longing for peace

Ever gotten up on the wrong side of the world and you don't really feel like yourself?That happened to me today.I wanted to do everything and nothing at the same time.That sucked coz I couldn't be myself anywhere.All of that ended after jamming tonight.Thank God for music!

Actually,music didn't really change anything.It just let me vent out all my energy so that I have nothing to waste my miseries on.

The thing about being the vocalist (especially during jamming sessions) is having to endure the smell of the microphones at the studio.It smells bad.Really really REALLY bad.Also,having to put up with lyrics and voice control along while making sure I'm playing the right chords with or without distortions.

I totally forgot a pre-chorus to a song we're so used to covering tonight.That was weird.Didn't get the chords mixed up so much though.That's good coz usually there tend to be a few times when I'm really REALLY messing up a song by playing the wrong chords and stuff.We tried playing Deep Purple's Highway Star and Kamal said we might cover that song.

The studio we jammed at tonight had some twinkle thingy at the drum set.Rashid kept including that sound in our songs and it ruined some of the feel to the songs we played.Towards the end of the jamming session,Shu tried making use of the keyboard and I freaked out coz I heard some strange sounds and I kept thinking that I was causing it.

It was fun but a little tiring coz the studio was in Subang.On our drive back,there was a traffic jam on that road at Kelana Jaya.A Rexton was seen lying on its back across the left lane.I have no idea WTF happened but it must have been driving at high speed or something coz the LDP is a straight road.So irritatingly straight that I cannot comprehend why a traffic jam can occur ever so often on that road.

Anywho,eversince Shu and I went bowling last week,we've been trying to get my brothers together for a game of bowling or something.Maybe we'll do that next weekend.We asked Kamal if he'd like to come along.He said he might.He said he's not good with sports involving the upper part of the body like pool or table soccer.Bowling included.He also said he'd like to try out rugby.Shu and I are very delighted to teach him.We're always short of people to play rugby with.

These tears I've cried

I've cried 1000 oceans..........

I am at the verge of going insane right now.My knee hurts.I cannot run much these days.Tried playing basketball with my brothers today and after showering when I got home,my knee hurts so much more.I'm back to wearing the support Shu got me yesterday.The funny thing is I have no idea what happened to it in the first place.

Anywho,followed Shu to class today since I'd die staying at home these days.It was short.The class was crowded.More people in there than the class I went into last semester.The class lasted for about 30 minutes.All the lecturer did was assign topics to each of the students.After Shu got his topic,we left.

We ended up at Sunway Pyramid.For some strange reason,we're usually either at the Asian Avenue and/or JCo Donuts when we are there.Had lunch at a newly discovered place today called Gasoline.It is very VERY anime+japanese.We sat on the floor.Had to take our shoes off and stuff.The surrounding is full of colorful walls filled with pictures or some anime pirates.The service and food was good.Shu's lamb had some curry leafs in it.My ice-blended chocolate was awesome.

Walked in and out of stores and I discovered that I lurve that costume shop full of costumes,props and trick packs.Initially,our plan was to get some afro wigs.One blonde and one black in color.Failing to find those,we ended up looking at some clown hats and some feathered wingss and finally,some awesome war helmets.I was so very tempted to splash a whole LOT of cash on that helicopter pilot helmet.White and shiney and pretty with a red star in the top middle of it.

Who calls on the mighty Dionysus?

Chair of the National Endowment? Winegrowers Association?

That was as much effort as I have ever put into anything pertaining school.......and stuff.........

I wonder if LinZy remembers this........

http://www.stagepage.info/oneactplayscripts/deus.html

When you feel all alone

And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold

When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head

When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day

'Cause there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breath again

-Savage Garden-

silliness:Bonnie & Clyde style

Shu called me up early this morning to tell me that he's already in TTDI.He was at his sister's place over at Wangsa Maju last night coz his folks were there.The plan was to pick me up and get some breakfast but since his driver's license had already expired (last week),he had to go renew it.We were supposed to get it done yesterday but since we were stuck in UNITEN,we didn't get around to the post office in time.

