death by running

Hah!

It's so good to finally start running and working out again.I've been doing it but it's not as often as now.I love it!I've been feeling really good lately and everytime I go running,I am able to run further than the day before without losing my breath or pace.SUH-WEET!

Oh!Shu has an insurance policy now!YEY!

I am psyched about this weekend despite the fact that I am very afraid of flights.I've been driving my grandma nuts about wanting to take this trip across the sea just to learn how to shrink people's heads.........which isn't entirely a joke.I do wanna learn how to do it.It's probably the best prank I would ever be able to pull off!

Imagine a world full of people with shrunken heads! ^_^ That would be something I'd laugh and cry and laugh again about.

*Remembering how Spongebob thought he was a true magician and accidentally turned Squidward into a pistachio flavoured ice-cream o_O HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!

Oh yeah,I had a delightful time over at my aunt's place last night over some cake and hot drink laughing about listening to her friend's long speech about people from the world I dare not enter.She spoke a lot of truth though.Most of which should not have been so detailed.I know what those people are like and they suck!ME HATES THEM!

met up with Sarah today (January 3rd)

Her brother wanted to get an acoustic guitar so Shu and I met up with her (and her brother) at the guitar store.Sarah's brother got an acoustic guitar EXACTLY like the one I got years ago.The price has gone up so much more though.Still,I think it's a good choice coz all the other guitars were either classical (not my cup of tea coz I lurve strumming) or just expensive.

*Expensive only coz they have built in pick ups!*

After that,Sarah,Shu and I had a drink.We managed to do some catching up and stuff.It's been a while since we did that (Sarah and I) and I did owe her a lepak session after all.Not sure if that is considered a lepak session at all.

OH YEAH!Sarah so gave me some NYX eyeshadows!I lurve the Cedar Tree shade coz it's da bomb for contouring.......I lurve the Khaki shade coz it has a nice shimmery green-ish brown-ish look.The Grey is nice and dark.Excellent for the crease ^_^

THANK YOU SO MUCH!ME LURVE THEM LOADS!THANKIES!!!!!!!

Sarah was trying to decide if should distribute NYX cosmetics here.I think it's an awesome idea coz I lurve NYX's eye shadows and it is not sold here AT ALL.I would be your first and regular customer!I WILL!

^_^

rockin' and keepin' it comin'!

Hahahahaha!

Went to watch The Imaginarium of Dr. Parnassus today.I have no idea how to put the movie into words.It didn't suck coz I enjoyed watching it but it didn't have that lasting effect in my head.I couldn't really think about the movie that much coz there weren't much to think about but the entire movie did happen and I enjoyed it a lot.

Hurm.........

But let's face it.It was Heath Ledger's last movie before he died.AND........Johnny Depp is in it.And Jude Law and Colin Farrell...........

Anywho,my folks had me (and Shu) sit down at the dining table with them for a "talk".Ya know,the kind that would put me to sleep eventhough I'm wide awake.The truth is,it's not that I don't have a plan.I do (have one).Sort of.I'm just not much of a planner.I like thinking about death and calculate my chances of survival the next day (like what sort of things could go terribly wrong and stuff).

I only wanted to do ONE thing in life and that's music.Endless gigs and performances.

*sigh*

Now,what I'd really like to do is destroy.I'm talking about destroying EVERYTHING.

HahahahahahahahahHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!<---Evil laugh like Dr Neo Cortex

"IN YOUR FACE!"

That was exactly what OU's fireworks were saying to The Curve's.It was so bright and beautiful and huge and there were loads of 'em.SHITLOADS!

Spent the last hour of 2009 with Azim and Shu.We were drinking and laughing and ate some stuff while my mum was at the other table with Farah,Aunty Intan,Uncle Hasbullah and his family.Aunty Amy came but she and her family sat at a different table.

I has got to be extra careful with them words when hanging out in public.I admit it.I was a little high.On sugar.High on sugar.Yes.

