resolved!

I am always telling people to do what they believe in and if they end up doing things they don't like,they should stop doing it only coz other people tell them to do so.Ironically,things never turned out that way with me.I was shoved into doing shit I hated for years and the worst (or best) part is that I survived.I did it.

I hated school and I wanted to be home schooled but such things cannot be done.Not here.Not in this country.So I was shoved into school.Spent 11 years there and thought that when I was done with the major exams when I was 17,I was done with school.I was wrong.I was very wrong.

Shit loads of things headed my way after that.The university I shoved into wasn't somewhere I wanted to be at all.I wasn't given much choice.I was threatened to either do it or I was gonna get kicked out.I almost did quit halfway through but I couldn't risk not being able to play with my band.The only way I could do what I love most in the entire world (jamming & making music) was for me to endure the degree program.

I really was on the verge of suicide AGAIN.Managed to pull myself right out of it and here I am now.Happily out of the God-Forsaken place I hated so very much.

SO........I can't really tell people shit like "if you don't like doing it,then you might as well drop everything and leave before it's too late" coz I am the living proof of having to go through such things in my life.

I'mma surviver,muthafuckas!

Because I have survived such hell in my life,I've decided to give myself a break by just doing what ever I want now ;) Let's start with getting into a fashion school...........

major issues

I am going to say this and I am going to be really honest about it.

I really am not up for working.I've been sending in job applications only because I have to.I'm not up for a routine life.Not yet.

As boring as it may seem,I really lurve waking up super late in the mornings (afternoons) and not knowing what's gonna happen.Not knowing where I'm gonna end up at the end of the day.Not knowing what I'll be doing.

It's not like I've given up on my band.Not completely.I just cannot find my bandmates (Kamal & Ayie)

I cannot wait for 2010 coz I am getting a bit sick of so many people swarming the malls.Even on weekdays!WTF?!

I really wanna go on a holiday away from the city.

I was just telling Shu that I may not want to stay in KL.I am not a city person.I'm not a people person.

I wanna find a place where I can just take my time to do what ever it is I want and I want to feel happy and comfortable being where I'll be with the people (and animals) I love ^_^

Omaticaya of Pandora:The Na'vi

*This is a spoiler for the movie Avatar by Cameron.Please do NOT proceed reading this is you have not watched the movie!*

I really thought the movie was so much better than Disney's Princess and the Frog.Seriously,I have seen loads more of Disney's previous original animated films which were so much better with songs you'd actually wanna sing-a-long to long after the movie is over..........

*sigh*

Anywho.........

I was so overwhelmed by the movie Avatar!Seriously,when I first saw the trailer months and months ago,I didn't think I'd wanna bother watching the movie.I am ever so glad I did!And Azim was right,we should have gone for the 3D .Like seriously,the entire movie was made for a 3D release!The cinematography of course.........

Let's put aside the very base of the movie which is the theme coz like most other movies we've seen eversince the 9/11 incident,this movie was also about the invasion of a foreign country and it's complete with the killing of the a great leader alongside the destruction of innocent people's homes...........

I thought the whole idea of the creature's connection with one another through bio-chemistry was interesting.Like these Omaticaya have some sort of thingy at the end of their braided hair which is used to connect to any creature they wish to get onto as mode of transportation like a usb port or somesort which they call tsaháylu.

*Yes,I know!!!!!A new language!Yey!!!!!*

The creatures in general (on Pandora) were somewhat strange but mostly looks as though they are based on the creatures which are currently present.The colorful and glowy part of them are most probably inspired from the deep sea creatures which glows in the dark depths of the ocean.

Having been a Star Trek (TNG) fan,I think the whole idea of being able to get into a machine which helps transfer yourself into another body (psychologically) was something I never saw coming.Avatar is most commonly understood as a representation of one's self when being in other realms like the internet......or something.It just never occurred to me that the avatar they were talking about regarding the movie was exactly that.

*I know.....talk about ultimate slowness!*

I think the part that totally (almost) made me cry was when the Omaticayas saw their home (the Hometree) burned down to the grounds.They were literally crying the way we'd see war victims cry on TV after an attack on their homes.

*This is when I wanna start talking about how human beings are destructive creatures*

Seriously,what's wrong with living with Mother Nature?

Ok,here's the part where I'm just gonna spill the entire movie plot.........