Mum threatened him that if he carries on driving around with me without a driver's license,she's not gonna let us go out ever again coz my insurance isn't gonna cover me should anything happen.Haha!

At the post office,we were the first customer coz it was so damn early in the morning.Funny,Shu took out his wallet and showed an already expired renewal slip and asked for his license to be renewed.The lady at the counter said that she can't help us unless he has his original driver's license.He took out every damn thing from his wallet but couldn't find his particular license.She asked him what the other documents were and they were all my "L" and "P" license.

After being told to make a report at JPJ in order to get his license renewed,he realized that his original license had been in my wallet all along.We turned back to the counter and got Shu's license renewed ^_^

Had breakfast and we managed to get some things done in time before Shu had to leave for class at 2pm.With permission granted,we decided to go out on a movie date today.He got back to TTDI in time to get me and headed straight for the cinema.Of all things to do,we just HAD to scare the shit out of ourselves by watching a Thai Horror film.

Anywho,I've been clumsy these days.Too clumsy.I have a bruise below my left knee.It hurts.I must have hit something.My right knee hurts like crap but I have no idea what happened to it.Yesterday,I accidentally hit my left thigh at a sharp end of a ocmputer table at the computer lab in UNITEN.That caused a little bump and bruise.I accidentally hit my right knee real hard at a wooden chair today just before leaving the house.Oh yeah,I also accidentally poked my eye with Shu's glasses last night.

I'm in pain but ignoring the fact that I am clumsy :p

by Avril Lavigne

There’s nothing I can say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me
All the pain the tears they cry
Still you never said goodbye and now I know how far you’d go
I know I let you down but its not like that now
This time I’ll never let you go
I will be all that you want and get my self together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make every thing OK
I thought that I had every thing I didn’t know what life could bring
But now I see honestly
You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe 'cause you're here with me
And if I let you down
I’ll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go
Cause without you I can’t sleep
I’m not gonna ever ever let you leave
You’re all I got
You’re all I want
And without you I don’t know what I’ll do
I could never ever live a day with out you
Hear with me do you see your all I need

secrets

We were at UNITEN this morning.Not as early as yesterday coz we selpt-in a little longer.We weren't really rushing for anything but we just had to get some stuff done.We were at the admin building coz Shu had to go see some academic officers about some stuff.

Meanwhile,I was trying to connect to the UNITEN student wi-fi.Failed coz I got Shu's matric number mixed up.So,I decided to take a walk outside since I was freezing cold.After a while,Shu finally came down to the lobby where I was looking at some awesome inventions by the UNITEN students.

We talked over lunch at ALAMANDA.Then,we did some bowling.I think we're gonna get my brothers together by end of this week and go bowling.Haven't done that in a while.Besides,I think it's so much better than having them stuck in front of the damn television playing the PS3.Apart from basketball in the mornings and afternoons,that's all they ever do in a day.

Anywho,Shu and I have been talking about a lot of things lately.Things pertaining both our lives.Things we cannot tell anyone of.Not even my mum.I worry about him a lot and I am constantly trying to help him sort things out.We have to get this over with and move away from here.Away from everyone.
----------(@)----------
It's one thing to talk about things that has already been done.It's another to pass judgements.Especially if you are someone who is supposed to help.If you are just going to remind people of the mistakes they've made than I suppose you are a bigger idiot than I thought.We will make use of you to the fullest and walk away without even thanking you.

little taiwan

Got up really3 early this morning.Went to UNITEN with Shu coz he had to send his thesis copies and we had to be there before 8am.Went to the computer lab after that coz he had to register for the special semester.Failing to do that,we just hung around for a bit and at about 1pm,we decided to have lunch at that place we wanted to go to at One Utama called Little Taiwan.

