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rant

How would you justify the shit I am in right now..........no wait, the shit I deal with and have been dealing for over a year?

I have been dealing with this shit and it is high time I put my foot down. If I had it my way,I would have had them both fired. Sure,we'll be a bit shorthanded but haven't we been this way all this while? What difference would it make anyways?

Firstly,I would propose the idea of getting of the both of them. Then,I would recommend solutions.This would mean,I would either need to suggest new members or find ways to dealing with the short-handedness.

When I say too many variables makes things complicated,this is what I meant.I'm not saying quantity is not a good thing.If the quantity can ensure productivity and progress,it is most definitely a good thing.Seriously,in the reality of it all this is highly unlikely.

I personally do NOT recommend hiring students because they are unreliable.ENTIRELY.

I am currently dealing with 4 students right now and I seriously do NOT want them in the team.

I suggest that we get rid of them once and for all and hire people who may not have skills YET but at the very least shows up for work.

It's all about the attitude.

funny purring sounds

Georg and Pebbles have been getting it on a little too much these days. They have been driving us insane. Us, the people they live with. Us, the only 2 human beings in this house!

AAAAARGH!

I didn't think mating season would be so difficult to deal with!

There's fur all over the place! The make a whole lot of noise! Sometimes to the extent of us not being able to fall asleep AT ALL!

I sure hope the neighbors won't start complaining or both of them kittehs will have to hit the road!

either pregnant or just fat

I have this bump on my tummy. I don't know if its a baby bump or just fat that I cannot get rid of. I have my usual ways to get rid of tummy indigestion but this is something else. I have also been craving for things I usually wouldn't eat. I can't sleep properly at night.

The worst part is that the test kits still shows negative.

the big P

Shu and I have been trying to get me pregnant. No luck so far. I want a baby boy named Yusuf.
Shu wants a baby girl...........or boy........Either ways..........we have names already....
I tested negative again.
Will keep trying.

My Avril Tribute: Her vidz I love over the years

Complicated

Sk8er Boi

I'm With You

Mobile

My Happy Ending

He Wasn't

The Best Damn Thing

Hurmm.........I guess I really don't like her newer vidz and songs.

Been a fan since she first came out. Still a fan but only of her songs. Not all her vidz are as they used to be.

I still sing her songs. All of them.

Winning Eleven on the Ps3

Shu switches games from time to time but this game is the funniest I've seen him play so far. I'm not a soccer fan but he is so annoyed when he is right in front of the goal and misses the shot.

Oh well......

I've been super sick. It sucks to be coughing like this especially during an interview. It just sucks to coughing so badly when it makes it hard for you to breathe. It sucks to be waking up in the middle of the night to just cough about 15 minutes straight and then try so hard to fall back asleep.

I am getting rid of my tonsils once and for all.

So long tonsils! You are irreparable and have caused me so much pain and suffering. It is time for you to be gone for good.

5610

My husband is a genius. I couldn't have come up with that for a car registration number.

There is a first time for everything. This is our first car.

We didn't even think of getting of all the cars but we did ^_^

I love it! <3

Today's visit to Honda Sg. Buloh was a memorable visit. I'll never forget this day!

^__^

my dad

My dad called my cellphone and called Shu's phone but it was either we were asleep or we were cooking at the time so we didn't pick up. Thinking that there was an emergency, I called him back after maghrib. Since we couldn't get through to his phone, I called my mum instead.

As usual, my mum would answer my call by saying, "Hey baby. Is everything ok?" Then I asked her why my dad called us,she said "oh" and passed the phone to him. Then my dad said "Listen to this!" He puts the phone down and plays Oh Carol. His guitar sounded different.

After that he picked up the phone again and I asked him what that was. He happily said he got himself a ukelele. HAH! First he saw a ukelele book for beginners at the shop when he sent my brother to his drums class. He read the book and finally decided to try it on my sister's ukelele she got from being the best speaker in Hawaii some years ago. Later, he discovered that that wasn't a real ukelele so he decided to get himself a proper one.

