moving away plans

This isn't the first time we've gone through something like this.It hurts.It hurts the both of us.Hopefully,in the long run,we will remember this and hopefully it would help us strengthen what ever we have in the future.I never said this would be easy.We should start our life fresh somewhere at a place where no one can find us.

Obviously,not here............

This is goodbye..........

longing for peace

Ever gotten up on the wrong side of the world and you don't really feel like yourself?That happened to me today.I wanted to do everything and nothing at the same time.That sucked coz I couldn't be myself anywhere.All of that ended after jamming tonight.Thank God for music!

Actually,music didn't really change anything.It just let me vent out all my energy so that I have nothing to waste my miseries on.

The thing about being the vocalist (especially during jamming sessions) is having to endure the smell of the microphones at the studio.It smells bad.Really really REALLY bad.Also,having to put up with lyrics and voice control along while making sure I'm playing the right chords with or without distortions.

I totally forgot a pre-chorus to a song we're so used to covering tonight.That was weird.Didn't get the chords mixed up so much though.That's good coz usually there tend to be a few times when I'm really REALLY messing up a song by playing the wrong chords and stuff.We tried playing Deep Purple's Highway Star and Kamal said we might cover that song.

The studio we jammed at tonight had some twinkle thingy at the drum set.Rashid kept including that sound in our songs and it ruined some of the feel to the songs we played.Towards the end of the jamming session,Shu tried making use of the keyboard and I freaked out coz I heard some strange sounds and I kept thinking that I was causing it.

It was fun but a little tiring coz the studio was in Subang.On our drive back,there was a traffic jam on that road at Kelana Jaya.A Rexton was seen lying on its back across the left lane.I have no idea WTF happened but it must have been driving at high speed or something coz the LDP is a straight road.So irritatingly straight that I cannot comprehend why a traffic jam can occur ever so often on that road.

Anywho,eversince Shu and I went bowling last week,we've been trying to get my brothers together for a game of bowling or something.Maybe we'll do that next weekend.We asked Kamal if he'd like to come along.He said he might.He said he's not good with sports involving the upper part of the body like pool or table soccer.Bowling included.He also said he'd like to try out rugby.Shu and I are very delighted to teach him.We're always short of people to play rugby with.

These tears I've cried

I've cried 1000 oceans..........

I am at the verge of going insane right now.My knee hurts.I cannot run much these days.Tried playing basketball with my brothers today and after showering when I got home,my knee hurts so much more.I'm back to wearing the support Shu got me yesterday.The funny thing is I have no idea what happened to it in the first place.

Anywho,followed Shu to class today since I'd die staying at home these days.It was short.The class was crowded.More people in there than the class I went into last semester.The class lasted for about 30 minutes.All the lecturer did was assign topics to each of the students.After Shu got his topic,we left.

We ended up at Sunway Pyramid.For some strange reason,we're usually either at the Asian Avenue and/or JCo Donuts when we are there.Had lunch at a newly discovered place today called Gasoline.It is very VERY anime+japanese.We sat on the floor.Had to take our shoes off and stuff.The surrounding is full of colorful walls filled with pictures or some anime pirates.The service and food was good.Shu's lamb had some curry leafs in it.My ice-blended chocolate was awesome.

Walked in and out of stores and I discovered that I lurve that costume shop full of costumes,props and trick packs.Initially,our plan was to get some afro wigs.One blonde and one black in color.Failing to find those,we ended up looking at some clown hats and some feathered wingss and finally,some awesome war helmets.I was so very tempted to splash a whole LOT of cash on that helicopter pilot helmet.White and shiney and pretty with a red star in the top middle of it.

Who calls on the mighty Dionysus?

Chair of the National Endowment? Winegrowers Association?

That was as much effort as I have ever put into anything pertaining school.......and stuff.........

I wonder if LinZy remembers this........

http://www.stagepage.info/oneactplayscripts/deus.html

When you feel all alone

And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold

When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head

When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day

'Cause there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breath again

-Savage Garden-

silliness:Bonnie & Clyde style

Shu called me up early this morning to tell me that he's already in TTDI.He was at his sister's place over at Wangsa Maju last night coz his folks were there.The plan was to pick me up and get some breakfast but since his driver's license had already expired (last week),he had to go renew it.We were supposed to get it done yesterday but since we were stuck in UNITEN,we didn't get around to the post office in time.

Mum threatened him that if he carries on driving around with me without a driver's license,she's not gonna let us go out ever again coz my insurance isn't gonna cover me should anything happen.Haha!