The entire movie was about homosapiens attacking the Omaticaya over some mineral source which happens to be UNDER their Hometree.SO....the only way they can get their hands on those things which costs zillions is by driving out the natives.Sounds familiar?Uh-uh......from the history of Native Americans to the Afghanistan war.Well,in Disney's Pocahontas as well <---my all time fav movie! ^_^

Bottom line is I am most likely to TRY to get my ass into one of them 3D cinemas to watch this movie AGAIN!Doubt that I'd get in especially this weekend.

not listening,nope,na'ah

I hear..........sounds........sometimes buzzing.......sometimes squeeking..........white noise.........hurmm........

I just figured that I tend to just stop listening to a person if he/she has a certain voice tone that completely shuts my brain down.I'd end up listening to only 50% to what they're saying.......maybe less........

out and about

Had one of those late night lepak session at the mamak with my sister my 3 brothers.It was fun.Haven't done that in a long while.I was telling a story about a movie and after I was about 80% done,Rashid asked me if I had seen the movie.Aiyo!

We had a hard time laughing out loud in the car coz we were talking about horrible subtitles in English movies and surprisingly,Azim and Qarim came out with some of the worst I have ever heard.

Oh yeah!Qarim so came clean about his new girlfriend.Nevermind the fact that she looks like a goodie two shoes (in the picture on his cellphone),I was more worried if she was one of those freakos like that girl he liked before back in his school.Well,from what he's told us,the girl ain't that type of person.That's good.Coz I'd be worried if she can't lay back and hang with us.AND......she's a Scorpio.Haha!

My sister just realized that she's become this boring person from all the books she's been reading.Like right now,she's reading a book about the Russian cold war.WTF?!I have a strange feeling that all her years of debating has something to do with it.Oh well........

While Azim is busy shuffling with jumpstarts and stuff,Rashid just got himself a white shirt today coz he said his band is going for a mafia image and he's gotta wear a white shirt with suspenders!I actually picked up this nice one for him but he insisted on getting a black one :/

Yes,we all agree that Snow Bear is somewhat human :p

Christmas shopping!

Yey!

My dad drove my mum,my sister and I to the mall today.He dropped us off outside and left.My brothers came in a car.All 3 of them.The plan was to do what ever shopping and then have brunch or early dinner and then go home.

My sister and I spent a whole lot of time at the Clinique booth talking to the promoter about my sister's face skin condition.Strange.I thought she just started using H2O about 3 weeks ago.Anywho,she was torn between trying out Biotherm or Clinique.Finally,I told her about the reviews I read and heard about Clinique's 3 step skin care system and she decided to give it a go in the end.Haha!

I am so NOT the type to use moisturizers and toners which is an ultimate faux pas in skin care but I don't care.I have a facial cleanser and that's it.Ok,here is a sin I commit when it comes to skin and make up.I admit that I'd wash my face with a cleanser and then pat it dry and head straight for the primer :p

Well,here's the thing.I do not use foundation coz I'd usually just use pressed powder or something.I always ALWAYS ALWAYS splurge on eye make up.I cannot make sense of the liquid eyeliner so it usually ends up being the thing I'd use to draw on my face.Hahahahaha!!!!!

Ahem!

I finally got the Schwarzkopf Bonacure Moisture Kick spray on conditioner I've been looking for.I got the 200ml bottle ^_^ SUH-WEET!

For wanting ice cream today,I was pushed to going home with my brothers in the car they came in.That wasn't such a big deal.The big deal was that the car was parked all the way at the underground hotel parking space.Getting there took us quite some time coz the elevator we were supposed to take was not fully functional AND there were shitloads of people waiting for it.

SO..........my brothers and I decided to ditch the elevator and headed for the stairs which did not exist.SO.......we had to walk into the hotel area and got into a hotel elevator and headed down to the concourse and then get into another elevator down to the basement car park.Getting out from the car park was a whole different story.

Well,that was pretty much what happened during our trip to the mall today minus the part that the place was not as clustered as I thought it would have been,I'd say it was a pretty good trip ;)

I really lurve the Color Shop.I did my hair there once.I think if I ever have to get a haircut or hair wash I'd just head over there.The dude who sold me the conditioner asked if I wanted to get a haircut.I told him I'd come back for one if everything else fails (regarding my hair and all I have done to it)

in major need

I need new shades of eye shadows.Maybe some shimmery ones.Something other brown!The only reason I use loads of brown is coz my eye color is brown :/ I don't even use black eye liners.I have shit loads of problems when it comes to using liquid or gel eye liners.I am still LEARNING to use the make up brushes I have.AND.........I don't have a blusher!Yey!

