D'Cengkih,TTDI

I've had a rather strange week.Had a midterm on Monday evening and everyone copied and discussed with one another.Afiq was practically dictating the answers to us word by word from the notes he printed out earlier.

Got up with a conteminated swollen right eye on Tuesday morning.Instead of going to class,I was at the clininc and then having breakfast with mum and Shu.Was worried sick about Kecik around that time as well.

Kecik came home looking all worn out and we discovered he had thr ringworm thingy on his back.That got Shu and I worried sick so much that it kept us up at night.Shu would usually be the one who would wait up for Kecik and then he'd text me or call me to tell me what's happened to him.Which explains why Kecik connects with him differently than how he'd connect with me..........

Anywho,my presentation on Wednesday went well.My lecturer was acting strange.He went on and on about Terengganu dialects and words when he found out that Shu is from there.He's met Shu before coz there was this one time Shu was hanging around outside the class and we couldn't get anyone to open the doors........He was poking around the fact that I am a city girl who cannot keep up with the dialects or slangs of someone I am about to marry :/ Actually,it was more like he found out something and kept going on and on about which wasn't really making sense sometimes.I learned a thing or two though at some point.

After class on Tuesday morning,Shu and I got home early and in time to take Kecik to the vet.I like talking to Dr. Clement coz he'd tell me exactly what's wrong with my cat(s) and I'll always learn something new when talking to him.

Shu and I went out seperately today coz he had an exam at 9am in UNITEN while I had class at the same time.I was losing my mind the night before as he was revising.Lately,I've been tuning into my old Limp Bizkit Fred Durst thing.I wore my white cap and started rapping around (Durst style) to Nookie and Break Stuff and My Generation.

After prayers today,we went out in hope to catch Angels & Demons but we watched Jangan Pandang Belakang Congkak instead.We were laughing and laughing and laughing coz that was my first time watching a comedy malay flick and that Cat guy sounded exactly like the person I am about to be!Yo yo check dis out yo!

Had dinner at Arif's mum's restaurant called D'Cengkih somewhere nearby.It was the first time she's opening the restaurant for dinner.We've had lunch there sometime last month I think.There was this dude playing violin solos to the backing music from a keyboard.He was awesome.Then,my grandma requested Widuri by Broery Marantika (coz its her fav song) They performed the song purrfectly!

*Happy Birthday Tok Mah!*

finding neverland

I've always thought of living my life as a kid.Didn't think I'd have to come to a point where I'd have to make serious decisions.Some decisions come with serious consequences.Sometimes,it affects other people's lives.

I used think negatively on having kids due to numerous reasons which would eventually come down to financial and economical factors.Only because,I was born and raised here in the city.Everything about the city requires money.

Shu and I have always gone through the pros and cons of having kids later in our lives.Most of the time,we plan not to have any coz we're too selfish.We are so obsessed and absorbed with ourselves and eachother.We forget what our lives would be like 20-30 years down the road later on. (if we'd ever live that long)

I don't like thinking that far ahead.It's just not me.I love taking life as it comes.I realized that life in the city has side effects on how I think.Maybe it would be alright to have a kid to play tag or hide and seek with.I keep forgetting that I'm not going to stay young forever.

an interesting debate occured in class today

The issue was the fertility rate in the world.One of the factors contributing to this is the age of marriage (for women,of course).A guy in class commented that women are demanding when it comes to men.Therefore,men would need time to meet the demands of these women before being able to marry them.

Dr. Rohaiza said that it is not a matter of women being demanding but simply men not being able to catch up with the achievement of women today.She said that she recently interviewed some female engineers from Petronas who were married to men of a slightly lower professional status.

One of the women said that it is sort of a problem.For example,a woman married to a military officer said that her kid had some mathematical problem to solve and he went to his dad for help.His dad couldn't solve it so he went to his mum.His mother solved it in a split second.Later on,her son asked her why she could solve the maths problem and his dad failed to do it.She had to make up some silly excuse like his dad was busy and tired of work.

Hawadah then argued that would it be ok for guys to carry on living with wives whose earnings are 5 digits in a month whereas his pay is so much less than that.Her arguement was more on the men's ego.I don't suppose it is a real problem for most people today but when it comes to socializing,I guess it does have an effect.Especially if you have kids like the woman engineer above.

Anywho,the arguement went on and on and eventually turned into a battle of the sexes.Strange but it happens.We're in the 21st century.People from different backgrounds have different ways to view things.Some guys want their wives to stay at home the whole time.Some guys wouldn't mind having working wives.I'd say,if you can bring in a whole lot more income for you home,why not?Just let your wife work.The more cash the better,ain't it?

ringworm infected

Kecik is now a grown cat and he's out and about looking for a mate.I have no idea where he goes to these days but the last time he went out,he must have picked up some fungal infection from some other cat out there.We had to take him to the vet coz we weren't so sure how bad the infection is.It's not contagious to us homosapiens but other felines could easily get infected.We're not exactly quarantining the little dude yet but we have our eyes on that lil fler.Just making sure he takes his meds and gets the cream applied on him twice a day and stuff.Once this treatment is over,HE NEEDS A BATH!He stinks!I could be lying down on the floor next to him (just a few centimeters away) and I could smell his stinky-ness!EEEEUW!

got this in my email today

Jika kamu memancing ikan……
Setelah ikan itu terlekat di mata kail……
Hendaklah kamu mengambil ikan itu……
Janganlah sesekali kamu LEPASKAN ia semula kedalam air begitu sahaja…….
Kerana ia akan SAKIT oleh kerana bisanya……
Ketajaman mata kail kamu & mungkin ia akan MENDERITA selagi ia masih hidup……

Begitulah juga……
Setelah kamu memberi banyak PENGHARAPAN kepada seseorang ……
Setelah ia mulai MENYAYANGI kamu……
Hendaklah kamu MENJAGA hatinya……
Janganlah sesekali kamu terus MENINGGALKANNYA begitu saja……
Kerana dia akan TERLUKA oleh kenangan bersamamu……
dan mungkin TIDAK dapat MELUPAKAN segalanya selagi dia masih mengingati kamu……
Jika kamu MENADAH air biarlah berpada……
Jangan terlalu berharap pada takungannya dan menganggap ia begitu teguh……
Cukuplah sekadar untuk KEPERLUANMU sahaja……
Kerana apabila ia mulai RETAK….
tidak sukar untuk kamu menampal dan memperbaikinya semula……
Dan bukannya terus dibuang begitu sahaja……

Begitulah juga……
Jika kamu sedang memiliki seseorang….
TERIMALAH dia seadanya……
Janganlah kamu terlalu mengaguminya dan mengganggapkan dia begitu istimewa……
Anggaplah dia manusia biasa……
Kerana apabila dia melakukan KESILAPAN….
tidaklah sukar untuk kamu MEMAAFKANNYA dan MEMBOLEHKAN hubungan kamu akan TERUS hingga ke akhir hayat
Dan bukannya MENGHUKUMNYA dan MENINGGALKAN dia begitu sahaja kerana kamu merasa terlalu kecewa dengan sikapnya
Lalu semuanya akan menjadi TERHENTI begitu sahaja……
Jika kamu MEMILIKI sepinggan nasi……
Yang kamu pasti baik untuk diri kamu……
Yang MENGENYANGKAN dan BERKHASIAT……
Mengapa kamu berlengah lagi?
Cuba mencari makanan yang lain……
Kerana terlalu ingin mengejar KELAZATAN……
Kelak, nasi itu akan BASI sendiri dan kamu sudah tidak boleh menikmatinya lagi……
Kamu akan MENYESAL……

Begitulah juga……
Jika kamu telah bertemu dengan seorang INSAN……
Yang kamu pasti boleh membawa KEBAIKAN kepada dirimu…… MENYAYANGIMU….MENGASIHIMU….dan MENCINTAIMU….
Mengapa kamu berlengah lagi?
Cuba MEMBANDINGKANNYA dengan yang lain……
Terlalu mengejar KESEMPURNAAN……
Kelak, dia akan BERJAUH HATI dan kamu akan KEHILANGANNYA apabila dia menjadi milik orang lain……
Kamu juga yg akan MENYESAL dan tidak ada gunanya lagi……
Oleh itu janganlah kita terlalu mengejar KESEMPURNAAN kerana ia bukanlah faktor utama KEBAHAGIAAN yang sempurna, sedangkan jika kita boleh memaafkan KESILAPAN orang yang kita sayang dan akur dengan KELEMAHANNYA sebagai manusia biasa serta BERSYUKUR dengan apa yang kita sudah MILIKI…kita akan BAHAGIA, BAHAGIA dan terus BAHAGIA…itu lebih BERMAKNA!

