picture poll:which should be used on the poster for our upcoming performance?

Pictures are all from Ayie's DSLR

Pasar Road

Shu and I finally went to Pasar Road.We've heard about the place from my dad and my mum a million times over but never actually went there.Its more of coz we don't really know how to get there :D

My dad took us both this morning.We walked and walked and walked and had brunch over at Sri Paandi and then walked around some more.All of the things on Shu's list of things he needs for his EMS project were unavailable.What he bought instead was a 10 meters long modem cable and he was hunting for a receiver for performances to come.

Anywho,we got as far as getting a quotation coz we didn't have thousands of ringgit on us which if we had would have ended up being spent on all the awesome stuff we found like the earpieces and receiver and some stereos and probably lights and maybe a couple of headphones.Superhuge ones.

Got home at about 1pm.Cleaned ourselves up and Shu drove me to the dentist for a bit.I have spent way too much on dentals in the last couple of years that it has driven me insane so much that I try very hard to avoid from having to go to the dentist.Its worked so far......right up till now,that is.It's nothing serious but it costs........a lot.

In the meantime,my mum has been trying to get Qarim occupied so she assigned him to take photos of Bedah with the DSLR.Cute photos like the ones you'd find online and stuff.He didn't look too enthusiastic about it though :/ Maybe he's not that into Bedah............

Shu has secured a slot for my band to play on November 11th over at Tropicana City Mall.Our slot is at about 9:30pm-ish so that means we have to be there earlier for a sound check.Great!Now,all I need is a costume ^_^ and I have to work on my people skills when it comes to stuff like introducing the band and talking to the crowd :p

ich nein basterd!

Haha!Shu and I finally got around to watching Tarantino's Inglourious Basterds.The movie was awesome!We were laughing most of the time but overall,it was awesome!I lurve the fact that the characters spoke Deutsche,French,English and some Italian.I also liked how the whole plot was actually catastrophic and one big mess.

Went to get Shu from UNITEN this morning after class.Had lunch and drove over to Mutiara Damansara for a movie.Walked around for a bit and then went home.

The gig on the 30th has been postponed to November 11th.PERFECT!I should be super free!OMFG!SUPER super FREE!HOLY SHIT!Hahahahahaaa!!!!!!

The Color Shop,One Utama

Shu and I were supposed to meet up at the mall after my class for lunch today.We did but I just had to get my hair washed coz I was running late this morning and did not get to wash it this morning.So by the time Shu got to the mall,I told him I was getting my hair dried.

Here's the funny thing.I had 2 people working on my hair today.That was weird.That was the first time I went through something like that.It was pretty fun though.I don't mind getting my hair done at that shop again ^_^

I had too much time to kill earlier today coz all my classes were cut short due to various reasons so Shu and I basically hopped from one shop to another.We even got a free drink from Juice Works from the dude at the Creepy Door ;)

The lepak sessions today mostly consist of ideas for the upcoming gig.We were going through the pros and cons of the event as well as our wedding plans in between that.We've got some kool stuff in mind but we have yet to talk to Kamal and Ayie about it.

We are after all supposed to play at an event this 30th.

RadioEdit band update

Wahai kalian semua.Harap maklum bahawa RadioEdit akhirnya akan dapat gig sendiri.Walaubagaimanapun,dukacita dimaklumkan bahawa segala confirmation hanya akan di dapati selepas band meeting kami yang akan berlangsung ASAP.

Sekian.Terima kasih.

The adventures of Awang Goneng & Gedebeh

Woke up this morning.Got into a cab with Shu and headed over to Kajang to get his car coz he left it there since I picked him up after class on Thursday.Had breakfast at Alim Corner.Made a quick stop over at Mutiara Damansara.Got the good old Cookies N' Cream smoothie from Juice Works.Got one top while we were there.Headed home only to find out that we were locked out so we had lunch at Restoran Quali.Then,mum called to say that she and my siblings were also locked out so they hungout at our favorite mamak,Maulana.Then,my dad called to say that he's already at home so we can come home.

*sigh*

I have to stop sounding and possibly stop behaving like a cartoon/anime character.Especially when I'm about to introduce the band in public and stuff.I ALMOST screamed out "KERO!" or said "Hi!" the way Stitch (Lilo & Stitch) would say it.Damn!I know that Shu and Rashid and maybe my bandmates are used to it but I don't suppose other people expect me to do stuff like that :p

introducing the Monkey Dance by the Foxburrs

While Shu was stuck doing his FYP,he let me use his super awesome computer to play The Sims 3.Days just went by and before I could do anything,it's already Friday.

Update:Shu has no problems using the Pro E software anymore ;)

While I've been driving back and forth to Bangi after classes,I did learn some new roads to new places around UPM.And in the evenings when we get home,we'd head over to the park at my old house.We don't run anymore.Well,Shu would jog while I do some monkey dance.

We spent last night watching Bruno which almost killed us from laughing so hard.

Kecik has began to mark territories around the house by peeing at different places IN THE HOUSE.One morning before I left for class,he peed at the wall at the front door.After that,when Azim came home from school,Kecik peed on his school bag.The dude was superpissed.

Bedah is happy and fat,as usual.

Gemok aka Fei Mao is still herself.Daydreaming and getting weird dreams as she sleeps.Weirdo!

I think my spare part warranty has been long overdue.My right leg is hurting ever so badly especially when its cold.I have this vision of me losing my leg while I run in the park.

Anywho,Shu and I almost died of shock as we were walking home from the park one afternoon.Out of nowhere,a huge Retriever headed towards us and we weren't sure of what to do.Then,it turned out that it was just playing with the dog in one of the houses.

And then,there was this one time when we were at a pet store in Uptown Damansara,we were shocked to see a crocodile in an aquarium!It was a freakin' glass aquarium!When the reptile moved,it looked like it could easily break the glass.To make things worse,there were tiny tanks of white mice and hamsters placed on top on the aquarium with the crocodile!

Heaven

Saigo ni kimi ga hohoende

Massugu ni sashidashita mono wa

Tada amarini kirei sugite

Koraekirezu namida afureta

Ano hi kitto futari wa

Ai ni fureta

Watashitachi wa sagashiatte

Tokini jibun o miushinatte

Yagate mitsukeatta no nara

Donna ketsumatsu ga matte ite mo

Unmei to iu igai

Hoka ni wa nai

Kimi ga tabidatta ano sora ni

Yasashiku watashi o terasu hoshi ga hikatte

Soba ni ite aisuru hito

Toki o koete katachi o kaete

Futari mada minu mirai ga koko ni

Nee konnanimo nokotteru kara

Soba ni ite aisuru hito

Toki o koete katachi o kaete

Futari mada minu mirai ga koko ni

Nokotteru kara

Shinjite aisuru hito

Watashi no naka de kimi wa ikiru

Dakara kore kara saki mo zutto

Sayonara nante iwanai

Ano hi kitto futari wa

Ai ni fureta

-Hamasaki Ayumi-

awesomeness

I have found someone who shares the same point of view with me towards life.

Someone who wants to always be 18 and never grow up.

Someone who loves freedom and hates restrictions.

Someone who shares my interpretation of fame and glory.

Someone who hates lameness and rigidity and wants new things and changes as every second passes by.

Someone who wants to invent and experiment and is not afraid to ask the wrong questions.

Someone who may not say the darnest things the way I do but has a milder way of saying it.

That someone is the one I intend to spend the rest of my life with <3

sebak

Watching those kids performing solo with their acoustic guitars yesterday reminds me of myself when I was doing the whole songwriting thingy for the first time.I was alone and the only thing I had to convey my message across to the audience was my guitar.Well,at the time,I didn't even have my own guitar so I borrowed my dad's.

My songs would have sounded very high-school-ish and maybe it wouldn't have hit the point I was trying to get through to who ever.Some songs did but my audience were only those who hears me play live during practices and stuff at home.My songs never left the circle of people who knew me.

I am happy to know that there are so many channels to get your works known to the world now ^_^

Singing and songwriting should be just as important as everything else in life.

Indie Fest@Studio V,Rainforest,One Utama

We had our open mic today.We played 4 songs.Actually,we were told to play 3 songs but they started recording late so they told us to play another song.Our usual playlist line up would Wake Up,Maya,Mental and I Don't Live.We had a blast although we waited since 11am-ish,we performed at about 2pm.

The problem started with us trying to register and the organizers came late.Then,we finally registered and then the waiting began.Bittersweet were supposed to do a soundcheck but they took up almost an entire hour coz their 2nd guitarist came superlate.We had fun though listening and watching them jam.

Shu made sure that we were the first band to play the open mic coz Kamal starts work at about 2:30pm.We were rushing for time.Finally,Kamal called a colleague to cover him and he went to work at about 3pm.It was tiring but fun.

There were other music acts like a band of school boys who calls themselves Chain Letters (I think) and then 2 solo acoustic acts who were Arif and Justin.I think the sound system needed to be looked into a little more.Shu said that if we stood outside and listen to the performances,the sound was perfect.

Anywho,went home.Then,we went to Ammah's house for Deepavali like we do every year.It was Shu's first time celebrating Deepavali at someone's place.We had freshly cooked food which were AWESOME!Ammah had been sick so she couldn't cook.Her daughter,Sumitha did all the cooking for her today.The vadais are as awesome as ever.The tosai too ;)

Shu and I managed to rush over Ayumi's place for the open house.A lot of people have already gone home but we just sat and chatted and ate some more for a bit.Then,we headed home.

Looking forward to spending tomorrow just chilling with Shu.

