living with boys

Growing up,I thought it was hard enough to be a girl in a patriarchal world.It's not just about having to do housework only because your culture is such but you also have to be able to do the things guys have to do like heavy lifting or use hardware tools to repair things and stuff.Of course,personally,I prefer doing all those over washing dishes anytime.

But come on,I have to know an awful lot of things and they don't know shit about simple things like flushing the toilet after use?That's just bad!Not to forget that my brother used my hair conditioner to make the washroom smell better after he flushed the damn bowl!

Today,my other brother used my facial wash to wash himself during shower!And the only reason I found it out from him was because I was talking to him about zapping zits!It's no wonder I found my facial wash outside of the cabinet in the washroom where it usually would be!Not to mention the sudden decrease of amount of liquid left in it!I could have sworn it was way more than that last I checked.

back from Underland

Tim Burton has yet again got me hooked to his latest piece of work.And of course,Danny Elfman as the composer,I could not ask for more.........oooh!But wait!Johnny Depp and Alan Rickman (voice only) are in the movie too!And Helena Bonham-Carter!

Haha!

I lurve Alice's dresses!Especially after she fell down the rabbit hole!They are so very preeeeeeeeeteeeeeeee!!!!!!I am lurving Depp's Mad Hatter make up (not the hair!)

I thought the Fudderwhacking moves were fuh-ney.It got me laughing a whole lot!

So why is a raven like a writing desk again?

in case you haven't noticed.......

We are in the 21st century.If and unless you change the way you preach,no one will listen to you.Hell,I won't listen to you.Maybe it's because your language of choice does not suit me.It's a major turn off factor,really.It's like I have to reconstruct each and every sentence......word you say to English before I can fully understand what you're trying to say.

Or........

Maybe it's just your approach.I personally wouldn't bother listening to what you have to say coz it makes absolutely no sense to me and it's kinda hard for me to relate to what ever it is you're saying.Of course,I don't know about other people but despite it being a sensitive issue,I don't really like listening to religious talks especially when it comes from people with the whole "holier than thou" tone.

So please,do us all a favor and shut the hell up.If and unless you change your style or what ever,I think you really should just not bother ;)

It's either you love God too much or you 'think' He'd love you more than others when you do this sorta shit.

like everybody else.......

I too have skeletons in my closet (not that I have a closet to begin with) I sometimes have trouble keeping them to myself.Some skeletons are just too big to be stuffed into a closet.This is the part where I'd panic coz if the closet doesn't fit,where the hell am I supposed to chuck this crap at?

Well.....back in the day,I had a counselor to thrash (and cry) at.Yes,I did have sessions with a counselor only because I had trouble sorting out the shit I have.Nowadays,I no longer have that advantage.The problem is,my depression issues hasn't resolved much.Instead,it's beginning to get out of hand.

I can't explain what being depressed feels like coz if and unless you are depressed will you know how painful this is that to a certain extent you become too numb and immune to everything around you.At that point,I would either resort to inflicting external pain onto myself just so I can feel again.........or ignore it.Sleep through it or what ever.That would not be the best thing to do coz eventually it would resurface and create a worst outburst later on.

I've tried letting it out in different ways but everything fails.This causes insomnia which I have been having lately. *extensive use of concealers!* The best thing about being depressed is that I would lose weight easily from loss of appetite.I'd usually go on for days without food and to a certain extent,I'd start to hallucinate.Its kinda fun to hallucinate coz I'd see things in a whole different level.Most of which I cannot tell if they are real or not.

*I know,why can't I just get freakin' high on marijuana?!*Well.......I have issues dealing with runners.Also,when I have the cash,they don't have the goods.It's all just bad timing,really.......

My other option would be to overdose myself with random things.Now I know what taking too much paracetamols could do to ya ;) so I'd try other drugs........in forms of medications.I haven't done this in a long while.Not sure if its a good thing.

Sometimes I think I just need to sleep a little more.And stop thinking too much!God DAMN IT!

fighting demons

We all have 'em.It's just a matter of how we do it.Been doing this in a long while.Getting quite immune to the pain it causes.It's no biggie.I'll get over it ;)

back and kickin'!

Those people at Streamyx said that it would take them a maximum of days to get our internet connection back on track (coz we moved AGAIN).Shu went for his training today and he took extra time to learn troubleshooting and he fixed our prob ;) easy peasy!

Yes,Shu is working for Streamyx and he's working in TTDI.Hahaha!How ironic is that?I live here but I have to go all the way to Puncak Alam to work.Anywho,I drove Shu to work today.He went in at 2:30pm today.Yesterday,he went to work at 4:30pm.

I love working in the afternoon coz I'd have time to do whatever I want in the morning ^_^ But I guess working only 2 and half hours a week isn't the best thing to do :/ To a certain extent,I do have the tendency to go completely mad.

Speaking of work,I had my very first experience in invigilating a mid term test on Tuesday.One student gave me some problem by failing to inform about her name being blocked off due to fees.Apart from that,I had a pretty slow week.Was hanging out at my aunt's office on Monday.Got to know another lecturer who is also teaching in Puncak Alam.

My sister is right.Apart from my supervisor,all my other colleagues are pretty much older than me.Not that it's a bad thing.Well......I hope not........ ;)

bobbi brown,one utama

Been doing a lot of heavy lifting in the last couple of days.We've moved!

That didn't stop me from carrying on adding things to my shopping list.

Well,I was at the mall in the last couple of weeks.Went to check out Laura Mercier.I was curious about their much talked about concealer pot.But then I was also curious about M.A.C. and Make Up Forever.Before I could find time to go over to those 2 places,I somehow ended up at Bobbi Brown yesterday.

The sales girl was really helpful.Shu was there the other day coz he was looking for the kabuki brush.Anyways,he did mention that he learned a lot from that girl.Well,I did too.She sat me down and put the concealer on and stuff.I lurved the end product so I just went ahead and got those ^_^

The thing about me dragging Shu along when I go shopping is coz his opinion really matters to me and the fact that I always need a second (sometimes 3rd) opinion,he's always the first person on my list.Well,there's my sister and Sarah (whom I'd always ask online) I just think that make up needs to be seen and felt unlike clothes and shoes........or handbags!

Shit!I just realized that it's already the end of February!I haven't got much time to plan anymore!Damn it!

And it doesn't help that I seriously think my students are NOT prepared for their midterm exams!SHITTO!

Terrified by Katharine McPhee

You by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world full wrong you're the thing that's right
Finally made it through the lonely to the other side

You said it again my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark,
And I'm in love and I'm terrified.
For the first time in the last time
In my only life.

This could be good
It's already better than last
And love is worse than knowing
You're holding back
I could be all that you needed
If you let me try

I only said it cause i mean it
I only mean cause it's true
So don't you doubt what i've been dreaming
Cause it fills me up and holds me close
Whenever i'm without you

did what I do best at the best time in the bestest way ever

Hahahahahahah!

And I am still laughing (out LOUD) about it :p

I got lost.It was the first time I drove to work and I got lost.The best part was that I did NOT get lost on my way THERE.I got lost ON CAMPUS itself!After class,I figured that there shouldn't be any problems at all to get out.I took a wrong turn and accidentally got into the wrong side of a one way street.This happened still WITHIN the campus grounds!

It got worse as I made my way OUTSIDE the campus gates.My first turn to the right was correct.Everything was fine right up till the point I got to the biggest junction traffic light.I was gonna turn right but then there was a huge lorry that came straight through where I was gonna turn.That got me puzzled thinking that I wasn't even supposed to turn right there.Weird though coz there was a road.A proper road.

I went straight ahead and ended up in some kampung area.There was no kampung on my way to campus.Finally,I decided to call Shu coz we were supposed to meet up halfway before going home.He told me to turn around.Then,it got better but not as I hoped it would be.I was on a highway that lead me straight to Kota Damansara.

Earlier that day before I left the house,Aunty Intan was at my place and she was telling me about a faster way to get to my work place through Kota Damansara.That must have been it.I was on it and it really was fast.

So yeah,I got lost but learned a new route which is awesome ;)

weekend with my sister

I spent Saturday night laughing so hard in the bedroom with my sister coz she found a whole stash of things like photos and autograph books and journals from her days when she was in school.Primary school.The pictures she found were priceless!Like a photo of my grandma back in the way when she was still a minister!And the photo of us celebrating my sister's birthday at TGIF when I was still a goth chick.Hahahahahahah!

The autograph book was hilarious!My sister used to have Eno's friends around her (coz they all had a crush on her) So what some of these boys did was that they signed the damn book but with super fuh ney things written in it like "I ---- ---"<---which was I Love You (Doh!) and some of them would write stuff like "Ingat lah Allah......." and my sister and I were like "WHA???" Where the hell did that come from?!

The funniest part was that I too signed the book.TWICE!The last thing I wrote was "LURVE ME!"

And we were laughing at the things she wrote in her journal when she was 15.She wrote this awesome poem though which never remembered writing.

On Sunday morning,she and I followed my dad to Ampang to see this Burmese family.Their son was begging at our front door the other day and that's how my dad got to know him.We decided to help his family out coz apart from the fact that this boy's folks were refugees,the boy and his 8 other siblings never made it to school after primary school.Also,the kid doesn't even have an I.D. card!AND.....his 15 year old sister has a 6 months old baby girl!Oh yeah,in case you're wondering,the boy is only 16 years old.

