System Exclusive Studio@SS19,Subang Jaya

Went to do a second recording of our songs there a while ago.Actually,we needed to concentrate on just 2 songs which were Mental Vacation and Maya but we ended up playing I Don't Live as well.Since we were very happy with the end product,we decided to try push I Don't Live into the deal (which I shall be talking about later)

The fact that I could actually hear myself sing made it all funner!Honestly,I wasn't that happy with my voice and how I was singing coz I had a voice that was just about start up.I sounded like I just got up but everyone else thought it was alright.Hurmm........

Yes,the deal.Kamal and Ayie has this friend(s) whose been wanting our song Maya since they heard it weeks before to be used in a short film and stuff.I don't have a problem with people wanting our songs.I am just concerned about the copyrights.Don't want our songs to be played on air without us knowing it and I definitely wouldn't want to have them not crediting or acknowledging us.

So yeah,we'll be doing that for a bit in the next couple of weeks.Of course,our wedding is about 4 weeks away.I am pretty sure Shu is a wee bit freaking out at this point.He just ain't showing it.I am still a bit blurry about it all.Got too many things going on in my head.Kuh-Ray-Zee!

I'll be writing lyrics and songs in between to help me stay calm.I do hope that I won't lose my mind and go starving myself or go running and over exert myself again :/

I have some more deliveries to make.Will be doing that some more when I get back from the south tomorrow.Yeah,I'll be heading south tomorrow but I'll be right back by Monday morning.Azim needs to go to school.

I hope Zeph and Lina got their cards today coz they weren't at home when I went over to their places today and the fact that it was raining,I sure hope their cards won't get soaked.Yikes!

Wir sind irgendwie am Ende und am Anfang

Hallo Raumschiffkapitän!

Like I've said before,not only does Tokio Hotel's Deutsch songs are different from their songs in English forms of languages but they have completely different meanings!Nevermind......I like them anyways.........

Did some more deliveries today.Went to Sarah's house after maghrib prayers but she wasn't home.Well,she wasn't home yet so I passed the invitation cards to her mum.Then,I went to Ayumi's house and she wasn't in as well.I chucked them in her mailbox along with Majidah's cards coz she said she'll be seeing Maj soon.I went to Aaina's house later on.Managed to see her for a bit.It's been ages since we last met!MY GAWD!After that we did some more deliveries in Kota Damansara and then back to TTDI.

We'll be in Subang tomorrow so we'll be sure to make some more deliveries then ;)

Haha!We have another recording session tomorrow.We'll be jamming for a whole hour and then begin recording after that.We were supposed to have our interviews done but everyone's been super busy with exams and work so we couldn't come together to get it done.Hopefully,we'll get it done real soon coz I really don't wanna get everything tangled up with the wedding preparations later on :/

Yes,I still have time for gigs and jamming sessions in between preparing for the wedding ^_^

I forgot to eat today.............that explains the hallucinations :p

P.S. We actually got lost while following the new highway from Gombak area back to Bukit Damansara.That's why we were a bit behind time :p

5 weeks

I don't have much time anymore and this is the time when I keep getting sick.WTF?!I keep getting muscle pulls and I had a minor migraine attack the entire day today.I think my right forearm muscle is swollen thanks to badminton games without warm ups :p And eversince that day I ran in the rain,my thigh muscles have been a bit in pain.I think it's the way I chose to change routes :/

Anywho,I hope I'll be alright otherwise ;)

I've been trying to send out as many invitation cards to everyone everytime I go out.I don't want to miss out anyone's names and I would very much like to personally mail them cards to the guests myself.

I have come to a point whereby I am not going to give a damn about what anyone has to do or say regarding the next 5 weeks.Well,I do have to listen to what my mum or Aunty Intan or my wedding planner says lah......DUH!

I'm just tired of trying to please everyone coz seriously,I have done my part and some people just refuse to cooperate.SO,I cannot do much about it.I've been too nice I think.It's high time that I prioritize.Or rather RE-prioritize.Some people just aren't sporting enough.Not that I am begging for support.I just wish people would just grow up.I have shitloads of other crap to deal with.