He picked up a brand new ukelele at about MYR250 inlcuding a hard case and a CD guide. HAH!He taught himself to play the ukelele in just 2 days!

officially sold

We managed to sell off the Kelisa. I liked that car and we only kept it for a year. It has a new paint job and we changed the suspensions and it has an awesome pair of windshield wipers. I am gonna miss that car :'(

Anywho,hopefully all goes well after this.

P.S.:- My aunt is getting married in December and I am super psyched about it! ^_^

here comes the sun

Met up with some of my schoolmates at one of schoolmate's wedding last weekend. It's strange and funny at the same time coz thinking that we've drifted apart and stuff, we were all in the same school and we are all living in TTDI (most of us still do).It was fun ^_^

USS

Universal Studios Singapore was AWESOME! You have to be there and experience it yourself!

The Singapore trip was tiring but it was super fun!

The currency exchange was a bit painful but you gotta keep it out of your head to enjoy yourself. The best way to deal with it is to change the amount of cash you are planning to splash there and everything else will fall into place.

I know,shopping at the duty free airport with my mum and aunt and uncle went way overboard but it was super fun to do. Especially when we splurged on chocolates!Hahahaha!

Oh yeah,Shu got me a new pair of Charles & Keith. UBER NICE! I've always wanted a pair of heels like those! My husband has an awesome taste when it comes to shoes! I SUPER LURVE IT!

My cousin's wedding we attended was fun. Met up with my family and everyone had a blast.

drawing again

It's been quite some time since I last had my pencil sharpened and pulled out a fresh page on my drawing book. I could be sick and alone but once I start drawing, I can't tell when I'd stop. And I sometimes go to the extent of pausing videos and stuff just so that I could either draw what I see or get some new inspiration from what ever it is I see.

Psycho.

I think this is what stress does to me.

I'll take over the world someday. For now, I'll draw ^_^

chilling out

I love spending weekends and off days at home. A lot of things can be done and we get to clean up the place. I love the weekly floor mopping sessions. I am addicted to the floor cleaner scent. Not sure if it's a good thing.

I've been spending way too much time these days getting into little fights with Georg.He wants to take on me standing on his two hind legs.He's insane!He'd attack me every now and then whenever I pass by.He'd step onto the book while I am reading and pretends that he hasn't done anything wrong.

Speaking of Georg,he hasn't bath this week due to the rain.He's been scratching himself all over. The problem with having a feather duster-like cat is that he tends to trap every spec of dust in the house.And it doesn't help when he rolls around on the balcony outside coz that's where most of the dust comes from :/

Anywho, I am looking forward to the leave in October ^_^

some people

Some people are just ungrateful. It's hard to deal with people like these coz they tend to block out everyone else's views and only want to believe theirs. They complain. Complain. And complain. Are they doing anything about it? I don't think so. And when people offer a second opinion or just a point of view, they would reject it. Ok. No harm in trying. The best is for these people to just isolate themselves and just live away from people including their families coz even their families are not able to keep to their standard of living it seems. Strange, these people are still just people. They have wants. When you have wants, you have to work for it or towards it. It's not gonna come to you out of nowhere. It doesn't take a genius to figure that out.

Anywho, as I was saying, it's probably best to avoid these people. They are stubborn coz they refuse to change or make a change for that matter. They are selfish coz they are unable to think of anything or anyone else but themselves. Shallow coz they cannot seem to budge from where they are due to lack of the ability to change. And on top of it all, they are just ungrateful for everything that they have. They fail to see that there are people in far worse situations. There are people who have to work and provide for their families and at the same time not being able to complete their studies or get married for that matter. There are people who don't even have a house to live in. So, I would suggest that these people take a step back and look at everything around them and realize just how lucky they are.

HOME

I understand now what people mean when they say home is where the heart is. I love my home. In fact, I love it so much that I just wanna go home even when I'm at work. I live with 2 beings I love most in the entire world ^_^ and they make my home better everytime I hangout with them. Something about being at home makes me want to just lay back and say "we made the right choice".

Gone are the days when we used to have to deal with landlords and rents. No more people calling us telling us to give our hard earned cash to them.