Anywho,after that we headed home.I took my siblings out for lunch.We had a good laugh over Indian food.I dragged my sister to the mall with me to catch the flee market.There was a booth that sells make up brushes and stuff and I wanted to try them.The market is only during the weekends and I have no idea where to find the brush supplier otherwise.Had a drink.We were talking about stuff.

Actually,we did a lot of that.Talking.We haven't done that in a long while and my sister just needed a second opinion about the predicament she is currently in.Seriously,I wish we had that conversation earlier.I just hope she'll decide to do the right thing before going completely insane.

I,on the other hand,have been going through some serious guilt trip..........I'll probably save it for another entry.

Shu got a job and he's already started work today.Yey! ^_^

slowing down and taking a step back

Maybe I was going a bit too fast.The way I was living my life would have had me killed in a couple of months time.Slowing down is not easy but I'm gonna try working on it.Maybe it's the thing I need.

What about shoes?!

A VERY VERY UNBIRTHDAY!!!!

Got up super late today.Had this disturbing dream about someone going missing and a whole bunch of people turning into zombies.It was really weird.

Managed to get stuff while running around doing errands and driving mum today.Got Kecik,Snow Bear and Gemok aka Fei Mao flea collars.They need it.They so need it.Especially Snow Bear and Gemok.Snow Bear is now known as the City of Kootoos.HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAA!!!!!!

Oh yeah,was going to get my grandma some cookies she wanted over at the mall so I decided to stop by at the drug store to get some eye liners.I really lurve Maybeline liners.Got meself a brown color 2-in-1 Impact Shadow Liner by Eyestudio and the Impact Express smooth felt liner in black.Yes,definitely expect some wings!YEY!

Got those kids some flea treatment shampoo too.They should all be tick and flea free in no time ^_^

I had a blastt yesterday.Shu took me to the Sepang Gold Coast.I would LOVE to have a photoshoot done there!I had a great dinner.

The night before that,Shu took me to a place called Cerana for supper somewhere in Cheras.I lurve that place too.It would be a perfect place to throw a dinner party!

Was at the Blues Bred studio (2nd time) on Monday night.We finally narrowed down our play list for the gig on the 28th.WOO HOO!!!!!!I was so not there in the studio that night.I was literally playing with my eyes closed......well,sorta.I was thinking about lion dances and more lion dances and sang when I had to.There were times when I forgot to go to the mic to sing coz I was walking around a little too far.Hehe........

The whole of Sunday was about lion dances.Monday afternoon was about the Tiger dance I've been waiting for all week.It was awesome!Spent Tuesday morning with my mum and sister.We sent my brother Qarim to Central KL coz he had to catch a bus.

I had a blast.Still looking for Tiger dance performances coz I only have till February 4th of 2011 before the end of the Tiger year ;)

Thanks for everything,baby!And thanks for all the birthday wishes people!Me lurves yous!Have a prosperous year!RRRRRRRROOOOOOAAAAAAARRRRRR!!!!!!!

my new favourites!

I cannot explain how much I am super lurvin these new 3/4 pants from Giordano!I am so getting more real soon!

OMFG!I cannot believe that Shu got me the kabuki brush I wanted so much from Make Up Forever Professionals!Its texture is super awesome!I really3 lurve it!

M.A.C.'s mineralized skinfinish powder is my favourite thing right now!

I absolutely lurve the new knee high boots Shu got me!OMFG!They are so damn awesome!!!

Oh yeah,I got meself a CNY Tiggerlicious tee!LURVING that too!

RRRRRRROOOOOAAAAARRRR!!!!!!!

RRRRRROOOAAAAARRRRR!!!!!!

Was at the mall AGAIN yesterday.I was hunting down the tiger dance and we actually got around to stopping them from making the round for a picture ;)

Yes,I actually ran straight for one tiger and said "WAIT!I WANNA TAKE A PICTURE!" and the dudes actually posed for a picture and then more people joined in for more pictures! :D

Puas hati!

Now,I am back on my hunting trail for make up brushes.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!

Muahahahahaha!

This ain't the day to be sad and angry.......Got me dose of annual lion dance.Awesome!Was chasing 7 lions from Ikano to The Curve.Tomorrow,there will be a Tiger dance.Don't wanna miss that.

Oh yeah,tomorrow is a day to be good to dogs (and cats!MEOW!) So please,if you need to abuse,by all means,go find some homosapien to beat up.Bang into someone or their cars.Burn down someone's house or something.Do NOT let it out on animals ^_^

Happy New Year!

eve of the year of the Tiger

I am so psyched!I feel like I should do something extra this year.I am torn between either helping those stray cats living behind my house by sending them all to SPCA or.....I should adopt 2 more kitties ^_^ I think I'm gonna adopt regardless if I do ever get those stray cats help.

I think the world should be dominated by cats.Hahahaha!

I have been having this urge to eat worms lately.I just feel like digging up a few from the ground and throw them into a frying pan complete with salt and pepper.And probably some flavoring.Hurmm........sounds pretty good.

Can't seem to push myself to eat these days.I know that I've had my round of Yee Sang the other night but I think I want more ;)

Oh yeah,I was at the mall today just hopping from one store to another looking for a good kabuki brush.Those made from horse tails are the best.I am kinda liking the one from Make Up Forever Professionals.I was talking to the girl at the Bobbi Brown counter and she showed me some really awesome stuff.Their brushes are da bomb!

between God and I

I don't have a problem with this relationship.I completely understand that if I fuck around or screw up,I am definitely up for a good whoopin'.HE also knows that I hate Him sometimes but the feeling usually won't last.He's the only one whom I cannot get into a physical fight with and if He ever wants to remind me of my position in this relationship,He'd do it without fail.

We're good......

I just cannot stand human beings.......I sometimes wonder why He'd create idiots........morons.......

nein nein nein nein NEIN!!!!!!!

Not again!Shit!

Got a call from my mum on my way home today.First,she sounded all bubbly and happy about The Age of Innocence being aired on TV and stuff......then,she moved on to news about Kecik.She said he's limping.He might have gotten hit by a car coz he hasn't been home all morning.

The thing is,I cannot figure out WTF is wrong is wrong with this little guy.He's a cat.He's a male cat.He should at least be agile and swift enough to go against what ever the hell that's ahead of him.Seriously,Snow Bear hasn't got into any major shitty-ness since he first arrived.He causes damages onto others :/

If he was a kid,I would totally send Kecik for therapy!

The so called Lightning Thief

I think I expected too much from the movie.The cast was not bad but I expected the movie to be so much better.Ah well........

We had some awful service over at The Cathay Cineplex over in Mutiara Damansara today.Let's begin at the very beginning........

The snack parlor.......There was a LONG line of people and there was only one counter opened.How annoying was that?!While there was only one miserable person taking care of the cash register,the rest of the snack crew clan were at the other side preparing the orders!That was annoying!How many people do you actually need to prepare food stuff if only one customer was at the pick-up counter?

And then,we were allowed in to sit.The credits from the previous movie session was still playing on screen!Maybe that didn't bother us too much.What did was the stupid idiot in charge of that particular cinema!The lights were already dimmed down which meant that there would be some movie trailers up next.....but what instead was that the stupid back ground music of the waiting period was still playing while the trailer was on so we couldn't hear anything from the trailer.That went on for quite a while.......

That was super annoying!

M.A.C. again.......

Was it my sister who told me that M.A.C. store over at Sunway Pyramid?........Yes.....yes,she was the one........

I have splurged AGAIN......this time it was on the Mineralized skin finish natural powder.I am an addict to face powder :p

AND.....I also made a quick stop over at Elianto to get some eye shadows.Me gots them duo shades in blue(s) and green(s).....yes,yesss.....me dids.......

I am kinda annoyed by the fact that NYX is not available here :(

But....nevermind.......at least we have Make Up Forever ^_^

me lurves them!

<---Lightning

<---Yun Fang

bloody vogons!

In the beginning,the universe was created.This made a lot of people very angry it was widely regarded as a bad move.........

Got up early this morning.Earlier than usual.Shu had an interview scheduled at 10am at a place about 5 minutes from my house.I wanted to drive him there so I woke him up and got ready.We spent the whole of last night preparing what ever he needed for the interview so while he had to prepare the papers and resume,I helped iron his shirt and pants and looked for a tie that would suit the shirt.Haha!It was hilarious!Coz I'd be running after the cats in between getting things done ^_^

We got to the building and headed upstairs.There was a girl sitting in the waiting room when we got there.She was waiting for her friend who was also there for the interview.Thinking that it was just gonna be a short interview,I sat down beside her.More people arrived later on.Finally,the dude who conducted the interviews peeked out to us and told us to go do something coz it was gonna take a long while till they were done with the interviews.He was right.The whole thing lasted for a good 4 hours!

I went to join my mum and brother at some coffee shop at the other end of town about 15 minutes after Shu went for the interview.Then,I went home and got some stuff and waited for Azim to get ready coz he was heading out to the mall to hangout with some friends so I had to drive him there.I headed over to the building to get Shu but I had to wait a little longer coz he had lots more things to do.

I ended up talking to that girl who was there earlier.She was waiting for 2 of her friends as it turned out.She lives in Kerinchi and she too is working for the company whom had people over for interviews.She said she was working at Maybank before this and the job sucked coz she was working 12 hours a day,6 days a week.She's supposed to just work half a day on Saturdays but she said she always ended up leaving at 4pm-ish.She said she couldn't take it so she quit.

Good move.I would have done the same.Haha!

Finally,Shu was done with his interview.We had lunch over at Devi's coz I refused to move the car (coz the fuel tank was close to empty :p ) That was one hell of an interview coz he had to do lots of test including an IQ test and a typing test.Interesting.

