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Friday, May 22, 2009

Bora Asmara@Sg. Penchala

Shu took me out for dinner tonight.I was thinking of somewhere quiet and nice and has the "candle-light-dinner" effect.The place was perfect.We had some pretty good food and there was a live band playing.They came to our table.We hung around a little longer till they finished playing a song for us.Shu's never been there.I'm glad we decided to have dinner there coz he loved the place.

We made it through a whole year this time around ^_^

Tomorrow,we shall both be attending the pre-marital course!

Thursday, May 21, 2009

I may still be mistaken for a teenager.......

but I know what I'm doing.

There 2 types of people that I'd usually come across in life.Some are people who would give me endless lectures about life only because they have gone through everything I could ever anticipate in life.Sometimes,they'd irritate me coz I always think that there are choices in life and the choices we make would take us to where we are.If we had gone down a different road,things would have turned out differently.So what these people tell me are only experiences from going down one path.Their lives would have turned out differently if they made a different choice.Still,I keep telling myself that these people are only concerned about what mistakes I could repeat.That's why they tell me what they tell me.

Another group of people would be people who would just tell me things which they have not (yet) experienced.They probably think I am under the impression that they know better when in fact,they too are still new to such circumstances.I wouldn't completely disregard their opinions or suggestions coz they could make sense.I just feel like sometimes,I think they should give it at least a year's worth of experience before telling me the things they tell me about the decisions I make.Even if they are older,that doesn't mean that they are wiser.These people too sometimes irritate me but not as much as the other group of people.

Things happen the way they happen because of the decisions you make.It would have turned out differently if you took a different road.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

little big plans






Been going around looking for what's good to use for decorations or themes.Lots of stuff seem useful now thanks to Little Big Planet ^_^ All I need to do now is submit a proposal and hopefully I won't get any form of rejections or anything.If any of such things occur,I shall have to break my head AGAIN for a new plan since I do NOT intend to abandon this current plan of mine!!!!!


Was killing time on Tuesday.Class was cancelled again.Shu and I were at our usual place for brunch in Bangi.We had too much time to kill so we ended up in Putrajaya for some unknown reason.Of course,I am not familiar with the place.We were paddling a tiny boat in the middle of the lake with the sun burning our heads off at noon!It was fun!Next time,we should get Kecik to come along.In case he jumps into the lake,we'll be sure to strap him up with a life jacket.

Took a look around the huge lake at Souq.Shu showed me the Palace of Justice.I'd say,we should go skateboarding there one of these days.The terrain is awesome.

*Shu has recently picked up on skateboarding.He's been skating.I have to recover properly before causing another major injury onto myself AGAIN.Planning to make that mountainboard dream of mine come true.Not anytime soon though.We have wakeboarding on our minds at the same time.......hurmm..........

Had brunch at Gasoline over in Sunway Pyramid today.Lurve that place!Especially the Asian Avenue! ^_^

Thursday, May 14, 2009

horribly amused by Mr Hammet :p

After not having any access to the internet (at home) for so long,it kinda feels weird to be here now.The wi-fi router was struck by lightning.Had to get a new one.Didn't know that the entire Streamyx database was reset.

*sigh*

Sarah had always called it Screamyx for a reason........such as......the non-existent operator for the customer service hotline.WTF is up with these people?Went over to the TM office TWICE and none of the receptionists understood what we told them.

Anywho,got it all sorted out and here I am now........online........

Been dealing with a whole lot of problems regarding relationships lately.Not mine.It doesn't even concern neither Shu nor I.That's the weird part.On one hand,there is my sister and her annoying neverending problem with being faithful.She came home one morning crying so badly over a break-up.The next thing I know,she's back together with her boyfriend.After everything she told me that morning,she just can't drop her bad habit.

Shu and I have been advising her and stuff.It's weird coz who would have thought my sister (or Eno!) would bother asking me for advice.If I remember correctly,one of them told me that I should keep my mouth shut when it comes to relationships coz I never had one.Hurmm.......maybe that's why.I wasn't involved in such things till now.