CK Music,Jalan Imbi,KL

It was a long and funny journey to KL and back coz there was a horrible traffic jam but we finally got around to meeting Migo (the dude who's gonna do the track by track recording for us) and we finally went to the music store Kamal's been telling us about.I am so going to get those cables I've been wanting for so long!

Kamal told us a very scary tale that happened to him early before dawn of Friday morning.He witnessed someone getting stabbed over at BU's McD at Centrepoint.He said that some guy stole some other guy's laptop and that this other guy chased the thief and the thief stabbed him and drove off.Kamal was the one who called the ambulance and he said it took them 32 minutes to get to the injured dude.

There are shitloads of people at the place and noone saw or did anything?WTF?!And the dude got stabbed!From the back to the front and the knife went through his kidneys and came out the front!WTF?!

Anywho,tonight's jamming session went mad.Rashid actually tried playing the drum to Wake Up in a ska mode.WTF?!I kept missing cues and Kamal's guitar was too noisy.I almost tripped on the keyboard stand and instead of stepping on the distortion pedal,I stepped on the mic stand!WTF?!

bananas are expected this afternoon

Despite the amount of work that needs to be done and the string of people to meet today,Shu managed to drag me off to a movie at noon.We watched a movie we've been waiting for all month long.Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs.I think the movie was pretty good.Fast moving.Reminding me of a lot of things that's been going on in my life.Reminding me of the people I come across in life.

We had a hard time keeping our voices down when we laugh coz we were both laughing so hard and loud.I lurve Flint's hairdo!Hahahaha!But seriously,I doubt if I'd ever want food to come falling from the sky.It could kill!For countries where food is scarce,I guess it would be ok though too much of something can't be good for anyone :p

tutored

Shu's Arab-speaking nephew came to my rescue AGAIN.Well,thanks to Shu for still being in contact with a relative who speaks the language on a daily basis,I managed to finish my homework AGAIN.

I had a pretty good time while having breakfast with Shu and his nephew.Apart from them catching up and all,it turns out that his nephew (like Shu) has a flare for business and he's practically earning while studying.How awesome is that?For someone who hasn't got a clue about business,the conversations and ideas those 2 had today managed to open my eyes to a new level of money making.

Hurmm............imagine,having thousands of bux a month all to yourself TAX-FREE!

I've gotten back into sketching.Finally opened that metal case of washable pencils my dad got me some years ago.The thing is finally put to good use.I'll be posting up my first sketch in over a year since my last picture.

unaddressed

it's amazing

how you ruined my everything

and still

you are doing it

how you do it well

you must be feeling so fantastic

so contented

best wishes to you

hopefully you are happy

and proud of your achievement

don't wipe that smile off your face

its the symbol of how far you've gone

CZipLee@Kajang

My folks have been wondering where the hell I'd disappear to every time I come home after sunset.One word.Shu.

For many days in a week,I shall occasionally come home later than usual.I'm usually home on weekends.I'm usually gone during the day (after classes) coz it would usually start with having lunch with Shu.Then,sometimes we'd get carried away doing other things like sneaking into Shu's classes or simply just hanging out at some random mall.

Today,we finally sat down to talk about what needs to be done (with the wedding reception) Honestly,I doubt if we have enough time to begin with.Shu took me to this place where we can find just about anything pertaining to art.Easels,drawing and sketching pencils.Loose sheets of papers and stencils.Anything.Shu ended up buying me a set of face paint crayons.

The consequences are insane.I colored his entire face making him look like The Joker.He tried to do a KISS impression on my face which turned out to look more like a semi-Alice Cooper+some Hindu priest and there were some random black lines under one of my eyes.We had a hard time getting the color off.Shu's eyes were in pain :p

wedding reception=meeting old school friends

TTDI is not that big of a town.Met up with a whole bunch of my schoolmates from primary school to secondary school.I even met up with a childhood friend,Jojo.

The first person to say hey to me was Jamilah ka Jamie.She was sitting at a table with Dhiya and Zafirah.Then,I met Husna and Shira and Azlin and Dayana,Nurulliyana,Lish,Amir Hafidz and Meng.I saw Aizuddin (Din-Ili's good friend from school).Daniel and his sister,Sizie were sitting with their mum whom eventually moved to the table where my folks were sitting at.Edzuan and his folks were there.Ili's bride's maid was Suraya.

I met a whole bunch of my neighbours whose moved out from TTDI like Uncle Bashir and Aunty Fairuz,Uncle Pahmi and wife and their daughter Sarah (who is actually staying with her husband in Perth but did not follow her husband to attend Ili's wedding) Uncle Wahid and Aunty Kamilia came.Ruby and her boyfriend came late but they came anyways.

It was fun having to introduce Shu to my friends.It was funner to see the looks on their faces when I said we are engaged.Some of friends grabbed my hand to see the ring.Some of them were psyched and super surprised to know that I'd soon be married as well.I just like introducing Shu to the people who were and some still are in the world I come from and the world I live in.

I'm just surprised that I can actually remember the names of schoolmates.

I think Ili's wedding went well and she looked awesomely beautiful.Very unlike the tomboy I've known for so long.

Ili & Farid:akad nikah and reception

I have known Ili since we were 9.Kecik2 gaduh pasal kawan and what we wear and the things we do.She's finally married.Eventhough I don't know the guy,Shu and I did say hey to him yesterday and he seems sober.

Shu and I went to observe the procedures.Shu managed to talk to the imam just to see what he's like.Haha!The procedure was clear and understandable.Ili took a picture holding up the certificate she signed.That was cute but I didn't get a picture of her.Hopefully she'll post it up on FB along with the rest of her wedding photos.

I am so psyched and happy for her ^_^

I'll be off to her wedding in a couple of hours time.Shu and I are still trying to figure out what to wear :p

12 Studio,Subang SS15

It was all a last minute thing but we finally did it.It's been 2 years since RadioEdit was formed and now,we finally got around to record our first ever live demo.It was tiring and we were all bit in a daze from the traffic jam and the 30-minute warm up jamming session,we carried on recording anyways coz it was a now or never moment.

I could hear myself not being able to scream out and give my best shot coz of the gum in my mouth and my throat dry from forgetting to bring a bottle of H2O with me.We could hardly hear ourselves in the studio but from the mixing room,everything sounds superclear.Shu monitored us from the mixing room.Kamal's solos were all over the place for some songs.Ayie sometimes gets lost in the song and lose concentration on the song.Rashid is the only one who seems to be at one with the music.

Overall,I think it was good.We like the studio.The dude who did the recording for us (Nathan) is a nice guy.He asked for Shu's number so that he can inform us if any gigs come up and we could get a slot.

I am supertired.I had 3 iced milos in one night and that is as much as I have ever taken within several hours.

We'll update the band FB and MySpace pages ASAP.I'll be ripping the songs off the CD for the band in the meantime ;)

Tired but happy and my arms are full of scratches from that kitten at the studio.He's so chomel! ^_^

awesomelicious!

Went to check out the hair salon over at the mall and the hair stylist she could do what I want with the color I want at an awesomelicious price!AWESOME!

Shu and I were supposed to go watch a movie but all the shows we wanted to see were either not in theaters yet or we missed it :/

The rest of the day was pretty much a blank...........I can't remember how I got here.......hurmm........

I bet even pigs could drive better

How fucked up are some people behind the wheels?!Orang lain pun panas gak!Orang lain pun bawak kete tapi otak diorang working gak la.Of course,tak tau la if these idiots actually have brains to begin with.

First up,idiots who blocks pathways and not move (coz they are in the car) when seeing other people have difficulties maneuvering because of them.I mean,how stupid can some people get?

And then,there are people who would conveniently squeeze in between safety distance WITHOUT signalling and even when you've honked at them indicating that they are colliding into you car and that I'd have to immediately jam the brakes for them just shows that they either do not have a proper driver's license or they just have no clue about road rules.And to make it worse,its written in their faces that they are as fucked up as any homo sapiens can be.

Lets not forget those who'd leave their signals on and move in between 2 lanes and then goes the opposite direction of where their signal is pointing to.

I think I am going to spend a little more on tolls and take the easy driving way home in the evenings.Stress is not good for my Qi and it's really bad for the complexion and hair!

Still,one way to de-stress is by setting these people's cars on fire.Therefore,I could prevent them from harming other people on the road.

disturbing behavior

I had always told my mum and Shu that at a certain age,kids are just super annoying and I am at the age where I just cannot tolerate kids so I try very hard to stay away from them.Sad to say,Kecik turned out to be one very annoying kid in the last couple of days.He just became super difficult and annoying.He woke me up 2 nights in a row with his meowing which sounds strange,scary and weird (my sister and my mum says he sounds buruk) He used to be so quiet growing up.Now,the only sound he makes is that and he'd wake the entire house up.

What Shu and I suspect is that Kecik actually wants to get into my parents' bedroom but the only room door that would open to his sound is my bedroom door.He also likes Azim's room coz Azim would leave the aircond running all night long so it keeps Kecik cold on hot nights.Sometimes,it would get too cold for him so he'd wake Shu up to open the door for him.A couple of nights ago,Shu had to get Kecik off of Azim's leg coz at first,he was holding on to Azim's leg as he slept but after that,he started scratching so before Azim kicked him off,Shu picked him up and put him outside.

I really need to get Kecik a proper bed.He can't keep occupying my parent's bed all the time.He's not as clean as Fei Mao either.I also told Shu that I am gonna start a trust fund for Kecik so that should anything happen in the future (to Kecik) we won't have to fork up too much cash from our pockets :p

Bedah,on the other hand,spends most of her time rearranging the furnitures in her little house which could be noisy at times.Hahaha!But I've caught her sleeping in strange ways in the past few days.She'd even move while she's asleep like she's getting nightmares or something.