Charles & Keith@One Utama/Happy Mother's Day

My sister dragged Shu,Qarim and I to go shopping for my mum's mother's day gift.We went around for almost an hour and finally decided to head over to other shops instead to have a look around.We finally decided on a handbag for my mum.I insisted on getting Shu's mum something as well while we were at it so we got her something as well.

*I just hope she'll like it ^_^*

Having Qarim and Shu (and I) giving out views and opinions on handbags and their designs is the craziest thing to do.Seriously,Qarim's view on handbags in general is strange.And of course,Shu and I aren't always on the same fashion page so we weren't much help.

Anyways,we eventually decided on a design and stuck with it :p

radiator problems

We (Shu and I) so freaked out when we were at the traffic light coz we heard a sound like someone's water broke!Well.......probably a car's water bag broke......which would most likely be the radiator.Of course,Shu's car did have some problems with the radiator earlier this year but he managed to seal it off.Well,the whole damn thing probably needs to go now.The car temperature gradually went up and eventually,we decided to let it cool off and hungout at the warung.Later on,Shu got a bottle of water and filled up the radiator tank but there was water dripping.....no,more like raining under the car....if that made any sense at all.Well,yeah.It was the radiator.We managed to get home but we're gonna have to get it fixed or replaced first thing tomorrow morning (which is anytime after this actually.....)

)*.*(

Hahahaha!!!!!

Anywho,our wedding invitations finally arrived.The ones for the reception.We were busy filling up what ever needed to be filled up and writing down names on them as well as the envelopes and carefully checking lists,making sure we didn't miss out anyone's names.We'll continue tomorrow.What ever deliveries we can do shall be done ASAP.

NOW I'm nervous.We have 5 weeks left and I have yet to make sure everything is in place.Well,the wedding planner called up my mum one morning just to tell her that he was so happy to know that I agreed to having inai on my fingers.Haha!I told you he's super enthusiastic!

I've been having muscle cramps from the badminton game yesterday.SHIT!I can hardly walk properly!

It's been crazy.The last 24 hours had been super intensed (for Shu) so he and I and my 2 brothers decided to hit the mall through the storm.Hahahaha!My brothers thought I was losing my mind which occasionally happens.We hung out for some drinks and food and headed for the game arcade.We sucked at every game we played but we kept on playing anyways.It's weird but Shu said that the Para Para Paradise 2nd Remix was not functioning properly.Hurmm........Of course,I insisted on trying out this whacked out Japanese game which involved throwing a bunch of balls to a huge screen.I like that game but the balls kept getting out of control and bounced everywhere.

I just had a yelling session at Snow Bear coz he was chewing off my Ugla!And he was acting weird between my bed and the wall.To prevent him from making a mess on my vanity table,I decided to kick him out immediately :/ Kecik is fat and so is Bedah.

danke schön!

Went to play badminton today.Haven't done that in a long while!I am still the net serving diver in the court.Less injuries but improved skills.Me likes!I kinda thought that thinking while playing the game would me make me lose control and not focus.So all I had to do was basically nothing.

Anywho,my knee and leg injuries are unavoidable.I try very hard NOT to do things out of the ordinary but they just happen.I'm always running and jumping around.Can't help it.It's part of my system.

Shu and I ALMOST splurged on tennis racquets which were on sale today!DAMN!If we didn't have other things to prioritize we would have spent about 300 bux out in a blow!Hahaha!We will and shall get those real soon!I'm no good at tennis but I am willing to learn ;)

OMFG!The wedding invitations arrived!THEY ARE SO CHOMEL!!!!!I especially love the envelopes coz it has sakuras on them and its all pink!The reception wedding invitations has my drawing on it! ^_^

P.S. I was listening to TH's Humanoid album while driving around today.It was supposed to be my 2nd attempt to listening to the entire album.I just couldn't.I stopped the disc and inserted their old album instead.I still love them singing their old songs in Deutsch!

TM Connects With Tokio Hotel Live In Malaysia@One Utama,BU

Got up SUPEREARLY this morning to get ready for a pre-wedding photoshoot.It's the first time ever Shu and I actually did this sort of thing.We were looking strange at first.Unsure of what to do and stuff.We went to the Taman Tugu Negara at first coz I thought the colors of the plants and flowers in the park were really nice.The thing is,I FORGOT that its the weekend and there were shitloads of people (tourists) there.