The place has some awesome food.Not chinese food but it's a change.I accidentally ordered some spicy fish thingy which turned out to be SUPER spicy!That place is definitely where I'd go to get bubble milk tea or ice blended drinks from now on ;)

the daily mishaps of Kecik

Kecik's luck has been pretty crappy these days.Lately,my folks have been killing flies like mad.There are flies everywhere and we have no idea where they come from.Instead of electricuting them to death with the low powered fly electricuter,my folks have changed their strategy to swapping them dead with rolled up papers and stuff.Recently,my dad finally got those sticky fly trap papers which actually works.......only,Kecik sometimes gets his nose stuck on them when he sniffs around.

Today,mum said that he accidentally got his nose stuck and then he freaked out and moved back and got his tail stuck onto another piece of sticky paper.Then,he started rolling around and making sounds and freaking out.The other cats just watched in horror coz they weren't really sure of what was happening but Kecik sounded really scared.I pity the little guy.Now,his tail looks a bit messy and there lumps of fur sticking on his body.He's got some of them sticky things on his moustache and face as well.

When Shu and I got home,we looked for Kecik and hugged him and helped him clean up his fur.

he asked if anything should happen,would I still marry him.......

Yes,I would.And I shall happily join him in faking our deaths and start our lives fresh somewhere where we are unknown.I have always wanted to do that.Life,if routined is meaningless to me.What is life if there are so many things holding us back like chains keeping us like prisoners?

He said that his mum is happy to know that we are back together and she wants to see us get married.Well,we always say that the sooner we get this done the better.

Being paranoid,I cannot predict what the economic state would be like in the future.For now,I think 2009 is a good time to get married.I don't know what 2010 is like.Personally,I don't know how much longer we have till the world gives up on us all.

By the way,the good news we heard from his mum is that she does not have any symptoms of heart problems.The not so good news is that she pneumonia which means she has to get help from antibiotics.The only problem is,she is allergic to some medication so hopefully,the medication she is currently on is helping her get better.

for someone who loves taking my own sweet time

I sure do enjoy doing something better than nothing but the amount of reading I've been doing in the last 24 hours of my life really,almost drained the living crap outta me!Right now,I can't really tell what I'm doing.......hurmm.......I'd probably be joining Shu and his Zombie parade real soon.He hasn't slept all night doing his thesis.Woke him up after I showered this morning.He said he felt like he was floating all the way down when I was getting ready to leave for my exam this morning.I sure hope he finishes his work ASAP.

movin'

Not me.Not yet.Aunty Intan shall be moving to an apartment in BSD soon.Farah decided to buy a place instead of just renting.Although Aunty Intan isn't very happy about it coz her friend's are all here in TTDI but it's probably the best thing to do.Kamal isn't very happy about having to pay for more tolls.

I know for sure that moving isn't as fun if it's somewhere you don't really wanna go.Packing is also a problem.Being my paranoid self,I don't like owning a lot of stuff coz I know that I'm gonna live my life moving from one place to another.I figured I should make sure I live my life on the go...........

Anywho,Shu and I were bobbing our heads to Franz Ferdinand music the whole day.After my paper,we headed back to TTDI coz he needed to find a place where he can bind his FYP thesis.Since the people at the shop in TTDI couldn't get it done on time,we were recommended to find a particular place over in section 17 PJ.The funny thing is that 2 people gave us directions which was supposed to lead us to one place but both of them got pretty messed up at telling us which way to go or where exactly it was.

We ended up going to this new place called Jaya One near the old matriculation center.We didn't find any printing shops there at all.We did see a cute little kitten which we tried to catch.It ran off.I was so kawaii coz it looked like a squirrel..........Well,the place is nice.Lots of places to eat and stuff.But since we were running out of time,we decided to not hang around and find that printing shop.We ended up at the old shophouses next to MCIIUM.