Honestly,I don't quite use THAT much make up.I like eye make up loads but that's it.I have never even owned a lipstick!Hah!

Right now,I am in the state of mind to sell off my things (what ever it is I have that I no longer use) I can't work with too many things (owned items) SO........I'mma be selling them all off real soon.I'm constantly getting rid of clothes coz I really don't use all of them.I'd wear t-shirts till they look really awful and too painful to be seen on me :D<---that usually drives my dad insane.

I think SnowBear cut his paw.It was dripping blood when I picked him up togo for a drive tonight.Shu tried to clean it up but the little guy kept screaming and screaming like we were gonna kill him! :/ Then again,he's always been like that even when we just gonna put some eye drops into his eyes.Oh well........

It's weird how I feel like I'm on a holiday when I really should be getting a job but I just can't be bothered and I'm just happy to be helping Shu out with his business :p

*Can't help it,love.I love hanging out with youuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >.<*

And I like doing happy dances ^_^

42!

Spent the last couple of days in UNITEN.I was supposed to help Shu set up his booth and sell stuff but I ended up selling a whole lot of my books instead.For dirt cheap only coz I shall be moving AGAIN so I do not intend to carry shit loads of things especially heavy stuff.I managed to clear out loads of my books PLUS I managed to sell off the cooling pad and mouse I got free with the laptop the other day ^_^

It's been tiring but really fun coz I was mingling with different types of kids selling different things and stuff.There were some girls selling customizable stuff like necklaces and charm bracelets and stuff.I saw some really neat tops too but I never got to go over and check them out coz only Shu and I were at the booth and I really wouldn't wanna go around alone :(

There was this one kid from the booth opposite ours who came back and forth.It started with my FFX Kotobukiya Lulu resin statue.Only people whom are aware of how much she's worth would take a closer look and not be surprised at the price I was selling her/it for (which I think is really cheap looking at the trouble and amount of cash it cost me) but of course,no one bought it anyways coz it was selling at a very high price ;)

*psst......in a way........I kinda think I like her still so I ain't gonna let her go that easily :p*

People kept asking us if the Super Mario brothers hats we had on were for sale but we disappointed a whole lot of them by telling them to head over to Giffy themselves to get it<---been promoting Giffy a lot these days.

One dude came to our booth to get some books and Shu mentioned something about ABRSM and music and stuff and he(the dude) started telling us about his kids and the musical instruments he had at home.The next thing we know,he wanted Shu's card coz his company organizes a lot of functions and my band might be able to get some gig slots some day ;)

Just before packing up,the project manager of the entire event walked up to Shu and started talking to him about some business opportunities where he can expand his business and increase sales.That is good news.He will arrange a meeting with Shu sometime next week to discuss business.Yey!

twist and shout

Everytime I try do a happy dance,the happy song changes from time to time.Strange.........I really lurve Cornman by Kinky.I also lurve The Go! Team's Get It Together and some random Hip Hop song...........or something.I dig Punjabi MC a lot.Haha!

But......for 2009,my ultimate HAPPY DANCE looks like this........

Complete with my Super Mario hat and my dad's shoe horn thingys ^_^

The FidZy Chronicles:Getting A Real Job

Dang!

Never thought I'd get this far in life!To think that I wanted to end my life at the age of 17!I've gone way past that,duncha think?

I'm having fun.Not trying to make it up a career ladder or anything.Not yet.I'm still sticking to Alex Kapranos' words and having fun while I'm at it ;)

Fun.The one word I can never get rid of.Not from the list of words I'm adding up to my ever growing vocabulary.Not from any part of my life.

I just wish I could tell a lot more people I meet to just chill and lighten up a bit.

Ah well........I am missing the jamming studio and rocking out in a band.Haven't been writing songs in a long while.The last thing I was working on was the EP Songs about Kecik which I was working on with Shu but never got around to arrange properly.

What I want right now is a bottle of Schwarzkopf Bonacure Moisture Kick Conditioner spray!Yup yup! ^_^ I am so lurvin the hair dryer styler!

OMG!