At the post office,we were the first customer coz it was so damn early in the morning.Funny,Shu took out his wallet and showed an already expired renewal slip and asked for his license to be renewed.The lady at the counter said that she can't help us unless he has his original driver's license.He took out every damn thing from his wallet but couldn't find his particular license.She asked him what the other documents were and they were all my "L" and "P" license.

After being told to make a report at JPJ in order to get his license renewed,he realized that his original license had been in my wallet all along.We turned back to the counter and got Shu's license renewed ^_^

Had breakfast and we managed to get some things done in time before Shu had to leave for class at 2pm.With permission granted,we decided to go out on a movie date today.He got back to TTDI in time to get me and headed straight for the cinema.Of all things to do,we just HAD to scare the shit out of ourselves by watching a Thai Horror film.

Anywho,I've been clumsy these days.Too clumsy.I have a bruise below my left knee.It hurts.I must have hit something.My right knee hurts like crap but I have no idea what happened to it.Yesterday,I accidentally hit my left thigh at a sharp end of a ocmputer table at the computer lab in UNITEN.That caused a little bump and bruise.I accidentally hit my right knee real hard at a wooden chair today just before leaving the house.Oh yeah,I also accidentally poked my eye with Shu's glasses last night.

I'm in pain but ignoring the fact that I am clumsy :p

by Avril Lavigne

There’s nothing I can say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me
All the pain the tears they cry
Still you never said goodbye and now I know how far you’d go
I know I let you down but its not like that now
This time I’ll never let you go
I will be all that you want and get my self together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make every thing OK
I thought that I had every thing I didn’t know what life could bring
But now I see honestly
You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe 'cause you're here with me
And if I let you down
I’ll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go
Cause without you I can’t sleep
I’m not gonna ever ever let you leave
You’re all I got
You’re all I want
And without you I don’t know what I’ll do
I could never ever live a day with out you
Hear with me do you see your all I need

secrets

We were at UNITEN this morning.Not as early as yesterday coz we selpt-in a little longer.We weren't really rushing for anything but we just had to get some stuff done.We were at the admin building coz Shu had to go see some academic officers about some stuff.

Meanwhile,I was trying to connect to the UNITEN student wi-fi.Failed coz I got Shu's matric number mixed up.So,I decided to take a walk outside since I was freezing cold.After a while,Shu finally came down to the lobby where I was looking at some awesome inventions by the UNITEN students.

We talked over lunch at ALAMANDA.Then,we did some bowling.I think we're gonna get my brothers together by end of this week and go bowling.Haven't done that in a while.Besides,I think it's so much better than having them stuck in front of the damn television playing the PS3.Apart from basketball in the mornings and afternoons,that's all they ever do in a day.

Anywho,Shu and I have been talking about a lot of things lately.Things pertaining both our lives.Things we cannot tell anyone of.Not even my mum.I worry about him a lot and I am constantly trying to help him sort things out.We have to get this over with and move away from here.Away from everyone.
----------(@)----------
It's one thing to talk about things that has already been done.It's another to pass judgements.Especially if you are someone who is supposed to help.If you are just going to remind people of the mistakes they've made than I suppose you are a bigger idiot than I thought.We will make use of you to the fullest and walk away without even thanking you.

little taiwan

Got up really3 early this morning.Went to UNITEN with Shu coz he had to send his thesis copies and we had to be there before 8am.Went to the computer lab after that coz he had to register for the special semester.Failing to do that,we just hung around for a bit and at about 1pm,we decided to have lunch at that place we wanted to go to at One Utama called Little Taiwan.

The place has some awesome food.Not chinese food but it's a change.I accidentally ordered some spicy fish thingy which turned out to be SUPER spicy!That place is definitely where I'd go to get bubble milk tea or ice blended drinks from now on ;)

the daily mishaps of Kecik

Kecik's luck has been pretty crappy these days.Lately,my folks have been killing flies like mad.There are flies everywhere and we have no idea where they come from.Instead of electricuting them to death with the low powered fly electricuter,my folks have changed their strategy to swapping them dead with rolled up papers and stuff.Recently,my dad finally got those sticky fly trap papers which actually works.......only,Kecik sometimes gets his nose stuck on them when he sniffs around.