We need a sofa................... I know, random. But we need one. Hahaha!

smoking cigar on the hotel balcony

Hahahahaha!

If only we had weed!

Raya was fun while it lasted. The whole week is over now. Work starts tomorrow. I have a whole new list of things to do and get. Strange. I usually don't make lists. Then again, I don't smoke either. Hahaha! I just told Shu that I have never smoked a cigar before so he decided to stop by at the convenient store and got one of those Cuban cigars and we gave it a shot. It was fun. I was coughing so much and laughing.

Speaking of which, I was laughing so hard in the car a while ago thinking about Shu's mishaps for Friday prayers and random prayer times.

Oh yeah, the other day, I saw Shu's niece laughing out loud so hard about random things which made me laugh out loud too and the irony of it all was that everyone was trying to get her to be quiet. I couldn't help it. She was laughing so hard and it made me laugh out hard too :p

Anywho, Shu's folks are the nicest people I have ever met ^_^ and I had fun. The BBQ session my brother-in-laws had for us all was fun too. I had a blast.

Georg: The silly kitten

Georg is still a baby. Attention seeker. Clumsy. Silly. Extremely grumpy around other cats.

Kit Kat used to want to play with him but he hated her. She's dead now. Georg is back to his happy self.

He knows we're not usually at home. He knows when we are up when we are in the bedroom. He likes to play tag with me.

Georg is also clumsy for a cat. He injured himself once and we left him at home IN the house. The vets think he's just being a drama king around Kit Kat. I think he's a wee bit clumsy.

Once, he was hanging around the lounge with us. He jumped onto the bean bag. All of a sudden, he fell to the floor. Weird.

Silly cat!

Foxburr's residence: Officially Moved

We have moved into our new home and this time, it's our home so there won't be any plans on moving anymore in the near future.Georg and Kit Kat loves the new place.I know that we've been putting them through a bit of hell since we were going in and out of cars and houses.We are officially at OUR home baby! All we need is to get it more organized and definitely decorate it.

Of course, more shopping for Georg and Kit Kat to prevent them from having to live in boarding hotels whenever we travel.


I super love our new bed.We're gonna need to get slighly bigger sheets after this.We still need to get the dry kitchen top fixed though.It will bug us.We need to completely get rid of what ever left overs left in the house which are not ours.It's just taking up space.

Anywho,it now takes us approximately 4 minutes to get to HP Campus.This is uber kool.

We're gonna keep touching up the place everynow and then.Planning on getting some hangout chairs to put out at the balcony.I was sitting out there this morning with Shu just talking.It is very peaceful.

I am loving our home ^_^

moving forward

I am not fasting anymore..........and here I was trying to fast a full month PLUS not missing ANY Tarawikh prayers. Owh.....haha! Now, I am stuck with Georg and being the only 2 beings at home whom are not fasting :/

Period pain hurts! BIG TIME!

Still looking for a friend for Georg. He's insane. He's driving Shu and I insane. He and I play tag around the house and keeps bugging Shu whenever he's lying down on the couch watching TV. Georg has issues. I fell asleep today on the floor in the lounge and Shu was on the couch. I got up about an hour later to Georg's meowing calling to me. He was IN MY FACE! He wanted to cuddle so I cuddled with him as we both fell asleep on the floor. Later, he climbed up to Shu's legs and started pushing his way between the couch and Shu. Funny. Shu always has this problems with the cats we have.

Anywho, we decided to take him out for a ride later in the day. He was insane! He hates that cat outside the house who keeps meowing for food. He hates the fact that we feed that cat too even though she doesn't come into the house. He was staring out at the lights and the cars and even people.

Anywho, I can't wait to get started on the new house. Our bed should be arriving soon too. We need to fix the kitchen ASAP so that we can have our things moved into the place in time for Raya!

Yeyness!