I'll follow you until you love me

It's time to get crafty and creative!It's that time of the year again!Yey!

Think Red Carpet moment,think flashes of light from the camera,think of what to say..........

The make-up,the glamor,the......Jimmy Choo shoes???Hahahahhahaaaa!!!!!!!

ALDO boots!

Hehe!

That videographer better be good!

RoboGamez,UNITEN

Every year,several universities would have a competition in creating robots and that these robots must abide to certain requirements.Topping the charts would be universities like UPM and UTM.Shu said that usually,the competition is held at PWTC but this year,the chosen location was UNITEN MPH.Eventhough Shu attended the event only to get marks for his EMS class,I think we pretty much got more than what we came for.

The first place we stopped by was a booth where we can sign up for a locally published magazine called Robots:Head to Toe.The subscription is free so we went ahead to sign up.The best thing about grabbing the free copy given at the booth today was that there was a 4-page coverage on the stepper motor which Shu needs for his EMS project.I have trouble understanding some stuff in the mag but most of the things I read were awesome.

We spotted a dude standing at a booth with 2 robots.We looked closely and discovered that those robots were made from recycled things like plastic bottles and water pump floats.One of it was designed with a motor taken from a car wiper to move its head.AWESOME!The dude basically has classes for creating and combining effort and expertise from 3 completely different areas which were art and engineering and creativity.Hah!

We got into the hall and sat down for a bit.There was a robot made with the base of an RC car.It was just moving around the hall for a test run or something.Funny,I imagined it set some people in fire or something.I know that the robot I shall design would be able to do that and destroy a whole lot of things in a whole lot of different ways ^_^ I still wish it set that woman's kain on fire.That would have been something fun to watch.

It turns out that this year,UTM did not compete.Hurm..........

Shu has made a 95% recovery.Yey!I got home and killed several sims by setting them on fire which was really fun to do ^_^

The Wedding Boutique@The Curve,Mutiara Damansara

Our (Shu & I) plan today was to go shopping.I have been wanting a pair of red anime-ish contact lenses so we went to Sunway Pyramid to check out that place my sister told me about last week.We found the shop but the lenses I wanted has to be ordered and it would take at least 2 months for it to arrive at the shop.The other lenses that were in stock would only be available in 2 days time (upon ordering).So.......we decided to put the contact lenses on hold.

Moving on,Shu got himself a pair of cargos and boxers.I ALMOST got those awesome UGP skate shoes but I didn't coz my shoes are still usable.We then headed over to Mutiara Damansara coz I needed to get my shampoo from TNS.After that,we spotted the Wedding Boutique on the top most floor.We went to check it out and we spotted 2 beautiful dresses which can either be purchased or rented out.OMFG!I tried out both dresses and both Shu and I agree that the dress with a wee bit of red was AWESOMELY BEAUTIFUL!We want that!

Hahahahaha!!!!!!

After realizing my attraction towards Lady GaGa's fashion sense,I decided to give the gel eye liner art a go.Stopped by at the nearest pharmacy to get some.It is so AWESOME!!!!!Me lurve it so much ^_^

Shu had been sick all day today.It turns out that he is suffering from food poisoning.At first,we thought it was just him overworking himself in the last couple of days.Nope.The symptoms became more and more severe so finally we checked with a doctor and it was true.Food poisoning it was.Cooked for him when we got home from the clinic tonight.Hopefully,he recovers real soon.I'll be driving him again tomorrow to UNITEN coz he has to attend the ROBOGAMEZ event for his Electro-Mechanical System class.

AWESOME!

kisah seorang anak

Aiyo!I really have no idea how the hell some Malaysians got their driver's license!Kalo bawak kereta tuh macam bawak lori!Time nak buat turning dah la takleh dok dalam lane sendiri.Asal la pulak kena makan jalan orang biler nak turn?There is this thing called principles of physics whereby if you actually belajar betol2 time baru nak blaja bawak kete tuh,I wonder if these people know of the fact that the moment you drive pass the point you are going to make your turn,let at least half the body of your car pass the point of turning and you can make a perfect turn.U-turns are designed and measured for cars to make turns with enough space.You don't have to take up space from the lane next to you just to make a turn!Your car is not as big as a lorry or a bus!

And today,I almost lost the side mirror to an idiot's car door coz the idiot opened the door without checking if there were any cars passing by at the time.If the side mirror hit the car door,I would have gave a knuckle sandwich to that idiot for being stupid!

Another thing I notice about some drivers is that they have no plan AT ALL.WTF?!If you drive into a jam like if the lane is narrow and there is another car opposite of yours,think of the best possible way to let one of the 2 cars pass.This can be done by applying a little logic..........if there are any at all...........

microkeratomized

I think I've been doing a bit too much reading on microkeratome that watching the cornea being sliced is nothing new to me anymore ;p Yeah,it does sound gross but after a while,you realize that it's not so bad.The only video and reports I avoid reading or watching is the surgery gone wrong.Eeeeuw!

Hahaha!We had lunch over at that Kelantanese restaurant we used to go to all the time once upon a time early this year.The people there know us and they realize that we haven't been there in a while.We realize that they have their own tees now!

I have been wanting to play the sims for weeks now and Shu finally let me have a go with the Sims 3 on his computer.That was exactly what I needed!I am looking for a way to get a new computer now coz the game runs on computers with really advanced specs.

WHY?????!!!!!!!!

Shu is loving his new room at the new place he and his cousins have moved into.It's actually very cozy ^_^

While killing time yesterday,Shu drove us to the Bentley Music Store in Mutiara Damansara.We each have fallen in love with different acoustic guitars.He tried out this black acoustic guitar.The body looked like Jack Black's customized acoustic guitar from Pick of Destiny.He said the neck is so comfortable.I can't compromise in getting another acoustic guitar since I just got myself one a couple of years ago.What I can consider is a 12-string acoustic guitar like the one Alex (Kapranos) has.I like it coz it has a very metal-ish treble sound which I lurve so much.

At first,Shu wanted to get me the Avril Lavigne edition of Squire but that would be kinda redundant looking at the specs of that guitar compared to my Viper-50.I thought the Deryk edition was neat but the specs were the same so I told Shu not to get it.Squire has some really neat range of electric guitars but I have issues with having too many things.Guitars included.

Told my dad about the 12-string acoustic guitar and he lurves the idea of getting one but not as a hantaran gift.Alrighty!

20 minutes

Shu left his house keys at my house when he left last night.Since my class was late in the evening today,I decided to leave home early and join him for lunch in Bangi.......and pass him his keys as well.It only took me 20 minutes to get from TTDI to UNITEN.It's either the clear traffic or I was simply speeding......nah.......I was doing my usual speed ;)

Anywho,I picked Shu up from the COE and we headed off to lunch.We ended up eating at some western restaurant coz the mall was flooding with people from the offices nearby.Bad idea to be around those people especially during lunchtime.

It's been a while since I drove myself around on my own.Yesterday,I was singing out loud to all the cds I had playing throughout my journey.It was funny coz usually Shu and I would be singing to whatever songs that come to mind regardless if we know the lyrics to them or not.

Shu said I am beginning to sound like Kecik these days :p Just as long as I don't start looking like him I know I'm still on the right track.

Foxburr's brilliant idea

Shu and I are always at KFC buying Tok Mah's food.Today,the both of us decided to do something new to kill time.I dared Shu to pose like the picture of Colonel Sanders behind him.He did.We laughed our heads off and people were totally watching!

movin'

Shu had to move out from the apartment he and his cousins currently live in and move into a different unit on the lower floor.The thing is,he has to vacate the house by Monday.Rushing against time,he and I went over to the apartment to clean up his stuff.His cousins turned up a bit later.We were told that we had to wait till 2pm coz the unit they were moving into is locked and the house owner has the keys and he was only gonna turn up at about 2pm.

So,we waited and packed up more stuff and finally the dude turned up.The new place Shu is moving into is smaller than the one he was living in before.The good thing about moving is that he and his cousins managed to get rid of loads of things which were mostly junk left by either they friends from semesters before or just some random useless things.I don't know about Shu but I find getting rid of things therapeutic.

We cleaned up the new place.Swept the floors,washed them,scrubbed them.Shu washed the bathroom.His cousin cleaned up the kitchen.I did the cleaning in the lounge area.The place is squeaky clean and ready to be moved into.Shu and his cousins carried on moving things slowly into the new place but we'd still have to go back there tomorrow coz there are a lot more things that needs to be moved and arranged.

I had fun cleaning up the place ^_^

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I had trouble trying to get Kecik to compromise with the guidelines of his semi quarantine.He is SUPPOSED to stay in a cage but Shu and I decided to let him out coz we know how much he hates the cage.He is SUPPOSED to wear the cone collar to prevent him from licking his stitches.Unfortunately for Shu and I,Kecik is a wee bit too smart for a cat that he'd easily slip out from the cone collar everytime we put it on him.I can't always push his head away everytime he licks his stitches.

SO.........I have decided to just let him be.Kecik has too much pride and anger and I am trying so hard to not be so rigid.I am going to try to keep an open mind in hope that he won't do anything that would cause anymore damage to himself after this :/

Kecik's surgery

<---Kecik after coming out from surgery with heavy anaesthetic

<---Kecik's tail after surgery

<---Kecik's bitten butt.Suspect that he got it from stealing other cat's girlfriend while mating.

shoppin' again

Shu got home this morning.He was lucky today coz his car got spotted at BHP so he got 80 bux worth of vouchers for fuel free plus a pre-loaded 20 bux touch n go card.All you have to do is have the sticker on your car and turn up at the gas station at the right time.He was just lucky coz we were on our way out and I insisted that he fueled up his car before going to wherever.