“Begitu hidup ini tiada yang abadi yg patah Kan tumbuh yang hilang Kan berganti, namun yang berganti tidak mungkin sama seperti yang hilang”

welcome to the jungle

Hahahaha!Who would have thought I have a thing for marketing V(^_^)V

I have extraordinary classmates.One girl in my class is a qualified swimming instructor.She told us how she made it that far and it is not easy!She's amazing!

My other classmate teaches primary level kids tuition.Personal tuition.
The cool thing about these sort of work is that it is totally tax free!

The girl who teaches kids to swim can get up to about MYR4000 in a month!And giving tuition classes and getting paid by the hour really rawks!

The final project for this class requires the entire class to work together.Duh!There are only 6 of us.Our final presentation was sorta funny coz it turns out that everyone came up with different presentations and ideas which actually compliments one another.So it sorta made it look like we were all presenting as a team.

You want sales?I'll give you just that!

got up super early yesterday morning

Only to find out that my right eye had been conteminated by the anti-bacterial gel I put the night before.I text Shu telling him that my eye was hurting then I ran downstairs to find my mum.She told me to go to the clinic.I text my classmate that I wasn't coming in for class and went to the clinic with Shu and my mum.My eye looked like I was allergic to something according to the doctor.So she gave me an MC for 2 days.Still,I'm not a fan of not doing anything at all in a day.Had brakfast with mum and Shu and then we went home.

Was trying to get my Communications homework done.Headed out to Ikano and IKEA for a bit in the afternoon after getting Shu's notes from a classmate in Shah Alam.Had lunch in Subang.We saw this aweful looking Subaru with a whole lot of welded pipes all over the car and the color was.......eeeeuw!It totally looked like it was spray painted with a bunch of bad color combination :/

Was on the phone with my sister last night (after I was done looking for Kecik all over the neighbourhood) She said she misses home.She went to see a Bosnian survivor from the war testifying what was done to him.She said she saw and looked into the eyes of the killers of innocent people and thought how the hell do these people walk around looking like they had done nothing wrong.

She said she misses Malaysian food BIG TIME!

strange vegetation

Shu and I were worried sick about Kecik the whole of last night.He didn't come home and as much as I know how he never answer my calls,I went around outside looking for him last night.Finally,Shu told me to just come inside.We prayed for him to come home.He did.This morning.Shu said he looked like he got into a fight.I have no idea where he went but I'm just glad that he's home.We have to take him over to the vet and check on those strange markings on the back of his neck :/ Hello,Dr. Clement!

hahahaha!

kisah kakak yang kerja di rumah Aunty Tipah

Shu and I were sent out to make a delivery for my mum.The things were for Aunty Tipah who wasn't at home at the time of the delivery.Her maid was home alone.We didn't know that she had just started work there.Being the goofies that we are,Shu and I turned up at the front gate in our Little Devil hats at about 9pm.The maid peeked out from the window upstairs then opened the front door telling us that the tuan rumah wasn't in.I told her that we were just delivering stuff.She went inside and the house alarm went off.Shu and I took off our hats thinking that it might have been the reason she got scared.The alarm went off again.Shortly after that,she finally came out and took the stuffs from us over the gate.

After we got back into the car,I told Shu that we should have tried scaring her off with scary tales of maids being left alone at home in the night :p

after a long drive on the highway.......

We are finally home.Safe and sound.

Shu,Azim and I went to send Qarim back to his campus in Perak.We left at about 4pm.Got there within about 1 and a half hours time.Our drive home took us HOURS!At one point,we were only going at about 40km per hour!Azim went crazy for a bit.He was singing out loud Psychosocial.......growling out the lyrics is more like it.

Haha!Another funny thing to add to our silly story would be us bringing home the toll ticket.Here's what actually happened.We've already taken a ticket when we exited Gopeng.Then,halfway through the heavy traffic and all,Shu decided to top up the touch 'n' go card at a petrol station since there were so many cars on the road forgetting that we already have a ticket.We got to the Damansara toll and Shu was wondering why the screen said the card is not recognized.No amount was deducted either.I quickly checked the overhead sun screen and took out the toll ticket.All of us looked at eachother for a bit and then laughed our heads off.When we got home,the first thing I showed my folks was the toll ticket.

just because you are a budak kecik doesn't mean you can get anything you want!

Bengang la pulak!
Shu and I were at the park late in the afternoon today.We were happily talking over things on a seesaw.Suddenly,out of nowhere,came a lady asking if we could move coz the little girl she was babysitting wanted to play on it.Without any hesitance at all,Shu and I smiled and let them have the seesaw (only because we were in a good mood).
Then,as we were walking getting closer to home,Shu realized that he has a cousin who is just as spoiled as that little girl in the park.That totally changed our mood thinking if we should just go back to the park and tell the lady and the little girl to take a hike coz we were there first!

Anywho,Shu and I were driving around KL earlier in the day.At first,we were just killing time.We ended up at Bukit Aman,parking somewhere near a Space Agency.WE HAVE A SPACE AGENCY!We also discovered that we have a Police Museum!It's near the Lake Garden Bird Park.There was also a Planetarium and a Butterfly Garden........

Eventually,we got thirsty.While driving around the closed shop lots in KL,we decided to just head over to Mutiara Damansara since I was supposed to get my mum a birthday present anyways.We had some drinks at OutPost over a game of Shrek Junior Monopoly.Stopped by at Skin Food to get my mum something and headed home.

*Me thinks me likey Skin Food products* ^_^

My uncle and my aunt dropped by for my mum's birthday bash.For some strange reason,just as Aunty Intan and Farah arrived,they had this secret meeting which Shu and I were NOT invited to join regarding OUR WEDDING!Hah!Wait till they hear the plans Shu and I have in mind which we told Farah!She thinks that my dad wouldn't mind the idea ;)

While on the seesaw,Shu and I have decided to make the reception a PRIVATE reception.It would make things less complicated ^_^

P.S.: I still tidak puas hati with that little girl at the park!

paying for other people's expenses......again.......

The latest pre-marital procedure includes having a pre-marital course certificate AND a HIV blood test report.My folks never had to do any of those things back in those days.

Here's a rough calculation of the expenses BEFORE getting married:-
Pre-Marital course MYR80/person
Pre-Marital package blood test report MYR160(women) & MYR150(men)

And then,comes the mas kahwin.It differs from state to state.Here in KL,the rate is MYR80++

On top of all those,culture includes a hantaran<---honestly,I am not so sure of what the amount is nor do I know what exactly it is for.

Anywho,other expenses would depend on what and how the wedding is going to be conducted.As for where I am right now,I don't really have a say.Everytime I suggest something,I'd either get turned down or simply ignored :/

movie carnival 2009@Sunway Pyramid

After class this morning,Shu and I headed over to Sunway Pyramid coz I was curious about the movie carnival thingy.We passed by the concourse but then,we decided to have brunch and then walked around.Our brunch was way past lunch time but way too early for tea.We ended up talking and talking and laughing.Finally,we decided to walk around.
We passed by the DDR machine.Some kids were at it.Some other kids were at the Japanese drums.Looking at those kiddies hitting them drums real hard,Shu said they reminded him of us when we first tried out that thing.Both of us just doing what ever only coz we cannot read kanji.Hahaha!
We headed over to the concourse and checked out the booths and displays.We had to stop by the Cinema Online booth coz I spotted a cardboard stand-up of the lion mascot wearing a starfleet academy uniform with the line "LIVE LONG AND PROSPER" written under it.It was so chomel!The previous stand-up too was interesting.It was a picture of the same lion all dressed up like the Joker with the line "WHY SO SERIOUS?" written under it.It turned out that those were prints on t-shirts and stickers sold at the booth.Shu got the Joker lion t-shirt and I got the Spock.We got a car sticker and a Narnia collector's folder thingy.We also got 2 free tickets for any movies that will be released in the next coming 6 months.
Oh.....if you ever go over to the Drag Me To Hell movie display site,DO NOT attempt to sniff the stupid coffin props there coz what ever they did to make the thing look and smell like a dead body,it worked!

kisah mak cik gigih di jeruk stand

Hahahahaaaa!!!!!!
Shu and I were at a kopitiam and nearby was a stall selling jeruk and assam.Shu was in the middle of saying something then out of nowhere,I blurted out "amboi.....gigih benor mak cik tuh membeli jeruk......." Shu's reaction was blank at first,then he burst out laughing.Our conversation was far from jeruks.