Then,we had to go get ink for the printer coz Shu's got a whole lot of printing to do so we went to One Utama.Had dinner there and then got home in time for Maghrib ;)

I am looking forward to some lepak session and our next acoustic performance.

improvise

Kamal said that the acoustic performance will be postponed to next week.That would give us time to practise and work on our line-up.Which means,we MUST by all means have a band meeting THIS weekend.Playing along with us would be the band we met at the Rock The World audition-Phaser-and Adan's (Abang K'rol's brother) band.It would be really awesome to watch Phaser perform again coz they play rock 'n' roll and they rock.I've never seen (or heard) Adan's band perform but I heard they play some heavy stuff........the whole trashing the guitars to the amplifiers.

Anywho,in the meantime,Shu's mum is recovering.My folks and I decided to just postpone the family meeting on the 17th to the weekend or something until Shu's mum recovers.The doctors suspect that its a heart problem.Hopefully not coz Shu said she did the ECG once and there were no signs saying that she had any.Maybe her heartbeat was a bit low coz she wasn't eating and stuff.Hopefully she recovers fully.

suimen no tsuki

Had dinner with my grandma and Qarim and my cousin Anas Bananas.I was falling asleep every other second.Qarim was being himself while Anas and my grandma did what they do best-talk.Most of the time,I don't like listening to my grandma coz she tends to go overboard with her jokes which aren't funny and might just offend other parties.

Tonight,I decided to just go with the flow.I found out quite a lot of things about my late grandpa (my grandma's 1st husband) The sorta thing that makes me wonder if my mum or my aunt knew about. My grandma told us the story of her eldest sister.How she came to be the way she is now.

I was told that she saw her husband and her kids getting shot in front of her during the Japanese occupation.That's not quite how it all went down.She got married twice coz her first husband was accused of being a traitor and got shot.Her second husband died and she was found under a bridge all covered in mud and slugs and she didn't recognize anyone at all.Not even her sisters or her mum.She's still alive.She's just not living in the present time.

My family history (from my mother's side) has a number of not-very-convincing point of view towards men.They betray.They hurt the women in my family.It's always the ladies who has to get everything done.In fact,it kinda happens in my dad's family as well.My sister and I are the only 2 girls in my family.I'm weaker than my sister.Even though she'd get heartbroken at times,she'd cry and then get over it and move on.I'll always try to be there for her whenever she does.

Also,I found out tonight that my cousin got kicked out from his dad's house back when he was 13.He called my grandma in the middle of the night asking her to come get him down the road from his house.Strange how I never knew about that.I personally never liked my aunt's ex husband that much but I never knew he'd do that to his own son.

My grandma spent the entire time advising all of us which I find quite comforting coz she'd just trying to look out for all of us.She's been through a lot.I kinda feel bad for not being nice to her at times..........

I'm ok

Rashid told me that there were a couple of dudes at the park where we'd play basketball at with some weapons threatening kids and taking their cellphones last week.It would so totally suck to know that its not safe to go there anymore.I'd usually walk alone there on days when Shu is away.

There's about 2 tiny roads which I'd have to take to get to the park.Eventhough there are houses on both sides,it gets a little too quiet at times.I'm always thinking that I'm just passing through and I don't have any cash on me at all.Those muggers would either take my cellphone (or what's left of it) or kill me.I'd usually walk real fast when I pass those areas.I'm a bit stoned (or stoned looking) most of the time,so chances are people might mistake me for a muggler.

Ash called me out of the blues telling me that he just got up from sleep and that he had a dream that I got into an accident.The first thing he asked me was if I was ok.I was blur at the time.Didn't get much sleep in the morning since Shu called which was about 7am.Also,I was starving and cold.But I was (and insyallah) will be alright ;)

Shu's gone to Terengganu to check on his mum.She's been really sick.I hope she recovers soon.I hope it's not anything major.

I haven't been well myself.Apart from losing my appetite every now and then,I keep getting nauseous and sick once in a while.It's either when I get up from bed or while I'm praying.I've been taking the iron pills which I've been prescribed to but mum says I need a whole lot of potassium.The first thing that came to mind when she mentioned potassium was bananas!

the world is coming to an end

My dad saw a flock of birds pass by.He said they looked like storks.That's weird.I know there's loads of 'em around the campus area but not here.My mum suspects that the birds are migrating.Maybe something's about to happen.Who knows.We've caused the earth too much pain that it responds by giving us unpredictable weather and "natural" disasters.If anything happens right now,I don't blame nature one bit.