My cellphone is dying.It has come to a point whereby charging it just cannot guarantee a full life for the phone anymore.So,Shu decided to get me a new phone.We went hunting from one shop to another and none of the shops had the phone we wanted.We ended up buying the phone from the forth mall we went to today.Well,we finally got me a new phone and it works just fine.

We went around looking at travel luggage bags.We found some really neat ones but didn't buy any of them coz we had to check if my mum had some unused ones back at home.

Went to the park in late in the afternoon.We did some kicking and catching with the rugby ball.I am slowly getting my momentum back but the muscle aches are still there.Once I get back into the regular routine I should be fine ^_^

"band meeting"

Ayie didn't turn up.Kamal showed up in his working outfit (complete with necktie) and he looked so much worse than he usually does.The dude's been looking at the computer (doing work) for 9 hours straight plus a crappy customer who just does not know when to give in........etc..........

Anywho,a new problem has arise.It goes by the name Ayie.Since he's been unemployed these past few months,he's been super unavailable even for meetings.The reason we all turned up tonight was to get our recording tentative straightened out.Kamal,Rashid and I have reached a verdict whereby we shall need Shu as a permanent sessionist<---kinda ironic.

Kamal said that Shu has been performing with RadioEdit more often than Ayie did.I think he meant Shu had been turning up for band meetings more often than Ayie.NVM.The bottom line is,we need to get this straightened out real fast.

Shu has to vacate his apartment by Monday.That means,he's gonna be needing help moving out all his stuff this weekend (or something) For God's sake,he only knew about having to move out last weekend which is rather inconvenient but it needs to be done anyways so I'm here to help at the very least.

There will be lots of changes in plan for my coming wedding in a few months time.We might cut out a whole bunch of things and we might even not have certain things at all.I've decided to put my foot down and Shu will be doing the talking this time around.If we want to keep it the way "we" want it to be then we have to do what ever is necessary.

Oh yeah,my neighborhood came by to give us some fruits and wished us Selamat Hari Raya.I miss the old neighborhood :( We used to know everyone and we'd say hello to everyone.This new place we moved into has somewhat of a brothel (coz it looks like a spa but only guys go in and out of the place) and on the other side,there's a bicycle freak whose always having people going in and out of the house repairing bikes and stuff.

rest in peace nameless kitten

The kitten was lying in an awkward way as though he couldn't get up at all anymore.I got scared.I knew he was dying and there was nothing I could do.Not anymore.The past one week he/she has been with us hopefully helped him/her see the better side of life.

The speculations about the kitten's origin is endless especially now that it is dead.It could have been taken by some irresponsible people and then abandoned.Or.....it could have had a mother and then she died so it was left alone.

Still,the kitten could have died in worse manner like drowning in a drain somewhere or get run over by car(s)........or even get bitten and eaten by dogs or something........

Well,the kitten died at about 11am-ish this morning.

so panas!!!!!

Went running today.Had to stop halfway through coz the heat was getting to me.Then,I decided to shoot some hoops.After a while,I felt like my skin was burning so I stopped and ran home.

Managed to get the big cage out and transfered the nameless kitten into it.He/she seems happier but I guess the noisy part is the just its nature.Bedah seems happy with the bathing salt tub.Fei Mao has been sleeping and Kecik is nowhere to be seen.

Went to see my grand aunt today.She is literally just skin and bones but she still is her old nice self.The one whom we could have decent conversations with.My grandaunties (my dad's aunts) are also sick and they are dying.

Speaking of dying,I have yet to go see Edzuan.His tumor has dispersed throughout his brain cells.He is dying.He's got about 2 more years to go.He's not even 30 (I think).I haven't seen him in a long while anyways.What would I say to him?What would anyone say to a dying person?

A lady who used to be in charge of the female district in the mosque passed away.She helped cleaned my late grand aunty who died years ago.The lady died of blood poisoning.She had parkinsons and she took a whole lot of steroids to stay in control but did not consume enough H2O to dilute it all into her system properly and eventually it clogged up her kidneys.

We'll be heading over to Aunty Intan's place later.Tomorrow is her late son's 20th birthday (Izwan) I hope all goes well for her.

*Later passed*

We'll head for the jamming studio tomorrow night.Our recording session should begin on Monday but we still have loads of lose ends to tie up before jumping into the recording studio.Ayie is still unemployed and looking for a job so he might not make it for some of the recording sessions.......or something........

Aunty Intan cooked a whole lot of food tonight.Deserts included.Everyone was home (Farah and Faizal) so we had quite a lot to talk about.I'd say that went well.

making new friends

This is a kitten my aunt picked up from Uda.His name is Baby.He is ever so manja and so very chomel.I think he went through a series of culture shock when we arrived coz usually there's no one at home.Looking at his teeth,he is definitely NOT a year old yet but definitely more than 4 months old coz his eyes are gold in color.

Kecik is orange in color with white stripes.Baby was something different.Grey with black stripes and instead of having pink-ish paws,his was black.His nose is black in color as well.He is chomel and so playful.

happier at home

I don't know WTF is up with everyone throughout the entire journey to JB and back.Everyone seem to be angry and hostile and for some strange reason I seem to have a target painted on my forehead.That really sucks.I am so glad to be home.This is where my life is.

I am not at all a fan of Hari Raya and therefore I shall not be entertaining or visiting.I don't know if it's a Malay thing or it's just Malaysians.Year after year,they keep doing the same thing and year after year,things get so much worse than before.Dude,it's just Hari Raya.What's the rush?And I really don't understand people who'd come over and not leave.Don't they have some other places to go?

My brothers,my sister and I do not entertain kids below the age of 10 because we not only know them but we don't see why we should give them cash freely.I do not open the door to them nor anyone whom I do not know regardless if they have a baju raya on or not.

I am so happy to know that my cats and kitten and hamster are alive and well and crazy and weird as usual.Damn!Fei Mao was freaking out over a rag on the floor last week!WTF is wrong with that cat?!And today,she was at my room door.When I let her in,she was so shocked to see my sister behind the opened cupboard door and started freaking out like she's never seen her before.Kecik was starving.

A little misunderstanding happened while we were out of town.It really is annoying to have too many variables involved in one little favor.Glad that is solved.

I am so going out tomorrow morning.

noble

Kak Yah did a very noble deed by cleaning up the little kitten.It turns out that the little thing was crying all night coz she was all covered in dirt and there were ants biting her.I was gonna clean her up but I got up super late so by the time I got up,Kak Yah had already done the cleaning.If you touch her tummy,you can feel the bones on the tiny body of that kitten.I have a feeling we'll be keeping the kitten after all.She's so chomel but she's too tiny to be left on her own.She's cold and always hungry especially since it's been raining today.But overall,I think she's doing so better than yesterday ^_^

Anywho,Shu's bus left at about 11:30am-ish this morning and he only got home in Terengganu at about 7:30pm-ish.That is SUCH A LONG TIME!

not a fosterer

I try very hard to not pick up cats or kittens from anywhere and make them believe that they can have a home here with me.It never works.The cats living behind my house seem to think that I am the one to call when they get hungry.The chomel grey cat even sits outside my bedroom window!Kecik and Fei Mao hates that cat.I don't mind her but she tends to make a lot of noise.

Earlier today,Aunty Intan asked Shu and I to take a kitten from her house and leave it somewhere where it won't go be able to go back to her house.The thing is,the kitten is very VERY tiny.It was hungry and cold and dirty and smelly.I couldn't just toss it out in the rain.It could get hit by a car.Or it could get attacked by other cats or dogs.Or it could end up drowning in some drain.

So,I took it home,fed it and let it stay in a cage so that it won't spread whatever disease it has to my other cats.Eventhough my mum doesn't like the idea of adopting another cat/kitten,she couldn't let that poor thing go out all alone in the rain.What she told me to do is to take that kitten to the vet tomorrow morning to get it cleaned up and possibly vaccinated and then think of what we're gonna do with it later on.

As much as I hate the idea,I figured that the safest place for it to go to would be SPCA.I cannot imagine what will happen to these cats and kittens once I get married and move out.I know that Shu doesn't want to leave Kecik (and Bedah the hamster) behind no matter where we go.

Speaking of Bedah,I decided to splurge some cash on her and got her some carrot cakes and bath salt.I feel sorry for her coz she's been all by herself for the longest time.But since hamsters can recognize their relatives,I figured she won't feel so alone nowadays.At least not anymore ^_^

Kecik,on the other hand,has a serious superiority complex.He refuses to sleep on the floor or any non-carpeted floor.His ultimate decisions would be my parent's bed or my tatami or maybe Qarim's bed or the sofa bed downstairs where he'd usually fight over which side to sleep on with Shu.

colored

Hahaha!I have a good mind to give that red streak a go.No perming,no rebonding.Just down right straight streaked!Hahaha!Very VERY emo-punk-ish!Me likey!

Getting your hair colored yourself can be really3 messy.My forehead is blue.Parts of my arms are blue.I stained the room floor and the sink.My fingers and fingernails and my ears are blue.Hahahahahaha!!!!! I'm blue dabadeedabadiedabadeedabadie..........