I so got up super late today! (yesterday) I think when I finally got UP up it was around 2:30pm-ish.THAT'S REALLY3 LATE!The last time I got up around that time was when I was sick.SHIT!

I've been getting lightheaded a lot these days and I have no idea why.I eat.At least once a day I do.I haven't gotten around to checking my blood pressure though.

My aunt just got back from her break and she got us all goodies.Us girls/ladies mostly.Haha!She's been shopping at Clark's (which is the place I have been going back and forth to looking at shoes!) but she DIDN'T get us shoes of course.Well.......she got my mum a pair of shoes.She got us all bags!Hand bags!Yey!Now,I don't have to go out looking for one anymore ^_^

Let's see......since my day was really short,I didn't get around to doing much.Shu and I had tea out somewhere nearby only coz we needed to get out.

Oh!I've been having dreams about Bedah in the last couple of days.No idea why.Strange isn't it?Haha!

waka waka waka!

After last night's curious case of random dance routine invention,I just realized that I have the entire lyrics to Celine Dion's Because You Love Me engraved into my head.I was driving Rashidinsky Petropavlosk and Shu nuts with my awful off-key screams in the car while singing along to the radio.

Shu and I had to meet up with my sister earlier this morning.The meeting was so secret that my mum got annoyed trying to figure out why the hell we were all the way in Subang so early in the day.The thing is,she didn't know that our discreet meeting took place in Sunway Pyramid instead.Let's just say my sister did Shu and I a huge favor and Shu promised to pay her for it ;)

Had brunch with Anas Bananas since he called in sick for work today.Funny.I could have sworn that the tee he had on belonged to either Shu,Rashid or me.Hurmm........

Then,Shu and I headed off.We made a quick stop at my aunty's place.I was playing with the cat (Oreo) and the 2 kittens.Watched some TV and then we went off to Putrajaya.

P.S. : Is it just me or is Bedah and Fei Mao starting to look alike these days.It sounds impossible since one is a rodent and the other is a feline.Still.........they seem to have a lot more similarities as the days go by.

back to blow drying

Today's record is by far the most times I have ever gone back and forth to the mall in less than 12 hours.Well,I was woken up by my mum coz she told Shu and I that she was going for a movie trip with my dad and my 2 brothers so we'd better find something to do coz they were gonna lock up the house.I had to get ready in a hurry (something I really3 hate doing)

I drove Shu to the mall where we supposed to get his company logo stamp done.We tried doing some modifying coz there were too many details in our design and it might clog up the rubber stamp if the size if inappropriate.That would seriously suck!

I was going around looking for something to protect my hair before I start styling it again.Came across something by Tony and Guy AND I got myself a new hair styler!I figured it's the fastest way to get my hair dried and sorted out properly.......so that it won't look so unruly and frizzy.

I really hate sales girls (or guys) who'd follow you really close when you are browsing for things in a shop coz I'd get so annoyed and irritated and it really disrupts my concentration.And I especially HATE it when they ask you in tones which you can't really make out what they are saying and then they give you this annoyed look.HELL-O?!It's not my fault that you cannot speak properly!Coz maybe if you spoke clearly I would have at least understood what you were saying!!!

Anyways.........Snow Bear totally surprised all of us last night.Shu,my mum and I were in the lounge watching some TV and suddenly,I felt something moving at my legs (I was sitting on the floor).I was totally spooked out.I looked down and found Bedah trying to find her way around.It turns out that Snow Bear managed to get her out from her little home WITHOUT having to take the lid off and he brought her (Bedah) to me and then,he walked off.

This kitten is very strange.He does the strangest things.Things which you'd never think anyone would do especially cats!

Well,I'll be off to designing again......or rather.....RE-designing ;)

P.S. :- I found my dad's shoe horns and discovered a new way of making use of those things.I invented a new dance move with them! ^_^ I'll try to get a better video of my new dance move and post it up real soon :p

territory:Shah Alam

I was in the area today coz I had some stuff to do so Shu and I decided to make our trip worth while.We went to every inch of the place hopping from one mall to another.For business purposes,of course.

It's funny how I used to live there when I was little and the most unforgettable memory I have of the old house I lived in was being chased by a hen when I was 4.My neighbor behind our house used to have chickens and sometimes they'd come downhill into our territory.I was walking outside one afternoon and I think the hen freaked out thinking that I was after one of her chicks that she chased me all the way into the house.That was not the best thing to remember.

