RadioEdit update!

Kamal-san called earlier today saying that Ayie's workplace has some acoustic thingy going on and he's booking a slot for us.KOOLNESS!!!!!I so need a break now!

sometimes........the only way out is the hardest path to follow.........

It's ok to cry.Sometimes,crying helps clear off the smoke from the frictions of anger you have accumulated over the years.Hopefully you can see and think clearer now.

I'll always be here for you cry out to.

I love you........

Sweep slides on my stereo

Short wave ’round my rodeo
Became from that of Savalon
But I’m flying to Istanbul
Oh so why don’t you meet me … there?
There is no nation of you
There is no nation of me
Our only nation lives in Lucid Dreams
Lucid Dreams I’m living in Lucid Dreams
I’m living on short based dreams tonight

-Franz Ferdinand-

auf achse

It seems like forever waiting for Franz Ferdinand's new album to be released (HERE specifically!!!!) I love their single Lucid Dreams and No You Girls.I still love watching them perform live.I just wish I could see them perform live (HERE specifically!!!!) I'd still watch their videos from Take Me Out to Matinee to Michael to Darts of Pleasure to Do You Want To to Walk Away to The Fallen to L. Wells to Wine In The Afternoon to Your Diary...........Eversince the forum where I'd got all the latest updates (and B-side/rare downloads) from got hacked into and eventually shut down,I've been at a complete lost.I want a fresh new slice of them Franzies!

insanely self-destructive beings

It's quite disappointing to know that a lot of people make such a big fuss about not wanting to be part of saving the earth and the environment but still wants a spot living on this very planet.At the very least,they should be thankful that there are things being done to reduce pollution and the destruction of earth.

People complain about the weather being super hot and that the weather is becoming unpredictably dangerous everyday when they aren't doing anything about it.Little messages on commercials like recycling or things we can do to help reduce pollution are more of reminders but most of the time,people choose to ignore these messages and carry on complaining.

Of course,these are the people whose minds cannot think further than themselves.People whose lives revolve around what they do and their comfort and stuff.Things like how the pollution we fail to stop or reduce causes bigger impacts on other beings like the polar bears losing icecaps for them to cling on on fishes die in the sea or rivers or even mutate becomes a problem for those whose source of food comes from the sea.

I often express my hatred for mankind which had lead me here.Not wanting to save the lives of human beings but instead,I would rather spend my time and effort on saving animals because the live by the code of nature.Human beings destroy.I have no guarantee that the human beings I can save would turn out to be people who care about mothernature.Human beings in general are selfish.

Having said that,I would have to extend my apologies to UNICEF for not being able to help them because I would rather help WWF or SPCA or PAWS.

a cat named Drac

He started off as an ordinary black cat who just happens to come by the house every now and then for food.Then,he decided to stick around for a little more that he's come to be so comfortable at home.He is very manja.Mum thinks that he probably had an owner once but was abandoned or something.That poor thing.He tends to get a little noisy sometimes when he's hungry but otherwise he's alright.Fei Mao loves him which is a sort of reason for us not to kick him out completely.

Once,he came back looking all beaten up.We thought he broke his front left leg but later,he recovered.Today,he came back looking so much worse.My dad freaked out that he told Shu,Ash and I to take him straight to the vet coz he thought Drac was going to die.He lives.The doctor gave him loads of meds to make him better.I got a little scared looking at him shaking in pain on the vet's table but after the jap,he looks so much more alive.

We have to keep him in the cage until he recovers.Hopefully,he hasn't got any fungal infections or anything.Apparently,it's contagious to humans.Hurmm........

perfect timing?

Maybe.......

Shu will be done with his exams once my finals begin.Shu's folks will be coming over on the last day of my examination.My senses tell me that things shall be moving fast forward then onwards.How fast?Not quite sure just yet.

Am I scared?Maybe.A little.I've never done this before.
Am I excited?Yes.Very.

I'll be starting a new life.My role as an individual shall change in many ways.For someone who hardly ever volunteers to take up any form of responsibilities at all,here I am taking up more responsibities than I can ever imagine.