I really wanna leave town.

resolved!

I am always telling people to do what they believe in and if they end up doing things they don't like,they should stop doing it only coz other people tell them to do so.Ironically,things never turned out that way with me.I was shoved into doing shit I hated for years and the worst (or best) part is that I survived.I did it.

I hated school and I wanted to be home schooled but such things cannot be done.Not here.Not in this country.So I was shoved into school.Spent 11 years there and thought that when I was done with the major exams when I was 17,I was done with school.I was wrong.I was very wrong.

Shit loads of things headed my way after that.The university I shoved into wasn't somewhere I wanted to be at all.I wasn't given much choice.I was threatened to either do it or I was gonna get kicked out.I almost did quit halfway through but I couldn't risk not being able to play with my band.The only way I could do what I love most in the entire world (jamming & making music) was for me to endure the degree program.

I really was on the verge of suicide AGAIN.Managed to pull myself right out of it and here I am now.Happily out of the God-Forsaken place I hated so very much.

SO........I can't really tell people shit like "if you don't like doing it,then you might as well drop everything and leave before it's too late" coz I am the living proof of having to go through such things in my life.

I'mma surviver,muthafuckas!

Because I have survived such hell in my life,I've decided to give myself a break by just doing what ever I want now ;) Let's start with getting into a fashion school...........

major issues

I am going to say this and I am going to be really honest about it.

I really am not up for working.I've been sending in job applications only because I have to.I'm not up for a routine life.Not yet.

As boring as it may seem,I really lurve waking up super late in the mornings (afternoons) and not knowing what's gonna happen.Not knowing where I'm gonna end up at the end of the day.Not knowing what I'll be doing.

It's not like I've given up on my band.Not completely.I just cannot find my bandmates (Kamal & Ayie)

I cannot wait for 2010 coz I am getting a bit sick of so many people swarming the malls.Even on weekdays!WTF?!

I really wanna go on a holiday away from the city.

I was just telling Shu that I may not want to stay in KL.I am not a city person.I'm not a people person.

I wanna find a place where I can just take my time to do what ever it is I want and I want to feel happy and comfortable being where I'll be with the people (and animals) I love ^_^

Omaticaya of Pandora:The Na'vi

*This is a spoiler for the movie Avatar by Cameron.Please do NOT proceed reading this is you have not watched the movie!*

I really thought the movie was so much better than Disney's Princess and the Frog.Seriously,I have seen loads more of Disney's previous original animated films which were so much better with songs you'd actually wanna sing-a-long to long after the movie is over..........

*sigh*

Anywho.........

I was so overwhelmed by the movie Avatar!Seriously,when I first saw the trailer months and months ago,I didn't think I'd wanna bother watching the movie.I am ever so glad I did!And Azim was right,we should have gone for the 3D .Like seriously,the entire movie was made for a 3D release!The cinematography of course.........

Let's put aside the very base of the movie which is the theme coz like most other movies we've seen eversince the 9/11 incident,this movie was also about the invasion of a foreign country and it's complete with the killing of the a great leader alongside the destruction of innocent people's homes...........

I thought the whole idea of the creature's connection with one another through bio-chemistry was interesting.Like these Omaticaya have some sort of thingy at the end of their braided hair which is used to connect to any creature they wish to get onto as mode of transportation like a usb port or somesort which they call tsaháylu.

*Yes,I know!!!!!A new language!Yey!!!!!*

The creatures in general (on Pandora) were somewhat strange but mostly looks as though they are based on the creatures which are currently present.The colorful and glowy part of them are most probably inspired from the deep sea creatures which glows in the dark depths of the ocean.

Having been a Star Trek (TNG) fan,I think the whole idea of being able to get into a machine which helps transfer yourself into another body (psychologically) was something I never saw coming.Avatar is most commonly understood as a representation of one's self when being in other realms like the internet......or something.It just never occurred to me that the avatar they were talking about regarding the movie was exactly that.