*sigh*

I am supposed to go get some stuff from the tailor but now that a lot of plans have changed,I have no idea if I am supposed to go.Shu insists that I alter the kain of the baju his mom had made for me.That and the kebaya top I got last weekend.It looks big-ish and kebaya nyonyas aren't supposed to be loose.

*double sigh*

anything but Muhammad Kelmo

I am so exhausted.Went over to the bus station in the morning coz Shu needed to get a ticket to go home for Hari Raya on Friday.With much deliberation,he finally decided to get one.We headed over to Putrajaya.Went to watch a movie at Alamanda.Then,we made reservations for buka puasa over at Rimba Klasik.To kill time,we headed over to Mines Shopping Mall.Walked around for a bit.Went to the game arcade.Then,we went looking for a pet store all over Bangi coz we needed to get cat litter.We ended up getting it at a pet store over in Uptown Damansara after buka.

As usual,we prayed maghrib over at the UNITEN library.Today wasn't so scary.There were other girls there at the surau so I didn't feel so alone ^_^ I need to do something about my gastric pains.It is getting from bad to worse.

Amcorp Mall,Aman Suria & One Utama

People tell me that it's ok for me to eat a little and put on a little more weight.Putting on weight is not the issue for me.It's the problem it brings later on.Aaina once said that putting on weight would mean that she'd get to shop for new clothes.Shopping is interesting but getting the perfect jeans is always,ALWAYS,ALWAYS a problem for me.To avoid having to go jeans hunting,I figured it is probably just safer to maintain my weight coz losing weight could also be a problem.Haha!

Mum and dad and Shu insisted that I get a kebaya coz I already have baju kurungs.The thing about baju kurungs is that they are very convenient to wear.Kebayas are more formal eventhough I am a sucker for Nyonya Kebayas.I got one whole set anyways.White with loads of beads so it falls nicely :)

Shu said he wants to help me color my hair one of these days.

I've been doing some thinking on the bands I want to have on my wedding day.The one band I really3 want to play live at my wedding would be my band but since I am the vocalist and that I shouldn't be performing at my reception,I figured I should find that old man who played the violin and keyboards over at Aunty Tipah's restaurant the other night.OR......I could let either Rashid or Ayie or Kamal sing :p I am not going to open up slots for other bands to play other than the ones I have in mind ^_^ Also,I already have a playlist in my head of the songs I want to be played throughout the function.

Stage@Mid Valley Megamall

Shu and I went out and since I couldn't really decide where to go,he drove us to Sunway Pyramid.Looking at the crowd and the number of cars going into the mall parking lot,we just had to bail.I couldn't think of where to go next so Shu decided to head over to Mid Valley Megamall coz the both of us haven't been there in a long while.

Shu was looking for a pair of jeans and I was still hunting for make up.We found a Stage outlet.I lurve that place.Although,my sister said that looking at the price I paid for the stuff I bought today,I might as well bought stuff at M.A.C..For some strange reason,I'd go for Bobbi Brown over M.A.C. inspite of the price difference.

Anywho,I got stuff from Stage and I'm happy with them ^_^

We went in and out of stores looking for Shu's jeans.We found some interesting looking ones but something about them did not make them the perfect pair so Shu changed his mind to buying a shirt instead.We finally made a stop at SEED and he found this shirt which we both agreed on.I could have sworn in was brownish in the shop but when we got home,I took another look at the shirt and it was grey-ish.Still,it's a really nice shirt ;)

low octane number=less cash needed

Initially,I was thinking of getting on with my Confessions of a Ma'mum Tarawikh but after the conversation we had during the drive to Subang Jaya a while ago,I'd rather just talk about the so called RON 95.What people don't know and most probably don't care and won't see is that the octane number of the fuel is low.That means the combustion process will not be as effective as fuel with higher Research Octane Number (such as the RON 97).

Yeah,it's cheap but it's low quality and in the long run,users would end up spending more than what they think they save from the fuel price coz a whole lot part of the fuel is not used up.Instead,it goes out to waste (through the exhaust system).You're definitely gonna need more fuel then.

Of course,normal cars (non high performance cars) can use the RON 95.But in the long run,it can cause knocking to the engine and the car would be underpowered.So,if you already drive an underpowered car,you're gonna need more fuel coz the RON 95 would not help giving more power to the engine.

Therefore,users of RON 95 really need to think about how much they love their cars (engines) in the long run coz unless you are prepared to get it overhauled,you'd better just be extra careful with what you feed your engines.

But guess what,the RON 95 is the major fuel used throughout the country.What better ways to live than to be the citizen of a country that literally rips off the rights of tax payers.Take a look around.Why do you think the roads break easily and there are potholes at almost every other kilometre of the road?And what exactly are you paying for when you purchase a "nasional" car?

Chanel@One Utama

I am so hooked to the eye shadow base and the make up base.It's so awesome!I am very picky with colors but make up bases (and eye shadow bases) are really neat things and very hard to find coz sometimes the brands I find irritates my skin and I can feel it on my skin which is so not good.

The jeans over at Original Fake looked awesome ;)

Anywho,I woke up to my cellphone ringing.Shu called me to tell me that my grandma got mugged at the traffic light near my house.It must have been noon-ish.In broad daylight.Indian guys.2 of 'em.They broke the car window on the passenger's side and took my grandma's bag and ran across the street to his bike and left.She lost about MYR6K.The window costs MYR350.It took the shop a long time to clean up every piece of glass in the car.

Shu and I realized that we really love cooking especially in the weekends ^_^ Mum usually hates it coz she won't be able to use her kitchen till we're done so the timing must be just right :p

Kecik oh Kecik

Kak Yah said that he came home yesterday afternoon with a bleeding tail.He still just ate and ran off.I think he's got a girlfriend.And I think he's been gaduh-ing with the other cats in the neighbourhood.Trying to be a gangster kampung yang tak menjadi.Hahahahaha!

I just think he was upset last night that he came home and headed straight for my room.He didn't even bother about food.He slept with me on my tatami all night.Today,he kept manja-ing around me and then he left.

He definitely has a girlfriend!

Initially,I was going about to kutuk-ing people who put other people's lives in danger on the road and then I got mixed up with kutuk-ing Malaysian made cars in general.Now,I'm not so sure where to start so I'm just gonna save it for a whole new entry later or something.

Dr. Asem said that I still look sick so he wanted to postpone my exam till next month *batting eyelashes* That either means good news coz I'm gonna have more time to study or just bad news coz I might have other things to do next month.Hahahahahaha!!!!!

I am on my 2 weeks vacation already!

A-Saloon@Sunway Pyramid

I finally got my hair done.I totally splurged (Shu paid about half) but it was so worth it!It's not that I do this often and the price at that place was just as much as I would pay at the usual hair salon I go to.Plus,each customer had a computer at their seats so that we can surf the net while getting our hair done.How awesome is that?!

Hahaha!My sister told me about the place last night so I figured I should just go check it out ^_^

Spent most of the day sleeping.Not quite sure what time it was.........hahahaha...........

I've been getting tummy aches all day so Shu got me some magnesium liquid.No,we didn't bother going to the clinic today.Not this time.I think I have spent a little too much time there and I have been swallowing way too many kinds of meds.I think I need to stop.It's messing up my entire system!

DOOSHITE?!!!!!

This happens everytime I go shopping.Well,almost all the time.Shu and I went to check the Adidas all-trerrain shoes and they don't have it in my size!WTF?!!!!!We went over to ALDO to check out the boots and they don't have it in my size either!WTF?!!!!!

I am gonna get on the next flight to Australia to get those Ugg boots if I have to!

Fiat had this exhibition on in Ikano.I spotted the Fiat 500 and immediately fell in love with it!IT IS SO AWESOME!UNFORTUNATELY,the manual transmission is not released here in this country.Only semi autos are sold.Semi autos suck coz there are too many complications and it is super sensitive!I would know.And of course,the semi auto maintenance could lead you to having to pay it all through your nose!

I love the Fiat 500.........next to the Ford Focus 2007 of course.........and the Mini Cooper S.I think the only Japanese car I like or could like is the EK9.........and the Integra.

WHY?!!!!!!!

Anywho,the good thing that happened today was that we finally got my engagement ring resized.It was actually 2 sizes bigger than my finger.Now,it fits perfectly ^_^

Oh yeah,we managed to go to fish spa.It was really fun.Ticklish.Very ticklish at first but later on it became very soothing.

kill me if you dare

I was kept up all night by the dissatisfaction of Tokio Hotel's end product of the Automatic video.I really don't like their songs in English and the video was awful.I expected something a whole lot more since it was after all shot in South Africa!

I don't feel like I've been fasting at all these days.I was throwing up since morning so mum told me to fill my tummy out before I started going overboard with all the gastric juice.This month had been the worst month ever.I am always hungry and my health has gone way down.I feel like a vegetable most of the time.

Went to IKEA with Shu coz he wanted to get those curry puffs they make.We bumped into CT.Haven't seen that girl in ages.Most of my school friends remember Shu from my 17th birthday bash.Shu wasn't so sure on who is who so he was surprised to hear CT say that she remembers him.

Anywho,I am still on a fashion hunt.Been going in and out of stores looking for a pair of knee high boots.I lurve them Ugg boots but until I can get myself to Australia anytime soon,I'm gonna have to just find whatever around here.I fell in love with some of the boots over at ALDO.

Shu and I have a list of things to buy once Hari Raya is over.He wants to get an RC car.I figured I should get some new wheels for the skateboard and just practise till I can no longer take the fall anymore.