^_^

approved

Baby,
if you wanna get that Honda CBR600.
I approve
^_^
It is such a BEAUTY!

weekenders

Ravin was looking at the pictures in my phone and she (said this so many times already) said that Shu and I are either really3 bored or we just simply do not have much to do. I can't tell really. We work on weekdays and we're never home on weekends. We just got back from Johor last weekend. Went swimming and all. * OMG! I love swimming! *

I like how I thought I was going to die halfway through the week and now the week is finally ending. As much as I know it's gonna start over sooner than I think, I like taking my time knowing that I don't have anything to rush for ^_^

Anywho, I am SO LOOKING FORWARD TO NEXT MONTH'S PAY!

I am also in major need of focus since I do have a test......exam.......what ever it may be.....coming in the first week of August.

I also CANNOT wait to move into our new house!

My car is going to get some things fixed. My in-laws have been pushing Shu to get a new car.Haha! We will get a new car,we're just surveying still since a lot of cars are AT. I hate AT cars! We're keeping my car since it is so fuel efficient but I would really like to get Shu a car. I just want to get him a good,comfortable car.

And a scooter.........and a superbike (later in the future) and when he gets a superbike, I shall get myself one of them good old dirt bikes! YEAH!

I love swimming.......I cannot begin to explain just how much I love it ^_^

Georg

Shu found him on an ad on Mudah.my. We were kitten hunting AGAIN. We tend to get insane when it comes to kittens. No idea why. We've resorted to carrying a cage in the car going around the neighbourhood looking for ANY cats which we think would fall for our trap once. Shu said he's gonna buy a cat for me this time.

I think he knew about my devastation over 2 kittens I found on petfinder.my. The fosterer had a point. We are about to move into our own place which is not a grounded house. She was worried if the kittens wouldn't have the space to run around :/ I kinda figured she wouldn't have wanted to let them go anyways since I first mentioned that we won't be living in a grounded house.

That's when Shu decided to google for kittens for sale and he came across Georg. He is mixed persian about 3 months old. He looks like a walking feather duster. The fact that he's so curious and playful just makes us love him so much more. We spent quite a lot on him apart from paying for him. It's all worth it.

I am planning to convert one of the rooms at our new place into his room so that he can have his space ^_^

Metallica

That was what Foxburr-san talked to me about when he first called me back when we were 16.

Now,far from where we were back then,we'd still sing out loud and headbang at times in the car when we pop in the Metallica CD.

I love you Foxburr-san ^_^

temporary move out

We've manage to move all our things out in less than 3 hours.Got the movers and packers to come over and pack all our stuff to Bangi.We're gonna stay there till our house is ready to be moved into ^_^

So yeah,we are temporary freeloaders for now.A HUGE house with just 2 people whom are ALWAYS stuck close with one another :p We have yet to get Shu's car from Cyberjaya.We didn't have the car keys with us yesterday.

Bangi isn't so bad since we're always there whenever we need substantial food.Non-junk based.

I have yet to visit Ili who is about to give birth to a baby girl end of this month.I am so happy for her!The only babies I've been busy with is my Sims' :s

it's been a crazy weekend.......

Left of Johor on Wednesday. Got to the hotel at about 7pm. Checked-in and made ourselves comfy for a bit.My aunt called us later that night to meet up.Gathered at my aunt's place and then went out for supper with my dad and my 2 cousins,Finaz and Lyn.Got back to the hotel and slept till about 8am.

The next day, our plan was to go hang around town.We ended up doing nothing and going nowhere so we headed over to my grandma's house.It was fun coz our intention was to go visit her and my aunt before they leave for Haj.And then,later that day.......we fell into a deep sleep.Got up the very next morning...........

Went to the Zoo for a bit.The art gallery was closed and the museum wasn't open.It's only going to be launched next year :/ Went around town again and finally had dinner with my aunts and my cousins and my uncle and my dad and my grandma.There were a bunch of guys singing at the place we had dinner.We were singing and laughing and losing our minds.I think it was the food.

Anywho,we were supposed to attend a wedding the very next morning but at 5am,I was sick.So sick that Shu had to drive me to the hospital.I was on drips for about an hour and then got discharged later.Slept for a bit back at the hotel.Got up in time to check-out and headed to Skudai for Ikhwan's wedding.Yes,he is FINALLY married to Siti!