After that,for our next session,we were supposed to do a sporty photoshoot with running shoes and rugby balls.But we decided to go with our formal attire instead coz we would have gotten dirty and we should do it last so that we can take a shower before we leave for the concert later on.

Our photoshoot at the Tugu Negara park went well,except that we were attacked by bugs.Mosquitoes mostly.We survived.Shu and one of the photographers got a bit of rash though.The park back in TTDI was surprisingly mosquito-free today.We just got attacked by some giant red ants while shooting at the trees area.I think our best poses are when we are sticking our tongues out at eachother or when we're punching eachother or pulling on eachother's hair.

Anywho,we couldn't complete our photoshoot session coz we had to rush over to the mall for the live performance.It's TOKIO HOTEL!We couldn't possibly miss it for the world!Of course,we got free tix so it would have been a total waste if we didn't go since it's happening really3 near to where we stay.

Of course,as the poster states,Pop Shuvit and Bunkface were the opening bands.I lurve Pop Shuvit coz I tend to jump at their live performances eventhough I don't know their songs.Bunkface is new but so far,I only like ONE of their songs,and even so,I can't really sing the words to it :/ The opening bands were awesome.I was upfront at first with a bunch of kids and we were all getting along really well.Helping eachother find their friends and stuff.The tiny kid in front of me got separated from his friends and everyone around him (us included) helped him find them.

Yeah,the thing about the live show today was that is was overflowing with kids.Tiny,little,teeny bopper kids whom has no freakin idea wtf gigs are like.That's why they showed up in high heels and bling blings.It was funny coz the moment Shu held me up on his shoulders,everyone started complaining.Stage diving was DEFINITELY a BAD IDEA.It's either I kill those kiddies or they'd move away from having to catch me :/

Anywho,the ticket said that gate(s) would open at 6pm but we got in about 30 minutes later after getting stuck in the rain.And then,we had to wait some more for Pop Shuvit coz just before we entered,we saw them people bringing in some more crates and boxes of equipments and cables.Pop Shuvit's performance was awesome as always.I was jumping without looking around bumping into people around me :p

After that we waited some more for Bunkface to come up.They're good.Energetic.Me likes coz it suckes to not jump at gigs.The only problem was when they were about to sing the one and only song I could have sang along to,something went wrong with the sound system.All the speakers,amplifiers and stereos went must and we only heard live sounds from the drums.They got upset when they realized that everyone stopped making happy noises and started grumbling and complaining.Pity.I like that song.

Anywho,in between bands and during intervals,there's this annoying DJ up on stage playing out songs we could all sing to to pass time.The annoying this is that the songs were played the house-music way.I HATE HOUSE MUSIC!

We waited for so long but we just couldn't leave coz the reason we were all there was to watch Tokio Hotel perform in the first place.Some stupid DJ playing annoying house music was bearable for about 30 minutes or so although it caused me so much pain.I almost damaged my ears!

FINALLY,when Bill Kaulitz and his crew took over the stage,everything was just awesome!They played us a whole bunch of songs which personally,made me very VERY happy ^_^ I know that they sang a bunch of songs from their latest album-Humanoid which I haven't completed revising but I sang the other songs they played......in Deutsch :) I can't help it,I not only prefer them singing in Deutsch but I have been listening to their songs in that language all this while.I can only sing World Behind My Wall in English.I keep singing Automatisch instead of Automatic!

*Shu and I were super happy that Bill decided to sing Durch Den Monsun in Deutsch! ^_^ We totally sang along!

Anyways,they played about 10 songs and THEY WERE AWESOME!That is all I can say about them and their performance!We were informed that they'll be back in Malaysia for a project they'll be working on with MTV real soon!I anticipate a competition or somesort to obtain passes for that particular visit of theirs ;)

In the meantime,Shu and I need to catch up on our sleep and definitely REST!I think we're gonna have body aches real soon.I am especially worry about Shu coz he carried me for quite a bit through out the 4-hour live performance!We smelled like shit by the time the night was over but we were super happy and super glad that we went to see them all live ^_^

rectifying the shooting of the 15 year old kid incident

Media played a huge part in getting the shit all mixed up.A criminal law student who read the police report of the witness of that incident said that the boy was wrong.He got a call to go get someone so he stole his mum's car which was already an offence and when the police were notified of the stolen vehicle,they went after him and he must have panicked and drove off really fast and apparently,he hit a motorcyclist and later jumped a few red lights.The police had to do something coz the kid was out of control.When the police shot the tire of the vehicle,he didn't stop.Instead,he drove off really fast.Of course,jumping red lights is a big no no coz accidents happen at junctions where the traffic lights are posted to avoid the accidents from taking place.IF the boy HAD read up the laws of driving he SHOULD have known that driving without a license is a major offense and endangering the public is definitely an offense.