Anywho,I've gotten all my paper work ready on my behalf.I'm just sitting to play the waiting game.Knowing me,I just can't sit around and do nothing.SO........I've decided to continue working on the company logo and stuff ^_^ It's good therapy and helps me past time.

Toodles!

drivin'

Got up early this morning just to get to mall in time before the weekend crowd hits in.Shu needed to get his business card ready coz it's already been a week and almost every other person we've met has been asking for a card and hasn't got one.SO,we finally got around to get it all printed out.

With that out of the way,we only have one little thing left to do.Getting a rubber stamp designed and ready.I've spent the last couple of days designing a company logo and I got Shu to look at them.Now,all he's gotta do is narrow it all down to one design and make that a finalized decision to represent his company.

In meantime,I just thought of getting myself into more mess by looking up for part time courses in fashion designing.Shu thinks if that's what my instincts tell me to do and I should just go for it.I'm gonna give it a couple of days till I can sober up my mind.

We actually made some quick stops at some shops before heading home for Zuhur prayers.After that,we headed over to KLCC for the KL International Batik fair.Surprisingly,the turn up wasn't as I expected.I anticipated a whole lot of people but there were hardly anyone (visitors/customers) there when we got there.Maybe we were a little late.Still,I've been to Comic Fiestas in the last couple of years with turn ups more than what I saw there today.

Anywho,we managed to peek around and ask questions regarding things we needed to know and we learned a whole lot of things from the world of Batik printing and Songket making.It was awesome.

written on one of the electrical appliances box

Function: flare-out, the hair curling, protecting strengthen a color, messenger hair lustre light is beautiful, curled hair is natural.

Characteristic: handle the simplicity, litre of temperature quickly, the automation constant temperature, safe energy conservation, handle nice, hermetic sealing degree is good, make a guest especially comfortable.

Usage: insert the attachment plug into 220V~ power source, power source guiding light lights, wait will can be put into use, one minute, is put into use being finished, dumps after the queen who cools down naturally can store just now.

DO NOT TURN INTO BATHROOM

MODE SS-767

TEMP 200 C

POWER 25W

VOLTAGE AC220V

FREQ 50Hz

Image,One Utama

Hahahahaha!

Everyone looked at the tiny hair straightener I just got and thought 'WTF?What do you need this for?'Simple.To straighten my hair.Duh!

Growing up,I had always gone out on a limb for my hair.Well,ok.I started going to the hair salon when I was really little.The people at the hair salon I've been going to in TTDI had known me since I was about 6 years old.I remember my school days when I'd wake up super early just to get my hair washed and dried so that I can get it all tied up on time :p

Anywho,both Shu and I were super exhausted from yesterday's trip all over the place.We got up at almost noon.Managed to cut another deal today.

I'm still feeling a bit dizzy and tired.No idea why.

Oh yeah,Kecik is not the only orange cat in the neighborhood which has problems with other orange cats.He seems to get into fights with cats of the same color.And the other day,I heard some cats fight in the back of the house.It turns out that Kecik's twin (rival) was fighting with the other fat old orange cat.It was so funny coz they all have the same shade of orange.Only tiny differences like bushy tail or fatness :/

Ghost aka Snow Bear was taken into Kak Yah's custody earlier today and he was given a bath.He is by far the noisiest cat during bath time that's currently living in the house.It was funny coz out of nowhere,Kecik appeared at home just to see what was up with Snow Bear.

no money,no talk,no deal

Hah!What a way to do business.WTF am I selling anyways?DRUGS?!

Far from it!

Haha!

But seriously,I won't take crappy deal makers.All talk no cash people are seriously NOT the kind of people I'd like to talk business with :p

I may not get paid for this but at least I'm doing my job.

Shu and I got up early again this morning.This time,our destination began in KL.We were at Conlay road to get more heads up from Kraftangan Malaysia.That was quite a visit.I lurve the building!I cannot imagine if Shu were to work there coz he'd have to wear a batik shirt EVERYDAY!Hahahaha!!!!!!

Anywho,after that,Shu decided to pay a little visit to Kapas.I have issues with the dude who runs the place coz of something he said to us back when mum first took me there.

*WHAT MAKES HIM THINK THAT HIS OPINIONS ARE SO AWESOME JUST COZ HE'S A DESIGNER?!*

Shu managed to leave his number there just in case the people there are interested in cutting a deal.