Later on,we headed to Malacca but we didn't get there in time for Izzat Agilent's wedding so we headed straight to the hotel.We hung around the mall looking for a wedding gift for the dude which we eventually did.We actually did some shopping ourselves.Got us a pari of tennis racquets and some tennis balls.Yes,I am finally trying out tennis.Yey!

Anywho,we went all around Malacca looking for Izzat's wedding location.Finally,we got there and a bunch of Shu's colleagues were there as well.Had some food and talked and laughed for a bit.Then, we headed back.Izzat is a fuhney dude and Agilent is most definitely NOT his name.

We did a bit of sightseeing before heading home the next day.Went on the kereta lembu ^_^ and then went for the offroad buggy ride.And then,we headed over to the crocodile farm and the Orang Asli museum.Then we got hungry so we had lunch and then headed back to Cyberjaya.

That was an awesome break.We were just a wee bit disappointed for not getting our dose of jetski :(

speak up and make a difference

It's almost impossible to understand what's happening sometimes. I really think that maybe if people started speaking up,you'd actually get somewhere.Even if it means that it's gonna take time to actually change anything,at the very least,you've let someone know this.Most importantly,you've talked to someone with the power to help you change things for the better.

If you talk among each other,among people with the same point of view,the same group of people who just keeps saying the same thing again and again but doesn't really make a move to change things,you're just gonna be stuck there,the same place,facing the same problems,being in the same position,annoyed and tired.

I'm not perfect.I'm not smart.I'm just a push over with too much pride to not be able to make it through.I can work hard if I must.I can do it if I want to.With the right attitude and mindset,I can be the best I can.

somewhat prepared?..........maybe.......I think.......

The badminton tournament draw is tomorrow and we've only started practicing Saturday morning.We spent 2 and a half hours in the HP badminton court playing random sets with random people.Tassa finished work at 8am and she cameby at about 8:45am coz she wanted to keep Add company.Izzat finished work at about 9am along with the rest of the Agilent gang.

We played badminton till about 11am-ish and headed for some breakfast with Tassa.

Sunday started out pretty weird coz we ended up falling asleep at about 3pm on Saturday coz we were playing Sims 3 Medieval all day.We got up at about 3am on Sunday.Headed out for some food.Eventually,fell asleep at about 11am.

We got back up at about 3pm.Headed over to Damansara's Vichudda for lunch or something.Then,we headed to TTDI.Promised my dad a badminton game.We played till about 7:25pm.It was exhilarating coz I ran for a bit in between games.It was awesome!I've been wanting to do that for sometime.Oh and there was a backhoe at the park coz they were upgrading some parts of the park.I got onto it and thought "OH MY GAWD!" I've been wanting to know what it feels to be in one of those things for so long!HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Anywho,Kong texted us saying that my car is as good as new!YEY!!!!! ^_^

shoppin'

It's been a while since Shu and I splurged out (like REALLY SPLURGED) on stuff.Got up early this morning.Had brunch at Yellow Cab in KL.Shu took me to Sephora (Star Hill Gallery).I was there to get a few things.One was to get a birthday gift for my sister.The other stuffs were random things I've been wanting to try.

I managed to pick out something for my sister and for the longest time I spent in the store,I was looking for the Benefit 10.They had a benefit aisle but that particular item was not in stock.I then walked around looking for other things.I ended up trying out a dry shampoo and got ourselves a tub of body scrub.

After that,we headed over to Pavillion across the street.We walked in and out of shops and after a while,we somehow ended up going into Parkson.There was a Carolina Herrera booth out front and Shu headed straight for it.The promoter sprayed on the EDTs on us (masculine and feminine).I honestly did not like the new EDT for girls one bit.Shu however,kinda liked the one for guys but it wasn't the one he's been looking for.We spent some time trying to figure out whether or not to get the promotional set and stuff.Finally,we decided to get the 212 MEN.The smell is AWESOME.