*I know.....talk about ultimate slowness!*

I think the part that totally (almost) made me cry was when the Omaticayas saw their home (the Hometree) burned down to the grounds.They were literally crying the way we'd see war victims cry on TV after an attack on their homes.

*This is when I wanna start talking about how human beings are destructive creatures*

Seriously,what's wrong with living with Mother Nature?

Ok,here's the part where I'm just gonna spill the entire movie plot.........

The entire movie was about homosapiens attacking the Omaticaya over some mineral source which happens to be UNDER their Hometree.SO....the only way they can get their hands on those things which costs zillions is by driving out the natives.Sounds familiar?Uh-uh......from the history of Native Americans to the Afghanistan war.Well,in Disney's Pocahontas as well <---my all time fav movie! ^_^

Bottom line is I am most likely to TRY to get my ass into one of them 3D cinemas to watch this movie AGAIN!Doubt that I'd get in especially this weekend.

not listening,nope,na'ah

I hear..........sounds........sometimes buzzing.......sometimes squeeking..........white noise.........hurmm........

I just figured that I tend to just stop listening to a person if he/she has a certain voice tone that completely shuts my brain down.I'd end up listening to only 50% to what they're saying.......maybe less........

out and about

Had one of those late night lepak session at the mamak with my sister my 3 brothers.It was fun.Haven't done that in a long while.I was telling a story about a movie and after I was about 80% done,Rashid asked me if I had seen the movie.Aiyo!

We had a hard time laughing out loud in the car coz we were talking about horrible subtitles in English movies and surprisingly,Azim and Qarim came out with some of the worst I have ever heard.

Oh yeah!Qarim so came clean about his new girlfriend.Nevermind the fact that she looks like a goodie two shoes (in the picture on his cellphone),I was more worried if she was one of those freakos like that girl he liked before back in his school.Well,from what he's told us,the girl ain't that type of person.That's good.Coz I'd be worried if she can't lay back and hang with us.AND......she's a Scorpio.Haha!

My sister just realized that she's become this boring person from all the books she's been reading.Like right now,she's reading a book about the Russian cold war.WTF?!I have a strange feeling that all her years of debating has something to do with it.Oh well........

While Azim is busy shuffling with jumpstarts and stuff,Rashid just got himself a white shirt today coz he said his band is going for a mafia image and he's gotta wear a white shirt with suspenders!I actually picked up this nice one for him but he insisted on getting a black one :/

Yes,we all agree that Snow Bear is somewhat human :p

Christmas shopping!

Yey!

My dad drove my mum,my sister and I to the mall today.He dropped us off outside and left.My brothers came in a car.All 3 of them.The plan was to do what ever shopping and then have brunch or early dinner and then go home.

My sister and I spent a whole lot of time at the Clinique booth talking to the promoter about my sister's face skin condition.Strange.I thought she just started using H2O about 3 weeks ago.Anywho,she was torn between trying out Biotherm or Clinique.Finally,I told her about the reviews I read and heard about Clinique's 3 step skin care system and she decided to give it a go in the end.Haha!

I am so NOT the type to use moisturizers and toners which is an ultimate faux pas in skin care but I don't care.I have a facial cleanser and that's it.Ok,here is a sin I commit when it comes to skin and make up.I admit that I'd wash my face with a cleanser and then pat it dry and head straight for the primer :p

Well,here's the thing.I do not use foundation coz I'd usually just use pressed powder or something.I always ALWAYS ALWAYS splurge on eye make up.I cannot make sense of the liquid eyeliner so it usually ends up being the thing I'd use to draw on my face.Hahahahaha!!!!!

Ahem!

I finally got the Schwarzkopf Bonacure Moisture Kick spray on conditioner I've been looking for.I got the 200ml bottle ^_^ SUH-WEET!