UNFORTUNATELY.......the police HAD to do something to protect the public so he shot the driver WITHOUT knowing that the driver was a minor.

I kinda thought something was wrong in the news.Of course,the whole issue about the boy being a minor could have easily been manipulated.And NO,there was NO parang in the car.MAYBE the people who were involved with boy were the ones who put the parang in the car.Nobody knows.

Underage driving is an offense.

Stealing a car is an offense.

Running down innocent people is an offense.

Jumping red light(s) is an offense.

NOT pulling over when the police tell you to is an offense.

Endangering the public by driving recklessly is an offense.

I'm sorry that the kid had to die that way.It was unfortunate.

why JAWI?

Strange if it stands for Jabatan Agama Islam Wilayah Persekutuan.......not sure what half of the acronyms stand for anymore these days.Especially things pertaining to religious departments.Well,I sure am the same old lost KL-lite I've been all this while.I seriously thought JAWI was on Jalan Ampang only to realize (and foundout) that the weird shaped building on that road is actually Tabung Haji..........

Anywho,we made it to JAWI thanks to Shu.Memo this,upon submitting the nikah forms,both,bride and groom (to-be) MUST be present.According to my jurunikah ,the wali was supposed to be present as well back then.Oh yeah,and we had to pay MYR25.Not sure what for but I didn't think they would have accepted credit/debit cards :/

Shu and I were giggling and later laughing at the faces of the officers in charge when they read all 3 of our forms.We all share the same house address.Well,Shu is after all staying with me at my place and we were told that it is best to keep our addresses within the district to make things easier.I suppose it would be easier for them AND us coz otherwise,they'd have to contact the Terengganu state authorities to process our papers.

Still......we submitted our forms early by about 5 weeks or so.I'm paranoid when it comes to bureaucratic shit.It could go wrong at the very last minute and then cause us more problems later on.Well,we made it anyways.

P.S. I was asking Shu is Islamic architectures were supposed to have pathways and signboards that leads nowhere.Just a thought........

the good,the bad,the ugly

I've been surrounded by people,girls whom might have had their share on horrible things down the relationship road that they no longer see the good in relationships anymore.I don't blame them for not wanting to try or take another chance ever again.Maybe it's coz experiences are never the same no matter how similar they may be.Our tolerance levels are different.Some of us can take it twice as hard and some of us can't even pass half of what a heartbreak is.

I wouldn't know where I stand but I never will find out coz I could say I was heartbroken before and I could say that I was close to giving it all up.All I know is that it's not as easy as any words could say.You can't read shit like this from books.No one can tell you what your next step should be.No one can tell you where you stand.

I would have to agree with Shu when he said people who write books about relationship doesn't know shit about it.Advice only applies within a time limit which is the time period it is asked for.Not before.Not after.What should be done at the time would be the time to take in the advice.As far as I am concerned,they are just thoughts or point of views or opinions of others.

I've lived long enough having to bear with negative opinions about relationships and I do understand that most women in my family history has gone about it the wrong way.I'm not saying I know better than them.I'm just saying let me learn.Let me make mistakes.You can't keep me from hurting coz that is all part of nature.I did get my heart broken once or twice but that won't stop me from trying again.It does take a while for me to get myself back together but I kept going and trying and finally,I landed on the decision to settle down.

What ever happens after this has not been written down yet.My sisters and relatives and people I know say all kinds of things to me.Some of them try to demotivate me.Some of them try to change my mind and perspective.They forget that they do not speak for me.They don't know me and they don't know what it's like to be me.I've made decisions which are similar to theirs but I am not them.People should stop being pessimists or they would have let their entire lives pass them by without them living it.

all things pertaining to wedding preparations has been put to a halt

Coz I wanna go see TOKIO HOTEL!!!!!!!!!