Shu took me for late lunch at Village View today......

It's in Bangi.We were at UNITEN for a bit.Shu had to see some people about some stuff coz all his contacts have gone missing eversince he lost his phone.Since I've been in a white rice+either thai or chinese dishes these days,Shu took me to a place called Village View.I love the place.......well,the ambience is uber kool.The food is yummylicious.It was raining when we got there so it was kinda cold.I bet the place would be an awesome place to hang around at night ^_^

A few days ago,we stopped by at a restaurant alongside the KJ mainroad on the way back from Bangi.Not quite sure what the place is called but the food there is pretty good.White rice dishes of course.We've been having early dinners over at Vicchuda last week.New places would make a good change for us ;)

alibi

Shu freaked out when my mum called at about 7:30pm today.He was afraid if my dad really was angry at me for not coming home on time.I figured out a timeline that made sense and we just worked out on it in case my folks got upset.

Hahaha.........this is what we do.........manipulate situations.......hahahaha.........

The good news is that Shu's thesis is NOT due on Wednesday but he's gotta pass it up by Friday.
The bad news is his mum is in bad shape.Really3 sick.I hope she recovers soon.

here comes the sun..........

Aunty Gina's been diagnosed with cancer of the breast.She had a lump removed last month and the results to the diagnostic done onto the lump piece came back as cancerous.That would mean that she has to remove a huge portion of her chest.Apart from it costing so much,her family depends on her.

She takes care of her folks and she's got 3 kids to look after.Also,just before the surgery last month,she lost her job coz her boss is an asshole.Maybe it was written in the fine prints of the contract she signed when got the job but is cutting her some slack and giving her a few days (at least) off for medical reasons so much to ask?

I cannot imagine the pain she is going through right now.She is one of my mum's oldest closest friends here in TTDI.Her kids and my siblings and I are around the same age group.God,I wish I could help her..........

Oh yeah,at the same time,Aunty Intan shall be moving into an apartment somewhere in Bandar Seri Damansara.Farah is in the middle of buying a unit and she insists on paying for a place they own rather than paying rents.Aunty Intan isn't very happy about it but she's going with the flow anyways.........

less than a week

Suddenly,I feel as though time is passing by really fast.I have less than a week till Shu's folks come over to see mine and until then,I keep telling myself to just carry on with my daily activities and pretend that we'd all have enough time to prepare ourselves for what ever comes next eventhough I somehow have this feeling that we won't have enough time to prepare although we'd have about 6 more months to go.

Was asking my mum why was it so damn hard for me to write new songs these days.She said it's coz I am complete now so I'm not actually looking for anything anymore to write about.My sister,on the other hand said that maybe it's coz I'm not inspired anymore.Maybe she meant it's coz Shu and I practically see each other everyday.He lives here with me and my family for God's sake!

I don't think my disability to write is caused by being uninspired.Maybe I'm just trying to grasp things one at a time.I've been a little spaced out these days.It's kinda good to have some gap till my next paper.It just isn't my thing to wake up super late and not have any plans at all.Also,I am worried about Shu's final year project.Eventhough I am no engineering student,I could always help out with the field work ;)

Anyways.......every now and then,I'd fall back and think of what's really happening and how things are going to change from here onwards.Well,time changes everything but I'd never get over the fact that I'm not the only one whose life hasn't move since the break-up back when I was 17.We kept in touch but it wasn't the same.I never saw us getting this far.Hell,I didn't think we'd be on the same page on this!

How can I decide what's right.......