There will be new challenges I shall have to come across and I have only prayers to help me get through them all.I want this and I am aware of the consequences and conditions which I shall be facing.It's not going to be easy and knowing me,always trying to find the easiest way out...........well......this isn't an easy way out.This is a decision.One that I made on my own.I hate making decisions on a daily basis and here I am calling the shots over the biggest decision I can ever make in my life.

Still,there are a few things I am not sure of.I have never planned a wedding before let alone MY own!I have no clue what hantarans are.I don't know what the significance in the number of dulangs are.I can't quite estimate the time needed for the preparations for which ever occassion comes first.The only thing that has already been finalized would be the guest list.It is LONG,that much I can say ;)

butterflies in my tummy

Got up this morning and the first text message I retrieved from my cellphone was from Shu saying that his folks are coming on the 17th of next month to see my folks.For a while,I thought it's April already.

It's strange how we've been having this conversation about us getting married and all.At first,the conversation was only between Shu and I.It was just us getting lost in eachother wanting to take this amazing thing we share one step further.Then,things became serious from the day he spoke to my father asking for my hand in marriage.Eventhough my mum was already planning for preparations and all,she said she wanted to wait till she comes back from the states when Shu's folks finally comes over to discuss what needs to be prepared and all.Now,they are finally coming and we are one step away from deciding when we can finally tie the knot.

Here's the thing,as much as I always oppose every little thing my mum's planned,I have no clue what the procedures are.I have no idea what needs to be done.I have no idea what to prepare.I'd speak to Shu and he'd explain to me what is what and why such things are required.My assignments are finally done and now,this is all that's left for me to think about (apart from revising for the finals of course) Shu once told me that he often wonders what it's like to anticipate the meeting of his folks with mine.Now,he knows...........
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Was late for campus this morning.Had to send my assignment to Dr. Wejdan's office coz it's about 2 weeks overdue.Thanks to Shu's nephew who not only speaks Arabic but has a string of contacts who are Arabic experts who helped me A LOT with my homework,I managed to get my work done and learn a thing or two at the same time.SUH-WEET!


Managed to stop by at Dr. Salim's office to see if he got my paper.I think he was asleep.Haha......


The first dude Shu and I bumped into this morning was Israr who asked out loud if I got up late for class or something.That was funny coz he asked about Shu and the moment I said "he's my fiance actually",he immediately held out his hand and said "oh,fiance!I'll have to shake hands with!" I think that sorta surprised Shu for a bit coz he's heard of Israr from me since we were and are classmates afterall.Haha!

I am currently worrie about Kecik.Something happened to his lower lip and I think he is in pain.Shu and I shall be taking him to the vet tomorrow after my Automotive Skills exam.Hopefully,Kecik will recover.Inspite of being still,he still has the cheek to chase,play around and eventually kill a baby mouse.That mouse was so cute and it was screeching in pain!BAD KECIK!

takoyakified!

Wah.........so nice lor to be able to just kick back a little and know that I don't really have to get up in the mornings as a routine anymore.I was beginning to feel a little sick of the semester halfway through coz I seriously hate routines and it's hard to get up when you haven't really slept properly the night before.Not to mention the backdated assignments and my health not being at its best.It sorta became suckier as the semester ended.I just hope I've learned enough to make it all worth the time and energy I've spent.

Foxburr-san belanja-ed me takoyaki a while ago.He's been wanting to take me there for weeks but we haven't actually had time to go.Finally we did and them takos are ever so yummy!

Oh yeah,the Panda's gear box jammed up AGAIN.It just got back from the workshop a few days ago.Luckily,we were already in TTDI when that happened.Still,it sucks to know that most of the time I spend with that car usually ends up with Shu and I waiting for my folks and a tow truck.

The presentation yesterday morning was funny.Before my groupmates arrived at the class,I was talking to Yunus.He said his groupmates ditched him so he did some analysis on his own.He didn't wanna present coz he said it would be embarassing to go up front and talk about something completely alien from the research carried out by groupmates.His turn finally came and he presented coz his groupmates gave him a paper with the parts he had to present.