I am super exhausted.The so called sleepy and the tired ones got home early today and we actually agreed to play badminton with my dad at the park.Our warm up session today was a quick basketball match with Azim and Rashid.Then,we were just playing around at the badminton court when my dad arrived.Ash arrived and we started a game or two.Later on,Rashid and Azim came by to play a game (replacing Shu and I)

We continued playing and because we started playing early today,we played till our feet could bear us no more.I was tired a wee bit more coz I kept dancing the LBP monkey dance every now and again.It's really fun.Now,Shu and Rashid can do it too ^_^ All you gotta do is shake you booty!

pathlab

Shu was calling the directory all morning trying to get a number to any labs in the area where we can get our blood test done.Finally,we ended up in Damansara Utama.It was a strange but funny experience coz neither of us have ever been to a lab like that and every other person who walked in are old.It's a good thing that the place has several different packages to choose from.Lucky for us,they have a pre-marital package.Shu kept checking that the lab girl didn't get our blood mixed up coz we wouldn't wanna end up with complications at the very last minute.

On our way out,Shu caught a car passing by with both passengers in it staring at us.After a while,he realized it was Ayie and his wife.I thought it was one of Shu's friends.

Had brunch in Bangi.Shu met up with his brother for a bit then we headed to Shu's place to change the locks and stuff coz of the recent incident that took place there.Also,no one will be living there until the new semester begins.I'm just a wee bit paranoid about leaving the house the way it was knowing that there are valuable things there still.

Oh yeah,today is Shu's mum's birthday.My mum called her up this morning just to wish her.It surprised her.It surprised both Shu and I as well.We didn't think my mum was really gonna do it.Well,I didn't.

dauthus

The thing about death is that you only go through it once in life and you will definitely have to go through it.Sooner or later.I fear it.A lot.

At the pre-marital course we attended,one of the speaker's opening speech was about how forgetful we are as mortal men.We keep talking about the past like it was just yesterday when in fact,it has come to past.The more we talk about it,the longer it has left us.What we fail to realize is that every second that passes by leads us closer to the one thing we don't wanna talk about.Death.

His examples were simple.When we talk about the past we'd usually say stuff like "baru je semalam........." but when we talk about death,the usual template would be something along the lines of "nanti,bila saya dah mati......".

Death is commonly related to old age.If and unless you are terribly ill,you may be related to death just as much.Do we forget that we can die anytime?I always think of my chances of surviving the world tomorrow.Sometimes,I tend to think that the carelessness of others might lead me to my doom.Actually,that is an erronous thing to do.We can still die no matter how careful or how healthy we are.

While that gives me endless sleepless nights.I'd resort to thinking of surviving or going on having to lose the people I love.I know for sure that it is one thing if I were to go.Even so,I don't know if I am strong enough to face it myself.Let alone being the one left behind.

almost crashed case

Yesterday,Shu accidentally dropped his backpack in men's.His laptop was in it.It dropped to the tiled floor.The edge of the lower left part of his computer cracked.We thought it was done for.When we got home in the evening,I told him to try switching it on with the power adaptors.If that failed,we would either have to get it checked at a computer store and extract or save everything form the hard disk or.........he'd have to get a new computer.

Lucky for him,his laptop worked perfectly.

Eversince we played Dance Dance Revolution over at Sunway Pyramid the other day,it sorta became an addiction.Well......for someone whose never played such a game (such as myself),I won the first time around (eventhough it was only the beginner's level).We tried playing it again today and thanks to Shu,we ended up playing the expert's level.He won but we both failed the level so we didn't get a second round :/

Recently,we discovered a restaurant over in Bangi called Restoran Amir.We passed by it one day by accident coz it was near Bangi Kopitiam.Then,we decided to give it a try.Now,that is THE place to have brunch or lunch for us since my classes are in the mornings and Shu's classes begins at 2pm.The food served there are just simple nasi campur and a bunch of malay/malaysian dishes but they taste awesome and the price is pretty cheap.Definitely cheaper than TTDI and for that sort of food,I have switched from eating nasi kandar to eating proper rice dishes now ^_^

The only sport we've been playing at these days would be badminton.From the first day we started playing which was just Shu and I fooling around in the alley near my house,my dad got us to join him to play proper games over at the park with nets and stuff.I started off as someone who completely sucked at the game.Now,I play so much better.I still don't get the rules of the game so I'd end up at the wrong side of the court most of the time.

Oh yeah,we stopped by at the hospital in Serdang on our way home just to see if we could get our HIV blood test done there.It turns out that only refered cases are treated there.If and unless we come in as an emergency case,they don't have an outpatient clinic there.This would mean that we'd have to go back to plan A which was to go over to UH over in PJ.

Next week,we'll have to check with JAWI regarding the forms Shu and I have to fill-up before the day of nikah.Since Shu's I.C. states that he was born in Terengganu.Therefore,he'll have to fill up some extra forms if we're going to get married here in KL.Our check list of things to do is neverending.......hopefully,we'll be able to clear it out soon ;)

randomness

Shu made me a light up picture frame from his cellphone box.I took out an entire stash of random bits and pieces of junks I've been collecting and we started making things.I experimented a stand-up piece with one of the pictures I printed some weeks ago.

Anywho,this whole randomness began the night after the pre-marriage course ended.I helped Shu out with the soldering iron and stuff a bit and then I ran off after Kecik.Chased him around with the camera.Kecik,being the snoopy that he is,was sticking his nose into the things Shu and I left lying around the floor.Then,he started playing with the pencils and cutters.

Kecik lost his collar last night.We thought someone took it off but Kak Yah said he came home without it.When he came home this morning,the collar was back on and no one in the house took it off or put it back on.Curiouser and curiouser.Of all the cats that are living in our house,Kecik is the only one whose lost the bell on his collar.Then,he lost the bell Shu bought for him.We got him a new bell this morning.Lets just see how long this one will last.

kantoi muka selamba

answering the 'why' questions

Shu and I got up early on Sunday morning.We both didn't get much sleep the night before.I was still recovering from fever.He just had trouble falling asleep.We got ready and headed over to Al-Nidaa.We were the first couple to arrive.It was freezing cold.My fingers actually turned blue.

Anywho,everyone arrived in time and the first speaker began giving us a lecture on "Akhlak".Basically,how husbands and wives should behave towards eachother as well as everyone else around them as well.It seems as though it is something everyone knows.Common sense and stuff.Well,not everyone remembers where to draw the line at times.

After a 30-minute break,a female Chief Matron walked in and began talking about health issues.HIV test is a requirement in the procedure of getting married.Shu and I shall be heading over to UH sometime within this week for that.We might even get a whole lot of other tests done as well while we're at it.

We had lunch and went home for Zuhur prayers.Came back at 2pm and the next speaker was a guy who came in to talk about marital procedures.What we'll need on the day of nikah.Documents and stuff.He also talked about the things that could break the marriage like things we sometimes do unintentionally or things that we do without realizing that it's wrong.

The last speaker was awesome.He gave us a talk on dealing with stress and conflicts in a marriage.He first told us that man and woman are different.Physically,mentally and spiritually.The whole thing about the ratio of 1:9 and 9:1 in man and woman is not literally what we are always told.Women work on an emotional level more than functioning on a logical level whereas men functions more on a logical basis.He made a lot of sense and his explanations were very clear.So clear that it made us realize what we are by throwing in random circumstances and asking us what our reactions would be.I'll post it in a different entry later.

Overall,I think Shu and I learned a lot form the course.We also managed to refresh our memories at some point and we were reminded of our rights and responsibilities.It's been a tiring weekend but at least we got it done.Next up,University Hospital!I am so afraid if my blood would come out in a different color (other than red) :/

relearning like learning new things

Pre-marital course:Day 1

Shu said that back in school,he never bothered to go for any form of seminars or courses while I,on the other hand,was sent to all sorts or motivational courses.I didn't like it much.
It was weird that both of us attended a course today and we were both so psyched about it.

The course was held at a place called Al-Nidaa.Situated at the shop lots near my old house.We got there in time.I think there were about 5 couples including us.The first speaker was a guy named Faisal.He sounds like he's been giving talks pertaining to religious relations and marriage.He was always went out of topic a little everytime he moved from one topic to another.There was this one time when he started talking about Jinns.It was getting really interesting till he realized that he was running short of time to cover the entire module.

We had about 30 minutes of gap so Shu and I went for a drink.Got back and a new guy walked in.He gave us a talk on handling family financial affairs.Each couple was given a booklet to keep track of our expenses for a year after we get married.It was a compulsory thingy from the National Bank.Then,we were given a talk on communications in marriage.It was funny coz he had a whole lot to cover and he was really3 short of time.By the end of the session,Shu and I looked at eachother and thought "what the hell was he talking about again?"
We got home in time for Maghrib prayers.

Tomorrow,the second half of the course begins at 8:30am.Luckily,we don't have to get up super early since its near our house anyways.