For wanting ice cream today,I was pushed to going home with my brothers in the car they came in.That wasn't such a big deal.The big deal was that the car was parked all the way at the underground hotel parking space.Getting there took us quite some time coz the elevator we were supposed to take was not fully functional AND there were shitloads of people waiting for it.

SO..........my brothers and I decided to ditch the elevator and headed for the stairs which did not exist.SO.......we had to walk into the hotel area and got into a hotel elevator and headed down to the concourse and then get into another elevator down to the basement car park.Getting out from the car park was a whole different story.

Well,that was pretty much what happened during our trip to the mall today minus the part that the place was not as clustered as I thought it would have been,I'd say it was a pretty good trip ;)

I really lurve the Color Shop.I did my hair there once.I think if I ever have to get a haircut or hair wash I'd just head over there.The dude who sold me the conditioner asked if I wanted to get a haircut.I told him I'd come back for one if everything else fails (regarding my hair and all I have done to it)

in major need

I need new shades of eye shadows.Maybe some shimmery ones.Something other brown!The only reason I use loads of brown is coz my eye color is brown :/ I don't even use black eye liners.I have shit loads of problems when it comes to using liquid or gel eye liners.I am still LEARNING to use the make up brushes I have.AND.........I don't have a blusher!Yey!

Honestly,I don't quite use THAT much make up.I like eye make up loads but that's it.I have never even owned a lipstick!Hah!

Right now,I am in the state of mind to sell off my things (what ever it is I have that I no longer use) I can't work with too many things (owned items) SO........I'mma be selling them all off real soon.I'm constantly getting rid of clothes coz I really don't use all of them.I'd wear t-shirts till they look really awful and too painful to be seen on me :D<---that usually drives my dad insane.

I think SnowBear cut his paw.It was dripping blood when I picked him up togo for a drive tonight.Shu tried to clean it up but the little guy kept screaming and screaming like we were gonna kill him! :/ Then again,he's always been like that even when we just gonna put some eye drops into his eyes.Oh well........

It's weird how I feel like I'm on a holiday when I really should be getting a job but I just can't be bothered and I'm just happy to be helping Shu out with his business :p

*Can't help it,love.I love hanging out with youuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >.<*

And I like doing happy dances ^_^

42!

Spent the last couple of days in UNITEN.I was supposed to help Shu set up his booth and sell stuff but I ended up selling a whole lot of my books instead.For dirt cheap only coz I shall be moving AGAIN so I do not intend to carry shit loads of things especially heavy stuff.I managed to clear out loads of my books PLUS I managed to sell off the cooling pad and mouse I got free with the laptop the other day ^_^

It's been tiring but really fun coz I was mingling with different types of kids selling different things and stuff.There were some girls selling customizable stuff like necklaces and charm bracelets and stuff.I saw some really neat tops too but I never got to go over and check them out coz only Shu and I were at the booth and I really wouldn't wanna go around alone :(

There was this one kid from the booth opposite ours who came back and forth.It started with my FFX Kotobukiya Lulu resin statue.Only people whom are aware of how much she's worth would take a closer look and not be surprised at the price I was selling her/it for (which I think is really cheap looking at the trouble and amount of cash it cost me) but of course,no one bought it anyways coz it was selling at a very high price ;)

*psst......in a way........I kinda think I like her still so I ain't gonna let her go that easily :p*

People kept asking us if the Super Mario brothers hats we had on were for sale but we disappointed a whole lot of them by telling them to head over to Giffy themselves to get it<---been promoting Giffy a lot these days.

One dude came to our booth to get some books and Shu mentioned something about ABRSM and music and stuff and he(the dude) started telling us about his kids and the musical instruments he had at home.The next thing we know,he wanted Shu's card coz his company organizes a lot of functions and my band might be able to get some gig slots some day ;)

Just before packing up,the project manager of the entire event walked up to Shu and started talking to him about some business opportunities where he can expand his business and increase sales.That is good news.He will arrange a meeting with Shu sometime next week to discuss business.Yey!

twist and shout

Everytime I try do a happy dance,the happy song changes from time to time.Strange.........I really lurve Cornman by Kinky.I also lurve The Go! Team's Get It Together and some random Hip Hop song...........or something.I dig Punjabi MC a lot.Haha!