MUST BEG,STEAL or KILL FOR THEM PASSES!!!!!!!

furniture shopping

Got up late as usual.I think we were both tired from the weekend activities.While I was at the course,Shu decided to get some more things done back at our place nearby.He was repairing the drill holes for the curtains.I have no idea who did it before we moved in but it was super senget !WTF?!.........

Anywho,we've been measuring and remeasuring the width and length of each section of our place coz we're gonna start moving in furnitures real soon.We were supposed to look for shoe racks and a sofa but we ended up getting a display cabinet and a tv cabinet instead :p We ALMOST splurged on mattress but decided not to in the end coz we'd have no place to put it YET!

Kecik is smelly!

6 weeks and counting down

After checking the calendar last night,I realized that we only have about 6 weeks left before our wedding.That's about 42 days!

Our plans have been sped up but still,hopefully we have tied all the loose ends already.Planning to get our photoshoot done next weekend.The pre-wedding photoshoot.I've been talking to Shu about some concepts I have in mind.He seems to like it ^_^

We HAVE to go to JAWI to get our forms settled ASAP!

I've spent the weekend attending a crash course on teaching business English.Met some really nice people whom I think I shall be speaking to very soon.It was tiring but I had a blast.It was definitely a CRASH COURSE!Hahaha!Been doing way too much in the last 24 hours or so that I can hardly think anymore.

ONE LAST THING I MUST REMEMBER IS TO SEND OUT THE INVITATIONS AS SOON AS WE GET THEM!

lurve her style!

while I was getting stressed out over shitloads of things

I failed to realize how different the world I once lived in has evolved and changed drastically.I am sensitive about certain things and I am aware at how many things may have gotten out of hand and I am definitely aware of the changes it has brought to many other things in life in general.

Seriously,I think I am going to stay focused from now on.I have to prioritize and stop thinking about what should and could be and start doing what can be done.

I seriously have LESS THAN 2 FREAKIN' MONTHS till my big day and I am going through and re-going through all items on the to-do-list.Sometimes,there are more items on it and that would scare the shit outta me!

And in the midst of all this,people have been asking me if I think that my hair is too short or if it would grow long enough in time.......*sigh*

I'd happily worry about getting pedicure and manicure!My nails are horrible looking!My toe nails,that is.I'm not allowed to do serious running shit or workout routines coz I cannot afford to get major injuries which usually happens coz sometimes I'm not looking where I'm going.

And of course,badminton is another sport that seems to give me hell.It looks like a safe sport but it's not.At least not to me.I once injured myself from shuttlecocks getting smashed into my face and body.I've had the experience of the shuttlecock going straight into my eye.Luckily,it did not blind me.But it hurt a whole lot.

Anywho,I always injure myself and these days,my health isn't at its best.I think I'm gonna have to chillax a bit more at home ;)

went to the hair salon to get my hair trimmed......

......I am aware that I have already chopped off about 10 inches of my hair already but I just needed a little bit more edge to it so I went ahead and splurged a whole lot on my hair today ^_^

Juanna (the hair stylist) said that I've lost weight.A LOT.Haha!It's definitely my stress level.It's fucked up pretty much most of what's left of my system.Hell,I can't even look up properly when I walk coz the world would start spinning!And yes,I still pass for a secondary school girl when I don't dress up :/

I try to look my age most of the time.It's just hard to do.So I'd do it in times of need like if I need to get into movies which requires me to look old enough then I'd dress my age.Then again,it may not be what I wear.

ANYWHO!I have problems sleeping these days.AGAIN.Maybe it's the heat.But half the times I'm freezing.This is getting strange.I should call the Ghosbusters!

happy birthday Po Chi Lam!

Hahahahah!

My sister spent the night at home and we were laughing so hard last night over the dumbest things.She still insists that I bring out the worst insanity of her.Oh well.

It's her birthday today.She's 22......I think.My folks decided to take everyone out for brunch.Was almost late for our movie date at noon-ish.I think I'm gonna take my sister to either Bobbi Brown or Make Up For Ever for a birthday treat.

Anywho,I didn't eat during brunch coz I wasn't hungry.I got hungry after the movie.Just then,my mum called Shu to tell him that there has been some changes in plans and that Qarim wanted to join us since he was bored and wanted to get something at the mall anyways.Rushed home to get some things to be brought to our place later after that.