Mum will be heading to Bandung sometime in November.I'm planning to tag along since I won't have anything to do then.Hahaha!I'm hoping Shu will come along so that we can get our wedding invitation card done there.I am so getting some kain batiks!

Not So Quarantined:Day6

Got earlier than the last 2 days but it was still late.I could have gotten more sleep if Fei Mao didn't make so much noise about wanting to come into my room and all.

*sigh*

Anywho,I was out and about with Shu.We went to the mall for a bit coz I needed to get shampoo.Rashid had been using my shampoo and I only used it once or twice and I found the bottle empty.Not very happy about that.

We went to check out the RC store coz Shu is planning on getting one after raya.Those things are supercool but I need a whole stash of cash and passion to get started on it.I think I'm gonna watch and observe and learn more about those things before actually getting one myself.

I went snooping around the rabbit's cage at the pet store next door.I got bitten by one of those things.Thank God its teeth was not sharp!Then,I looked at the hamsters and the fish and we left.

We got some takoyakis!YEY!We're always around that takoyaki shop eating and chatting away and we haven't been there in a while so today,we decided to get some for buka ^_^

Oh!I saw these awesome pair of Adidas all-terrain crosstrainers!ME WANT IT!

We went to get some stuff for my mum and then we did some food shopping and headed home.We walked quite a lot today.I could tell by how painful my knee tendon hurts.Hahahaha!I am gonna need one of those sonotron treatments again one of these days.I am also in major need of endless workout routines!

Not so Quarantined:Day 5

I've been going out......with my mask on,of course.It does get pretty darn boring staying in.Went out for a drink last night.It was pretty funny.I did quite a lot of things yesterday considering the fact that I got up at 3pm.Haha!

As usual,Shu and I were experimenting in the kitchen.Our experiment worked!Hahahaha!

Quarantined:Day 4

I took a walk outside last night.I got so sick of staying in.I stayed up till morning watching TV.Shu is planning to sneak me out later while my folks are out ;)

My being infected should not be kept.I should use this opportunity to spread this virus to the world.Let's start with my university since I hate that place so much.I should cough and sneeze everywhere beginning with the medical unit and then the admin.Oh!I should have done this since I first got the results!

instead of being sick and locked up all by myself

I figured maybe I should go out and spread the virus tomorrow and let the whole world fall sick.Why waste this opportunity to do something for the world?

Hahahahahahahaaaa!!!!!!!!!<---evil laugh

Shu has been hugging and kissing and temaning me eat and talking to me and sometimes he doesn't even wear a mask.I cried to him today.I can't take this anymore.He offered to sneak me out today but we didn't coz my folks were around.He wanted to take me to the park.

It's not like I could kill someone.I could kill myself most likely coz I am still in a recovering state but seriously,does it really take a whole 7 days to keep me in?I don't want to take those fluhalt pills anymore coz seriously,they could kill me.I was fine before I started taking them.Yeah,I had a temperature and some head throbbing at times but after 2 days (1 day actually) it was gone and I am fine.My nose is stuck coz I cried not because of some flu.

I'm gonna start sneezing out the window and see what's gonna happen ^_^

Quarantined:Day 3

Food does NOT taste or feel good goin up your throat and out your mouth.It works better the other way around.

It is just unfortunate for me to have made the 1% of people who would have adverse reactions towards those fluhalt capsules!I threw up 4 times yesterday.Twice after popping a pill after a meal.I just popped one today and I think I'm gonna go AGAIN.I want to stop taking it but the docs tell me that those are the vital meds I have to consume.Well,guess what........if I do throw up after this,I ain't takin' no more pills and I am gonna stop this whole quarantine game coz I am fine!

I am sick of staying in,watching a lightning-free rain go by from my window.I am sick of not being able to run around freely in the sun.My cat misses me!They look at me weird when I see them with a mask on my face and they wonder why I haven't left my room at all.

*I threw up already*

I think mum is gonna take me to the hospital.I'm waiting for Shu.

This is sick.The pills actually make me sick!

I need to get my hair washed!

automatisch by tokio hotel

Wenn du lachst

Lachst du nicht

Wenn du weinst

Weinst du nicht

Wenn du fühlst

Fühlst du nichts

Weil du ohne Liebe bist

A long awaited album.Finally the first single is out.I think I've been listening to it millions of times over within the last couple of days that I keep hearing it playing in my head.

I have put one thing on my list of things to do as soon as I can leave the premises.I wanna go do my hair BIG TIME!

Shu has plans for buka puasa sessions outside while mum and Aunty Intan has plans to take me to the place in KL to have me try on some wedding gowns.

They (Aunty Intan and mum) actually bought me a pink cotton baju kurung with sakura prints all over it.It's so preeeeeetty but when I saw the tag with the size XS,I didn't think I'd fit it.I wear a size S for ready made baju kurungs but I've never tried XS.Luckily,the baju kurung fits me.

Hahaha!Shu made a funny remark about that.He says that he wears XL while I wear XS.Hurmm......and the miss XS is the one who is always up for tackling mister XL in rugby games.The plan usually fails.Shu would just walk pass me without any problems.

P.S.: NEVER EVER poke your hamster they are asleep.Mine bit me and when I pulled my hand away she flew right out from her home onto my room floor.My right finger is bleeding a little :p

Quarantined:Day 2

Just as I thought things were gonna get better,I accidentally cut myself from opening the crab shell while I was eating yesterday.I was happily enjoying the crab Shu bought me and I was telling Shu that breaking the shell open was the calming part of the eating process and I cut myself.I didn't see it at first so I carried on eating.I stopped and felt totally grossed out when I saw blood flowing down my palm.EUW!

It's horrible to know that every part of me has to be sanitized.I know that I am only at the first stage of the viral infection and any healthy person who touches me must wash their hands after doing so and that if I were to talk to anyone they must wear a mask just as much as I have to.All the tissues and whatever things I have used must be disposed separately and carefully.

Shu helped send my MC to my lecturers and my course department earlier today.I don't know what I'd do without him.This is so weird.I am trying very hard to stay ok and I am trying my best to get better but my quarantine period is still a week.I sometimes feel fine.So fine that I could probably go running in the park.Sometimes,my body temperature hikes up and that gives me the throbbing headache which really3 sucks.

I miss laughing with Shu and who ever who passes by at the dining table downstairs.I miss making fun of people on the road as well as my siblings.I miss picking on Rashid and grossing him out so much that he'd whack me.I miss listening to my sister going nuts over little things.Today was the first time I saw Kak Yah in 2 days.I haven't seen my grandma and I don't think she knows my condition.

Shu has spent his time thinking of things to do once my quarantine period is over.Actually,I haven't quite thought of what I'd wanna do just yet.I spend way too much time laughing at my hamster whenever she falls asleep.She sleeps in very strange positions and sometimes she'd get nightmares.

I really want this all to be over ASAP!

Quarantined:Day 1

I was super fine this morning.Finally got to shower and washed my hair and all.I was on the phone with Shu (who was in UNITEN) and we were laughing about something he accidentally blurted out to his project supervisor.Hahahahaa!!!!!Awang Goneng betul!

As time passed,I think it must have been about 2pm-ish,my head and my entire body starting throbbing (aching).That was so painful that I wanted God to just pull the plug on me coz I couldn't take it.Finally,I passed out.I was super hungry when I got up so my mum prepared some food for me to eat downstairs.

I had to eat coz I can't take the meds on an empty stomach.Right after I drank down a Ponstan capsule,I went to bathroom to brush my teeth and I totally threw up.I think the pill went right back out.

Anywho,I feel better now.Shu is on his way back here.He went to get himself checked and he is cleared.Thank God!I am trying my very best to stay away from my mum coz her lungs are fragile.Can't do that much coz she's the house doctor so she has to monitor me.So,we'd usually have our masks on when we talk and we'd keep our distance (which is so funny) I am trying to stay away from Azim coz he's sick.I definitely have to avoid my grandmother.

So that basically leaves me with my hamster.She's so chomel when she yawns............

this looks like fun

oseltamivir phosphate capsules

aka Fluhalt capsules.

Description:

Fluhalt capsule 75mg contains oseltamivir phosphate which is a white crystaline solid with the chemical name (3R,4R,5S)-4 acetylmino-5-amino-3(1-ethylpropoxy)-1-cyclohexenes-1-carboxylic acid,ethyl ester,phosphate (1:1).The chemical formula is C16H28N2O4 (free base)The molecular weight is 312.4 for oseltamivir free base and 410.4 for oseltamivir phosphate salt.

I was tested positive for influenza A but not H1N1.So,I have been quarantined for 7 days.It's only been about an hour and I already feel sick.I have my hamster in my room.She's funny and fun to watch.Fei Mao was here a while ago.I have to stay in my room for most of the day.Especially when there are lots of people around.

This is weird.I am stuck in my room in a house full of people.I can only see Shu at my room door with my mask on :( This sucks.I already feel weird enough when he's not around.This is super weird!I know that I have been to so many places in the last couple of days.Can't really be sure where I picked up the virus from :/

I am probably going to spend my days in the room playing Sims or I'm just going to do some whacking at www.whackyourboss.com ^_^

My muscles are aching.I really wanna believe that its caused by my sudden stop in playing outdoor games............

the worst part about being sick

is basically being sick.I hate being sick.It's a waste of time and energy and money.The doctors have confirmed me as an anaemic case.My blood pressure was super low but not as low as last year.My temperature was high since last night.My feet and hands are freezing cold and my head throbs every now and then.