The thing about this job (that Shu applied for) was that Farah (Aunty Intan's daughter) managed to brief him a few days before so Shu knew what to expect.Also,unlike my job,he doesn't have to bring home his work.It's pretty good for sanity sake ;)

KA-BOOM!

Me likey me freedom very much ^_^ but sometimes it drives me mad :/

The truth is,Shu and I kinda like our lives the way it is now.......working but not over doing it.We have time and that's the thing we are slaves to.Extra time.It's contagious!

Boys and girls of every age......wouldn't you like to see something strange?

Come with us and you will see........the fun-ness of being free :D

I am addicted to driving the 2 cats mad.My hamster included.

I am addicted to finding ways to improve my students' English.

I am addicted to make-up.Especially HD Translucent Powder(s).

*Note to self:Do NOT bother going into Shins or SaSa for make up coz it's better to just get them from their respected counters.

*Was at the Make Up Forever Professionals counter the other day.I am so gonna get stuff from there real soon ^_^

P.S. :Good luck for your job interview tomorrow,Love! <3

far away land

It's strange how I have a job but I don't feel like I'm working much.It's kinda good coz I'm the type who'd get bored easily so doing something over and over again can kill me.Then again,I seem to have way too much time at hand.Shu suggested that I work on my make-up skills.He's right.This is the time for me to get my hands on as much make-up products as possible and I should work on my skills right away.

*Actually,I am rather picky when it comes to make-up artists so I'm trying to work on getting it done myself rather than having to hire anyone for the wedding.......or whenever necessary :p

So yeah,I've been hopping from one mall to another,one store to another,one brand to another.I'm beginning to see that getting make-up products from the states is so much cheaper.Thing is,I need them ASAP.I can't wait for anyone to go over to the states to get them for me from my brother.

BTW,today is Eno's birthday.Well,it's actually on the 4th.I had a good time laughing with him over a telephone conversation.He said he got us all a whole bunch of stuff *including the American Football helmet I asked for lat year ^_^* So I told him that I might just need to post things to his address there in the states and get him to post them over IF I ever start shopping online AGAIN.

Hahahahahahahaha!

I am super excited about this year's Chinese New Year!Actually,I tend to get this way every year coz I just lurve lion dance performances and I lurve the color red.Also,this year is the year of the Tiger so it would be a plus point if I'll ever catch a Tiger Dance performance ;)

traffic jams

Traveled all the way to the mall near my house just to get some stuff yesterday.In the end,the thing we were really looking for was actually at the mall near the place we stay :/ It's not that we underestimated the mall or what ever.It just never occur to us to look for it there in the first place.

Silly!

The surprisingly awesome we deal that went on at the mall yesterday was the Schwarzkopf Professional booth which were selling off all the professional products for either BUY 1 and get another item FREE OR BUY 2 items and get 3 items FREE.It does sound super unbelievable but the thing is,as weird as this may sound,I do not use as many Schwarzkopf Pro products as much as I used to.So that would totally be taking up space eventhough it was an awesome deal.

Shu ended up getting a hair gel and I got meself a shampoo and we only paid for my shampoo which was a couple of bux more expensive than the hair gel.It was pretty cool coz I'd usually end up buying those products from hair salons *which I already did some time last month!*

Anywho,we watched Case 39 the other day and it scared the shit out of us.Initially,I was a bit reluctant to watch the movie coz it starred Renee Zelweger but in the end we ended up watching it anyways and despite the fact that she looked weird in the movie,the movie itself was really spooky.

Coz the other night,we tried to scare ourselves by watching the Thai horror flick Haunted Universities but ended up not entirely disappointed,just a bit annoyed by the fact that it really wasn't that much of a horror flick at all :/

The Something,Something,Something Dark Side by Family Guy was fuh-ney!Hahahahahaha!

spent the last 24 hours of my life TRYING to finish marking papers.......

I failed.I got loads of help from Shu though......I failed.I just couldn't do it.I'd go over one paper and get annoyed and stressed out and it would take me some time (lots of time) till I go over the next paper.Sometimes,I do feel that it's unfair for me to get upset with these kids coz they didn't get any form of proper education before they came to the city......or did they :/

Then again,maybe it wouldn't have been so bad if they actually bothered to take the initiative themselves to learn the language.I have no idea how to make them understand the depth of every single thing they do here and now and the damages it would cost them in the future......

Just fucking read some English books or articles or papers or something!

I miss Kecik and Snow Bear and Bedah.It's not hard to understand them or make them understand me eventhough we don't speak the same language :/

not many are talented.......

but most Malaysians believe that they can actually drive and talk on the cellphone both at once.Multitasking requires more than just practice.......yes,not many people can pull it off.

Morons.........

Oh yeah,got my very first blessing of 2010!Shu and I were at The Curve today and we heard the drumming of the lion dance.There was indeed a lion dance performance and they were giving out oranges to the audiences ^_^

My weekends as of next week shall be booked especially on the 14th and the 15th ^_^

*double yeys!*

P.S. : Shu and I were in the park today and we saw this little squirrel sniffing around for food or something.I ran over to see if I could scare it but it didn't move at all.Then,I took a closer look and saw that one of its eyes were blind and there was a possibility of it being deaf coz it didn't seem to react to any sounds I made.

Worried if it was not gonna make it through by looking at how it was carrying on,Shu and I decided to run home and get some food for it.We managed to get back in time eventhough the squirrel was already on the roadside.Shu actually managed to catch the poor little thing and we brought it home.I was planning to give it to some pet store coz they'd probably know what to do (to help the little blind squirrel) rather than having it live with us (with all the crazy felines we have running around the house)

But since we couldn't keep the squirrel anywhere at home SAFE,Shu let it go at one of our neighbour's houses who has pine trees and lots of bushes.Hopefully,the little thing survived the rain a while ago :/ I really hope we didn't make things worse for it :(

the replacement.......tutor.......

Hahahahahahahahahaa!!!!!!

I had to take over my aunt's night class the other day coz she was out of town.There were only about 10 students in that class and they were all working (probably around my age) which was weird.I had a blast teaching that class coz I wasn't talking about grammar which was a major relief for me.My usual class aren't as horrible but I was teaching a bunch of 19 year olds grammar (and writing).

Shu actually helped me straighten out the teaching materials coz I was going mad marking papers.I'm not just talking about not knowing about what's going on out in the world but Shu proposed the idea of using PMR level English textbooks :/I know,pretty tough but I gotta keep trying.

Anywho,after the night class the other day,Shu and I went over for a lepak session with his cousins who live in Shah Alam.I had a great time laughing away coz we haven't seen them in a while.

I woke up super late today and I have a slight fever.Hopefully I'll recover real soon coz I hate being sick.......and I've got papers to mark :p

was in Cheras some days ago.....

It was for a job interview actually over at UCSI.Shu and my mum were shocked to hear that I even bothered to try to get a job there coz it's near Bandar Tasik Selatan.It's congested and packed but I could only be there for a little while.I'm not a city person.I hate hectic places.

*Maybe that's why I lurve Puncak Alam so much ^_^

Anywho,Kamal said that we're gonna get slots for a show sometime next week so I'mma keep everyone posted.I think it's gonna be somewhere at Jalan TAR.I'm only gonna get the info from him tonight coz we've got a jamming session.AND.......there is a HUGE possibility that Shu will be standing in for Ayie.

AWESOME aye!

I've been working on new cover songs so hopefully I'm gonna be able to pull off a solo acoustic performance soon ;)

officially has students of her own ^_^

I taught my first class today.It was at UiTM Puncak Alam.I was teaching a bunch of nursing students.Hahahahahah!They were 19-year olds in their 2nd semester :p

*That's as old as Rashid!*

Anyways,it was funny coz all this while I've been the one who'd attend classes only to listen to lectures but now I'm giving them lectures...........about English.NOT AS EASY AS IT SOUNDS.

I had a blast anyways and Shu lurves Puncak Alam 2 so while I was at class,he went around looking at more places around the area to see if we can move there ^_^

Me lurve the area too!The campus is new and neat-o!

In case anyone's been wondering,I have somewhat moved out so you ain't gonna find me in TTDI much.Nope.Na'ah.

Shu and I were hanging out with my aunt yesterday.We had lunch with her and then we headed over to her place later in the evening to submit some documents and stuff.It was hilarious.My aunt and her friend and my sister along with Shu and I ended up having late dinner in PJ after getting my cousin from his grandma's place.We had shit loads of things to laugh about and to laugh at one of which being my aunt herself.Her friend was laughing at the fact that she's so skinny and she was still going back and forth to the gym and my aunt would get upset while her was laughing out loud.It was fuh-ney!

Puncak Alam,Kuala Selangor

Went to check out that place and we lurve it super much!The drive there was exactly like the drive from Kuching to Serikin.Very nice in the day!Not a good idea to be on the roads at night though coz there aren't any lights on the road and stuff.

Me likey very much what Shu got me today! ^_^ I'mma start using it real soon I hope ;)

into the unknown

The last 24 hours of my life has opened my eyes and changed me.Hopefully for good.There's no turning back and I hope it won't be as bad as everything else that's happened.Maybe,my wish has come true and I really hope that I didn't ask for too much.

To think that it's only been a week,the pain that I went through might have gotten me seeing in a different view.What I'll leave behind would be things I once give a damn about.Of course,no one saw it coming.Not this way at least.

Well,I was online with Stitch the other day and he was telling me how unpredictable I am so this is just me living up to that.Oh yeah.....me haves a secret.He told me something.......well,now only Shu and I know about it ;) I am SO EXCITED!For Stitch,that is.........