Apart from that,a friend of ours (well,not really a friend type of friend) but it's most likely someone we both know,have recently been up to something really3 suspicious.The thing is,we usually wouldn't give a damn about things like these if it doesn't involve us.This little situation does eventhough it is in an indirect way.Why can't people just be less complicated?Why must the problems of their relationship involve other people whom are not concerned with it?Why can't people just be faithful to one another so that we can all live in peace?

*sigh*

In the world of FidZy and Shu,we have sent our nikah clothings to the tailor.It should be ready by end of this month.We are trying to pick a weekend to go for the marriage course.Hopefully,we can get this all done soon and start a new life together by 2010 ;)

Monday, April 27, 2009

moving away plans

This isn't the first time we've gone through something like this.It hurts.It hurts the both of us.Hopefully,in the long run,we will remember this and hopefully it would help us strengthen what ever we have in the future.I never said this would be easy.We should start our life fresh somewhere at a place where no one can find us.

Obviously,not here............

This is goodbye..........

Sunday, April 26, 2009

longing for peace

Ever gotten up on the wrong side of the world and you don't really feel like yourself?That happened to me today.I wanted to do everything and nothing at the same time.That sucked coz I couldn't be myself anywhere.All of that ended after jamming tonight.Thank God for music!

Actually,music didn't really change anything.It just let me vent out all my energy so that I have nothing to waste my miseries on.

The thing about being the vocalist (especially during jamming sessions) is having to endure the smell of the microphones at the studio.It smells bad.Really really REALLY bad.Also,having to put up with lyrics and voice control along while making sure I'm playing the right chords with or without distortions.

I totally forgot a pre-chorus to a song we're so used to covering tonight.That was weird.Didn't get the chords mixed up so much though.That's good coz usually there tend to be a few times when I'm really REALLY messing up a song by playing the wrong chords and stuff.We tried playing Deep Purple's Highway Star and Kamal said we might cover that song.

The studio we jammed at tonight had some twinkle thingy at the drum set.Rashid kept including that sound in our songs and it ruined some of the feel to the songs we played.Towards the end of the jamming session,Shu tried making use of the keyboard and I freaked out coz I heard some strange sounds and I kept thinking that I was causing it.

It was fun but a little tiring coz the studio was in Subang.On our drive back,there was a traffic jam on that road at Kelana Jaya.A Rexton was seen lying on its back across the left lane.I have no idea WTF happened but it must have been driving at high speed or something coz the LDP is a straight road.So irritatingly straight that I cannot comprehend why a traffic jam can occur ever so often on that road.

Anywho,eversince Shu and I went bowling last week,we've been trying to get my brothers together for a game of bowling or something.Maybe we'll do that next weekend.We asked Kamal if he'd like to come along.He said he might.He said he's not good with sports involving the upper part of the body like pool or table soccer.Bowling included.He also said he'd like to try out rugby.Shu and I are very delighted to teach him.We're always short of people to play rugby with.

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Thursday, April 23, 2009

These tears I've cried

I've cried 1000 oceans..........

I am at the verge of going insane right now.My knee hurts.I cannot run much these days.Tried playing basketball with my brothers today and after showering when I got home,my knee hurts so much more.I'm back to wearing the support Shu got me yesterday.The funny thing is I have no idea what happened to it in the first place.

Anywho,followed Shu to class today since I'd die staying at home these days.It was short.The class was crowded.More people in there than the class I went into last semester.The class lasted for about 30 minutes.All the lecturer did was assign topics to each of the students.After Shu got his topic,we left.

We ended up at Sunway Pyramid.For some strange reason,we're usually either at the Asian Avenue and/or JCo Donuts when we are there.Had lunch at a newly discovered place today called Gasoline.It is very VERY anime+japanese.We sat on the floor.Had to take our shoes off and stuff.The surrounding is full of colorful walls filled with pictures or some anime pirates.The service and food was good.Shu's lamb had some curry leafs in it.My ice-blended chocolate was awesome.