Today,mum said that he accidentally got his nose stuck and then he freaked out and moved back and got his tail stuck onto another piece of sticky paper.Then,he started rolling around and making sounds and freaking out.The other cats just watched in horror coz they weren't really sure of what was happening but Kecik sounded really scared.I pity the little guy.Now,his tail looks a bit messy and there lumps of fur sticking on his body.He's got some of them sticky things on his moustache and face as well.

When Shu and I got home,we looked for Kecik and hugged him and helped him clean up his fur.

he asked if anything should happen,would I still marry him.......

Yes,I would.And I shall happily join him in faking our deaths and start our lives fresh somewhere where we are unknown.I have always wanted to do that.Life,if routined is meaningless to me.What is life if there are so many things holding us back like chains keeping us like prisoners?

He said that his mum is happy to know that we are back together and she wants to see us get married.Well,we always say that the sooner we get this done the better.

Being paranoid,I cannot predict what the economic state would be like in the future.For now,I think 2009 is a good time to get married.I don't know what 2010 is like.Personally,I don't know how much longer we have till the world gives up on us all.

By the way,the good news we heard from his mum is that she does not have any symptoms of heart problems.The not so good news is that she pneumonia which means she has to get help from antibiotics.The only problem is,she is allergic to some medication so hopefully,the medication she is currently on is helping her get better.

for someone who loves taking my own sweet time

I sure do enjoy doing something better than nothing but the amount of reading I've been doing in the last 24 hours of my life really,almost drained the living crap outta me!Right now,I can't really tell what I'm doing.......hurmm.......I'd probably be joining Shu and his Zombie parade real soon.He hasn't slept all night doing his thesis.Woke him up after I showered this morning.He said he felt like he was floating all the way down when I was getting ready to leave for my exam this morning.I sure hope he finishes his work ASAP.

movin'

Not me.Not yet.Aunty Intan shall be moving to an apartment in BSD soon.Farah decided to buy a place instead of just renting.Although Aunty Intan isn't very happy about it coz her friend's are all here in TTDI but it's probably the best thing to do.Kamal isn't very happy about having to pay for more tolls.

I know for sure that moving isn't as fun if it's somewhere you don't really wanna go.Packing is also a problem.Being my paranoid self,I don't like owning a lot of stuff coz I know that I'm gonna live my life moving from one place to another.I figured I should make sure I live my life on the go...........

Anywho,Shu and I were bobbing our heads to Franz Ferdinand music the whole day.After my paper,we headed back to TTDI coz he needed to find a place where he can bind his FYP thesis.Since the people at the shop in TTDI couldn't get it done on time,we were recommended to find a particular place over in section 17 PJ.The funny thing is that 2 people gave us directions which was supposed to lead us to one place but both of them got pretty messed up at telling us which way to go or where exactly it was.

We ended up going to this new place called Jaya One near the old matriculation center.We didn't find any printing shops there at all.We did see a cute little kitten which we tried to catch.It ran off.I was so kawaii coz it looked like a squirrel..........Well,the place is nice.Lots of places to eat and stuff.But since we were running out of time,we decided to not hang around and find that printing shop.We ended up at the old shophouses next to MCIIUM.

Then,we had to go get ink for the printer coz Shu's got a whole lot of printing to do so we went to One Utama.Had dinner there and then got home in time for Maghrib ;)

I am looking forward to some lepak session and our next acoustic performance.

improvise

Kamal said that the acoustic performance will be postponed to next week.That would give us time to practise and work on our line-up.Which means,we MUST by all means have a band meeting THIS weekend.Playing along with us would be the band we met at the Rock The World audition-Phaser-and Adan's (Abang K'rol's brother) band.It would be really awesome to watch Phaser perform again coz they play rock 'n' roll and they rock.I've never seen (or heard) Adan's band perform but I heard they play some heavy stuff........the whole trashing the guitars to the amplifiers.

Anywho,in the meantime,Shu's mum is recovering.My folks and I decided to just postpone the family meeting on the 17th to the weekend or something until Shu's mum recovers.The doctors suspect that its a heart problem.Hopefully not coz Shu said she did the ECG once and there were no signs saying that she had any.Maybe her heartbeat was a bit low coz she wasn't eating and stuff.Hopefully she recovers fully.

suimen no tsuki

Had dinner with my grandma and Qarim and my cousin Anas Bananas.I was falling asleep every other second.Qarim was being himself while Anas and my grandma did what they do best-talk.Most of the time,I don't like listening to my grandma coz she tends to go overboard with her jokes which aren't funny and might just offend other parties.