So yeah.......I took baths in the last 24 hours in 3 different places.It was totally weird but things needed to be done and I do need to shower.It's been crazy.I didn't think taking such drastic actions would lead to where I am now.I think I've just come to a point whereby I just cannot care anymore.I have 1 person to think about now and it's Shu so as far as I am concerned,the rest of the world can burn in HELL!

Ok,that was not called for.I do care about Kecik and Snow Bear and Bedah as well.........

Naim said something to Shu and I yesterday and it still has me laughing till now.The dude is FUH-NEY!My sister takes bribes but since she's been great help to me at the very least,I don't really care so much about what she does.This ain't such a nice world to live in anyways.

I've been walking in the rain and it got me thinking a lot about where I'm going with all this.I'm not exactly sure about where I'm headed but I've definitely made a decision about what I'm gonna do from here onwards and that would be WHAT EVER IT TAKES.

paranormal activity

Went to watch that movie today and it scared the shit out of us (Shu and I) Like totally scared us!And to think that it was a low budget movie,that flick was freakin' scary!

controlling the out of control adrenaline junkie

For someone so small and still considered a baby,Snow Bear aka Snobé sure is out of control.The other night,Yumi,Shu and I were chatting at the side of the road after Sarah had left and that crazy little guy was out and about running crazily back and forth across the road and back.It was fine when the road was clear but there were times when there were cars coming our way and he'd be sitting in the middle of the road.One of the neighbors just came out from the side of the road and he was headed our way and he had to slow down coz Snow Bear was sitting on the line in the middle of the road!The stunt that totally made Ayumi scream was when a Rapid KL (crazy ass fast public bus) was coming and at the very last second,Snow Bear decided to cross the road.THANK GOD he did NOT pull the typical stupid cat stunt by running back the opposite direction but kept on going coz he would have otherwise ended up under the tyres of that bus!He made it pass the damn bus by a split second!

Last nigth,Qarim said that Snow Bear decided to do other stunts like staying in the middle of the road while there are cars passing by.One car actually passed by and thought that he was already run over.Luckily,that crazy kitten was UNDER the car so he lived on.

BODO and GILER!

ANYWHO!.........Shu and I took Kecik to the vet this morning.Kecik has drool coming out since yesterday and Kak Yah said that something must have gone wrong with his tongue.She's right.The vet found some punture marks on his tongue which indicates that he could have either been engaged in a fight OR.....he might have been biting on some thorny plant.Either ways,that caused the tongue to malfunction and now it's been infected.The vet gave him a shot and some meds for the next 5 days.I hope he'll recover quickly coz he's been having some temperature since I got back.

Telang Usan Hotel,Kuching,Sarawak,Borneo

I cannot believe we actually spent the weekend in SARAWAK!To think that it started with Azim,Shu and I joking around on New Year's eve,we actually managed to go and it was awesome!I wish we stayed on a little longer coz seriously,despite the food being a wee bit expensive,I had a blast!

We arrived on the 8th.Got to the hotel at about 4pm-ish.It was too early to not do anything so Shu got us (Azim,Rashid and I) all together and we headed straight for town.We actually went to Waterfront since we didn't want to go too far away from the hotel.Also,we were on foot so we could only go as far as our feet (actually,Azim's) could take us.

*My brothers (especially Azim) aren't the adventurous type to go out and about and explore*

Finally,we decided to have dinner by the river.The view was awesome but the price was mad.Now we know!Scheißer!AND!..........We also did NOT know just how dangerous the place was.Well,apart from Shu's dad's warnings about people getting mugged around that area at knife point and stuff,I found out from my sister that the gangs there are the type who'd simply kill anyone if they wanted any girl.

*It's a good thing I was dressed like a Nyonya jual sayur most of the time ;)*

We did a little more walking after that and got back to the hotel at about 8:40pm-ish.It was kinda good that we were already back by then coz kit started pouring soon after we started lounging about in front of the TV.Yes,even though we got 2 rooms to ourselves,we spent most of the time having a slumber party in just one room.

Oh yeah,Cikgu Sansei called.He was asking about our plans and stuff the next day coz he wanted to come over and take us around.

*It's really3 good to see him again after ALL THESE YEARS!Shit!It must have been over 12 years since I last saw him!He was teaching in my primary school back then.Became really good friends with my dad.In fact,he used to join my dad go on bicycle rides every other afternoon.I'm not talking about the regular main road bike rides.They'd go up forest hills and stuff.Totally off-road stuff.So yeah,it was really great to see him again coz all the while,he'd only be on the phone with my dad.

Anywho,my former teacher met us at the hotel early on Saturday morning.We had some breakfast and then the whole lot of us got into his family car and he took us all the way to Serikin which was like an hour drive away.Serikin was at the borders of Kalimantan and on weekends,people from everywhere would go there to shop for cheap stuff.Mostly Indonesian made things.The atmosphere was crazy but fun.Loads of people selling loads of things.I enjoyed trying out food stuff like crackers which cannot be found in KL.I got hooked to this cracker which looks like one of those onion crackers with the stripes but instead of tasting savoury,it has this balanced sweet taste and it's in black and white instead of brownish.ME LURVES THEM LOTS!

Next,we went to Tasik Biru which is a lake where people used to dig up gold.My teacher said that there is still gold down in the lake but not much left.The place was beautiful!The view was breathtaking!I'm gonna have to upload a picture for this one to actually show how beautiful the place was.

*Yes,I'm an awesome self-proclaimed photographer.Yumi liked most the photos I took :p*

We drove to the little town of Bau to get to a Muslim restaurant called Siti Cafe & Catering for lunch.The food was good and there was this HUGE pregnant cat lying on one of the tables.It was so huge that it couldn't even get up.Hahahaha!KAWAII!

Then,we went to Joong's Crocodile farm.The people who ran the place must have been completely mad!There were shitloads of crocs crawling in several areas and the walls which were holding them back were not as high as I would imagine them to be (in order for us to feel safe) Well,let's just say that crocs have really3 strong tails so if they were to get into a fight or something,they could really break the brick walls.......or something........

Anywho,we walked around and waited by the sitting area to watch the crocs getting fed and stuff.As we were waiting,Shu,Cikgu Sansei and I were looking at the crocs slowly moving into the water submerging and swimming around and stuff.It was then that we realized that when crocs stay still in the water,they'd look like floating logs and the moment they submerge into the brownish river water,we'd never guess they're actually there.We thought about this after looking at the photos of Bujang Senang earlier and how that 19 feet long crocodile ate up a whole kid!

There were also some other creatures at the farm like otters and bear cats and barking deers.......

After a long walk around the park,we headed over to Satok where there's this weekend market happening.I lurve that place!You can buy anything (just like Serikin) but with more food stuff.Rashid wanted a tee so much so we were hopping from one stall to another trying to bargain for a good price.We had drink and ate a little at the food out front.Shu finally got to try the Laksa Sarawak.I was drinking shitloads of H2O coz I was beginning to dehydrate.

*Actually,just before Satok,we were actually back in Kuching but most of the museums we wanted to go to were closed so we made some quick stops at places nearby like the fish museum and the memorial park*

Satok was our last stop for the day.Cikgu Sansei drove us back to the hotel and by the time we got there it was 7pm-ish.That was ONE LONG DAY!We got up at 7:30am and we've been walking all day long.Still,that wasn't our last outing for the day.Shu wanted to have seafood and we did see this place at the top of a multi-storey parking lot called Top Spot.The food was awesome!We walked there coz it was within walking distance and then we were done eating at about 10pm-ish.The walk and the climb up the stairs got us really hungry.

I was totally knocked out not long after we got back to the hotel.Usually,I wouldn't be able to sleep at least after about 3 hours of the last meal but that night,I just couldn't keep my eyes opened anymore.

We were rushing the next morning trying to get to the museums which were closed the day before ON FOOT!Then,we also wanted to get on the little boats to get across to Fort Margherita and be back at the hotel in time to check out.We got to the airport super early coz I needed to confirm my brothers' flight since they were both on stand by.So yeah,my brothers were practically cursing for making them run up hill and up the stairs to the fort IN THE HOT noon!Hahaha!

When we were about to check out at the hotel front desk,Cikgu Sansei called to ask if we could hang around a little while coz he and his family were coming from Satok and he got my folks some stuff.We waited and he came and we finally got to meet his wife and kids.They must have been married for about 6 years already and only now we got to meet the family.They are really nice people and they wanted my folks to go over to the their place once their house is ready.

They have an awesome single storey house with 3 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms with land area on the side.My former teacher said that his house wouldn't be so far from the school he teaches at or the school his wife teaches at and it's not far from Kuching or the airport.

*Mind you,it took him 3 hours to get to our hotel from the place he's currently living at!*

I had a blast.Our flight home was funny too.In fact,the 4 of us had been making fun of quite a number of people in the plane but I'm just gonna save that for another entry ;)

I am super tired and in need of sleep...........

the truth about Malay myths:85% of it is true

Not sure if that's a positive or a negative thing.Being 75-85% Malay,I kinda feel like it's almost a disgrace coz I can't remove it like it's a stain on a shirt or something.

Well,after about a month of helping Shu out with his business,it's super clear to me that Malays are the worst people to do business with.They want everything but when it comes to paying up,they can't afford it.Here's the thing,the one way I know about purchasing is being able to provide the exact amount of cash required in exchange with the goods you want.It's clear and simple.