Bora Asmara@Sg. Penchala

Shu took me out for dinner tonight.I was thinking of somewhere quiet and nice and has the "candle-light-dinner" effect.The place was perfect.We had some pretty good food and there was a live band playing.They came to our table.We hung around a little longer till they finished playing a song for us.Shu's never been there.I'm glad we decided to have dinner there coz he loved the place.

We made it through a whole year this time around ^_^

Tomorrow,we shall both be attending the pre-marital course!

I may still be mistaken for a teenager.......

but I know what I'm doing.

There 2 types of people that I'd usually come across in life.Some are people who would give me endless lectures about life only because they have gone through everything I could ever anticipate in life.Sometimes,they'd irritate me coz I always think that there are choices in life and the choices we make would take us to where we are.If we had gone down a different road,things would have turned out differently.So what these people tell me are only experiences from going down one path.Their lives would have turned out differently if they made a different choice.Still,I keep telling myself that these people are only concerned about what mistakes I could repeat.That's why they tell me what they tell me.

Another group of people would be people who would just tell me things which they have not (yet) experienced.They probably think I am under the impression that they know better when in fact,they too are still new to such circumstances.I wouldn't completely disregard their opinions or suggestions coz they could make sense.I just feel like sometimes,I think they should give it at least a year's worth of experience before telling me the things they tell me about the decisions I make.Even if they are older,that doesn't mean that they are wiser.These people too sometimes irritate me but not as much as the other group of people.

Things happen the way they happen because of the decisions you make.It would have turned out differently if you took a different road.

little big plans

Been going around looking for what's good to use for decorations or themes.Lots of stuff seem useful now thanks to Little Big Planet ^_^ All I need to do now is submit a proposal and hopefully I won't get any form of rejections or anything.If any of such things occur,I shall have to break my head AGAIN for a new plan since I do NOT intend to abandon this current plan of mine!!!!!

Was killing time on Tuesday.Class was cancelled again.Shu and I were at our usual place for brunch in Bangi.We had too much time to kill so we ended up in Putrajaya for some unknown reason.Of course,I am not familiar with the place.We were paddling a tiny boat in the middle of the lake with the sun burning our heads off at noon!It was fun!Next time,we should get Kecik to come along.In case he jumps into the lake,we'll be sure to strap him up with a life jacket.

Took a look around the huge lake at Souq.Shu showed me the Palace of Justice.I'd say,we should go skateboarding there one of these days.The terrain is awesome.

*Shu has recently picked up on skateboarding.He's been skating.I have to recover properly before causing another major injury onto myself AGAIN.Planning to make that mountainboard dream of mine come true.Not anytime soon though.We have wakeboarding on our minds at the same time.......hurmm..........

Had brunch at Gasoline over in Sunway Pyramid today.Lurve that place!Especially the Asian Avenue! ^_^

horribly amused by Mr Hammet :p

After not having any access to the internet (at home) for so long,it kinda feels weird to be here now.The wi-fi router was struck by lightning.Had to get a new one.Didn't know that the entire Streamyx database was reset.

*sigh*

Sarah had always called it Screamyx for a reason........such as......the non-existent operator for the customer service hotline.WTF is up with these people?Went over to the TM office TWICE and none of the receptionists understood what we told them.

Anywho,got it all sorted out and here I am now........online........

Been dealing with a whole lot of problems regarding relationships lately.Not mine.It doesn't even concern neither Shu nor I.That's the weird part.On one hand,there is my sister and her annoying neverending problem with being faithful.She came home one morning crying so badly over a break-up.The next thing I know,she's back together with her boyfriend.After everything she told me that morning,she just can't drop her bad habit.

Shu and I have been advising her and stuff.It's weird coz who would have thought my sister (or Eno!) would bother asking me for advice.If I remember correctly,one of them told me that I should keep my mouth shut when it comes to relationships coz I never had one.Hurmm.......maybe that's why.I wasn't involved in such things till now.

Apart from that,a friend of ours (well,not really a friend type of friend) but it's most likely someone we both know,have recently been up to something really3 suspicious.The thing is,we usually wouldn't give a damn about things like these if it doesn't involve us.This little situation does eventhough it is in an indirect way.Why can't people just be less complicated?Why must the problems of their relationship involve other people whom are not concerned with it?Why can't people just be faithful to one another so that we can all live in peace?

*sigh*

In the world of FidZy and Shu,we have sent our nikah clothings to the tailor.It should be ready by end of this month.We are trying to pick a weekend to go for the marriage course.Hopefully,we can get this all done soon and start a new life together by 2010 ;)

moving away plans

This isn't the first time we've gone through something like this.It hurts.It hurts the both of us.Hopefully,in the long run,we will remember this and hopefully it would help us strengthen what ever we have in the future.I never said this would be easy.We should start our life fresh somewhere at a place where no one can find us.

Obviously,not here............

This is goodbye..........

longing for peace

Ever gotten up on the wrong side of the world and you don't really feel like yourself?That happened to me today.I wanted to do everything and nothing at the same time.That sucked coz I couldn't be myself anywhere.All of that ended after jamming tonight.Thank God for music!

Actually,music didn't really change anything.It just let me vent out all my energy so that I have nothing to waste my miseries on.

The thing about being the vocalist (especially during jamming sessions) is having to endure the smell of the microphones at the studio.It smells bad.Really really REALLY bad.Also,having to put up with lyrics and voice control along while making sure I'm playing the right chords with or without distortions.

I totally forgot a pre-chorus to a song we're so used to covering tonight.That was weird.Didn't get the chords mixed up so much though.That's good coz usually there tend to be a few times when I'm really REALLY messing up a song by playing the wrong chords and stuff.We tried playing Deep Purple's Highway Star and Kamal said we might cover that song.

The studio we jammed at tonight had some twinkle thingy at the drum set.Rashid kept including that sound in our songs and it ruined some of the feel to the songs we played.Towards the end of the jamming session,Shu tried making use of the keyboard and I freaked out coz I heard some strange sounds and I kept thinking that I was causing it.

It was fun but a little tiring coz the studio was in Subang.On our drive back,there was a traffic jam on that road at Kelana Jaya.A Rexton was seen lying on its back across the left lane.I have no idea WTF happened but it must have been driving at high speed or something coz the LDP is a straight road.So irritatingly straight that I cannot comprehend why a traffic jam can occur ever so often on that road.

Anywho,eversince Shu and I went bowling last week,we've been trying to get my brothers together for a game of bowling or something.Maybe we'll do that next weekend.We asked Kamal if he'd like to come along.He said he might.He said he's not good with sports involving the upper part of the body like pool or table soccer.Bowling included.He also said he'd like to try out rugby.Shu and I are very delighted to teach him.We're always short of people to play rugby with.

These tears I've cried

I've cried 1000 oceans..........

I am at the verge of going insane right now.My knee hurts.I cannot run much these days.Tried playing basketball with my brothers today and after showering when I got home,my knee hurts so much more.I'm back to wearing the support Shu got me yesterday.The funny thing is I have no idea what happened to it in the first place.

Anywho,followed Shu to class today since I'd die staying at home these days.It was short.The class was crowded.More people in there than the class I went into last semester.The class lasted for about 30 minutes.All the lecturer did was assign topics to each of the students.After Shu got his topic,we left.

We ended up at Sunway Pyramid.For some strange reason,we're usually either at the Asian Avenue and/or JCo Donuts when we are there.Had lunch at a newly discovered place today called Gasoline.It is very VERY anime+japanese.We sat on the floor.Had to take our shoes off and stuff.The surrounding is full of colorful walls filled with pictures or some anime pirates.The service and food was good.Shu's lamb had some curry leafs in it.My ice-blended chocolate was awesome.

Walked in and out of stores and I discovered that I lurve that costume shop full of costumes,props and trick packs.Initially,our plan was to get some afro wigs.One blonde and one black in color.Failing to find those,we ended up looking at some clown hats and some feathered wingss and finally,some awesome war helmets.I was so very tempted to splash a whole LOT of cash on that helicopter pilot helmet.White and shiney and pretty with a red star in the top middle of it.

Who calls on the mighty Dionysus?

Chair of the National Endowment? Winegrowers Association?

That was as much effort as I have ever put into anything pertaining school.......and stuff.........

I wonder if LinZy remembers this........

http://www.stagepage.info/oneactplayscripts/deus.html

When you feel all alone

And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold

When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head

When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day

'Cause there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breath again

-Savage Garden-

silliness:Bonnie & Clyde style

Shu called me up early this morning to tell me that he's already in TTDI.He was at his sister's place over at Wangsa Maju last night coz his folks were there.The plan was to pick me up and get some breakfast but since his driver's license had already expired (last week),he had to go renew it.We were supposed to get it done yesterday but since we were stuck in UNITEN,we didn't get around to the post office in time.