Tonight,I decided to just go with the flow.I found out quite a lot of things about my late grandpa (my grandma's 1st husband) The sorta thing that makes me wonder if my mum or my aunt knew about. My grandma told us the story of her eldest sister.How she came to be the way she is now.

I was told that she saw her husband and her kids getting shot in front of her during the Japanese occupation.That's not quite how it all went down.She got married twice coz her first husband was accused of being a traitor and got shot.Her second husband died and she was found under a bridge all covered in mud and slugs and she didn't recognize anyone at all.Not even her sisters or her mum.She's still alive.She's just not living in the present time.

My family history (from my mother's side) has a number of not-very-convincing point of view towards men.They betray.They hurt the women in my family.It's always the ladies who has to get everything done.In fact,it kinda happens in my dad's family as well.My sister and I are the only 2 girls in my family.I'm weaker than my sister.Even though she'd get heartbroken at times,she'd cry and then get over it and move on.I'll always try to be there for her whenever she does.

Also,I found out tonight that my cousin got kicked out from his dad's house back when he was 13.He called my grandma in the middle of the night asking her to come get him down the road from his house.Strange how I never knew about that.I personally never liked my aunt's ex husband that much but I never knew he'd do that to his own son.

My grandma spent the entire time advising all of us which I find quite comforting coz she'd just trying to look out for all of us.She's been through a lot.I kinda feel bad for not being nice to her at times..........

I'm ok

Rashid told me that there were a couple of dudes at the park where we'd play basketball at with some weapons threatening kids and taking their cellphones last week.It would so totally suck to know that its not safe to go there anymore.I'd usually walk alone there on days when Shu is away.

There's about 2 tiny roads which I'd have to take to get to the park.Eventhough there are houses on both sides,it gets a little too quiet at times.I'm always thinking that I'm just passing through and I don't have any cash on me at all.Those muggers would either take my cellphone (or what's left of it) or kill me.I'd usually walk real fast when I pass those areas.I'm a bit stoned (or stoned looking) most of the time,so chances are people might mistake me for a muggler.

Ash called me out of the blues telling me that he just got up from sleep and that he had a dream that I got into an accident.The first thing he asked me was if I was ok.I was blur at the time.Didn't get much sleep in the morning since Shu called which was about 7am.Also,I was starving and cold.But I was (and insyallah) will be alright ;)

Shu's gone to Terengganu to check on his mum.She's been really sick.I hope she recovers soon.I hope it's not anything major.

I haven't been well myself.Apart from losing my appetite every now and then,I keep getting nauseous and sick once in a while.It's either when I get up from bed or while I'm praying.I've been taking the iron pills which I've been prescribed to but mum says I need a whole lot of potassium.The first thing that came to mind when she mentioned potassium was bananas!

the world is coming to an end

My dad saw a flock of birds pass by.He said they looked like storks.That's weird.I know there's loads of 'em around the campus area but not here.My mum suspects that the birds are migrating.Maybe something's about to happen.Who knows.We've caused the earth too much pain that it responds by giving us unpredictable weather and "natural" disasters.If anything happens right now,I don't blame nature one bit.

Shu took me for late lunch at Village View today......

It's in Bangi.We were at UNITEN for a bit.Shu had to see some people about some stuff coz all his contacts have gone missing eversince he lost his phone.Since I've been in a white rice+either thai or chinese dishes these days,Shu took me to a place called Village View.I love the place.......well,the ambience is uber kool.The food is yummylicious.It was raining when we got there so it was kinda cold.I bet the place would be an awesome place to hang around at night ^_^

A few days ago,we stopped by at a restaurant alongside the KJ mainroad on the way back from Bangi.Not quite sure what the place is called but the food there is pretty good.White rice dishes of course.We've been having early dinners over at Vicchuda last week.New places would make a good change for us ;)

alibi

Shu freaked out when my mum called at about 7:30pm today.He was afraid if my dad really was angry at me for not coming home on time.I figured out a timeline that made sense and we just worked out on it in case my folks got upset.

Hahaha.........this is what we do.........manipulate situations.......hahahaha.........

The good news is that Shu's thesis is NOT due on Wednesday but he's gotta pass it up by Friday.
The bad news is his mum is in bad shape.Really3 sick.I hope she recovers soon.

here comes the sun..........

Aunty Gina's been diagnosed with cancer of the breast.She had a lump removed last month and the results to the diagnostic done onto the lump piece came back as cancerous.That would mean that she has to remove a huge portion of her chest.Apart from it costing so much,her family depends on her.