Unfortunately,with most of the Malays we've been dealing with,they seem to have come up with a system (which I believe must have came out from their crazy ass minds) whereby they'd pay up little by little.I don't know about Shu but I don't do things that way.If they wanna pay it little by little then they'd just have to wait till they finish paying the whole amount till they get to take the stuff home.

*Note to self:Bayar ansur ansur means they don't have the money to pay for it,SO they really shouldn't bother touching it.

I just don't trust people AT ALL.

*sigh*

And the other thing about some people is that they just want things cheap.I believe that you will get the quality you pay for.If you want cheap things then go look for what ever it is that constitutes the cheapness you are talking about.I was at the verge of just telling these people to "DROP DEAD and FUCK OFF!"

Another thing about some Malays we've been dealing with is about time and planning.If you set an appointment then we'd expect you to show up.Maybe it's coz YOU were the one who set the fucking appointment.It's one thing to forget but after putting us through so much shit and all you can say on the phone is that you're not sure if you did set the appointment at all is just fucked up BIG TIME.

My sister and I had this chat one night before going to bed.She was annoyed at how some people are ignorant when it comes to being punctual.These so called people think that we'd have all the time for them as though we don't have anything else to do.Well,here's a reality check.You are nothing compared to the rest of the things we have to do especially when it comes to business.Time is cash.

And last but not least,if you don't want something,just say it.Miss Adibah mentioned this once in poetry class.Just fucking say what you mean.Especially in business,it's all about playing our part.If you are the client and you want to reject our proposal then that's just fine with us.I don't know if it's a Malay thing to beat around the bush instead of just saying exactly what they mean.I know I do NOT have time for these type of people.

Life is short and seriously,the rest of the world is so much more important and exciting than you.

You SUCK!

don't stop,make it pop,DJ blowin' the speakers up.......

Tonight,I'mma fight,till we see the sunlight........

I cannot get that song out of my head........hurmm.........well,at least it gets my mind off the pain which I have recently caused due to being clumsy.Strange.I am not clumsy.At least not 85% of the time.Today,my fall cost me my left knee.Now,both my knees are hurting.It's not at bad at I expected it to be though.I was waiting for my knee cap to fall or twist or slide all the way to the back of my leg :p

Luckily,it's just a little bruised and probably throbbing a bit but I went running anyways.

P.S. I really lurve Ke$ha's hair! ^_^

death by running

Hah!

It's so good to finally start running and working out again.I've been doing it but it's not as often as now.I love it!I've been feeling really good lately and everytime I go running,I am able to run further than the day before without losing my breath or pace.SUH-WEET!

Oh!Shu has an insurance policy now!YEY!

I am psyched about this weekend despite the fact that I am very afraid of flights.I've been driving my grandma nuts about wanting to take this trip across the sea just to learn how to shrink people's heads.........which isn't entirely a joke.I do wanna learn how to do it.It's probably the best prank I would ever be able to pull off!

Imagine a world full of people with shrunken heads! ^_^ That would be something I'd laugh and cry and laugh again about.

*Remembering how Spongebob thought he was a true magician and accidentally turned Squidward into a pistachio flavoured ice-cream o_O HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!

Oh yeah,I had a delightful time over at my aunt's place last night over some cake and hot drink laughing about listening to her friend's long speech about people from the world I dare not enter.She spoke a lot of truth though.Most of which should not have been so detailed.I know what those people are like and they suck!ME HATES THEM!

met up with Sarah today (January 3rd)

Her brother wanted to get an acoustic guitar so Shu and I met up with her (and her brother) at the guitar store.Sarah's brother got an acoustic guitar EXACTLY like the one I got years ago.The price has gone up so much more though.Still,I think it's a good choice coz all the other guitars were either classical (not my cup of tea coz I lurve strumming) or just expensive.

*Expensive only coz they have built in pick ups!*

After that,Sarah,Shu and I had a drink.We managed to do some catching up and stuff.It's been a while since we did that (Sarah and I) and I did owe her a lepak session after all.Not sure if that is considered a lepak session at all.

OH YEAH!Sarah so gave me some NYX eyeshadows!I lurve the Cedar Tree shade coz it's da bomb for contouring.......I lurve the Khaki shade coz it has a nice shimmery green-ish brown-ish look.The Grey is nice and dark.Excellent for the crease ^_^

THANK YOU SO MUCH!ME LURVE THEM LOADS!THANKIES!!!!!!!

Sarah was trying to decide if should distribute NYX cosmetics here.I think it's an awesome idea coz I lurve NYX's eye shadows and it is not sold here AT ALL.I would be your first and regular customer!I WILL!

^_^

rockin' and keepin' it comin'!

Hahahahaha!

Went to watch The Imaginarium of Dr. Parnassus today.I have no idea how to put the movie into words.It didn't suck coz I enjoyed watching it but it didn't have that lasting effect in my head.I couldn't really think about the movie that much coz there weren't much to think about but the entire movie did happen and I enjoyed it a lot.

Hurm.........

But let's face it.It was Heath Ledger's last movie before he died.AND........Johnny Depp is in it.And Jude Law and Colin Farrell...........

Anywho,my folks had me (and Shu) sit down at the dining table with them for a "talk".Ya know,the kind that would put me to sleep eventhough I'm wide awake.The truth is,it's not that I don't have a plan.I do (have one).Sort of.I'm just not much of a planner.I like thinking about death and calculate my chances of survival the next day (like what sort of things could go terribly wrong and stuff).

I only wanted to do ONE thing in life and that's music.Endless gigs and performances.

*sigh*

Now,what I'd really like to do is destroy.I'm talking about destroying EVERYTHING.

HahahahahahahahahHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!<---Evil laugh like Dr Neo Cortex

"IN YOUR FACE!"

That was exactly what OU's fireworks were saying to The Curve's.It was so bright and beautiful and huge and there were loads of 'em.SHITLOADS!

Spent the last hour of 2009 with Azim and Shu.We were drinking and laughing and ate some stuff while my mum was at the other table with Farah,Aunty Intan,Uncle Hasbullah and his family.Aunty Amy came but she and her family sat at a different table.

I has got to be extra careful with them words when hanging out in public.I admit it.I was a little high.On sugar.High on sugar.Yes.

I really wanna leave town.

resolved!

I am always telling people to do what they believe in and if they end up doing things they don't like,they should stop doing it only coz other people tell them to do so.Ironically,things never turned out that way with me.I was shoved into doing shit I hated for years and the worst (or best) part is that I survived.I did it.

I hated school and I wanted to be home schooled but such things cannot be done.Not here.Not in this country.So I was shoved into school.Spent 11 years there and thought that when I was done with the major exams when I was 17,I was done with school.I was wrong.I was very wrong.

Shit loads of things headed my way after that.The university I shoved into wasn't somewhere I wanted to be at all.I wasn't given much choice.I was threatened to either do it or I was gonna get kicked out.I almost did quit halfway through but I couldn't risk not being able to play with my band.The only way I could do what I love most in the entire world (jamming & making music) was for me to endure the degree program.

I really was on the verge of suicide AGAIN.Managed to pull myself right out of it and here I am now.Happily out of the God-Forsaken place I hated so very much.

SO........I can't really tell people shit like "if you don't like doing it,then you might as well drop everything and leave before it's too late" coz I am the living proof of having to go through such things in my life.

I'mma surviver,muthafuckas!

Because I have survived such hell in my life,I've decided to give myself a break by just doing what ever I want now ;) Let's start with getting into a fashion school...........

major issues

I am going to say this and I am going to be really honest about it.

I really am not up for working.I've been sending in job applications only because I have to.I'm not up for a routine life.Not yet.

As boring as it may seem,I really lurve waking up super late in the mornings (afternoons) and not knowing what's gonna happen.Not knowing where I'm gonna end up at the end of the day.Not knowing what I'll be doing.

It's not like I've given up on my band.Not completely.I just cannot find my bandmates (Kamal & Ayie)

I cannot wait for 2010 coz I am getting a bit sick of so many people swarming the malls.Even on weekdays!WTF?!

I really wanna go on a holiday away from the city.

I was just telling Shu that I may not want to stay in KL.I am not a city person.I'm not a people person.

I wanna find a place where I can just take my time to do what ever it is I want and I want to feel happy and comfortable being where I'll be with the people (and animals) I love ^_^

Omaticaya of Pandora:The Na'vi

*This is a spoiler for the movie Avatar by Cameron.Please do NOT proceed reading this is you have not watched the movie!*

I really thought the movie was so much better than Disney's Princess and the Frog.Seriously,I have seen loads more of Disney's previous original animated films which were so much better with songs you'd actually wanna sing-a-long to long after the movie is over..........

*sigh*

Anywho.........

I was so overwhelmed by the movie Avatar!Seriously,when I first saw the trailer months and months ago,I didn't think I'd wanna bother watching the movie.I am ever so glad I did!And Azim was right,we should have gone for the 3D .Like seriously,the entire movie was made for a 3D release!The cinematography of course.........

Let's put aside the very base of the movie which is the theme coz like most other movies we've seen eversince the 9/11 incident,this movie was also about the invasion of a foreign country and it's complete with the killing of the a great leader alongside the destruction of innocent people's homes...........

I thought the whole idea of the creature's connection with one another through bio-chemistry was interesting.Like these Omaticaya have some sort of thingy at the end of their braided hair which is used to connect to any creature they wish to get onto as mode of transportation like a usb port or somesort which they call tsaháylu.