I needed to vacuum the apartment badly coz it was super dusty so we chucked the vacuum into the car.We=Qarim,Shu and I.Grabbed some more things to be brought to the apartment and headed off to Subang.BAAAAD TIMING!I completely forgot that it's a week day so we got caught in traffic jams and stuff.I drove all the way there for the first time ever!

*Managed to get Qarim addicted to the Sims 3!

Shu and I got hooked to the new Ford Fiesta.I'd happily get that car over any Japanese car!The fact that it is smaller and way cuter than the Ford Focus makes it awesome!AND........they come in manual transmission as well!YEY!

hatred for cyclists

I was gonna run down a bunch of cyclists who were cycling at the side of the road.I wonder if these people are aware of the rules of "SINGLE FILE"?! Dah la tanak use the pedestrian/bicycle lane!Pastu nak nak obstruct traffic!

AND.....I hate it when people do NOT STOP at a junction!

Anywho,Shu and I couldn't stop singing out loud KYLE'S MUM IS A STUPID BITCH (in D minor) I kept telling him that if I ever had to deal with the people he'd be dealing with in the future,I'd end up passing racist statements and swearing BIG TIME!Hahahahahaha!!!!!We've been listing out really awful words and sometimes it gets loud and we'd forget we're in public places.Either ways,it would make us laugh our heads off.

Anywho,we got Bedah a maze yesterday.I was hoping so much that she'd be happy about it so that she can walk about without being disturbed or attacked by Kecik or Snow Bear.She's NOT happy with it.In fact,she'd get worked up and angry and starts rolling around,scratching and biting the walls.She looked furious.She can't even climb up the tunnels.WTF?!Have I spoiled her completely?!

I've spoiled Kecik......no wait!Kak Yah spoiled Kecik!Snow Bear is spoiled by my parents :p

not hate but not love

I know that when I first splurged out on cosmetics,I totally splurged out on M.A.C. stuffs like primer and powder foundation and mineralized skin finish natural powder but that was before I explored the world of Make Up For Ever and Bobbi Brown.I must say,I do prefer liquid foundation a whole lot more.I've been alternating from Bobbi Brown's skin foundation to Make Up For Ever's HD foundation ever so often and I am beginning to love these liquid products more.

I love Bobbi Brown's natural coverage.It doesn't make me look like I'm wearing make up AT ALL which is good since my skin isn't perfect at all.Also,Bobbi Brown's concept of using the moisturizer which has some protection against the sun and stuff is also used as a primer makes it a whole lot easier for me to work with.Currently,I am finishing up the sample of the brightening face lotion with spf50.So far,I have not had problems with it although it does smell like sun block lotion.I lurve their concealer!

I love MUFE's HD liquid foundation only because it is super light that I don't feel like I have anything on at all.Since it does not have any protection against the sun,I'd put it on at night.It has a matte finishing so I don't look all shiny.I also lurve their loose powder.It doesn't have super light coverage like the HD translucent powder but it has a tint of color which makes it blend nicely.

I think if I'm gonna splurge next time,it would definitely be on any of these 2 brands ^_^

rocking the jungle

We're done with carrying the big loads from Shu's apartment in Bangi all the way to our new place in Subang.Yes,HUGE things like a bed,a computer,a computer monitor,a desk and a big bundle of laundry.AND we carried them all to the top floor and survived!YEY!

We've also put up the curtains in the lounge area so we have more privacy now.Oh yes,and the computer is all set up as well.We have one room which only needs a single mattress to be ready to be moved into.Yey!

Seriously,the place is in great condition to be moved into.We just need furnitures and probably a stove and stuff.The study room is by far the most used room in the apartment since we got the place.The littlest room is always opened coz we put things in it and stuff.The master bedroom is the emptiest right now.

We've been making good timing so far in going to Subang from either TTDI or Bangi.Traffic is alright.I think the only thing that seems to slow us down are the traffic lights.OH!We met one of our soon-to-be neighbors.He offered Shu his umbrella when Shu needed to make a quick run to the car.He lives on the same floor as us.He welcomed us to the new place with a smile when we thanked him ^_^

I am so BUYING a unit there soon!Hahahahaha!!!!!!