Something funnier happened later after the class was over.My groupmates told me that Yunus was arguing with a girl outside the class.What happened was that he got offended by that girl coz she was laughing and talking to her friends as he was presenting.Of course it's rude but I didn't think he'd take it that far.Seriously,I think it sucks even more to be performing with my band on stage and there's absolutely not respond from the crowd.

Anywho,that wasn't really the event of the day.Shu found some stuff on the cellphone he's currently using (which is not his coz he lost his cellphone) that turned out to be quite disturbing.So disturbing that I didn't bother to see.He ended up deleting them all since it was such a disturbing experience to have seen such things.I shall not mention names but I'd like to ask this-WHY?! And of course........eeeeuwie!

I'd lie if I said I didn't study

But when it comes to these sort of things........I'd have to be doing the real thing than just reading it from paper..........and as my gut told me since last night,my task today was to set the engine valves.That meant either very low or no marks for me at all coz of all the practical classes I missed was that particular one and the last thing I could ever do even if my life depends on it would be reading and memorizing automotive tasks without looking at the engine.

Of course,theoretically,I would know that valves involves pistons and combustion but to set it and to somehow know what BDCT meant and still not able to convince my groupmates that we've been doing it all wrong is just a bit hard to believe.Doesn't matter,it's all done now.I'm just gonna have to study for the theory test next week.........same time,same place..........will be missing the workshop...... :/

not my problem,our problem

It sucks to think of the fate of people who go through the toughest crap and still not get any form of justice from anyone anywhere.To think that the problems we face here and now are as tough as any other crap we have gone through whereas other people have bigger problems which may seem like there is no way out but still,these people are the ones who'd carry on living through every second given to them only because hope is the only thing left.At least for them it is.

I personally know single parents (mothers mostly) who gives up more than half of their lives for their children and get the crappiest deals and treatments from social services and the employers they work for.Why aren't any of their problems justified at all?Because we are people who are only concerned with our lives and our problems and that the rest of the world is none of our business?What about people who'd have to work 2 or 3 jobs just so that their kids can live another day?

Then again,maybe these people aren't working hard enough.I dunno.......it's always easier said than done.Working harder than you already can.What would I know?I'm just a student.I don't pay taxes.I don't earn a living.I just observe and hopefully,I'll learn.

Dear Tech Support,

Last year I upgraded from Boyfriend 5.0 to Husband 1.0 and noticed a distinct slowdown in overall system performance -- particularly in the flower and jewellery applications, which operated flawlessly under Boyfriend 5.0
In addition, Husband 1.0 uninstalled many other valuable programs, such as Romance 9.5 and Personal Attention 6.5 and then installed undesirable programs such as AFL 5.0, The Ashes 3.0, and Golf Clubs 4.1.
Conversation 8.0 no longer runs, and Housecleaning 2.6 simply crashes the system. I've tried running Nagging 5.3 to fix these problems, but to no avail. What can I do?

Signed, Desperate
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Dear Desperate:

First keep in mind, Boyfriend 5.0 is an Entertainment Package, while Husband 1.0 is an Operating System.
Please enter the command: 'http: I Thought You Loved Me.HTML and try to download Tears 6.2. Don't forget to install the Guilt 3.0 update.
If that application works as designed, Husband 1.0 should automatically run applications Jewellery 2.0 and Flowers 3.5.
But remember, overuse of the above applications can cause Husband 1.0 to default to Grumpy Silence 2.5, Happy Hour 7.0 or Beer 6.1.
Beer 6.1 is a very bad program that will download the Snoring Loudly Beta. Whatever you do, DO NOT install Mother-in-law 1.0 (it runs a virus in the background that will eventually seize control of all your system resources). Also, do not attempt to reinstall the Boyfriend 5.0 program.
These are unsupported applications and will crash Husband 1.0.
In summary, Husband 1.0 is a great program, but it does have limited memory and cannot learn new applications quickly. You might consider buying additional software to improve memory and performance.
We recommend Food 3.0 and Hot Lingerie 7.7.

Good Luck,
Tech Support

sangkut

Haih.......and you call yourself a cat?!
Got home and couldn't find Kecik anywhere in the house.He was nowhere outside either.I thought he was just out and about but looking at the time,it was Kecik's afternoon nap time.Then,we heard a cat crying outside.Went outside and saw Kecik on the balcony of our nextdoor neighbour.He got up there but couldn't find a way down.

