet.

Am I scared?Maybe.A little.I've never done this before.
Am I excited?Yes.Very.

I'll be starting a new life.My role as an individual shall change in many ways.For someone who hardly ever volunteers to take up any form of responsibilities at all,here I am taking up more responsibities than I can ever imagine.

There will be new challenges I shall have to come across and I have only prayers to help me get through them all.I want this and I am aware of the consequences and conditions which I shall be facing.It's not going to be easy and knowing me,always trying to find the easiest way out...........well......this isn't an easy way out.This is a decision.One that I made on my own.I hate making decisions on a daily basis and here I am calling the shots over the biggest decision I can ever make in my life.

Still,there are a few things I am not sure of.I have never planned a wedding before let alone MY own!I have no clue what hantarans are.I don't know what the significance in the number of dulangs are.I can't quite estimate the time needed for the preparations for which ever occassion comes first.The only thing that has already been finalized would be the guest list.It is LONG,that much I can say ;)

butterflies in my tummy

Got up this morning and the first text message I retrieved from my cellphone was from Shu saying that his folks are coming on the 17th of next month to see my folks.For a while,I thought it's April already.

It's strange how we've been having this conversation about us getting married and all.At first,the conversation was only between Shu and I.It was just us getting lost in eachother wanting to take this amazing thing we share one step further.Then,things became serious from the day he spoke to my father asking for my hand in marriage.Eventhough my mum was already planning for preparations and all,she said she wanted to wait till she comes back from the states when Shu's folks finally comes over to discuss what needs to be prepared and all.Now,they are finally coming and we are one step away from deciding when we can finally tie the knot.

Here's the thing,as much as I always oppose every little thing my mum's planned,I have no clue what the procedures are.I have no idea what needs to be done.I have no idea what to prepare.I'd speak to Shu and he'd explain to me what is what and why such things are required.My assignments are finally done and now,this is all that's left for me to think about (apart from revising for the finals of course) Shu once told me that he often wonders what it's like to anticipate the meeting of his folks with mine.Now,he knows...........
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Was late for campus this morning.Had to send my assignment to Dr. Wejdan's office coz it's about 2 weeks overdue.Thanks to Shu's nephew who not only speaks Arabic but has a string of contacts who are Arabic experts who helped me A LOT with my homework,I managed to get my work done and learn a thing or two at the same time.SUH-WEET!


Managed to stop by at Dr. Salim's office to see if he got my paper.I think he was asleep.Haha......


The first dude Shu and I bumped into this morning was Israr who asked out loud if I got up late for class or something.That was funny coz he asked about Shu and the moment I said "he's my fiance actually",he immediately held out his hand and said "oh,fiance!I'll have to shake hands with!" I think that sorta surprised Shu for a bit coz he's heard of Israr from me since we were and are classmates afterall.Haha!

I am currently worrie about Kecik.Something happened to his lower lip and I think he is in pain.Shu and I shall be taking him to the vet tomorrow after my Automotive Skills exam.Hopefully,Kecik will recover.Inspite of being still,he still has the cheek to chase,play around and eventually kill a baby mouse.That mouse was so cute and it was screeching in pain!BAD KECIK!

takoyakified!

Wah.........so nice lor to be able to just kick back a little and know that I don't really have to get up in the mornings as a routine anymore.I was beginning to feel a little sick of the semester halfway through coz I seriously hate routines and it's hard to get up when you haven't really slept properly the night before.Not to mention the backdated assignments and my health not being at its best.It sorta became suckier as the semester ended.I just hope I've learned enough to make it all worth the time and energy I've spent.

Foxburr-san belanja-ed me takoyaki a while ago.He's been wanting to take me there for weeks but we haven't actually had time to go.Finally we did and them takos are ever so yummy!

Oh yeah,the Panda's gear box jammed up AGAIN.It just got back from the workshop a few days ago.Luckily,we were already in TTDI when that happened.Still,it sucks to know that most of the time I spend with that car usually ends up with Shu and I waiting for my folks and a tow truck.

The presentation yesterday morning was funny.Before my groupmates arrived at the class,I was talking to Yunus.He said his groupmates ditched him so he did some analysis on his own.He didn't wanna present coz he said it would be embarassing to go up front and talk about something completely alien from the research carried out by groupmates.His turn finally came and he presented coz his groupmates gave him a paper with the parts he had to present.

Something funnier happened later after the class was over.My groupmates told me that Yunus was arguing with a girl outside the class.What happened was that he got offended by that girl coz she was laughing and talking to her friends as he was presenting.Of course it's rude but I didn't think he'd take it that far.Seriously,I think it sucks even more to be performing with my band on stage and there's absolutely not respond from the crowd.

Anywho,that wasn't really the event of the day.Shu found some stuff on the cellphone he's currently using (which is not his coz he lost his cellphone) that turned out to be quite disturbing.So disturbing that I didn't bother to see.He ended up deleting them all since it was such a disturbing experience to have seen such things.I shall not mention names but I'd like to ask this-WHY?! And of course........eeeeuwie!

I'd lie if I said I didn't study

But when it comes to these sort of things........I'd have to be doing the real thing than just reading it from paper..........and as my gut told me since last night,my task today was to set the engine valves.That meant either very low or no marks for me at all coz of all the practical classes I missed was that particular one and the last thing I could ever do even if my life depends on it would be reading and memorizing automotive tasks without looking at the engine.

Of course,theoretically,I would know that valves involves pistons and combustion but to set it and to somehow know what BDCT meant and still not able to convince my groupmates that we've been doing it all wrong is just a bit hard to believe.Doesn't matter,it's all done now.I'm just gonna have to study for the theory test next week.........same time,same place..........will be missing the workshop...... :/