When you're clouding up my mind?
I can't win
You're losing sight
All the time
Not gonna ever own what's mine
When you're always taking sides
But you won't take away my pride
No, not this time
Not this time

How did we get here?
I used to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And it's hanging on your tongue
Just boiling in my blood
But you think that I can't see
What kind of man that you are
If you're a man at all
Well, I will figure this one out

On my own(I'm screaming, "I love you so")
On my own(My thoughts you can't decode)

Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves
Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves

There is something I see in you
It might kill me
I want it to be true

-ParamorE-

Anis was the one who introduced me to this band (Paramore) Now I can't get enough of 'em ^_^

been helping Shu finish up his EMS project last night

He and my dad and even one of Qarim's friend were up all night working on taking apart an adaptor and soldering wires and some wood work (for the mounting).The objective was to build a motor.I suck at trying to figure out which way is positive and which way is negative in creating a magnetic field :/ A lot of wires were stripped so we didn't have to buy much stuff.

Shu and my dad carried on working till 4am this morning.

driving

*sigh*

Eversince I've started driving,I realized that a lot of people on the road are either reckless or just a bunch of idiots when they got their license.I doubt if anything they read in the rule book is understood nor do they even know why it is crucial for people to understand the road rules.

Are people aware that every single mirror on the car has its purpose and that there is this called a 'blind spot'?Do people know that they'd have to first turn the signal light on and CLEAR THE ROAD before changing lanes while driving and not just switch lanes after a second of turning the signal light on?Are people aware of the existence of signal lights and that there is a use for it?

My late grandfather once told my mum that when we drive,we are actually driving everyone else as well.

How do we ensure that people who get a driver's license aren't idiots?

:)

Shu's dad called him up yesterday.He was in town.It was funny how he finally blurts out how freaked out he is about us getting married coz Shu just never bothered to talk to his dad properly about it.Last night,Shu stayed over at his sister's place in Bangi where his folks were at.He and his dad finally got to talking.

Now........Shu is freaking out about his folks meeting mine.Hahaha!All this while,it was me who was freaking out in case my mum (or my dad) would behave weird (coz they always had been and since my dad's been home,they sorta get a little bit too much for my brain to take)

?????

I realized that I would make the best yet most cruel ruler ever in the history of mankind.This is because I tend to list out the punishments I'd impose onto people who just cannot make use of justice in general.

For instance,to those who cannot get a job done properly and accepts bribe money at the same time would first be sacked and then be blacklisted for life so that the next job they'd get (if they ever get another job) would have a record of such crime commited by the person.So they'd probably live their lives on probation until the day they die.

Shu was telling me about some bigshot food company who was sued for not dumping their trash properly and polluted some river somewhere.Think about it,as it is,big shot companies get a whole lot more than anything anyone could ever get in a month.Punishing them by making them pay MYR20k would mean nothing to them.They should be put out of business for at least a month and let them learn (if they actually have such ability to do such a thing) from their mistake.

As far as I am concerned,smokers should be punished as murderers because secondary smokers suffer so much more than the smoker himself.Since smoking in public is taken very lightly (especially here where I live) I propose that all smokers should only smoke in a small room with absolutely NO ventilation so that these smokers would inhale the smoke they produce only because the particals of burnt tobacco is so small that it can hardly be filtered.Yes,those so called filters sold at pharmacies are actually bullshit.

*I still have doubts about smoking being makruh.I have a strange gut feeling telling me that it is actually haram in the teachings of Islam*

I really try hard to not think about how unfair it is for people who have passion to save the one and only planet we live on and yet,there are ignorant idiots destroying everything we work so hard to save.How shallow and self-centred can people be?And the worse part is that most of the time,people who do not deserve to be punished gets the worst torment from MotherNature.

*I am still smiling about wud happened at the recent F1 Sepang circuit race.It's as though Mother Earth's timing to react is so perfect*Yes,to those who condone to contributing to such pollution should be punished full force!

Long live Mother Nature!

at last!

isn't it ironic?

The media went all out about Earth Hour and at the same time promotes (macam giler) F1 at the Sepang Circuit.I mean,technology aside.Economy aside.It pollutes the Earth either ways.