I managed to get Kecik to step out and guided him to get closer to the gate so that we (either Shu or I) can grab him without having to climb over our neighbour's gate.Unfortunately,Kecik wasn't brave enough to jump down.Ash ran into the house to get a ladder.In the meantime,Shu and I tried to get Kecik to get onto the other neighbour's roof so that we'd have a better chance to getting him down.

Finally,Ash got the ladder.Shu climbed up and managed to grab Kecik by the collar.All us went back home and the first thing Kecik did was to make a run for the litter tray.After that,he ate like he's been starving for a week.That was funny.I wonder how long he was stuck up there.

furui

I always said being sick is the worst feeling in the world.I'm right.It does suck.As much as I don't wanna depend on meds,I have to.Eventhought its not anything serious like drugs,they're still pills.This happened before.I wonder if my whole idea about not eating chicken and beef (and mutton) has got anything to do with it.

I know that eversince I've become a junkaholic which means eating less food and more junk,my immunity system has gone down so much lower than before.I am aware of that.I think that because I haven't gotten around to repairing such damage,my entire system is slowly deteriorating.

Having said that,it also doesn't help that I am addicted to J.Co's Chocomint freeze!Damn it!They cost a bomb and they taste ever so good!I am not upset so much from having to be deprived of sugar,I'm just having a hard time adjusting to the ice-blended-free drinks.Or rather,ice-free drinks thanks to my swollen tonsil.

I am the sickest person living in my home at the moment and my dad doesn't know it AT ALL.Haha!

low blood pressure:round 2

Been sick these past few days.It's quite annoying.Was at the clinic yesterday.My tonsil is swollen again.Told the doctors to give me some antibiotics.Today Shu took me to the clinic again coz I'd get lightheaded everytime I get up in the morning and I'd get nauseous when I'm in the car.Only lately this happens.I figured its got something to do with my blood pressure.I was right.My bp was super low.It was 90/50.The doctor gave me some iron pills.

Strange,this happened a few years ago when I used to not eat........hurmm.......

carbu-what?

The carburetor......ya know,the thing that blends fuel with air for internal combustion in the engine?The creation of fuel injections almost wipe it out completely.Almost..........Nevermind.........

I am just trying to be prepared for tomorrow's presentation.We're not given topics.Instead,we have to choose a topic ourselves.One that is NOT taught in class.Hence,the carburetor.With the help of my groupmates who are engineering students.Hehe.......

I wasn't trying to be the smartypants who chose this topic.I just thought it makes an interesting topic since most cars run on fuel injection engines these days.Besides,everyone said the topic is alright......

Been sick today.....this morning.......couldn't get up.Didn't get up till about 11:48am-ish.That's almost noon.But I got up anyways.Didn't get much work done.In fact,I didn't get any work done at all.Can't think properly with this headache.

throbbing

Mum left with Azim and Qarim at about 6:30 this morning.They probably had just arrived in Stockholm (I think).They're on their way to Michigan to see Eno-san.After all the problems Qarim went through in getting his VISA,he's finally on his wy there already.His SPM results is coming out tomorrow (I think).

In the meantime,I am stuck with classes (still).Will be at home with my dad and Shu till they (mum,Q &A) come back.My grandma will be around the house in the afternoons till about 10pm.Kak Yah comes in the morning and leaves at about 5pm like she always does.My sister and Rashid will be home during the weekends.

I have a band meeting on Saturday at about 4pm over at Ayie's workplace.No idea if there'll be any jamming sessions.

Anywho,my head had been throbbing since morning.I think its migraine.I usually don't get migraines.Maybe its coz I got up superearly this morning (5:30am-ish) and I haven't been able to sleep since my mum left.Managed to get myself to class on time this morning but because my head's been throbbing off and on,I just couldn't go on with classes.Shu is also sick.He's been sick for a few days now.

Sorry,sir.Traffic was horrible.......