Mum threatened him that if he carries on driving around with me without a driver's license,she's not gonna let us go out ever again coz my insurance isn't gonna cover me should anything happen.Haha!

At the post office,we were the first customer coz it was so damn early in the morning.Funny,Shu took out his wallet and showed an already expired renewal slip and asked for his license to be renewed.The lady at the counter said that she can't help us unless he has his original driver's license.He took out every damn thing from his wallet but couldn't find his particular license.She asked him what the other documents were and they were all my "L" and "P" license.

After being told to make a report at JPJ in order to get his license renewed,he realized that his original license had been in my wallet all along.We turned back to the counter and got Shu's license renewed ^_^

Had breakfast and we managed to get some things done in time before Shu had to leave for class at 2pm.With permission granted,we decided to go out on a movie date today.He got back to TTDI in time to get me and headed straight for the cinema.Of all things to do,we just HAD to scare the shit out of ourselves by watching a Thai Horror film.

Anywho,I've been clumsy these days.Too clumsy.I have a bruise below my left knee.It hurts.I must have hit something.My right knee hurts like crap but I have no idea what happened to it.Yesterday,I accidentally hit my left thigh at a sharp end of a ocmputer table at the computer lab in UNITEN.That caused a little bump and bruise.I accidentally hit my right knee real hard at a wooden chair today just before leaving the house.Oh yeah,I also accidentally poked my eye with Shu's glasses last night.

I'm in pain but ignoring the fact that I am clumsy :p

by Avril Lavigne

There’s nothing I can say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me
All the pain the tears they cry
Still you never said goodbye and now I know how far you’d go
I know I let you down but its not like that now
This time I’ll never let you go
I will be all that you want and get my self together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make every thing OK
I thought that I had every thing I didn’t know what life could bring
But now I see honestly
You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe 'cause you're here with me
And if I let you down
I’ll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go
Cause without you I can’t sleep
I’m not gonna ever ever let you leave
You’re all I got
You’re all I want
And without you I don’t know what I’ll do
I could never ever live a day with out you
Hear with me do you see your all I need

secrets

We were at UNITEN this morning.Not as early as yesterday coz we selpt-in a little longer.We weren't really rushing for anything but we just had to get some stuff done.We were at the admin building coz Shu had to go see some academic officers about some stuff.

Meanwhile,I was trying to connect to the UNITEN student wi-fi.Failed coz I got Shu's matric number mixed up.So,I decided to take a walk outside since I was freezing cold.After a while,Shu finally came down to the lobby where I was looking at some awesome inventions by the UNITEN students.

We talked over lunch at ALAMANDA.Then,we did some bowling.I think we're gonna get my brothers together by end of this week and go bowling.Haven't done that in a while.Besides,I think it's so much better than having them stuck in front of the damn television playing the PS3.Apart from basketball in the mornings and afternoons,that's all they ever do in a day.

Anywho,Shu and I have been talking about a lot of things lately.Things pertaining both our lives.Things we cannot tell anyone of.Not even my mum.I worry about him a lot and I am constantly trying to help him sort things out.We have to get this over with and move away from here.Away from everyone.
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It's one thing to talk about things that has already been done.It's another to pass judgements.Especially if you are someone who is supposed to help.If you are just going to remind people of the mistakes they've made than I suppose you are a bigger idiot than I thought.We will make use of you to the fullest and walk away without even thanking you.

little taiwan

Got up really3 early this morning.Went to UNITEN with Shu coz he had to send his thesis copies and we had to be there before 8am.Went to the computer lab after that coz he had to register for the special semester.Failing to do that,we just hung around for a bit and at about 1pm,we decided to have lunch at that place we wanted to go to at One Utama called Little Taiwan.

The place has some awesome food.Not chinese food but it's a change.I accidentally ordered some spicy fish thingy which turned out to be SUPER spicy!That place is definitely where I'd go to get bubble milk tea or ice blended drinks from now on ;)

the daily mishaps of Kecik

Kecik's luck has been pretty crappy these days.Lately,my folks have been killing flies like mad.There are flies everywhere and we have no idea where they come from.Instead of electricuting them to death with the low powered fly electricuter,my folks have changed their strategy to swapping them dead with rolled up papers and stuff.Recently,my dad finally got those sticky fly trap papers which actually works.......only,Kecik sometimes gets his nose stuck on them when he sniffs around.

Today,mum said that he accidentally got his nose stuck and then he freaked out and moved back and got his tail stuck onto another piece of sticky paper.Then,he started rolling around and making sounds and freaking out.The other cats just watched in horror coz they weren't really sure of what was happening but Kecik sounded really scared.I pity the little guy.Now,his tail looks a bit messy and there lumps of fur sticking on his body.He's got some of them sticky things on his moustache and face as well.

When Shu and I got home,we looked for Kecik and hugged him and helped him clean up his fur.

he asked if anything should happen,would I still marry him.......

Yes,I would.And I shall happily join him in faking our deaths and start our lives fresh somewhere where we are unknown.I have always wanted to do that.Life,if routined is meaningless to me.What is life if there are so many things holding us back like chains keeping us like prisoners?

He said that his mum is happy to know that we are back together and she wants to see us get married.Well,we always say that the sooner we get this done the better.

Being paranoid,I cannot predict what the economic state would be like in the future.For now,I think 2009 is a good time to get married.I don't know what 2010 is like.Personally,I don't know how much longer we have till the world gives up on us all.

By the way,the good news we heard from his mum is that she does not have any symptoms of heart problems.The not so good news is that she pneumonia which means she has to get help from antibiotics.The only problem is,she is allergic to some medication so hopefully,the medication she is currently on is helping her get better.

for someone who loves taking my own sweet time

I sure do enjoy doing something better than nothing but the amount of reading I've been doing in the last 24 hours of my life really,almost drained the living crap outta me!Right now,I can't really tell what I'm doing.......hurmm.......I'd probably be joining Shu and his Zombie parade real soon.He hasn't slept all night doing his thesis.Woke him up after I showered this morning.He said he felt like he was floating all the way down when I was getting ready to leave for my exam this morning.I sure hope he finishes his work ASAP.

movin'

Not me.Not yet.Aunty Intan shall be moving to an apartment in BSD soon.Farah decided to buy a place instead of just renting.Although Aunty Intan isn't very happy about it coz her friend's are all here in TTDI but it's probably the best thing to do.Kamal isn't very happy about having to pay for more tolls.

I know for sure that moving isn't as fun if it's somewhere you don't really wanna go.Packing is also a problem.Being my paranoid self,I don't like owning a lot of stuff coz I know that I'm gonna live my life moving from one place to another.I figured I should make sure I live my life on the go...........

Anywho,Shu and I were bobbing our heads to Franz Ferdinand music the whole day.After my paper,we headed back to TTDI coz he needed to find a place where he can bind his FYP thesis.Since the people at the shop in TTDI couldn't get it done on time,we were recommended to find a particular place over in section 17 PJ.The funny thing is that 2 people gave us directions which was supposed to lead us to one place but both of them got pretty messed up at telling us which way to go or where exactly it was.

We ended up going to this new place called Jaya One near the old matriculation center.We didn't find any printing shops there at all.We did see a cute little kitten which we tried to catch.It ran off.I was so kawaii coz it looked like a squirrel..........Well,the place is nice.Lots of places to eat and stuff.But since we were running out of time,we decided to not hang around and find that printing shop.We ended up at the old shophouses next to MCIIUM.

Then,we had to go get ink for the printer coz Shu's got a whole lot of printing to do so we went to One Utama.Had dinner there and then got home in time for Maghrib ;)

I am looking forward to some lepak session and our next acoustic performance.

improvise

Kamal said that the acoustic performance will be postponed to next week.That would give us time to practise and work on our line-up.Which means,we MUST by all means have a band meeting THIS weekend.Playing along with us would be the band we met at the Rock The World audition-Phaser-and Adan's (Abang K'rol's brother) band.It would be really awesome to watch Phaser perform again coz they play rock 'n' roll and they rock.I've never seen (or heard) Adan's band perform but I heard they play some heavy stuff........the whole trashing the guitars to the amplifiers.

Anywho,in the meantime,Shu's mum is recovering.My folks and I decided to just postpone the family meeting on the 17th to the weekend or something until Shu's mum recovers.The doctors suspect that its a heart problem.Hopefully not coz Shu said she did the ECG once and there were no signs saying that she had any.Maybe her heartbeat was a bit low coz she wasn't eating and stuff.Hopefully she recovers fully.

suimen no tsuki

Had dinner with my grandma and Qarim and my cousin Anas Bananas.I was falling asleep every other second.Qarim was being himself while Anas and my grandma did what they do best-talk.Most of the time,I don't like listening to my grandma coz she tends to go overboard with her jokes which aren't funny and might just offend other parties.