But......for 2009,my ultimate HAPPY DANCE looks like this........

Complete with my Super Mario hat and my dad's shoe horn thingys ^_^

The FidZy Chronicles:Getting A Real Job

Dang!

Never thought I'd get this far in life!To think that I wanted to end my life at the age of 17!I've gone way past that,duncha think?

I'm having fun.Not trying to make it up a career ladder or anything.Not yet.I'm still sticking to Alex Kapranos' words and having fun while I'm at it ;)

Fun.The one word I can never get rid of.Not from the list of words I'm adding up to my ever growing vocabulary.Not from any part of my life.

I just wish I could tell a lot more people I meet to just chill and lighten up a bit.

Ah well........I am missing the jamming studio and rocking out in a band.Haven't been writing songs in a long while.The last thing I was working on was the EP Songs about Kecik which I was working on with Shu but never got around to arrange properly.

What I want right now is a bottle of Schwarzkopf Bonacure Moisture Kick Conditioner spray!Yup yup! ^_^ I am so lurvin the hair dryer styler!

OMG!

I so got up super late today! (yesterday) I think when I finally got UP up it was around 2:30pm-ish.THAT'S REALLY3 LATE!The last time I got up around that time was when I was sick.SHIT!

I've been getting lightheaded a lot these days and I have no idea why.I eat.At least once a day I do.I haven't gotten around to checking my blood pressure though.

My aunt just got back from her break and she got us all goodies.Us girls/ladies mostly.Haha!She's been shopping at Clark's (which is the place I have been going back and forth to looking at shoes!) but she DIDN'T get us shoes of course.Well.......she got my mum a pair of shoes.She got us all bags!Hand bags!Yey!Now,I don't have to go out looking for one anymore ^_^

Let's see......since my day was really short,I didn't get around to doing much.Shu and I had tea out somewhere nearby only coz we needed to get out.

Oh!I've been having dreams about Bedah in the last couple of days.No idea why.Strange isn't it?Haha!

waka waka waka!

After last night's curious case of random dance routine invention,I just realized that I have the entire lyrics to Celine Dion's Because You Love Me engraved into my head.I was driving Rashidinsky Petropavlosk and Shu nuts with my awful off-key screams in the car while singing along to the radio.

Shu and I had to meet up with my sister earlier this morning.The meeting was so secret that my mum got annoyed trying to figure out why the hell we were all the way in Subang so early in the day.The thing is,she didn't know that our discreet meeting took place in Sunway Pyramid instead.Let's just say my sister did Shu and I a huge favor and Shu promised to pay her for it ;)

Had brunch with Anas Bananas since he called in sick for work today.Funny.I could have sworn that the tee he had on belonged to either Shu,Rashid or me.Hurmm........

Then,Shu and I headed off.We made a quick stop at my aunty's place.I was playing with the cat (Oreo) and the 2 kittens.Watched some TV and then we went off to Putrajaya.

P.S. : Is it just me or is Bedah and Fei Mao starting to look alike these days.It sounds impossible since one is a rodent and the other is a feline.Still.........they seem to have a lot more similarities as the days go by.

back to blow drying

Today's record is by far the most times I have ever gone back and forth to the mall in less than 12 hours.Well,I was woken up by my mum coz she told Shu and I that she was going for a movie trip with my dad and my 2 brothers so we'd better find something to do coz they were gonna lock up the house.I had to get ready in a hurry (something I really3 hate doing)

I drove Shu to the mall where we supposed to get his company logo stamp done.We tried doing some modifying coz there were too many details in our design and it might clog up the rubber stamp if the size if inappropriate.That would seriously suck!