I find it kinda sorta strange......don't you?

RadioEdit update!

Kamal-san called earlier today saying that Ayie's workplace has some acoustic thingy going on and he's booking a slot for us.KOOLNESS!!!!!I so need a break now!

sometimes........the only way out is the hardest path to follow.........

It's ok to cry.Sometimes,crying helps clear off the smoke from the frictions of anger you have accumulated over the years.Hopefully you can see and think clearer now.

I'll always be here for you cry out to.

I love you........

Sweep slides on my stereo

Short wave ’round my rodeo
Became from that of Savalon
But I’m flying to Istanbul
Oh so why don’t you meet me … there?
There is no nation of you
There is no nation of me
Our only nation lives in Lucid Dreams
Lucid Dreams I’m living in Lucid Dreams
I’m living on short based dreams tonight

-Franz Ferdinand-

auf achse

It seems like forever waiting for Franz Ferdinand's new album to be released (HERE specifically!!!!) I love their single Lucid Dreams and No You Girls.I still love watching them perform live.I just wish I could see them perform live (HERE specifically!!!!) I'd still watch their videos from Take Me Out to Matinee to Michael to Darts of Pleasure to Do You Want To to Walk Away to The Fallen to L. Wells to Wine In The Afternoon to Your Diary...........Eversince the forum where I'd got all the latest updates (and B-side/rare downloads) from got hacked into and eventually shut down,I've been at a complete lost.I want a fresh new slice of them Franzies!

insanely self-destructive beings

It's quite disappointing to know that a lot of people make such a big fuss about not wanting to be part of saving the earth and the environment but still wants a spot living on this very planet.At the very least,they should be thankful that there are things being done to reduce pollution and the destruction of earth.

People complain about the weather being super hot and that the weather is becoming unpredictably dangerous everyday when they aren't doing anything about it.Little messages on commercials like recycling or things we can do to help reduce pollution are more of reminders but most of the time,people choose to ignore these messages and carry on complaining.

Of course,these are the people whose minds cannot think further than themselves.People whose lives revolve around what they do and their comfort and stuff.Things like how the pollution we fail to stop or reduce causes bigger impacts on other beings like the polar bears losing icecaps for them to cling on on fishes die in the sea or rivers or even mutate becomes a problem for those whose source of food comes from the sea.

I often express my hatred for mankind which had lead me here.Not wanting to save the lives of human beings but instead,I would rather spend my time and effort on saving animals because the live by the code of nature.Human beings destroy.I have no guarantee that the human beings I can save would turn out to be people who care about mothernature.Human beings in general are selfish.

Having said that,I would have to extend my apologies to UNICEF for not being able to help them because I would rather help WWF or SPCA or PAWS.

a cat named Drac

He started off as an ordinary black cat who just happens to come by the house every now and then for food.Then,he decided to stick around for a little more that he's come to be so comfortable at home.He is very manja.Mum thinks that he probably had an owner once but was abandoned or something.That poor thing.He tends to get a little noisy sometimes when he's hungry but otherwise he's alright.Fei Mao loves him which is a sort of reason for us not to kick him out completely.

Once,he came back looking all beaten up.We thought he broke his front left leg but later,he recovered.Today,he came back looking so much worse.My dad freaked out that he told Shu,Ash and I to take him straight to the vet coz he thought Drac was going to die.He lives.The doctor gave him loads of meds to make him better.I got a little scared looking at him shaking in pain on the vet's table but after the jap,he looks so much more alive.

We have to keep him in the cage until he recovers.Hopefully,he hasn't got any fungal infections or anything.Apparently,it's contagious to humans.Hurmm........

perfect timing?

Maybe.......

Shu will be done with his exams once my finals begin.Shu's folks will be coming over on the last day of my examination.My senses tell me that things shall be moving fast forward then onwards.How fast?Not quite sure just yet.

Am I scared?Maybe.A little.I've never done this before.
Am I excited?Yes.Very.