As we walked in on our way to the cashier,we stopped by at the Benefit counter.I insisted on looking for the Benefit 10.The promoter sprayed on some of the new scent by Benefit onto my right wrist.I told her I wasn't looking for a perfume.I had something specific in mind.I asked her about the product I wanted.Then,before getting the product behind the counter for me,she took out the Bene-Tint and put some onto my right cheek.She said "This is a liquid blusher.It matches any skin tone" I was annoyed.

Firstly,she put something onto my cheeks without first informing me.Secondly,she only put it onto one of my cheeks.She blended the product out and it did give me some blush instead of looking all pale the way I usually would.But again,I wasn't looking for a liquid blush!Then,she put it onto my lips and put a gloss on it.I was a bit irritated coz I did tell her wasn't gonna buy that stuff.And the worst part was that she didn't even take out a fresh wand to put those testers onto my skin.She applied them directly with the same applicator from the bottle!WTF?!

I then told her,those items are awesome but I really just wanted the Benefit 10.She took one out for me and I headed for the cashier.Oh yeah,about the product I got.......after applying the liquid blushers onto my cheeks and lips,the promoter then applied some of the bronzer onto my face.Wait,more like ALL OVER my face!WTF?!!!I ended up looking a whole lot tanner than my usual skin tone!WTF?!

Anywho,we managed to get stuff we wanted.Later on,we headed to TTDI.Our initial plan was to hang around my folks' place for a bit and catch a movie later in the evening.We then got tired so we hungout at a mamak with my siblings-Qarim,Wuh-Ney and Azim-and headed straight home.

The movie can wait.We have a long day tomorrow ^_^

to-do list

We sent my car to the workshop this morning.Shu knows this guy in Kajang/Semenyih so we drove there after work today.Shu drove my car with the broken front bumper and I drove his car.When we got there,the shop was still closed so he parked my car and we drove off for a bit looking for breakfast.We ended up in Nasi Ulam.Been a fan of that place in the last couple of weeks.Got back to the shop and decided on what to do with my car.Got a quotation and we agreed with whatever.

Left for home.Got home and cleaned up for a bit.Fell asleep at about noon.Got up about 12 hours later.I have no idea why we were so damn tired but we were.Got ready and headed out to get some food.We ended up in Kampung Baru again this week.After that,we drove over to BK in Mutiara Damansara coz I wanted them yummilicious Hershey's Sundae Pie.Hung out around The Curve area for a bit.It was passed midnight at the time.

Got home at about 2am-ish.Now,we're trying to find a good movie to download ^_^

Need to follow up on what's happening with our house coz as far as we are concerned,we've done all the paperwork we needed to do.Will have to call up that real estate agent first thing Monday morning.Shit,we've got loads to do on Monday! -_-*

weekend at home

Haven't done this in a while.It's weird to be here around this time of the night.

Hahahahaha!!!!

It's been a long week.The training yesterday night ended the week nicely especially after that idiot who stopped in the middle of the road cost my front car bumper!My husband said this would be THE time to make my car over.

We finally picked up his car from the office parking lot.His car was covered in spider web and there was a huge beetle on his wiper.I tried to move it by poking it but it hissed at us so we let it stay there.We drove to Sri Kembangan to service the car.Managed to repair the tire.

I have a report to prepare and more materials to improve the training content.

slowing it down

I sometimes think I grew up too fast. I sometimes feel like I'm not old enough to do a lot of things,forgetting how old I really am. I sometimes remember things that happened way back when I was kid as though they happened just yesterday. I sometimes feel like things are too complicated when they're not supposed to be. I sometimes wonder why we have to do the things we do when we didn't have to do it at all before this. I just want it all to be.........simple.......the way they used to be,before I discovered how things really work in the world. Maybe I don't want to take over the world the way I always say I do. Maybe I just do things to pass time,not knowing where exactly I'm going. Maybe I'm clouded by how things are supposed to be according to the world and for doing that,my actions are blurry.

craziness in Chevronville

Its been a long crazy week and the worst is over.I no longer have to worry or anticipate anything.All should go back to normal from here on.