*Yes,I know!!!!!A new language!Yey!!!!!*

The creatures in general (on Pandora) were somewhat strange but mostly looks as though they are based on the creatures which are currently present.The colorful and glowy part of them are most probably inspired from the deep sea creatures which glows in the dark depths of the ocean.

Having been a Star Trek (TNG) fan,I think the whole idea of being able to get into a machine which helps transfer yourself into another body (psychologically) was something I never saw coming.Avatar is most commonly understood as a representation of one's self when being in other realms like the internet......or something.It just never occurred to me that the avatar they were talking about regarding the movie was exactly that.

*I know.....talk about ultimate slowness!*

I think the part that totally (almost) made me cry was when the Omaticayas saw their home (the Hometree) burned down to the grounds.They were literally crying the way we'd see war victims cry on TV after an attack on their homes.

*This is when I wanna start talking about how human beings are destructive creatures*

Seriously,what's wrong with living with Mother Nature?

Ok,here's the part where I'm just gonna spill the entire movie plot.........

The entire movie was about homosapiens attacking the Omaticaya over some mineral source which happens to be UNDER their Hometree.SO....the only way they can get their hands on those things which costs zillions is by driving out the natives.Sounds familiar?Uh-uh......from the history of Native Americans to the Afghanistan war.Well,in Disney's Pocahontas as well <---my all time fav movie! ^_^

Bottom line is I am most likely to TRY to get my ass into one of them 3D cinemas to watch this movie AGAIN!Doubt that I'd get in especially this weekend.

not listening,nope,na'ah

I hear..........sounds........sometimes buzzing.......sometimes squeeking..........white noise.........hurmm........

I just figured that I tend to just stop listening to a person if he/she has a certain voice tone that completely shuts my brain down.I'd end up listening to only 50% to what they're saying.......maybe less........

out and about

Had one of those late night lepak session at the mamak with my sister my 3 brothers.It was fun.Haven't done that in a long while.I was telling a story about a movie and after I was about 80% done,Rashid asked me if I had seen the movie.Aiyo!

We had a hard time laughing out loud in the car coz we were talking about horrible subtitles in English movies and surprisingly,Azim and Qarim came out with some of the worst I have ever heard.

Oh yeah!Qarim so came clean about his new girlfriend.Nevermind the fact that she looks like a goodie two shoes (in the picture on his cellphone),I was more worried if she was one of those freakos like that girl he liked before back in his school.Well,from what he's told us,the girl ain't that type of person.That's good.Coz I'd be worried if she can't lay back and hang with us.AND......she's a Scorpio.Haha!

My sister just realized that she's become this boring person from all the books she's been reading.Like right now,she's reading a book about the Russian cold war.WTF?!I have a strange feeling that all her years of debating has something to do with it.Oh well........

While Azim is busy shuffling with jumpstarts and stuff,Rashid just got himself a white shirt today coz he said his band is going for a mafia image and he's gotta wear a white shirt with suspenders!I actually picked up this nice one for him but he insisted on getting a black one :/

Yes,we all agree that Snow Bear is somewhat human :p

Christmas shopping!

Yey!

My dad drove my mum,my sister and I to the mall today.He dropped us off outside and left.My brothers came in a car.All 3 of them.The plan was to do what ever shopping and then have brunch or early dinner and then go home.

My sister and I spent a whole lot of time at the Clinique booth talking to the promoter about my sister's face skin condition.Strange.I thought she just started using H2O about 3 weeks ago.Anywho,she was torn between trying out Biotherm or Clinique.Finally,I told her about the reviews I read and heard about Clinique's 3 step skin care system and she decided to give it a go in the end.Haha!

I am so NOT the type to use moisturizers and toners which is an ultimate faux pas in skin care but I don't care.I have a facial cleanser and that's it.Ok,here is a sin I commit when it comes to skin and make up.I admit that I'd wash my face with a cleanser and then pat it dry and head straight for the primer :p

Well,here's the thing.I do not use foundation coz I'd usually just use pressed powder or something.I always ALWAYS ALWAYS splurge on eye make up.I cannot make sense of the liquid eyeliner so it usually ends up being the thing I'd use to draw on my face.Hahahahaha!!!!!

Ahem!

I finally got the Schwarzkopf Bonacure Moisture Kick spray on conditioner I've been looking for.I got the 200ml bottle ^_^ SUH-WEET!

For wanting ice cream today,I was pushed to going home with my brothers in the car they came in.That wasn't such a big deal.The big deal was that the car was parked all the way at the underground hotel parking space.Getting there took us quite some time coz the elevator we were supposed to take was not fully functional AND there were shitloads of people waiting for it.

SO..........my brothers and I decided to ditch the elevator and headed for the stairs which did not exist.SO.......we had to walk into the hotel area and got into a hotel elevator and headed down to the concourse and then get into another elevator down to the basement car park.Getting out from the car park was a whole different story.

Well,that was pretty much what happened during our trip to the mall today minus the part that the place was not as clustered as I thought it would have been,I'd say it was a pretty good trip ;)

I really lurve the Color Shop.I did my hair there once.I think if I ever have to get a haircut or hair wash I'd just head over there.The dude who sold me the conditioner asked if I wanted to get a haircut.I told him I'd come back for one if everything else fails (regarding my hair and all I have done to it)

in major need

I need new shades of eye shadows.Maybe some shimmery ones.Something other brown!The only reason I use loads of brown is coz my eye color is brown :/ I don't even use black eye liners.I have shit loads of problems when it comes to using liquid or gel eye liners.I am still LEARNING to use the make up brushes I have.AND.........I don't have a blusher!Yey!

Honestly,I don't quite use THAT much make up.I like eye make up loads but that's it.I have never even owned a lipstick!Hah!

Right now,I am in the state of mind to sell off my things (what ever it is I have that I no longer use) I can't work with too many things (owned items) SO........I'mma be selling them all off real soon.I'm constantly getting rid of clothes coz I really don't use all of them.I'd wear t-shirts till they look really awful and too painful to be seen on me :D<---that usually drives my dad insane.

I think SnowBear cut his paw.It was dripping blood when I picked him up togo for a drive tonight.Shu tried to clean it up but the little guy kept screaming and screaming like we were gonna kill him! :/ Then again,he's always been like that even when we just gonna put some eye drops into his eyes.Oh well........

It's weird how I feel like I'm on a holiday when I really should be getting a job but I just can't be bothered and I'm just happy to be helping Shu out with his business :p

*Can't help it,love.I love hanging out with youuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >.<*

And I like doing happy dances ^_^

42!

Spent the last couple of days in UNITEN.I was supposed to help Shu set up his booth and sell stuff but I ended up selling a whole lot of my books instead.For dirt cheap only coz I shall be moving AGAIN so I do not intend to carry shit loads of things especially heavy stuff.I managed to clear out loads of my books PLUS I managed to sell off the cooling pad and mouse I got free with the laptop the other day ^_^

It's been tiring but really fun coz I was mingling with different types of kids selling different things and stuff.There were some girls selling customizable stuff like necklaces and charm bracelets and stuff.I saw some really neat tops too but I never got to go over and check them out coz only Shu and I were at the booth and I really wouldn't wanna go around alone :(

There was this one kid from the booth opposite ours who came back and forth.It started with my FFX Kotobukiya Lulu resin statue.Only people whom are aware of how much she's worth would take a closer look and not be surprised at the price I was selling her/it for (which I think is really cheap looking at the trouble and amount of cash it cost me) but of course,no one bought it anyways coz it was selling at a very high price ;)

*psst......in a way........I kinda think I like her still so I ain't gonna let her go that easily :p*

People kept asking us if the Super Mario brothers hats we had on were for sale but we disappointed a whole lot of them by telling them to head over to Giffy themselves to get it<---been promoting Giffy a lot these days.

One dude came to our booth to get some books and Shu mentioned something about ABRSM and music and stuff and he(the dude) started telling us about his kids and the musical instruments he had at home.The next thing we know,he wanted Shu's card coz his company organizes a lot of functions and my band might be able to get some gig slots some day ;)

Just before packing up,the project manager of the entire event walked up to Shu and started talking to him about some business opportunities where he can expand his business and increase sales.That is good news.He will arrange a meeting with Shu sometime next week to discuss business.Yey!

twist and shout

Everytime I try do a happy dance,the happy song changes from time to time.Strange.........I really lurve Cornman by Kinky.I also lurve The Go! Team's Get It Together and some random Hip Hop song...........or something.I dig Punjabi MC a lot.Haha!

But......for 2009,my ultimate HAPPY DANCE looks like this........

Complete with my Super Mario hat and my dad's shoe horn thingys ^_^

The FidZy Chronicles:Getting A Real Job

Dang!

Never thought I'd get this far in life!To think that I wanted to end my life at the age of 17!I've gone way past that,duncha think?

I'm having fun.Not trying to make it up a career ladder or anything.Not yet.I'm still sticking to Alex Kapranos' words and having fun while I'm at it ;)

Fun.The one word I can never get rid of.Not from the list of words I'm adding up to my ever growing vocabulary.Not from any part of my life.

I just wish I could tell a lot more people I meet to just chill and lighten up a bit.

Ah well........I am missing the jamming studio and rocking out in a band.Haven't been writing songs in a long while.The last thing I was working on was the EP Songs about Kecik which I was working on with Shu but never got around to arrange properly.

What I want right now is a bottle of Schwarzkopf Bonacure Moisture Kick Conditioner spray!Yup yup! ^_^ I am so lurvin the hair dryer styler!

OMG!

I so got up super late today! (yesterday) I think when I finally got UP up it was around 2:30pm-ish.THAT'S REALLY3 LATE!The last time I got up around that time was when I was sick.SHIT!