If tonight's h1n1 swab test returns positive,I won't be only one who is going to be quarantined.Shu had been with me all day.We would probably end up getting quarantined together.......along with the rest of my household of course.That could also mean that my grandma and my dad's friend and my sister and Rashid cannot come home or they'd end up getting quarantined just as well.

I hope it's just fever.I'm gonna have to change my diet BIG TIME!

delivery mishap

My grandma wanted to belanja everyone makan fast food yesterday.For those who eat such things,of course they are psyched about it.I had to eat proper food for breakfast.The delivery boy went missing and mum got so annoyed coz the delivery was delayed by about 45 minutes.She kept calling the number she called but the person at the other end of the phone kept saying that the delivery was on the way and had been on the way.Finally,the delivery boy called my mum himself asking for the house address.The office was notified that we moved from the previous address but they didn't tell the delivery boy.WTF?!Just minutes before breakfast,the delivery arrived.Mum was pissed and worried in case the orders didn't turn up at all coz she didn't cook nor did she buy any food for every else at home.

Did I mention that there's so many of us living at home at the moment?Qarim has his friend over.My brothers are home.Shu and Ash are here too.And my dad's friend who is always here for dinner.

Anywho,after all that commotion,all of us had a movie to catch at 8:50pm.So basically,after eating,everyone rushed to pray and get themselves cleaned up for the movie.

Shu and I picked the perfect day to get into trouble,of course.It started with the bag Shu bought for me.I saw it yesterday and we went to check it out and Shu said he wanted to get it for me.So much for telling Shu that mum shouldn't find out how much it costs.I accidentally left the receipt on the table while emptying my pockets when we got home.She wasn't happy about it at all :/

Of course,among the other things we got into trouble for went on later in the evening.I am currently coming down with a fever.No idea why........

shoppin'

Once in a while,my sister and my mum would drag me to go for a girls only shopping trip.It's strange coz they'd always push me to buy something and when I'm not looking for anything specific,I can't really buy anything.

First,my mum told us that she wants to get an outfit which can be used for my wedding.She said I can't buy anything coz I already have my wedding outfit tailored.Then,she insisted that I buy something.WTF?!

The worst part about shopping is if you are looking for something and the item is either unavailable or just out of stock.That was exactly what happened to me while looking for some things at the pharmacy today.

Then,my mum wanted to go check out a department stall at the other end of the mall.So we went ahead and walked all the way there.She still couldn't find her baju but insisted that I got something.Just to please her,I got this off-shoulder-ish,boatneck-ish black top.My sister almost got herself the same thing in pink but didn't.That would have been weird.We were in the same fitting room and trying out the same outfit in different colors.Haha!

At the end of the day,my mum got something from her favourite store,my sister got her stuff from the Bodyshop and I got myself a black top.I wouldn't say it was totally unproductive.We did get something somewhere along the way ^_^

HotStuff,Ara Damansara

I kinda like that studio.It's new and cozy.I just have problems lookin' for a parking space coz the place is ever so packed.Where do these people come from anyways???

It's been quite a while since we last went jamming.We couldn't even play Celebrity Skin and Mental Vacation properly.I know......double-you-tee-eff-question mark-question mark.Our always-had-been-in-major-need-of-practise song would be Take Away.Tonight was funny.Kamal totally forgot the parts and he couldn't quite figure out his solo.Ayie looked at me and then I looked at Rashid and we looked at Kamal and he was just playing stuff on his guitar which was something which had never in the song.

My major bumness was singing MCR's I Don't Love You.I wasn't sure what I was singing and the chords I played were pretty much messed up.Seriously,what did I sing?

BTW,Kamal was sort of attacked by a dude when he was hanging out with his friend.There was some misunderstanding about the attacker and the dude he was chillin' with.The dude was attacked with a pocketknife.Kamal's friend managed to avoid the blade but Kamal's reflex just made him catch the knife.The dude pulled the thing and it cut Kamal's palm.Out of self defense,Kamal kicked the dude and managed to break his leg.

*Kamal used to be in the taekwondo team back in school*

I have no idea if they made a police report about it coz I only heard what ever I heard and I only got the proper story from Rashid coz Kamal told the story in the studio :/

We met Alim while we had a band discussion over at a mamak in TTDI.Haven't seen that dude in ages.Kamal said that Abang K'rol wants to see us all one of these days.Haven't seen him in ages either.

productivity report:error

Hahaha!

My plan to spend my entire Saturday doing nothing was a success!Got up really3 late and I stayed in my room till it was almost 4pm playing games on my computer.I finally went downstairs to feed the hamster and played with Kecik for a bit.I think I didn't even step foot outside my house compound today.I did drive my mum and my sister to get some food stuff but I never got out of the car ;)

My knee/right leg hurts.I'm gonna have to get it checked AGAIN.I'm gonna have to work on my landing each time I fall.I'd do power slides on my knees when I play badminton.I'd fall while skating.I do a lot of climbing and running around........funny,I don't recall falling whenever I go running.Oh yeah,there was that time when I used to tackle Shu when we play rugby :p

Speaking of falling.A girl fell coz the floor was so slippery when we were at Yankie's Hut.We didn't hear her fall or what ever.A lady from the family sitting in the bigger hut not far from where we were saw her and called her friends.The poor girl was crying.The only thing that went through my mind at the time was that it totally killed time to watch her friends helping her coz we still had a few minutes more before breaking fast ^_^

Anywho,Kamal wants to go jamming today.Rashid and I opted to go later at about 10pm coz it was a really bad idea to be in Subang Jaya at about 5pm-ish.We're gonna try out a different studio tonight over in Ara Damansara.

Mona Lisa

Here's another pity there's another chance

Try to learn a lesson but you can't.

If we can burn a city in futures and in past,

without a change our lives will never last.

Cause' we're going fast.

You can sit beside me when the world comes down, if it doesn't matter

then just turn around.

We don't need our bags and we can just leave town.

You can sit beside me when the world comes down.

What can we do better, when will we know how? A man says from a

sidewalk to a crowd.

If we can change the weather, if you want it to yourself.

If you cannot guess we all need help, yeah, I need help.

We say

We do

The lies

The truth

All I need is next to me.

Mmmmmmmmm yeahhhhh we're going fast.

You can sit beside me when the world comes down, if it doesn't matter

then just turn around.

You be the queen and i'll be your clown,

You can sit beside me when the world comes down.

Yankie's Hut@Bangi

Shu wanted to break fast with me today.Just the two of us.He was telling me about this place where we can makan atas pokok which he wanted to take me to since my birthday last year.The problem was the place only opens at 5pm onwards so we couldn't go at the time.Today,we went there at about 4pm to make reservations and ordered food and left.We came back at about 7pm.

We chose to eat at one of the private huts.Small.Just enough to fit about 4-5 people.We'd have to take our shoes off and sit on the floor to eat.It's really nice and cosy.Since it was raining,we had to be extra careful in climbing up to the hut coz the stairs were quite steep and narrow and the platforms from one base to another was quite far apart.Each hut was given a mosquito repellent coil thingy which was good coz when we ordered the food earlier,we were bitten by mosquitos.

By the time we got to our hut,the food was already served on the table.The dishes were rice dishes.Perfect coz Shu and I have been eating nasi bungkus like nasi kerabu for a few days and I,particularly,was craving for white rice for quite sometime.We had to pay a deposit of MYR50 and if our bill exceeds that amount,we'd only have to top up a bit more.

The Cendawan Goreng Tepung was awesome!Like AWESOME awesome!

I had a blast.Later on,we prayed in UNITEN (the library surau)

you either do a background check or just get one of your own

Went to watch Orphan today.FINALLY.I think the movie rawked.It could scare the shit outta you and it is seriously creepy and bloody and somewhat sick.Shu and I enjoyed it.We were just wondering if Kecik would ever turn out to be like that.........hurmm...........

I was feeling all sick today.Been having nightmares for 2 days in a row.Yesterday,I had a hard time sleeping after Subuh prayers.I always have problems falling asleep and when I really3 need to sleep,I'd get disturbing dreams like having loads of baby scorpions in the house.Those clear colored little things turned green when I squished them (in the dream).That scared the shit outta me.Then,as I was desperately trying to fall asleep when I got home today,I had a bad dream about not having my guitar with me for one of those open mic sessions.I not only had to borrow a guitar which was an acoustic guitar but I didn't bring any of my cables as well.That sucked!

My right leg is hurting again.I have a feeling it's caused by the cold.The Sonotron treatment I went to helped but it relaxed my muscles with heat.The cold air conditioning in the movie theater must have caused the pain.Plus,my body was extremely cold and my fingers turned blue due to not enough food.It's fasting month!DUH!

Shu has exams today.One was at 4pm which his lecturer turned out to be a no show.He studied all night for that test!He has another paper now.I hope he'll do alright.He said that since the Selangor Sultan wanted to buka puasa at his university,all the parking lots were closed and he had to park so far away and walked through the rain.What a pain!

My lecturer was going about the stupidity of my university for not having it closed down.He said he had a student from another section come in with a 4-day MC from the medical center.She was quarantined for H1N1.She's supposed to be quarantined for a minimum of 7 days.Not 4.It turns out that she was one out of about 40+ people to have been suspected of being infected.We can only do so much to take extra precaution for ourselves and the people around us.We can't do much if the authorities don't cooperate.Hell,I wonder if they even bother!

FidZy's history with pets and animals in general

When I was little (I think I must have been about 4 and living in Shah Alam),I used to have a tiny cat named Kitty which later became known as Tapai (thanks to my mum) I think she died.That was also about the time when I got chased by a mother hen coz she thought I was trying to steal her chick!