She takes care of her folks and she's got 3 kids to look after.Also,just before the surgery last month,she lost her job coz her boss is an asshole.Maybe it was written in the fine prints of the contract she signed when got the job but is cutting her some slack and giving her a few days (at least) off for medical reasons so much to ask?

I cannot imagine the pain she is going through right now.She is one of my mum's oldest closest friends here in TTDI.Her kids and my siblings and I are around the same age group.God,I wish I could help her..........

Oh yeah,at the same time,Aunty Intan shall be moving into an apartment somewhere in Bandar Seri Damansara.Farah is in the middle of buying a unit and she insists on paying for a place they own rather than paying rents.Aunty Intan isn't very happy about it but she's going with the flow anyways.........

less than a week

Suddenly,I feel as though time is passing by really fast.I have less than a week till Shu's folks come over to see mine and until then,I keep telling myself to just carry on with my daily activities and pretend that we'd all have enough time to prepare ourselves for what ever comes next eventhough I somehow have this feeling that we won't have enough time to prepare although we'd have about 6 more months to go.

Was asking my mum why was it so damn hard for me to write new songs these days.She said it's coz I am complete now so I'm not actually looking for anything anymore to write about.My sister,on the other hand said that maybe it's coz I'm not inspired anymore.Maybe she meant it's coz Shu and I practically see each other everyday.He lives here with me and my family for God's sake!

I don't think my disability to write is caused by being uninspired.Maybe I'm just trying to grasp things one at a time.I've been a little spaced out these days.It's kinda good to have some gap till my next paper.It just isn't my thing to wake up super late and not have any plans at all.Also,I am worried about Shu's final year project.Eventhough I am no engineering student,I could always help out with the field work ;)

Anyways.......every now and then,I'd fall back and think of what's really happening and how things are going to change from here onwards.Well,time changes everything but I'd never get over the fact that I'm not the only one whose life hasn't move since the break-up back when I was 17.We kept in touch but it wasn't the same.I never saw us getting this far.Hell,I didn't think we'd be on the same page on this!

How can I decide what's right.......

When you're clouding up my mind?
I can't win
You're losing sight
All the time
Not gonna ever own what's mine
When you're always taking sides
But you won't take away my pride
No, not this time
Not this time

How did we get here?
I used to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And it's hanging on your tongue
Just boiling in my blood
But you think that I can't see
What kind of man that you are
If you're a man at all
Well, I will figure this one out

On my own(I'm screaming, "I love you so")
On my own(My thoughts you can't decode)

Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves
Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves

There is something I see in you
It might kill me
I want it to be true

-ParamorE-

Anis was the one who introduced me to this band (Paramore) Now I can't get enough of 'em ^_^

been helping Shu finish up his EMS project last night

He and my dad and even one of Qarim's friend were up all night working on taking apart an adaptor and soldering wires and some wood work (for the mounting).The objective was to build a motor.I suck at trying to figure out which way is positive and which way is negative in creating a magnetic field :/ A lot of wires were stripped so we didn't have to buy much stuff.

Shu and my dad carried on working till 4am this morning.

driving

*sigh*

Eversince I've started driving,I realized that a lot of people on the road are either reckless or just a bunch of idiots when they got their license.I doubt if anything they read in the rule book is understood nor do they even know why it is crucial for people to understand the road rules.

Are people aware that every single mirror on the car has its purpose and that there is this called a 'blind spot'?Do people know that they'd have to first turn the signal light on and CLEAR THE ROAD before changing lanes while driving and not just switch lanes after a second of turning the signal light on?Are people aware of the existence of signal lights and that there is a use for it?

My late grandfather once told my mum that when we drive,we are actually driving everyone else as well.

How do we ensure that people who get a driver's license aren't idiots?

:)

Shu's dad called him up yesterday.He was in town.It was funny how he finally blurts out how freaked out he is about us getting married coz Shu just never bothered to talk to his dad properly about it.Last night,Shu stayed over at his sister's place in Bangi where his folks were at.He and his dad finally got to talking.

Now........Shu is freaking out about his folks meeting mine.Hahaha!All this while,it was me who was freaking out in case my mum (or my dad) would behave weird (coz they always had been and since my dad's been home,they sorta get a little bit too much for my brain to take)

?????

I realized that I would make the best yet most cruel ruler ever in the history of mankind.This is because I tend to list out the punishments I'd impose onto people who just cannot make use of justice in general.