I've been getting lightheaded a lot these days and I have no idea why.I eat.At least once a day I do.I haven't gotten around to checking my blood pressure though.

My aunt just got back from her break and she got us all goodies.Us girls/ladies mostly.Haha!She's been shopping at Clark's (which is the place I have been going back and forth to looking at shoes!) but she DIDN'T get us shoes of course.Well.......she got my mum a pair of shoes.She got us all bags!Hand bags!Yey!Now,I don't have to go out looking for one anymore ^_^

Let's see......since my day was really short,I didn't get around to doing much.Shu and I had tea out somewhere nearby only coz we needed to get out.

Oh!I've been having dreams about Bedah in the last couple of days.No idea why.Strange isn't it?Haha!

waka waka waka!

After last night's curious case of random dance routine invention,I just realized that I have the entire lyrics to Celine Dion's Because You Love Me engraved into my head.I was driving Rashidinsky Petropavlosk and Shu nuts with my awful off-key screams in the car while singing along to the radio.

Shu and I had to meet up with my sister earlier this morning.The meeting was so secret that my mum got annoyed trying to figure out why the hell we were all the way in Subang so early in the day.The thing is,she didn't know that our discreet meeting took place in Sunway Pyramid instead.Let's just say my sister did Shu and I a huge favor and Shu promised to pay her for it ;)

Had brunch with Anas Bananas since he called in sick for work today.Funny.I could have sworn that the tee he had on belonged to either Shu,Rashid or me.Hurmm........

Then,Shu and I headed off.We made a quick stop at my aunty's place.I was playing with the cat (Oreo) and the 2 kittens.Watched some TV and then we went off to Putrajaya.

P.S. : Is it just me or is Bedah and Fei Mao starting to look alike these days.It sounds impossible since one is a rodent and the other is a feline.Still.........they seem to have a lot more similarities as the days go by.

back to blow drying

Today's record is by far the most times I have ever gone back and forth to the mall in less than 12 hours.Well,I was woken up by my mum coz she told Shu and I that she was going for a movie trip with my dad and my 2 brothers so we'd better find something to do coz they were gonna lock up the house.I had to get ready in a hurry (something I really3 hate doing)

I drove Shu to the mall where we supposed to get his company logo stamp done.We tried doing some modifying coz there were too many details in our design and it might clog up the rubber stamp if the size if inappropriate.That would seriously suck!

I was going around looking for something to protect my hair before I start styling it again.Came across something by Tony and Guy AND I got myself a new hair styler!I figured it's the fastest way to get my hair dried and sorted out properly.......so that it won't look so unruly and frizzy.

I really hate sales girls (or guys) who'd follow you really close when you are browsing for things in a shop coz I'd get so annoyed and irritated and it really disrupts my concentration.And I especially HATE it when they ask you in tones which you can't really make out what they are saying and then they give you this annoyed look.HELL-O?!It's not my fault that you cannot speak properly!Coz maybe if you spoke clearly I would have at least understood what you were saying!!!

Anyways.........Snow Bear totally surprised all of us last night.Shu,my mum and I were in the lounge watching some TV and suddenly,I felt something moving at my legs (I was sitting on the floor).I was totally spooked out.I looked down and found Bedah trying to find her way around.It turns out that Snow Bear managed to get her out from her little home WITHOUT having to take the lid off and he brought her (Bedah) to me and then,he walked off.

This kitten is very strange.He does the strangest things.Things which you'd never think anyone would do especially cats!

Well,I'll be off to designing again......or rather.....RE-designing ;)

P.S. :- I found my dad's shoe horns and discovered a new way of making use of those things.I invented a new dance move with them! ^_^ I'll try to get a better video of my new dance move and post it up real soon :p

territory:Shah Alam

I was in the area today coz I had some stuff to do so Shu and I decided to make our trip worth while.We went to every inch of the place hopping from one mall to another.For business purposes,of course.

It's funny how I used to live there when I was little and the most unforgettable memory I have of the old house I lived in was being chased by a hen when I was 4.My neighbor behind our house used to have chickens and sometimes they'd come downhill into our territory.I was walking outside one afternoon and I think the hen freaked out thinking that I was after one of her chicks that she chased me all the way into the house.That was not the best thing to remember.

Anywho,I've gotten all my paper work ready on my behalf.I'm just sitting to play the waiting game.Knowing me,I just can't sit around and do nothing.SO........I've decided to continue working on the company logo and stuff ^_^ It's good therapy and helps me past time.

Toodles!

drivin'

Got up early this morning just to get to mall in time before the weekend crowd hits in.Shu needed to get his business card ready coz it's already been a week and almost every other person we've met has been asking for a card and hasn't got one.SO,we finally got around to get it all printed out.

With that out of the way,we only have one little thing left to do.Getting a rubber stamp designed and ready.I've spent the last couple of days designing a company logo and I got Shu to look at them.Now,all he's gotta do is narrow it all down to one design and make that a finalized decision to represent his company.

In meantime,I just thought of getting myself into more mess by looking up for part time courses in fashion designing.Shu thinks if that's what my instincts tell me to do and I should just go for it.I'm gonna give it a couple of days till I can sober up my mind.

We actually made some quick stops at some shops before heading home for Zuhur prayers.After that,we headed over to KLCC for the KL International Batik fair.Surprisingly,the turn up wasn't as I expected.I anticipated a whole lot of people but there were hardly anyone (visitors/customers) there when we got there.Maybe we were a little late.Still,I've been to Comic Fiestas in the last couple of years with turn ups more than what I saw there today.

Anywho,we managed to peek around and ask questions regarding things we needed to know and we learned a whole lot of things from the world of Batik printing and Songket making.It was awesome.

written on one of the electrical appliances box

Function: flare-out, the hair curling, protecting strengthen a color, messenger hair lustre light is beautiful, curled hair is natural.

Characteristic: handle the simplicity, litre of temperature quickly, the automation constant temperature, safe energy conservation, handle nice, hermetic sealing degree is good, make a guest especially comfortable.

Usage: insert the attachment plug into 220V~ power source, power source guiding light lights, wait will can be put into use, one minute, is put into use being finished, dumps after the queen who cools down naturally can store just now.

DO NOT TURN INTO BATHROOM

MODE SS-767

TEMP 200 C

POWER 25W

VOLTAGE AC220V

FREQ 50Hz

Image,One Utama

Hahahahaha!

Everyone looked at the tiny hair straightener I just got and thought 'WTF?What do you need this for?'Simple.To straighten my hair.Duh!

Growing up,I had always gone out on a limb for my hair.Well,ok.I started going to the hair salon when I was really little.The people at the hair salon I've been going to in TTDI had known me since I was about 6 years old.I remember my school days when I'd wake up super early just to get my hair washed and dried so that I can get it all tied up on time :p

Anywho,both Shu and I were super exhausted from yesterday's trip all over the place.We got up at almost noon.Managed to cut another deal today.

I'm still feeling a bit dizzy and tired.No idea why.

Oh yeah,Kecik is not the only orange cat in the neighborhood which has problems with other orange cats.He seems to get into fights with cats of the same color.And the other day,I heard some cats fight in the back of the house.It turns out that Kecik's twin (rival) was fighting with the other fat old orange cat.It was so funny coz they all have the same shade of orange.Only tiny differences like bushy tail or fatness :/

Ghost aka Snow Bear was taken into Kak Yah's custody earlier today and he was given a bath.He is by far the noisiest cat during bath time that's currently living in the house.It was funny coz out of nowhere,Kecik appeared at home just to see what was up with Snow Bear.

no money,no talk,no deal

Hah!What a way to do business.WTF am I selling anyways?DRUGS?!

Far from it!

Haha!

But seriously,I won't take crappy deal makers.All talk no cash people are seriously NOT the kind of people I'd like to talk business with :p

I may not get paid for this but at least I'm doing my job.

Shu and I got up early again this morning.This time,our destination began in KL.We were at Conlay road to get more heads up from Kraftangan Malaysia.That was quite a visit.I lurve the building!I cannot imagine if Shu were to work there coz he'd have to wear a batik shirt EVERYDAY!Hahahaha!!!!!!

Anywho,after that,Shu decided to pay a little visit to Kapas.I have issues with the dude who runs the place coz of something he said to us back when mum first took me there.

*WHAT MAKES HIM THINK THAT HIS OPINIONS ARE SO AWESOME JUST COZ HE'S A DESIGNER?!*

Shu managed to leave his number there just in case the people there are interested in cutting a deal.

We headed over to KLCC after that to check out the KL International Batik convention which starts tomorrow.Shu was supposed to meet someone there whose in the business for sometime.Funny.He doesn't look comfortable talking to that lady.He kept telling me he hates that woman.I personally think she looks scary.But that's just my perception.

I decided to splurge on some stuff from MAC coz I've been wanting to go there for the longest time and I finally did and I know that I have cash saved up for things like that.WOAH!SO AWESOME!The things I splurged on are so WORTH THE CASH!

We then headed over to Putrajaya to get Shu's IC.The stupid chip on the damn thing is such a pain in the ass!I hope this would be Shu's last visit to the immigration center ever!He already had to get his IC replaced once for the same reason.I wonder how long this new one is gonna last.

Then,we made a quick stop over at Azura's place to drop off some things and left.

MarviN version 3.0

Wah!It's so good to finally have my own laptop again.Of course,it's not the same as the one I had but this one is way more advanced.And.......it's WHITE!SUH-WEET!Thanks to Shu,of course whose been wanting to get me a laptop since forever.