Walked in and out of stores and I discovered that I lurve that costume shop full of costumes,props and trick packs.Initially,our plan was to get some afro wigs.One blonde and one black in color.Failing to find those,we ended up looking at some clown hats and some feathered wingss and finally,some awesome war helmets.I was so very tempted to splash a whole LOT of cash on that helicopter pilot helmet.White and shiney and pretty with a red star in the top middle of it.

Who calls on the mighty Dionysus?

Chair of the National Endowment? Winegrowers Association?

That was as much effort as I have ever put into anything pertaining school.......and stuff.........

I wonder if LinZy remembers this........

http://www.stagepage.info/oneactplayscripts/deus.html

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

When you feel all alone

And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold

When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head

When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day

'Cause there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breath again

-Savage Garden-

silliness:Bonnie & Clyde style

Shu called me up early this morning to tell me that he's already in TTDI.He was at his sister's place over at Wangsa Maju last night coz his folks were there.The plan was to pick me up and get some breakfast but since his driver's license had already expired (last week),he had to go renew it.We were supposed to get it done yesterday but since we were stuck in UNITEN,we didn't get around to the post office in time.

Mum threatened him that if he carries on driving around with me without a driver's license,she's not gonna let us go out ever again coz my insurance isn't gonna cover me should anything happen.Haha!

At the post office,we were the first customer coz it was so damn early in the morning.Funny,Shu took out his wallet and showed an already expired renewal slip and asked for his license to be renewed.The lady at the counter said that she can't help us unless he has his original driver's license.He took out every damn thing from his wallet but couldn't find his particular license.She asked him what the other documents were and they were all my "L" and "P" license.

After being told to make a report at JPJ in order to get his license renewed,he realized that his original license had been in my wallet all along.We turned back to the counter and got Shu's license renewed ^_^

Had breakfast and we managed to get some things done in time before Shu had to leave for class at 2pm.With permission granted,we decided to go out on a movie date today.He got back to TTDI in time to get me and headed straight for the cinema.Of all things to do,we just HAD to scare the shit out of ourselves by watching a Thai Horror film.

Anywho,I've been clumsy these days.Too clumsy.I have a bruise below my left knee.It hurts.I must have hit something.My right knee hurts like crap but I have no idea what happened to it.Yesterday,I accidentally hit my left thigh at a sharp end of a ocmputer table at the computer lab in UNITEN.That caused a little bump and bruise.I accidentally hit my right knee real hard at a wooden chair today just before leaving the house.Oh yeah,I also accidentally poked my eye with Shu's glasses last night.

I'm in pain but ignoring the fact that I am clumsy :p

by Avril Lavigne

There’s nothing I can say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me
All the pain the tears they cry
Still you never said goodbye and now I know how far you’d go
I know I let you down but its not like that now
This time I’ll never let you go
I will be all that you want and get my self together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make every thing OK
I thought that I had every thing I didn’t know what life could bring
But now I see honestly
You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe 'cause you're here with me
And if I let you down
I’ll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go
Cause without you I can’t sleep
I’m not gonna ever ever let you leave
You’re all I got
You’re all I want
And without you I don’t know what I’ll do
I could never ever live a day with out you
Hear with me do you see your all I need

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

secrets

We were at UNITEN this morning.Not as early as yesterday coz we selpt-in a little longer.We weren't really rushing for anything but we just had to get some stuff done.We were at the admin building coz Shu had to go see some academic officers about some stuff.

Meanwhile,I was trying to connect to the UNITEN student wi-fi.Failed coz I got Shu's matric number mixed up.So,I decided to take a walk outside since I was freezing cold.After a while,Shu finally came down to the lobby where I was looking at some awesome inventions by the UNITEN students.