There has been some things that may have freaked me out and I might have overreacted at some things in some ways.After a good weekend away from things at work,I should be able to start work on Monday fresh.Not default.Just reset :p

I just want to have fun.I don't like worrying.I don't like not liking what I do.

We should rock the way we always do ;)

Rock on!

Khurafat movie rant

This is probably one of those movies where we'd go "THANK GOD WE DIDN'T GO TO THE CINEMA TO WATCH THIS CRAP!"

Overall,I think the storyline for the movie is alright.I mean,like every story,there is probably a thing or two you can learn from the events that occur in the movie.My issue was more on the script of the movie.It irritated the shit outta me to the extent that I was constantly waiting for a moment in any of the scenes in the movie where someone would come to their senses and crack a joke.

Seriously,it was like watching a movie with characters who literally speaks a language from a school textbook! WHAT THE HELL?!

Anywho,it kinda good that we watched it anyways........on YouTube!

LOL!

most of the time.......

I'm pretty much in control of what I do or where I go.Now,I can hardly tell who I am anymore.I feel like I've drifted off not knowing which way to go.I don't even know if this is what I want to do anymore or if I'm only doing this because I am doing it.Some part of myself have completely faded out into being what the world has shoved into my face.

I've probably lost touch of the things that used to drive me.I find motivation in the stupidest things these days.I don't know if it is in fact genuine at all.I've been here before.It's just not the same this time around.Maybe being contented and tranquil isn't me.Maybe I'm not used to it.Maybe I've just been lazing around too much that I haven't bothered to set my goals anymore.

I don't know what I am to do anymore...........

tired of being nice

The past few weeks had been fun but sometimes,I get tired of being nice or hardworking.I'm tired of being the one who'd do just about anything coz I can only do so much.Sometimes,I'd step back and think "what about them?what are they doing about this?" This may not be as important to me as it is to most other people around me but I sure act like my life depends on it.Its strange coz I'm not like this and now I am.It's ironic how I am the person I once said I never wanted to be.

I never believe in limitations but I can only take so much of this.

If nothing changes in the near future,I'm gonna have to put my foot down.

JPJ bribery

I have been putting off in getting my road tax renewed because it's so difficult to find time when the previous owner of my car and I can meet up and go to the damn JPJ to get the car registered under my name once and for all.I work night shifts and I come home in the morning and she works in the day and comes home later in the day.We've gotten everything done but the road tax renewal coz it's becoming more and more complicated each day.

Anyways,forgetting about the road tax issue,my husband and I drove 20 minutes to the international airport to see my brother off.On our way home,there was a road block.It was a JPJ road block.Actually,they were checking cabs which were taking passengers without the airport permission.I know.It's a stupid reason to getting cash but they are what they are they do what they do.I mean,what's wrong with letting the cabs get a few bucks into their pockets?It's they're job to pick people up and sending them to where they wanna go.It's not a crime.

Anywho,they come to realize that my road tax has not been renewed.I was aware of the fact that I was at fault.So I thought.......ok,hand me the ticket and we'll be on our way.My husband went down and I realy thought he was filling up forms and stuff.He wasn't.The JPJ officers told him that he could write us a ticket and get our car towed but it wouldn't have to be that bad if we paid them off.SERIOUSLY?

I was getting pissed coz I was fucking late for work and we were held back just so that they can get cash into their pockets?Are they not getting enough pay?Hello?Fuck that.We don't take shit like that coz admitting we were wrong,we were willing to pay the fine.Then,my husband told me that there was nothing at the booth.No summon books,no tow trucks.NOTHING.That pissed me off coz they were trying to get cash from us.US!We love our cash!I love our cash!It's our hard earned cash and they think they can just take it away like that?FUCK them!

I will and shall find out who they are and I shall make sure they lose their jobs.I don't give a shit if you have financial issues.If you think you are not getting enough pay,get a new job!

Of course,if the country really is trying to stop bribery once and for all,they would easily identify these types of so called "officials" and blacklist them from ever getting a job elsewhere.Then,companies would think twice or three time before hiring them.That will definitely put an end to this.

I'm a muslim and I don't practise bribery!