Tonight,I decided to just go with the flow.I found out quite a lot of things about my late grandpa (my grandma's 1st husband) The sorta thing that makes me wonder if my mum or my aunt knew about. My grandma told us the story of her eldest sister.How she came to be the way she is now.

I was told that she saw her husband and her kids getting shot in front of her during the Japanese occupation.That's not quite how it all went down.She got married twice coz her first husband was accused of being a traitor and got shot.Her second husband died and she was found under a bridge all covered in mud and slugs and she didn't recognize anyone at all.Not even her sisters or her mum.She's still alive.She's just not living in the present time.

My family history (from my mother's side) has a number of not-very-convincing point of view towards men.They betray.They hurt the women in my family.It's always the ladies who has to get everything done.In fact,it kinda happens in my dad's family as well.My sister and I are the only 2 girls in my family.I'm weaker than my sister.Even though she'd get heartbroken at times,she'd cry and then get over it and move on.I'll always try to be there for her whenever she does.

Also,I found out tonight that my cousin got kicked out from his dad's house back when he was 13.He called my grandma in the middle of the night asking her to come get him down the road from his house.Strange how I never knew about that.I personally never liked my aunt's ex husband that much but I never knew he'd do that to his own son.

My grandma spent the entire time advising all of us which I find quite comforting coz she'd just trying to look out for all of us.She's been through a lot.I kinda feel bad for not being nice to her at times..........

I'm ok

Rashid told me that there were a couple of dudes at the park where we'd play basketball at with some weapons threatening kids and taking their cellphones last week.It would so totally suck to know that its not safe to go there anymore.I'd usually walk alone there on days when Shu is away.

There's about 2 tiny roads which I'd have to take to get to the park.Eventhough there are houses on both sides,it gets a little too quiet at times.I'm always thinking that I'm just passing through and I don't have any cash on me at all.Those muggers would either take my cellphone (or what's left of it) or kill me.I'd usually walk real fast when I pass those areas.I'm a bit stoned (or stoned looking) most of the time,so chances are people might mistake me for a muggler.

Ash called me out of the blues telling me that he just got up from sleep and that he had a dream that I got into an accident.The first thing he asked me was if I was ok.I was blur at the time.Didn't get much sleep in the morning since Shu called which was about 7am.Also,I was starving and cold.But I was (and insyallah) will be alright ;)

Shu's gone to Terengganu to check on his mum.She's been really sick.I hope she recovers soon.I hope it's not anything major.

I haven't been well myself.Apart from losing my appetite every now and then,I keep getting nauseous and sick once in a while.It's either when I get up from bed or while I'm praying.I've been taking the iron pills which I've been prescribed to but mum says I need a whole lot of potassium.The first thing that came to mind when she mentioned potassium was bananas!

the world is coming to an end

My dad saw a flock of birds pass by.He said they looked like storks.That's weird.I know there's loads of 'em around the campus area but not here.My mum suspects that the birds are migrating.Maybe something's about to happen.Who knows.We've caused the earth too much pain that it responds by giving us unpredictable weather and "natural" disasters.If anything happens right now,I don't blame nature one bit.

Shu took me for late lunch at Village View today......

It's in Bangi.We were at UNITEN for a bit.Shu had to see some people about some stuff coz all his contacts have gone missing eversince he lost his phone.Since I've been in a white rice+either thai or chinese dishes these days,Shu took me to a place called Village View.I love the place.......well,the ambience is uber kool.The food is yummylicious.It was raining when we got there so it was kinda cold.I bet the place would be an awesome place to hang around at night ^_^

A few days ago,we stopped by at a restaurant alongside the KJ mainroad on the way back from Bangi.Not quite sure what the place is called but the food there is pretty good.White rice dishes of course.We've been having early dinners over at Vicchuda last week.New places would make a good change for us ;)

alibi

Shu freaked out when my mum called at about 7:30pm today.He was afraid if my dad really was angry at me for not coming home on time.I figured out a timeline that made sense and we just worked out on it in case my folks got upset.

Hahaha.........this is what we do.........manipulate situations.......hahahaha.........

The good news is that Shu's thesis is NOT due on Wednesday but he's gotta pass it up by Friday.
The bad news is his mum is in bad shape.Really3 sick.I hope she recovers soon.

here comes the sun..........

Aunty Gina's been diagnosed with cancer of the breast.She had a lump removed last month and the results to the diagnostic done onto the lump piece came back as cancerous.That would mean that she has to remove a huge portion of her chest.Apart from it costing so much,her family depends on her.

She takes care of her folks and she's got 3 kids to look after.Also,just before the surgery last month,she lost her job coz her boss is an asshole.Maybe it was written in the fine prints of the contract she signed when got the job but is cutting her some slack and giving her a few days (at least) off for medical reasons so much to ask?

I cannot imagine the pain she is going through right now.She is one of my mum's oldest closest friends here in TTDI.Her kids and my siblings and I are around the same age group.God,I wish I could help her..........

Oh yeah,at the same time,Aunty Intan shall be moving into an apartment somewhere in Bandar Seri Damansara.Farah is in the middle of buying a unit and she insists on paying for a place they own rather than paying rents.Aunty Intan isn't very happy about it but she's going with the flow anyways.........

less than a week

Suddenly,I feel as though time is passing by really fast.I have less than a week till Shu's folks come over to see mine and until then,I keep telling myself to just carry on with my daily activities and pretend that we'd all have enough time to prepare ourselves for what ever comes next eventhough I somehow have this feeling that we won't have enough time to prepare although we'd have about 6 more months to go.

Was asking my mum why was it so damn hard for me to write new songs these days.She said it's coz I am complete now so I'm not actually looking for anything anymore to write about.My sister,on the other hand said that maybe it's coz I'm not inspired anymore.Maybe she meant it's coz Shu and I practically see each other everyday.He lives here with me and my family for God's sake!

I don't think my disability to write is caused by being uninspired.Maybe I'm just trying to grasp things one at a time.I've been a little spaced out these days.It's kinda good to have some gap till my next paper.It just isn't my thing to wake up super late and not have any plans at all.Also,I am worried about Shu's final year project.Eventhough I am no engineering student,I could always help out with the field work ;)

Anyways.......every now and then,I'd fall back and think of what's really happening and how things are going to change from here onwards.Well,time changes everything but I'd never get over the fact that I'm not the only one whose life hasn't move since the break-up back when I was 17.We kept in touch but it wasn't the same.I never saw us getting this far.Hell,I didn't think we'd be on the same page on this!

How can I decide what's right.......

When you're clouding up my mind?
I can't win
You're losing sight
All the time
Not gonna ever own what's mine
When you're always taking sides
But you won't take away my pride
No, not this time
Not this time

How did we get here?
I used to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And it's hanging on your tongue
Just boiling in my blood
But you think that I can't see
What kind of man that you are
If you're a man at all
Well, I will figure this one out

On my own(I'm screaming, "I love you so")
On my own(My thoughts you can't decode)

Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves
Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves

There is something I see in you
It might kill me
I want it to be true

-ParamorE-

Anis was the one who introduced me to this band (Paramore) Now I can't get enough of 'em ^_^

been helping Shu finish up his EMS project last night

He and my dad and even one of Qarim's friend were up all night working on taking apart an adaptor and soldering wires and some wood work (for the mounting).The objective was to build a motor.I suck at trying to figure out which way is positive and which way is negative in creating a magnetic field :/ A lot of wires were stripped so we didn't have to buy much stuff.

Shu and my dad carried on working till 4am this morning.

driving

*sigh*

Eversince I've started driving,I realized that a lot of people on the road are either reckless or just a bunch of idiots when they got their license.I doubt if anything they read in the rule book is understood nor do they even know why it is crucial for people to understand the road rules.

Are people aware that every single mirror on the car has its purpose and that there is this called a 'blind spot'?Do people know that they'd have to first turn the signal light on and CLEAR THE ROAD before changing lanes while driving and not just switch lanes after a second of turning the signal light on?Are people aware of the existence of signal lights and that there is a use for it?

My late grandfather once told my mum that when we drive,we are actually driving everyone else as well.

How do we ensure that people who get a driver's license aren't idiots?

:)

Shu's dad called him up yesterday.He was in town.It was funny how he finally blurts out how freaked out he is about us getting married coz Shu just never bothered to talk to his dad properly about it.Last night,Shu stayed over at his sister's place in Bangi where his folks were at.He and his dad finally got to talking.