We talked over lunch at ALAMANDA.Then,we did some bowling.I think we're gonna get my brothers together by end of this week and go bowling.Haven't done that in a while.Besides,I think it's so much better than having them stuck in front of the damn television playing the PS3.Apart from basketball in the mornings and afternoons,that's all they ever do in a day.

Anywho,Shu and I have been talking about a lot of things lately.Things pertaining both our lives.Things we cannot tell anyone of.Not even my mum.I worry about him a lot and I am constantly trying to help him sort things out.We have to get this over with and move away from here.Away from everyone.
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It's one thing to talk about things that has already been done.It's another to pass judgements.Especially if you are someone who is supposed to help.If you are just going to remind people of the mistakes they've made than I suppose you are a bigger idiot than I thought.We will make use of you to the fullest and walk away without even thanking you.

Monday, April 20, 2009

little taiwan

Got up really3 early this morning.Went to UNITEN with Shu coz he had to send his thesis copies and we had to be there before 8am.Went to the computer lab after that coz he had to register for the special semester.Failing to do that,we just hung around for a bit and at about 1pm,we decided to have lunch at that place we wanted to go to at One Utama called Little Taiwan.

The place has some awesome food.Not chinese food but it's a change.I accidentally ordered some spicy fish thingy which turned out to be SUPER spicy!That place is definitely where I'd go to get bubble milk tea or ice blended drinks from now on ;)

Sunday, April 19, 2009

the daily mishaps of Kecik

Kecik's luck has been pretty crappy these days.Lately,my folks have been killing flies like mad.There are flies everywhere and we have no idea where they come from.Instead of electricuting them to death with the low powered fly electricuter,my folks have changed their strategy to swapping them dead with rolled up papers and stuff.Recently,my dad finally got those sticky fly trap papers which actually works.......only,Kecik sometimes gets his nose stuck on them when he sniffs around.

Today,mum said that he accidentally got his nose stuck and then he freaked out and moved back and got his tail stuck onto another piece of sticky paper.Then,he started rolling around and making sounds and freaking out.The other cats just watched in horror coz they weren't really sure of what was happening but Kecik sounded really scared.I pity the little guy.Now,his tail looks a bit messy and there lumps of fur sticking on his body.He's got some of them sticky things on his moustache and face as well.

When Shu and I got home,we looked for Kecik and hugged him and helped him clean up his fur.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

he asked if anything should happen,would I still marry him.......

Yes,I would.And I shall happily join him in faking our deaths and start our lives fresh somewhere where we are unknown.I have always wanted to do that.Life,if routined is meaningless to me.What is life if there are so many things holding us back like chains keeping us like prisoners?

He said that his mum is happy to know that we are back together and she wants to see us get married.Well,we always say that the sooner we get this done the better.

Being paranoid,I cannot predict what the economic state would be like in the future.For now,I think 2009 is a good time to get married.I don't know what 2010 is like.Personally,I don't know how much longer we have till the world gives up on us all.

By the way,the good news we heard from his mum is that she does not have any symptoms of heart problems.The not so good news is that she pneumonia which means she has to get help from antibiotics.The only problem is,she is allergic to some medication so hopefully,the medication she is currently on is helping her get better.

Friday, April 17, 2009

for someone who loves taking my own sweet time

I sure do enjoy doing something better than nothing but the amount of reading I've been doing in the last 24 hours of my life really,almost drained the living crap outta me!Right now,I can't really tell what I'm doing.......hurmm.......I'd probably be joining Shu and his Zombie parade real soon.He hasn't slept all night doing his thesis.Woke him up after I showered this morning.He said he felt like he was floating all the way down when I was getting ready to leave for my exam this morning.I sure hope he finishes his work ASAP.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

movin'

Not me.Not yet.Aunty Intan shall be moving to an apartment in BSD soon.Farah decided to buy a place instead of just renting.Although Aunty Intan isn't very happy about it coz her friend's are all here in TTDI but it's probably the best thing to do.Kamal isn't very happy about having to pay for more tolls.