I was going around looking for something to protect my hair before I start styling it again.Came across something by Tony and Guy AND I got myself a new hair styler!I figured it's the fastest way to get my hair dried and sorted out properly.......so that it won't look so unruly and frizzy.

I really hate sales girls (or guys) who'd follow you really close when you are browsing for things in a shop coz I'd get so annoyed and irritated and it really disrupts my concentration.And I especially HATE it when they ask you in tones which you can't really make out what they are saying and then they give you this annoyed look.HELL-O?!It's not my fault that you cannot speak properly!Coz maybe if you spoke clearly I would have at least understood what you were saying!!!

Anyways.........Snow Bear totally surprised all of us last night.Shu,my mum and I were in the lounge watching some TV and suddenly,I felt something moving at my legs (I was sitting on the floor).I was totally spooked out.I looked down and found Bedah trying to find her way around.It turns out that Snow Bear managed to get her out from her little home WITHOUT having to take the lid off and he brought her (Bedah) to me and then,he walked off.

This kitten is very strange.He does the strangest things.Things which you'd never think anyone would do especially cats!

Well,I'll be off to designing again......or rather.....RE-designing ;)

P.S. :- I found my dad's shoe horns and discovered a new way of making use of those things.I invented a new dance move with them! ^_^ I'll try to get a better video of my new dance move and post it up real soon :p

territory:Shah Alam

I was in the area today coz I had some stuff to do so Shu and I decided to make our trip worth while.We went to every inch of the place hopping from one mall to another.For business purposes,of course.

It's funny how I used to live there when I was little and the most unforgettable memory I have of the old house I lived in was being chased by a hen when I was 4.My neighbor behind our house used to have chickens and sometimes they'd come downhill into our territory.I was walking outside one afternoon and I think the hen freaked out thinking that I was after one of her chicks that she chased me all the way into the house.That was not the best thing to remember.

Anywho,I've gotten all my paper work ready on my behalf.I'm just sitting to play the waiting game.Knowing me,I just can't sit around and do nothing.SO........I've decided to continue working on the company logo and stuff ^_^ It's good therapy and helps me past time.

Toodles!

drivin'

Got up early this morning just to get to mall in time before the weekend crowd hits in.Shu needed to get his business card ready coz it's already been a week and almost every other person we've met has been asking for a card and hasn't got one.SO,we finally got around to get it all printed out.

With that out of the way,we only have one little thing left to do.Getting a rubber stamp designed and ready.I've spent the last couple of days designing a company logo and I got Shu to look at them.Now,all he's gotta do is narrow it all down to one design and make that a finalized decision to represent his company.

In meantime,I just thought of getting myself into more mess by looking up for part time courses in fashion designing.Shu thinks if that's what my instincts tell me to do and I should just go for it.I'm gonna give it a couple of days till I can sober up my mind.

We actually made some quick stops at some shops before heading home for Zuhur prayers.After that,we headed over to KLCC for the KL International Batik fair.Surprisingly,the turn up wasn't as I expected.I anticipated a whole lot of people but there were hardly anyone (visitors/customers) there when we got there.Maybe we were a little late.Still,I've been to Comic Fiestas in the last couple of years with turn ups more than what I saw there today.

Anywho,we managed to peek around and ask questions regarding things we needed to know and we learned a whole lot of things from the world of Batik printing and Songket making.It was awesome.

written on one of the electrical appliances box

Function: flare-out, the hair curling, protecting strengthen a color, messenger hair lustre light is beautiful, curled hair is natural.

Characteristic: handle the simplicity, litre of temperature quickly, the automation constant temperature, safe energy conservation, handle nice, hermetic sealing degree is good, make a guest especially comfortable.

Usage: insert the attachment plug into 220V~ power source, power source guiding light lights, wait will can be put into use, one minute, is put into use being finished, dumps after the queen who cools down naturally can store just now.

DO NOT TURN INTO BATHROOM

MODE SS-767

TEMP 200 C

POWER 25W

VOLTAGE AC220V

FREQ 50Hz