Now........Shu is freaking out about his folks meeting mine.Hahaha!All this while,it was me who was freaking out in case my mum (or my dad) would behave weird (coz they always had been and since my dad's been home,they sorta get a little bit too much for my brain to take)

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I realized that I would make the best yet most cruel ruler ever in the history of mankind.This is because I tend to list out the punishments I'd impose onto people who just cannot make use of justice in general.

For instance,to those who cannot get a job done properly and accepts bribe money at the same time would first be sacked and then be blacklisted for life so that the next job they'd get (if they ever get another job) would have a record of such crime commited by the person.So they'd probably live their lives on probation until the day they die.

Shu was telling me about some bigshot food company who was sued for not dumping their trash properly and polluted some river somewhere.Think about it,as it is,big shot companies get a whole lot more than anything anyone could ever get in a month.Punishing them by making them pay MYR20k would mean nothing to them.They should be put out of business for at least a month and let them learn (if they actually have such ability to do such a thing) from their mistake.

As far as I am concerned,smokers should be punished as murderers because secondary smokers suffer so much more than the smoker himself.Since smoking in public is taken very lightly (especially here where I live) I propose that all smokers should only smoke in a small room with absolutely NO ventilation so that these smokers would inhale the smoke they produce only because the particals of burnt tobacco is so small that it can hardly be filtered.Yes,those so called filters sold at pharmacies are actually bullshit.

*I still have doubts about smoking being makruh.I have a strange gut feeling telling me that it is actually haram in the teachings of Islam*

I really try hard to not think about how unfair it is for people who have passion to save the one and only planet we live on and yet,there are ignorant idiots destroying everything we work so hard to save.How shallow and self-centred can people be?And the worse part is that most of the time,people who do not deserve to be punished gets the worst torment from MotherNature.

*I am still smiling about wud happened at the recent F1 Sepang circuit race.It's as though Mother Earth's timing to react is so perfect*Yes,to those who condone to contributing to such pollution should be punished full force!

Long live Mother Nature!

at last!

isn't it ironic?

The media went all out about Earth Hour and at the same time promotes (macam giler) F1 at the Sepang Circuit.I mean,technology aside.Economy aside.It pollutes the Earth either ways.

I find it kinda sorta strange......don't you?

RadioEdit update!

Kamal-san called earlier today saying that Ayie's workplace has some acoustic thingy going on and he's booking a slot for us.KOOLNESS!!!!!I so need a break now!

sometimes........the only way out is the hardest path to follow.........

It's ok to cry.Sometimes,crying helps clear off the smoke from the frictions of anger you have accumulated over the years.Hopefully you can see and think clearer now.

I'll always be here for you cry out to.

I love you........

Sweep slides on my stereo

Short wave ’round my rodeo
Became from that of Savalon
But I’m flying to Istanbul
Oh so why don’t you meet me … there?
There is no nation of you
There is no nation of me
Our only nation lives in Lucid Dreams
Lucid Dreams I’m living in Lucid Dreams
I’m living on short based dreams tonight

-Franz Ferdinand-

auf achse

It seems like forever waiting for Franz Ferdinand's new album to be released (HERE specifically!!!!) I love their single Lucid Dreams and No You Girls.I still love watching them perform live.I just wish I could see them perform live (HERE specifically!!!!) I'd still watch their videos from Take Me Out to Matinee to Michael to Darts of Pleasure to Do You Want To to Walk Away to The Fallen to L. Wells to Wine In The Afternoon to Your Diary...........Eversince the forum where I'd got all the latest updates (and B-side/rare downloads) from got hacked into and eventually shut down,I've been at a complete lost.I want a fresh new slice of them Franzies!

insanely self-destructive beings

It's quite disappointing to know that a lot of people make such a big fuss about not wanting to be part of saving the earth and the environment but still wants a spot living on this very planet.At the very least,they should be thankful that there are things being done to reduce pollution and the destruction of earth.

People complain about the weather being super hot and that the weather is becoming unpredictably dangerous everyday when they aren't doing anything about it.Little messages on commercials like recycling or things we can do to help reduce pollution are more of reminders but most of the time,people choose to ignore these messages and carry on complaining.

Of course,these are the people whose minds cannot think further than themselves.People whose lives revolve around what they do and their comfort and stuff.Things like how the pollution we fail to stop or reduce causes bigger impacts on other beings like the polar bears losing icecaps for them to cling on on fishes die in the sea or rivers or even mutate becomes a problem for those whose source of food comes from the sea.

I often express my hatred for mankind which had lead me here.Not wanting to save the lives of human beings but instead,I would rather spend my time and effort on saving animals because the live by the code of nature.Human beings destroy.I have no guarantee that the human beings I can save would turn out to be people who care about mothernature.Human beings in general are selfish.

Having said that,I would have to extend my apologies to UNICEF for not being able to help them because I would rather help WWF or SPCA or PAWS.

a cat named Drac

He started off as an ordinary black cat who just happens to come by the house every now and then for food.Then,he decided to stick around for a little more that he's come to be so comfortable at home.He is very manja.Mum thinks that he probably had an owner once but was abandoned or something.That poor thing.He tends to get a little noisy sometimes when he's hungry but otherwise he's alright.Fei Mao loves him which is a sort of reason for us not to kick him out completely.

Once,he came back looking all beaten up.We thought he broke his front left leg but later,he recovered.Today,he came back looking so much worse.My dad freaked out that he told Shu,Ash and I to take him straight to the vet coz he thought Drac was going to die.He lives.The doctor gave him loads of meds to make him better.I got a little scared looking at him shaking in pain on the vet's table but after the jap,he looks so much more alive.

We have to keep him in the cage until he recovers.Hopefully,he hasn't got any fungal infections or anything.Apparently,it's contagious to humans.Hurmm........

perfect timing?

Maybe.......

Shu will be done with his exams once my finals begin.Shu's folks will be coming over on the last day of my examination.My senses tell me that things shall be moving fast forward then onwards.How fast?Not quite sure just yet.

Am I scared?Maybe.A little.I've never done this before.
Am I excited?Yes.Very.

I'll be starting a new life.My role as an individual shall change in many ways.For someone who hardly ever volunteers to take up any form of responsibilities at all,here I am taking up more responsibities than I can ever imagine.

There will be new challenges I shall have to come across and I have only prayers to help me get through them all.I want this and I am aware of the consequences and conditions which I shall be facing.It's not going to be easy and knowing me,always trying to find the easiest way out...........well......this isn't an easy way out.This is a decision.One that I made on my own.I hate making decisions on a daily basis and here I am calling the shots over the biggest decision I can ever make in my life.

Still,there are a few things I am not sure of.I have never planned a wedding before let alone MY own!I have no clue what hantarans are.I don't know what the significance in the number of dulangs are.I can't quite estimate the time needed for the preparations for which ever occassion comes first.The only thing that has already been finalized would be the guest list.It is LONG,that much I can say ;)

butterflies in my tummy

Got up this morning and the first text message I retrieved from my cellphone was from Shu saying that his folks are coming on the 17th of next month to see my folks.For a while,I thought it's April already.

It's strange how we've been having this conversation about us getting married and all.At first,the conversation was only between Shu and I.It was just us getting lost in eachother wanting to take this amazing thing we share one step further.Then,things became serious from the day he spoke to my father asking for my hand in marriage.Eventhough my mum was already planning for preparations and all,she said she wanted to wait till she comes back from the states when Shu's folks finally comes over to discuss what needs to be prepared and all.Now,they are finally coming and we are one step away from deciding when we can finally tie the knot.

Here's the thing,as much as I always oppose every little thing my mum's planned,I have no clue what the procedures are.I have no idea what needs to be done.I have no idea what to prepare.I'd speak to Shu and he'd explain to me what is what and why such things are required.My assignments are finally done and now,this is all that's left for me to think about (apart from revising for the finals of course) Shu once told me that he often wonders what it's like to anticipate the meeting of his folks with mine.Now,he knows...........
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Was late for campus this morning.Had to send my assignment to Dr. Wejdan's office coz it's about 2 weeks overdue.Thanks to Shu's nephew who not only speaks Arabic but has a string of contacts who are Arabic experts who helped me A LOT with my homework,I managed to get my work done and learn a thing or two at the same time.SUH-WEET!


Managed to stop by at Dr. Salim's office to see if he got my paper.I think he was asleep.Haha......


The first dude Shu and I bumped into this morning was Israr who asked out loud if I got up late for class or something.That was funny coz he asked about Shu and the moment I said "he's my fiance actually",he immediately held out his hand and said "oh,fiance!I'll have to shake hands with!" I think that sorta surprised Shu for a bit coz he's heard of Israr from me since we were and are classmates afterall.Haha!