For instance,to those who cannot get a job done properly and accepts bribe money at the same time would first be sacked and then be blacklisted for life so that the next job they'd get (if they ever get another job) would have a record of such crime commited by the person.So they'd probably live their lives on probation until the day they die.

Shu was telling me about some bigshot food company who was sued for not dumping their trash properly and polluted some river somewhere.Think about it,as it is,big shot companies get a whole lot more than anything anyone could ever get in a month.Punishing them by making them pay MYR20k would mean nothing to them.They should be put out of business for at least a month and let them learn (if they actually have such ability to do such a thing) from their mistake.

As far as I am concerned,smokers should be punished as murderers because secondary smokers suffer so much more than the smoker himself.Since smoking in public is taken very lightly (especially here where I live) I propose that all smokers should only smoke in a small room with absolutely NO ventilation so that these smokers would inhale the smoke they produce only because the particals of burnt tobacco is so small that it can hardly be filtered.Yes,those so called filters sold at pharmacies are actually bullshit.

*I still have doubts about smoking being makruh.I have a strange gut feeling telling me that it is actually haram in the teachings of Islam*

I really try hard to not think about how unfair it is for people who have passion to save the one and only planet we live on and yet,there are ignorant idiots destroying everything we work so hard to save.How shallow and self-centred can people be?And the worse part is that most of the time,people who do not deserve to be punished gets the worst torment from MotherNature.

*I am still smiling about wud happened at the recent F1 Sepang circuit race.It's as though Mother Earth's timing to react is so perfect*Yes,to those who condone to contributing to such pollution should be punished full force!

Long live Mother Nature!

at last!

isn't it ironic?

The media went all out about Earth Hour and at the same time promotes (macam giler) F1 at the Sepang Circuit.I mean,technology aside.Economy aside.It pollutes the Earth either ways.

I find it kinda sorta strange......don't you?

RadioEdit update!

Kamal-san called earlier today saying that Ayie's workplace has some acoustic thingy going on and he's booking a slot for us.KOOLNESS!!!!!I so need a break now!

sometimes........the only way out is the hardest path to follow.........

It's ok to cry.Sometimes,crying helps clear off the smoke from the frictions of anger you have accumulated over the years.Hopefully you can see and think clearer now.

I'll always be here for you cry out to.

I love you........

Sweep slides on my stereo

Short wave ’round my rodeo
Became from that of Savalon
But I’m flying to Istanbul
Oh so why don’t you meet me … there?
There is no nation of you
There is no nation of me
Our only nation lives in Lucid Dreams
Lucid Dreams I’m living in Lucid Dreams
I’m living on short based dreams tonight

-Franz Ferdinand-

auf achse

It seems like forever waiting for Franz Ferdinand's new album to be released (HERE specifically!!!!) I love their single Lucid Dreams and No You Girls.I still love watching them perform live.I just wish I could see them perform live (HERE specifically!!!!) I'd still watch their videos from Take Me Out to Matinee to Michael to Darts of Pleasure to Do You Want To to Walk Away to The Fallen to L. Wells to Wine In The Afternoon to Your Diary...........Eversince the forum where I'd got all the latest updates (and B-side/rare downloads) from got hacked into and eventually shut down,I've been at a complete lost.I want a fresh new slice of them Franzies!

insanely self-destructive beings

It's quite disappointing to know that a lot of people make such a big fuss about not wanting to be part of saving the earth and the environment but still wants a spot living on this very planet.At the very least,they should be thankful that there are things being done to reduce pollution and the destruction of earth.

People complain about the weather being super hot and that the weather is becoming unpredictably dangerous everyday when they aren't doing anything about it.Little messages on commercials like recycling or things we can do to help reduce pollution are more of reminders but most of the time,people choose to ignore these messages and carry on complaining.

Of course,these are the people whose minds cannot think further than themselves.People whose lives revolve around what they do and their comfort and stuff.Things like how the pollution we fail to stop or reduce causes bigger impacts on other beings like the polar bears losing icecaps for them to cling on on fishes die in the sea or rivers or even mutate becomes a problem for those whose source of food comes from the sea.

I often express my hatred for mankind which had lead me here.Not wanting to save the lives of human beings but instead,I would rather spend my time and effort on saving animals because the live by the code of nature.Human beings destroy.I have no guarantee that the human beings I can save would turn out to be people who care about mothernature.Human beings in general are selfish.

Having said that,I would have to extend my apologies to UNICEF for not being able to help them because I would rather help WWF or SPCA or PAWS.