We headed over to KLCC after that to check out the KL International Batik convention which starts tomorrow.Shu was supposed to meet someone there whose in the business for sometime.Funny.He doesn't look comfortable talking to that lady.He kept telling me he hates that woman.I personally think she looks scary.But that's just my perception.

I decided to splurge on some stuff from MAC coz I've been wanting to go there for the longest time and I finally did and I know that I have cash saved up for things like that.WOAH!SO AWESOME!The things I splurged on are so WORTH THE CASH!

We then headed over to Putrajaya to get Shu's IC.The stupid chip on the damn thing is such a pain in the ass!I hope this would be Shu's last visit to the immigration center ever!He already had to get his IC replaced once for the same reason.I wonder how long this new one is gonna last.

Then,we made a quick stop over at Azura's place to drop off some things and left.

MarviN version 3.0

Wah!It's so good to finally have my own laptop again.Of course,it's not the same as the one I had but this one is way more advanced.And.......it's WHITE!SUH-WEET!Thanks to Shu,of course whose been wanting to get me a laptop since forever.

*DOMO ARIGATOU,Foxburr-san!*

I almost busted my feet with those new pair of shoes I got the other day.That kinda slowed my walking around but I survived.

Got up 30 minutes later than scheduled this morning but Shu and I managed to get to Bangi in time to send some stocks.Then,we headed over to Putrajaya to get his MyKad problem sorted out.Oh yeah,we also managed to send some stocks over to KLIUC for a bit.

Spent the rest of the day at the shopping mall.We were just supposed to hang around but then,instead of just asking the computer shop where Shu got his last mother board from about his computer related problem,we ended up having a long talk with this dude at a different computer store which ended up with us purchasing a laptop.

It's so cute! ^_^

Kecik the gangster kampung is back.It's strange how he's been picking fights with cats that are also orange in color.Ghost aka Snow Bear still has this fascination with the drain hole in the kitchen :/

shoppin'!

Shu got back this morning.He insisted on driving me around all day.We were in UiTM Shah Alam in the morning-ish.I was supposed to go see my aunt and stuff.Then,we headed over to the mall coz I was looking for a pair of shoes.As usual,the ones I want are already out of stock.SO.......I had to do the inevitable.I had to look for another brand.AAAARGH!At first,I thought it was gonna take me forever but then,after hopping from one shop to another,I finally found a pair which has a similar design only so much higher heels.SUH-WEET!

Shu insisted on getting me this awesome working jacket which totally makes me look like a secret agent or something.I so lurve it!

*THANX BABY! ^_^*

We spent the rest of the afternoon at the banks back in TTDI coz there were some problems with Shu's MyKad chip which was so annoying coz that stupid thing cannot last and now every single transaction depends on it.WTF?!

Anywho,Shu and I have decided to just let Kecik free from the cone collar.He was so happy.......well,that was until his ultimate similar looking rival decided to pay him a visit IN THE HOUSE!That caused quite a commotion.We managed to chase that cat out but Kecik had a hard time cooling himself down that he accidentally took it out on Snow Bear.The poor guy ended up sitting alone in the lounge.Fei Mao was upstairs in my room.The only place she's happy to be in.

me want now!

I am not up for working.Not yet.I haven't looked for a job.Not going to.Not anytime soon.

I just wanna lepak and shop.

I wanna do art all day.

I wanna go travel some place else.

I'm too bored to not do anything but I'm too malas to work now :p

babysitting

Funny.Considering the fact that I don't even have a baby.I do but he's obviously not a homosapien.Hah!

Kecik is just a few days away from having that cone collar removed from his neck.I'm just making sure that he's comfy so I'm always trying to do what he wants like giving him a scratch at spots he can't reach on his body.Giving him a good chin rub till he falls asleep.I even let him sleep in my room these days.I just want him to know that we're not doing this to hurt him.I don't care if he hates the vet but I hope he knows that we (Shu and I and even my folks and Kak Yah) are doing the best we can in trying to show him some love.

Ghost aka Snow Bear is altogether another problem.He's too smart for a kitten and it can sometimes annoy me.He's good at opening lids and doors with his paws.He doesn't even have fingers!How the hell does he do such things?!I was afraid if he'd fall into that hole in the kitchen.Its actually a drain hole like the ones in showers where there's a lid on it.Snow Bear is tiny enough to get himself sucked into one of those.