*DOMO ARIGATOU,Foxburr-san!*

I almost busted my feet with those new pair of shoes I got the other day.That kinda slowed my walking around but I survived.

Got up 30 minutes later than scheduled this morning but Shu and I managed to get to Bangi in time to send some stocks.Then,we headed over to Putrajaya to get his MyKad problem sorted out.Oh yeah,we also managed to send some stocks over to KLIUC for a bit.

Spent the rest of the day at the shopping mall.We were just supposed to hang around but then,instead of just asking the computer shop where Shu got his last mother board from about his computer related problem,we ended up having a long talk with this dude at a different computer store which ended up with us purchasing a laptop.

It's so cute! ^_^

Kecik the gangster kampung is back.It's strange how he's been picking fights with cats that are also orange in color.Ghost aka Snow Bear still has this fascination with the drain hole in the kitchen :/

shoppin'!

Shu got back this morning.He insisted on driving me around all day.We were in UiTM Shah Alam in the morning-ish.I was supposed to go see my aunt and stuff.Then,we headed over to the mall coz I was looking for a pair of shoes.As usual,the ones I want are already out of stock.SO.......I had to do the inevitable.I had to look for another brand.AAAARGH!At first,I thought it was gonna take me forever but then,after hopping from one shop to another,I finally found a pair which has a similar design only so much higher heels.SUH-WEET!

Shu insisted on getting me this awesome working jacket which totally makes me look like a secret agent or something.I so lurve it!

*THANX BABY! ^_^*

We spent the rest of the afternoon at the banks back in TTDI coz there were some problems with Shu's MyKad chip which was so annoying coz that stupid thing cannot last and now every single transaction depends on it.WTF?!

Anywho,Shu and I have decided to just let Kecik free from the cone collar.He was so happy.......well,that was until his ultimate similar looking rival decided to pay him a visit IN THE HOUSE!That caused quite a commotion.We managed to chase that cat out but Kecik had a hard time cooling himself down that he accidentally took it out on Snow Bear.The poor guy ended up sitting alone in the lounge.Fei Mao was upstairs in my room.The only place she's happy to be in.

me want now!

I am not up for working.Not yet.I haven't looked for a job.Not going to.Not anytime soon.

I just wanna lepak and shop.

I wanna do art all day.

I wanna go travel some place else.

I'm too bored to not do anything but I'm too malas to work now :p

babysitting

Funny.Considering the fact that I don't even have a baby.I do but he's obviously not a homosapien.Hah!

Kecik is just a few days away from having that cone collar removed from his neck.I'm just making sure that he's comfy so I'm always trying to do what he wants like giving him a scratch at spots he can't reach on his body.Giving him a good chin rub till he falls asleep.I even let him sleep in my room these days.I just want him to know that we're not doing this to hurt him.I don't care if he hates the vet but I hope he knows that we (Shu and I and even my folks and Kak Yah) are doing the best we can in trying to show him some love.

Ghost aka Snow Bear is altogether another problem.He's too smart for a kitten and it can sometimes annoy me.He's good at opening lids and doors with his paws.He doesn't even have fingers!How the hell does he do such things?!I was afraid if he'd fall into that hole in the kitchen.Its actually a drain hole like the ones in showers where there's a lid on it.Snow Bear is tiny enough to get himself sucked into one of those.

Bedah has shown signs of madness today.More than usual.I caught her biting the metal pipe on her water bottle several times.I have put every damn biteable thing in her home.What more does she need?!

Gemok and my sister were doing the usual cat communication in the room yesterday and then out of nowhere,there was a third mewing coming from the window.It was that cute grey cat whose usually downstairs behind the house asking for food.She lurves my window and she was actually talking to Gemok.That was pretty funny!

Shu's folks stopped by at my house this morning.They had some light breakfast and talked about a few things with my folks and then they left for Terengganu.Shu had gone with them to get a car and some stocks.He should be back by Sunday.I hope they'll all get home safely with the flood and all :/

I know I should be looking for a job now but.........

It's been sometime since Shu and I went out to just lepak.Ok,I know,we always do it but the last couple of days felt so long.It feels like I've been super sick and he's been going back and forth about his business.Today was just plain and simple.We walked around the mall(s) and sat down for cake and some drinks and then carried on walking around again.Managed to get the eye liner in the color I want.I feel pretty much 70% recovered.

Shu drove Kecik to the vet this morning.I was sick and still in bed.He said Kecik had some part of his flesh cut off.He said Kecik was in so much pain that he was literally screaming.I'm glad I wasn't there.I couldn't have been able to hold up.After that,Shu came home waited for me to get up and he took me to the clinic.The doctor took a look at me and I am so thankful that it's nothing serious.I really cannot get myself quarantined again.That would totally suck!

I still don't feel safe being in my room eventhough my dad has gotten the window fixed.I go to bed with a bokken at my side.I have trouble leaving things like my engagement ring and my wallet and cellphone lying around.I don't trust anyone I don't know in TTDI.Especially those so called security home guards.WTF?!Those people are supposed to keep this place safe la konon.Blah la!I feel like they just made this place a whole lot worse.

Yeah,there used to be robberies and break-ins but I think the statistics and hiked up a whole lot eversince these strangers invaded our housing area.They'd go on bikes all around TTDI kononnyer nak tengok2 but I seriously think they are the informers to the people who'd do the dirty work.I know I am being judgmental but I've lived here for about 18 years now and I DEFINITELY know WTF goes on over the years here in TTDI.

I want those people to leave TTDI!

how to tell people to shut the hell up

We can't.It just won't happen.People are sensitive beings and they only think about themselves when they say something.They won't bother about considering how you would feel.And the other thing I've learned about these creatures (people) is that they would always say negative things about you no matter how well you do in life.They always want to say that they are doing better.How could you measure better when you don't even like or care about what they do?

I like doing what ever it is I do.I make decisions when I am sober and if I make a mistake,it is going to be my mistake.Not anyone else's.People also like telling you things that doesn't matter much to you.How do I tell them that I don't care and that they are wasting their time?

So yeah,I have no clue how to tell people to shut the hell up regardless if it is because I do not care about what they are talking about or it's because I don't wanna hear what they have to say.So,I'd say the best thing to do is to avoid them at all causes.That way,we not only save time and energy but save ourselves from going through another one of those boring whatever talks.

hunting for a new laptop......again.......

It's weird how I am not so upset about my laptop getting stolen.I'm just upset that someone broke into our house.I have serious issues about private territories being violated by strangers.Worse,I really hate it when people mess around with my things!

I'mma be on my way to looking for a new laptop (although I really3 lurved mine so I might just get something exactly the same) At the same time,Shu's sister wants the same laptop as the one I lost so we'd probably end up getting 2 laptops.Maybe 3 coz Shu is gonna need a laptop as soon as his business takes off.

I am coming down with a fever.I think.I can't go on looking at what the doctor does to Kecik everytime we go to the vet to get his stitches cleaned.The wound is deep and it looks like Kecik was in an awful lot of pain.Today,Shu followed me to the vet and helped hold down Kecik on the examination table.I couldn't look at Kecik.He was mewing in pain.

My other problem is finding the time to get Ghost aka Snowbear aka Snobe vaccinated.My sister thinks I'm too paranoid about my cats that I am splurging cash on them like their lives depend on it.Actually,it kinda is.Still,my sister told me to stop worrying about the cats and I am having a hard time trying.

I am looking for time to draw or sketch which would probably be possible AFTER I clean up my room which most probably happens day after tomorrow.

I'm just glad that Shu is home.

robbed

My mum,Aunty Intan and I were on the highway heading back to KL from sending Qarim over at Perak when my mum got a call from my dad which sounded like bad news.I was driving at the time so I could only listen.It turns out that there was a break-in.It was our house.My dad went out for dinner with my brothers and my cousins and my aunt and when they got home,the found that 4 out of 5 rooms of the house were all messed up.Some one broke into our house and went through all our things.Here's the worst part.They came in through MY BEDROOM WINDOW.Now,I'm totally scared.I got home and sure,I'm a bit upset that they took my laptop but when I got into my room to get some documents for the investigating officers,I realized that someone knocked down my vampire skull candle holder and all the things in it fell out.What I did not see was that the grill at my window was ripped open and that there was a foot print on Shu's computer monitor AND there was another foot print on my sister's folded mattress.WHAT THE FUCK?!They came in through my window and broke the backdoor at the kitchen to get out.All of my mother's jewelleries from her one and only jewellery box is gone.All the US dollar bils are gone.I'm not sure about my dad's secret cash stash but my laptop was definitely gone.

I'm a bit upset about everything they took coz it's OURS.I am very territorial when it comes to personal belongings :/ and I am VERY disappointed in the security of the neighbourhood.It's quite OBVIOUS that this house we moved into is NOT safe.Well,not as safe as our own house.I also suspect that these so called "security" guards that have recently popped up everywhere with their booths and stuff all over TTDI has something to do with it.I don't like them.Never did.Never will.I don't care if they are guilty or otherwise.I don't feel safe at all.Seriously,who does all the petrolling around the neighbourhood all day?Who knows better than these people about the whereabouts of the people in TTDI?Who the fuck are these people anyways?

My grandmother got mugged in BROAD DAYLIGHT at the traffic light near one of these booths.Don't tell me no one saw what happened to her especially these so called guards.She's old and now she's scared.They broke her God damn car window for crying out loud!

I'm moving away from here.PERIOD!And I don't care if we're gonna breach the contract coz it ain't worth losing our things and sense of security!