I know for sure that moving isn't as fun if it's somewhere you don't really wanna go.Packing is also a problem.Being my paranoid self,I don't like owning a lot of stuff coz I know that I'm gonna live my life moving from one place to another.I figured I should make sure I live my life on the go...........

Anywho,Shu and I were bobbing our heads to Franz Ferdinand music the whole day.After my paper,we headed back to TTDI coz he needed to find a place where he can bind his FYP thesis.Since the people at the shop in TTDI couldn't get it done on time,we were recommended to find a particular place over in section 17 PJ.The funny thing is that 2 people gave us directions which was supposed to lead us to one place but both of them got pretty messed up at telling us which way to go or where exactly it was.

We ended up going to this new place called Jaya One near the old matriculation center.We didn't find any printing shops there at all.We did see a cute little kitten which we tried to catch.It ran off.I was so kawaii coz it looked like a squirrel..........Well,the place is nice.Lots of places to eat and stuff.But since we were running out of time,we decided to not hang around and find that printing shop.We ended up at the old shophouses next to MCIIUM.

Then,we had to go get ink for the printer coz Shu's got a whole lot of printing to do so we went to One Utama.Had dinner there and then got home in time for Maghrib ;)

I am looking forward to some lepak session and our next acoustic performance.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

improvise

Kamal said that the acoustic performance will be postponed to next week.That would give us time to practise and work on our line-up.Which means,we MUST by all means have a band meeting THIS weekend.Playing along with us would be the band we met at the Rock The World audition-Phaser-and Adan's (Abang K'rol's brother) band.It would be really awesome to watch Phaser perform again coz they play rock 'n' roll and they rock.I've never seen (or heard) Adan's band perform but I heard they play some heavy stuff........the whole trashing the guitars to the amplifiers.

Anywho,in the meantime,Shu's mum is recovering.My folks and I decided to just postpone the family meeting on the 17th to the weekend or something until Shu's mum recovers.The doctors suspect that its a heart problem.Hopefully not coz Shu said she did the ECG once and there were no signs saying that she had any.Maybe her heartbeat was a bit low coz she wasn't eating and stuff.Hopefully she recovers fully.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

suimen no tsuki

Had dinner with my grandma and Qarim and my cousin Anas Bananas.I was falling asleep every other second.Qarim was being himself while Anas and my grandma did what they do best-talk.Most of the time,I don't like listening to my grandma coz she tends to go overboard with her jokes which aren't funny and might just offend other parties.

Tonight,I decided to just go with the flow.I found out quite a lot of things about my late grandpa (my grandma's 1st husband) The sorta thing that makes me wonder if my mum or my aunt knew about. My grandma told us the story of her eldest sister.How she came to be the way she is now.

I was told that she saw her husband and her kids getting shot in front of her during the Japanese occupation.That's not quite how it all went down.She got married twice coz her first husband was accused of being a traitor and got shot.Her second husband died and she was found under a bridge all covered in mud and slugs and she didn't recognize anyone at all.Not even her sisters or her mum.She's still alive.She's just not living in the present time.

My family history (from my mother's side) has a number of not-very-convincing point of view towards men.They betray.They hurt the women in my family.It's always the ladies who has to get everything done.In fact,it kinda happens in my dad's family as well.My sister and I are the only 2 girls in my family.I'm weaker than my sister.Even though she'd get heartbroken at times,she'd cry and then get over it and move on.I'll always try to be there for her whenever she does.

Also,I found out tonight that my cousin got kicked out from his dad's house back when he was 13.He called my grandma in the middle of the night asking her to come get him down the road from his house.Strange how I never knew about that.I personally never liked my aunt's ex husband that much but I never knew he'd do that to his own son.

My grandma spent the entire time advising all of us which I find quite comforting coz she'd just trying to look out for all of us.She's been through a lot.I kinda feel bad for not being nice to her at times..........