It didn't help that I had to drive a different car today (one that is slightly underpowered) and very basic.It didn't matter.It got me to class safely (but late) and it got me home through the rain and the traffic which was caused by idiots who have no idea how to drive in the rain.

*sigh*

Was gonna talk about my band instead.We went jamming last weekend.Rashid was late coz he was stuck in a traffic jam on his way back from the movies with my mum and my other brothers.Shu and I met up with Ayie and Kamal at the studio about 10 minutes before jamming.

The first thing Kamal asked Shu was "do you know how to play the drums?" Nope.Shu is very much a bassist and a guitarist and he doesn't play the drums.I do but I can't play coz I had to sing and having the rythm guitar is important (for me) for timing purposes.

While waiting for Rashid-san,Ayie and Kamal took turns at the drums.Ayie couldn't keep a consistant tempo while Kamal couldn't play along with the high hat.Also,the song was cut short coz Kamal wasn't at his guitar to fill up the guitar solos.

Rashid arrived half and hour later and was slightly pissed off with the movie.He went straight at the drumset and started jamming our playlist.Shu then took pictures with Ayie's DSLR to be posted at our site.We have yet to schedule a proper photoshoot.

Next meeting,4pm,Saturday at Ayie's workplace........makan free???Maybe?

gearbox failure

Nothing scares the shit outta me more than reading "gearbox failure" on the indicator screen while driving!Yes,yes.....it's hard to go about with machines which are smarter than you even when they're not designed in such ways.

*sigh*

Was on my way to class this morning.Shu drove while Ash was in the back seat.We got to the toll house at about 9:35am-ish and just as we passed the booth,the indicator beeped and read out "gearbox failure".That meant that the car wouldn't let us shift into any other gears including setting it to neutral.

*double sigh*

Shu managed to pull over on 2nd gear.There was no way (IN HELL) that we would be able to reset the gearbox (coz Fiat would lose their customers otherwise) and even if we do know how to do it,we might risk resetting the entire system.

So there we were stranded on the roadside from 9:45am all the way to 11:30am.Called my mum coz I didn't wanna risk damaging the car.She was trying to get our mechanic to get a tow truck.Since the car is a regular front wheel drive and it's locked in 2nd gear,we had to wait for a tow truck that could pull the car up instead of having to push it up onto the platform.

Amin Reza decided to cover for me for the quiz this morning.I owe him one.Missed my EAP class at 2pm coz I was getting sick from my empty stomach and the heat and all.Shu was sick and Ash decided to ditch his 2pm class since everyone else voted to have brunch and rest at home till about 2:30pm.

I didn't get much sleep coz I promised my lecturer I'd present my project today.Got a pretty good bashing for about an hour of class time.I worked my ass off (with Shu's help) for that project and it still wasn't good enough.Maybe I failed to cover all the flaws.Maybe I just didn't see the whole thing the way my lecturer did.Oh well.......

Hung around with Shu for a bit.We saw some pretty awesome mini guns which loads on ballbearings!I'd opt for the 0.25mg ballbearings over the 0.12mg!To be fair,both Shu and I shall have to use the same gun.We opted for the AK-47 mini!Yey!New toys to be added to our wishlist!And who are we planning to shoot?.........hehehe.........

P.S.:I think Kecik is still a bit upset with what I did to him this morning.Hopefully,he'll get over it and start hanging out like always again ;)

what now?

Strange how I feel like I haven't gotten anywhere in life.I have obviously exceeded about 7 years of my life now (and counting).I don't know if it's because I just wanna do a whole lot of things but haven't quite got the time to do it or I'm simply not given the chance to do them.Either ways,I think my ultimate issue would be my I-Don't-Give-A-Damn attitude.I just couldn't give a fuck about some shit and no matter how hard people try to make me change my mind about it,I just can't.I'll do what I want,when I want to and I don't care what you say coz if I don't wanna do it then I ain't gonna do it.

The whole "you HAVE TO" or "you MUST" shit doesn't quite work on me.Unless of course,I'm getting cash everytime I do it.Haha!It's just unfair ain't it?Life,I mean.There's just so many things we CANNOT DO and so many things that we HAVE TO DO but the bottom line is,it doesn't really change anything to begin with.So why bother?