I am currently worrie about Kecik.Something happened to his lower lip and I think he is in pain.Shu and I shall be taking him to the vet tomorrow after my Automotive Skills exam.Hopefully,Kecik will recover.Inspite of being still,he still has the cheek to chase,play around and eventually kill a baby mouse.That mouse was so cute and it was screeching in pain!BAD KECIK!

takoyakified!

Wah.........so nice lor to be able to just kick back a little and know that I don't really have to get up in the mornings as a routine anymore.I was beginning to feel a little sick of the semester halfway through coz I seriously hate routines and it's hard to get up when you haven't really slept properly the night before.Not to mention the backdated assignments and my health not being at its best.It sorta became suckier as the semester ended.I just hope I've learned enough to make it all worth the time and energy I've spent.

Foxburr-san belanja-ed me takoyaki a while ago.He's been wanting to take me there for weeks but we haven't actually had time to go.Finally we did and them takos are ever so yummy!

Oh yeah,the Panda's gear box jammed up AGAIN.It just got back from the workshop a few days ago.Luckily,we were already in TTDI when that happened.Still,it sucks to know that most of the time I spend with that car usually ends up with Shu and I waiting for my folks and a tow truck.

The presentation yesterday morning was funny.Before my groupmates arrived at the class,I was talking to Yunus.He said his groupmates ditched him so he did some analysis on his own.He didn't wanna present coz he said it would be embarassing to go up front and talk about something completely alien from the research carried out by groupmates.His turn finally came and he presented coz his groupmates gave him a paper with the parts he had to present.

Something funnier happened later after the class was over.My groupmates told me that Yunus was arguing with a girl outside the class.What happened was that he got offended by that girl coz she was laughing and talking to her friends as he was presenting.Of course it's rude but I didn't think he'd take it that far.Seriously,I think it sucks even more to be performing with my band on stage and there's absolutely not respond from the crowd.

Anywho,that wasn't really the event of the day.Shu found some stuff on the cellphone he's currently using (which is not his coz he lost his cellphone) that turned out to be quite disturbing.So disturbing that I didn't bother to see.He ended up deleting them all since it was such a disturbing experience to have seen such things.I shall not mention names but I'd like to ask this-WHY?! And of course........eeeeuwie!

I'd lie if I said I didn't study

But when it comes to these sort of things........I'd have to be doing the real thing than just reading it from paper..........and as my gut told me since last night,my task today was to set the engine valves.That meant either very low or no marks for me at all coz of all the practical classes I missed was that particular one and the last thing I could ever do even if my life depends on it would be reading and memorizing automotive tasks without looking at the engine.

Of course,theoretically,I would know that valves involves pistons and combustion but to set it and to somehow know what BDCT meant and still not able to convince my groupmates that we've been doing it all wrong is just a bit hard to believe.Doesn't matter,it's all done now.I'm just gonna have to study for the theory test next week.........same time,same place..........will be missing the workshop...... :/

not my problem,our problem

It sucks to think of the fate of people who go through the toughest crap and still not get any form of justice from anyone anywhere.To think that the problems we face here and now are as tough as any other crap we have gone through whereas other people have bigger problems which may seem like there is no way out but still,these people are the ones who'd carry on living through every second given to them only because hope is the only thing left.At least for them it is.

I personally know single parents (mothers mostly) who gives up more than half of their lives for their children and get the crappiest deals and treatments from social services and the employers they work for.Why aren't any of their problems justified at all?Because we are people who are only concerned with our lives and our problems and that the rest of the world is none of our business?What about people who'd have to work 2 or 3 jobs just so that their kids can live another day?

Then again,maybe these people aren't working hard enough.I dunno.......it's always easier said than done.Working harder than you already can.What would I know?I'm just a student.I don't pay taxes.I don't earn a living.I just observe and hopefully,I'll learn.

Dear Tech Support,

Last year I upgraded from Boyfriend 5.0 to Husband 1.0 and noticed a distinct slowdown in overall system performance -- particularly in the flower and jewellery applications, which operated flawlessly under Boyfriend 5.0
In addition, Husband 1.0 uninstalled many other valuable programs, such as Romance 9.5 and Personal Attention 6.5 and then installed undesirable programs such as AFL 5.0, The Ashes 3.0, and Golf Clubs 4.1.
Conversation 8.0 no longer runs, and Housecleaning 2.6 simply crashes the system. I've tried running Nagging 5.3 to fix these problems, but to no avail. What can I do?

Signed, Desperate
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Dear Desperate:

First keep in mind, Boyfriend 5.0 is an Entertainment Package, while Husband 1.0 is an Operating System.
Please enter the command: 'http: I Thought You Loved Me.HTML and try to download Tears 6.2. Don't forget to install the Guilt 3.0 update.
If that application works as designed, Husband 1.0 should automatically run applications Jewellery 2.0 and Flowers 3.5.
But remember, overuse of the above applications can cause Husband 1.0 to default to Grumpy Silence 2.5, Happy Hour 7.0 or Beer 6.1.
Beer 6.1 is a very bad program that will download the Snoring Loudly Beta. Whatever you do, DO NOT install Mother-in-law 1.0 (it runs a virus in the background that will eventually seize control of all your system resources). Also, do not attempt to reinstall the Boyfriend 5.0 program.
These are unsupported applications and will crash Husband 1.0.
In summary, Husband 1.0 is a great program, but it does have limited memory and cannot learn new applications quickly. You might consider buying additional software to improve memory and performance.
We recommend Food 3.0 and Hot Lingerie 7.7.

Good Luck,
Tech Support

sangkut

Haih.......and you call yourself a cat?!
Got home and couldn't find Kecik anywhere in the house.He was nowhere outside either.I thought he was just out and about but looking at the time,it was Kecik's afternoon nap time.Then,we heard a cat crying outside.Went outside and saw Kecik on the balcony of our nextdoor neighbour.He got up there but couldn't find a way down.

I managed to get Kecik to step out and guided him to get closer to the gate so that we (either Shu or I) can grab him without having to climb over our neighbour's gate.Unfortunately,Kecik wasn't brave enough to jump down.Ash ran into the house to get a ladder.In the meantime,Shu and I tried to get Kecik to get onto the other neighbour's roof so that we'd have a better chance to getting him down.

Finally,Ash got the ladder.Shu climbed up and managed to grab Kecik by the collar.All us went back home and the first thing Kecik did was to make a run for the litter tray.After that,he ate like he's been starving for a week.That was funny.I wonder how long he was stuck up there.

furui

I always said being sick is the worst feeling in the world.I'm right.It does suck.As much as I don't wanna depend on meds,I have to.Eventhought its not anything serious like drugs,they're still pills.This happened before.I wonder if my whole idea about not eating chicken and beef (and mutton) has got anything to do with it.

I know that eversince I've become a junkaholic which means eating less food and more junk,my immunity system has gone down so much lower than before.I am aware of that.I think that because I haven't gotten around to repairing such damage,my entire system is slowly deteriorating.

Having said that,it also doesn't help that I am addicted to J.Co's Chocomint freeze!Damn it!They cost a bomb and they taste ever so good!I am not upset so much from having to be deprived of sugar,I'm just having a hard time adjusting to the ice-blended-free drinks.Or rather,ice-free drinks thanks to my swollen tonsil.

I am the sickest person living in my home at the moment and my dad doesn't know it AT ALL.Haha!

low blood pressure:round 2

Been sick these past few days.It's quite annoying.Was at the clinic yesterday.My tonsil is swollen again.Told the doctors to give me some antibiotics.Today Shu took me to the clinic again coz I'd get lightheaded everytime I get up in the morning and I'd get nauseous when I'm in the car.Only lately this happens.I figured its got something to do with my blood pressure.I was right.My bp was super low.It was 90/50.The doctor gave me some iron pills.

Strange,this happened a few years ago when I used to not eat........hurmm.......

carbu-what?

The carburetor......ya know,the thing that blends fuel with air for internal combustion in the engine?The creation of fuel injections almost wipe it out completely.Almost..........Nevermind.........

I am just trying to be prepared for tomorrow's presentation.We're not given topics.Instead,we have to choose a topic ourselves.One that is NOT taught in class.Hence,the carburetor.With the help of my groupmates who are engineering students.Hehe.......

I wasn't trying to be the smartypants who chose this topic.I just thought it makes an interesting topic since most cars run on fuel injection engines these days.Besides,everyone said the topic is alright......

Been sick today.....this morning.......couldn't get up.Didn't get up till about 11:48am-ish.That's almost noon.But I got up anyways.Didn't get much work done.In fact,I didn't get any work done at all.Can't think properly with this headache.