Then,I had a cat named Tiger.Black with black stripes.Ili,Dini,my sister,Jojo and I thought he was a female cat so we called him Tiger Lily.Later,he became known as Tiger.I've always wanted a dog but I wasn't allowed to keep one so I decided to train it to be dog-like.Funny.It worked.I think he must have been taken by someone in the neighbourhood coz he just never came home after a while.Some years later,I saw him at a street not too far from where I lived.

After that,I had a pet chick.It kept following me around the house.One day,I came home and found it dead.I think the cats around the neighbourhood must have killed it.Someone let him/her out while I was in school.I was so upset when I got home.

Later on,I got myself a pet tortoise.I didn't keep it for too long.I found it dead when I got home from school one day.My maid filled up the aquarium with water that it had nowhere to hang on to for air and time out.It basically drowned.I wasn't too happy about that either.

When I was in secondary school,I got myself some hamsters.Fun to have but they smelled really3 bad!The first batch died.Can't remember how.The second batch of hamsters began with a Syrian hamster my uncle found running around the street outside my house.I decided to keep it.Later on,I got him a mate and she gave birth.I think he ran off and she died (or something).I could only remember one of her kids.A brown colored dwarf hamster I called Frodo.I think my mum accidentally fried him and his siblings out in the hot sun coz she thought she wanted to dry them :/.Of course,I was in school at the time.

After that,Kak Yah kept this cat she called Lubis (no idea what it really means).An orange cat.Looks a bit like Kecik but she was round.Hahaha!That cat gave birth to 2 kittens.One named Ben and the other named Spot (I named her after Lt. Comm. Data's cat).Spot and I used to be close friends.Until she got spayed and decided to get all tensed up.She wasn't too fun anymore after that.Both,Ben and Spot died.

Then,Fei Mao came along.She was very little.Eventually,she was old enough to get pregnant and got 3 kittens-Bubu aka The Paranoid One,Mew and Leo.Leo was taken by someone.He just went missing.Fei Mao still lives with us.She and her 2 kids still do.Kecik was an addition coz Shu and I got bored and wanted a cat of our own.We were supposed to have Ophelia (a siamese mixed breed cat which was given to me by Aaina's sister's friend).She ran off.Shu and I got so mad that we resorted to driving around TTDI hunting for a cat that can be kidnapped (catnapped).

Eventually,we gave up and headed for PAWS.It was closed when we got there so we went to SPCA and found Kecik.He was clinging onto the cage crying out "PICK ME!PICK ME!" so we took him home with us.He's alright.......minus the part where he is always eye-ing on Bedah (the Winter Dwarf hamster) after everything that happened some days ago which almost got Bedah killed!

Shu and I sometimes get really upset with Kecik coz he likes to go missing and pretend not to know us when we call him so we'd spend our time designing and creating and redecorating Bedah's new home.I was helping her peel off the Sunflower Seeds for her to eat ^_^

more holidays

My schedule have seem to get clearer and clearer as the weeks go by.I seem to have less and less things to do and the strangest part is that I am getting very comfortable with it ;)

Shu and I changed our numbers today.The previous service provider we used sucked and the coverage is hopeless.The new service provider has full bar coverage everywhere we gone to so far.The rates are sickly cheap!We lurve it!LURVE love it!LURVE IT!!!!!!

Oh yeah,our hamster's name is Bedah (bay-da-h) MUAHAHAHAAHAHAHAA!!!!She's so chomel and kecik and Kecik has been trying to get his claws on that little rodent since yesterday's incident.He's been watching and staring and lying around looking at her all day.Fei Mao did show a little interest but she'd usually run off when spotted doing such kitty things.

Mum took us out for ice cream to celebrate Shu's birthday at Swensen's.I like that place.I like the ice cream and the food is nice ^_^

I hope Shu enjoyed his share of thin mint chocolate crunch :)

Happy Birthday,Foxburr-san!!!!!!

P.S.: Ada orang tuh pakai kasut baru!!!!!!!! ;p

Happy Birthday,Foxburr-san!

We actually got ourselves a dwarf hamster today!It was supposed to be Kecik's playmate.The hamster was supposed to role around in the plastic ball and Kecik was supposed to run after it.What happened instead was Kecik somehow managed to get the hamster place opened and he almost ran off with the hamster in his mouth.The hamster is a female and she still remains un-named :p

Happy birthday,Shu!I hope you like your present! ^_^ I might need more time on your birthday card coz it is still a work in progress.Happy birthday!

Happy be-Early Birthday,Foxburr-san!

Went to the mosque last night.A kid lead the Tarawikh prayers.I like how he read the Quranic verses but my mum found him a bit too slow.It was fun though eventhough it was just Shu,mum and I.Tonight,Shu took Azim and Rashid along.I had a horrible tummy ache.Actually,its been hurting since yesterday.

Went to the mall to get Shu's birthday present.We were actually browsing for a pair of knee-high boots for me.We also found ourselves in a soundproof room singing to random songs at the karaoke cube thingy.It's funner there compared to the place where we went the other day.

Kecik's been home today.FINALLY!I haven't seen that little dude for a few days.He looked a bit down in the dumps but it didn't matter.At least he's home.My aunt asked how the hell he got so big (and still maintains the name Kecik!) He seems sleek but he weighs so much more than the other cats in the house.

hooba noobie!

Frabbit!
Shoo flee!
Hahahahahahahaaaaa!!!!!!!
Shu said that I could start to sound like a sim these days!With a bit more effort in pronounciations,I should be able to at least get a bachelor's degree in Simlish.Then,I can make millions of Simoleons (without having to press ctrl+shift+c)
^_^
Soor Soor!

nanoparticles and what nots

Shu and I finally went to watch G.I. Joe:The Rise of Cobra.It turned out to be pretty good.In fact,it gave me better ideas.Dangerous but brilliant ideas.CGI aside,the line-up of actors were pretty good.Ray Park (Snake Eyes) and Saïd Taghmaoui (Breaker) were awesome!Like AWESOME awesome!Let's not forget Mr. Levitt's awesome performance as Cobra Commander.

*I had always opted for Cobra over the Joes since I was little!

Anywho,I realized that I am so into off-shoulder tops.Got one yesterday.Shu insisted on getting me that tube short dress today.I did try it on a couple of days ago but when I decided to buy the dress,the shop was already closed :p

morticia

Haha!

My dad always relates me to that character coz I lurve dark,smokey eye make-up and I lurve wearing black.Shu's mum got a set of outfit tailored for me.She said it was for what ever occassion I might go to.My mum thinks it looks awesome and she was thinking of having me wear it on the reception day itself.The sleeves were executed nicely,looking like Morticia's sleeves on her black dress.I think it's preeeeeeeeeteeeeeeee ^_^ It fits me perfectly too!

As Shu was helping me get out of my recent depression episode,he decided to take me out and about shopping.Actually,I told him that I wanted to go shopping and so he decided to take me.We were hopping from one mall to another since about 11am this morning.We came across some dresses and tops.Shu liked this one dress I tried on and he wanted to get me.Being me,I told me I wanted to have a look around the rest of the place first.By the time I decided I wanted that dress,the shop was closed :/ We'd probably go back there sometime this week to get it.

I know,FidZy in a dress.What are the odds?????

Well,I recently realized that I have been wearing the same clothes since my teenage years and some of them really don't look presentable.Not presentably decent to some extent.Mostly Emo Punk Rock-ish.I just thought of not entirely change my style but try out new things ;)

We are still trying to figure out when and how we are going to get that bed of our dreams.We finally went to the store where the bed we saw is sold at and the bed looks and feels just as we expected it to.It is perfect.Seriously,I don't think we'd wanna get anything else for our house.That bed is THE BED.No outdated furnitures or whatever thingys.Just that bed in the center of the lounge.Haha!Problem is,we might have problems getting a place to temporarily store it.Hmm.......

Anywho,we discovered Shu's hidden talent at the game arcade today.He's good with that Japanese drumming game thingy.My coordinations are just messed up.He's so good with it that he got really tired of having to finish up the rest of the game.Several rounds of songs.I got eliminated from the very beginning.I totally sucked!

I dragged Shu into one of those karaoke cubicle thingy coz he's never been to one.We only sang 3 songs and we were laughing our heads off.Singing boyband (ahem!) songs is funny and sometimes weird but fun to do.

Oh yeah,I was out with Tasha for a drink a while ago.Her school closed down coz of the recent pendemic virus attack.Strange,my campus have people with extremely strong immunity that there are no precautional close down required.Anywho,Tasha and I did lots of catching up.I was updating her with loads of stuff.She now realizes that Shu and I are both mad.Only when we are together.Still,she didn't really like Shu when she first met him back when she was only 9 or 10 years old.Damn!Now,she's 17!Shu thought she was married for God's sake!Hahaha!Wait till he sees her latest image!

Kecik spent the whole of last night sleeping with me in my room on MY TATAMI!!!!!He actually got kicked out from Azim's room by Shu coz he kept stepping onto Azim's butt and he was literally walking all over Shu.The cats living in my house have somehow gotten the idea that they are not pets but are part of the family as household.That doesn't give them the right to choose the food they want to eat or be picky about where they sleep.Still,they just do it and they get away with it whether we realize it or not :/

pieces

I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don’t believe it makes me real
I thought it’d be easy
But no one believes me
I meant all the things I said
If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own
This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don’t know how it got so bad
Sometimes it’s so crazy
That nothing can save me
But it’s the only thing that I have
If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own
I tried to be perfect
It just wasn’t worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It’s hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along
If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own

-Sum41-