Bedah has shown signs of madness today.More than usual.I caught her biting the metal pipe on her water bottle several times.I have put every damn biteable thing in her home.What more does she need?!

Gemok and my sister were doing the usual cat communication in the room yesterday and then out of nowhere,there was a third mewing coming from the window.It was that cute grey cat whose usually downstairs behind the house asking for food.She lurves my window and she was actually talking to Gemok.That was pretty funny!

Shu's folks stopped by at my house this morning.They had some light breakfast and talked about a few things with my folks and then they left for Terengganu.Shu had gone with them to get a car and some stocks.He should be back by Sunday.I hope they'll all get home safely with the flood and all :/

I know I should be looking for a job now but.........

It's been sometime since Shu and I went out to just lepak.Ok,I know,we always do it but the last couple of days felt so long.It feels like I've been super sick and he's been going back and forth about his business.Today was just plain and simple.We walked around the mall(s) and sat down for cake and some drinks and then carried on walking around again.Managed to get the eye liner in the color I want.I feel pretty much 70% recovered.

Shu drove Kecik to the vet this morning.I was sick and still in bed.He said Kecik had some part of his flesh cut off.He said Kecik was in so much pain that he was literally screaming.I'm glad I wasn't there.I couldn't have been able to hold up.After that,Shu came home waited for me to get up and he took me to the clinic.The doctor took a look at me and I am so thankful that it's nothing serious.I really cannot get myself quarantined again.That would totally suck!

I still don't feel safe being in my room eventhough my dad has gotten the window fixed.I go to bed with a bokken at my side.I have trouble leaving things like my engagement ring and my wallet and cellphone lying around.I don't trust anyone I don't know in TTDI.Especially those so called security home guards.WTF?!Those people are supposed to keep this place safe la konon.Blah la!I feel like they just made this place a whole lot worse.

Yeah,there used to be robberies and break-ins but I think the statistics and hiked up a whole lot eversince these strangers invaded our housing area.They'd go on bikes all around TTDI kononnyer nak tengok2 but I seriously think they are the informers to the people who'd do the dirty work.I know I am being judgmental but I've lived here for about 18 years now and I DEFINITELY know WTF goes on over the years here in TTDI.

I want those people to leave TTDI!

how to tell people to shut the hell up

We can't.It just won't happen.People are sensitive beings and they only think about themselves when they say something.They won't bother about considering how you would feel.And the other thing I've learned about these creatures (people) is that they would always say negative things about you no matter how well you do in life.They always want to say that they are doing better.How could you measure better when you don't even like or care about what they do?

I like doing what ever it is I do.I make decisions when I am sober and if I make a mistake,it is going to be my mistake.Not anyone else's.People also like telling you things that doesn't matter much to you.How do I tell them that I don't care and that they are wasting their time?

So yeah,I have no clue how to tell people to shut the hell up regardless if it is because I do not care about what they are talking about or it's because I don't wanna hear what they have to say.So,I'd say the best thing to do is to avoid them at all causes.That way,we not only save time and energy but save ourselves from going through another one of those boring whatever talks.

hunting for a new laptop......again.......

It's weird how I am not so upset about my laptop getting stolen.I'm just upset that someone broke into our house.I have serious issues about private territories being violated by strangers.Worse,I really hate it when people mess around with my things!

I'mma be on my way to looking for a new laptop (although I really3 lurved mine so I might just get something exactly the same) At the same time,Shu's sister wants the same laptop as the one I lost so we'd probably end up getting 2 laptops.Maybe 3 coz Shu is gonna need a laptop as soon as his business takes off.

I am coming down with a fever.I think.I can't go on looking at what the doctor does to Kecik everytime we go to the vet to get his stitches cleaned.The wound is deep and it looks like Kecik was in an awful lot of pain.Today,Shu followed me to the vet and helped hold down Kecik on the examination table.I couldn't look at Kecik.He was mewing in pain.

My other problem is finding the time to get Ghost aka Snowbear aka Snobe vaccinated.My sister thinks I'm too paranoid about my cats that I am splurging cash on them like their lives depend on it.Actually,it kinda is.Still,my sister told me to stop worrying about the cats and I am having a hard time trying.

I am looking for time to draw or sketch which would probably be possible AFTER I clean up my room which most probably happens day after tomorrow.

I'm just glad that Shu is home.