I'll be starting a new life.My role as an individual shall change in many ways.For someone who hardly ever volunteers to take up any form of responsibilities at all,here I am taking up more responsibities than I can ever imagine.

There will be new challenges I shall have to come across and I have only prayers to help me get through them all.I want this and I am aware of the consequences and conditions which I shall be facing.It's not going to be easy and knowing me,always trying to find the easiest way out...........well......this isn't an easy way out.This is a decision.One that I made on my own.I hate making decisions on a daily basis and here I am calling the shots over the biggest decision I can ever make in my life.

Still,there are a few things I am not sure of.I have never planned a wedding before let alone MY own!I have no clue what hantarans are.I don't know what the significance in the number of dulangs are.I can't quite estimate the time needed for the preparations for which ever occassion comes first.The only thing that has already been finalized would be the guest list.It is LONG,that much I can say ;)

butterflies in my tummy

Got up this morning and the first text message I retrieved from my cellphone was from Shu saying that his folks are coming on the 17th of next month to see my folks.For a while,I thought it's April already.

It's strange how we've been having this conversation about us getting married and all.At first,the conversation was only between Shu and I.It was just us getting lost in eachother wanting to take this amazing thing we share one step further.Then,things became serious from the day he spoke to my father asking for my hand in marriage.Eventhough my mum was already planning for preparations and all,she said she wanted to wait till she comes back from the states when Shu's folks finally comes over to discuss what needs to be prepared and all.Now,they are finally coming and we are one step away from deciding when we can finally tie the knot.

Here's the thing,as much as I always oppose every little thing my mum's planned,I have no clue what the procedures are.I have no idea what needs to be done.I have no idea what to prepare.I'd speak to Shu and he'd explain to me what is what and why such things are required.My assignments are finally done and now,this is all that's left for me to think about (apart from revising for the finals of course) Shu once told me that he often wonders what it's like to anticipate the meeting of his folks with mine.Now,he knows...........
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Was late for campus this morning.Had to send my assignment to Dr. Wejdan's office coz it's about 2 weeks overdue.Thanks to Shu's nephew who not only speaks Arabic but has a string of contacts who are Arabic experts who helped me A LOT with my homework,I managed to get my work done and learn a thing or two at the same time.SUH-WEET!


Managed to stop by at Dr. Salim's office to see if he got my paper.I think he was asleep.Haha......


The first dude Shu and I bumped into this morning was Israr who asked out loud if I got up late for class or something.That was funny coz he asked about Shu and the moment I said "he's my fiance actually",he immediately held out his hand and said "oh,fiance!I'll have to shake hands with!" I think that sorta surprised Shu for a bit coz he's heard of Israr from me since we were and are classmates afterall.Haha!

I am currently worrie about Kecik.Something happened to his lower lip and I think he is in pain.Shu and I shall be taking him to the vet tomorrow after my Automotive Skills exam.Hopefully,Kecik will recover.Inspite of being still,he still has the cheek to chase,play around and eventually kill a baby mouse.That mouse was so cute and it was screeching in pain!BAD KECIK!

takoyakified!

Wah.........so nice lor to be able to just kick back a little and know that I don't really have to get up in the mornings as a routine anymore.I was beginning to feel a little sick of the semester halfway through coz I seriously hate routines and it's hard to get up when you haven't really slept properly the night before.Not to mention the backdated assignments and my health not being at its best.It sorta became suckier as the semester ended.I just hope I've learned enough to make it all worth the time and energy I've spent.

Foxburr-san belanja-ed me takoyaki a while ago.He's been wanting to take me there for weeks but we haven't actually had time to go.Finally we did and them takos are ever so yummy!

Oh yeah,the Panda's gear box jammed up AGAIN.It just got back from the workshop a few days ago.Luckily,we were already in TTDI when that happened.Still,it sucks to know that most of the time I spend with that car usually ends up with Shu and I waiting for my folks and a tow truck.

The presentation yesterday morning was funny.Before my groupmates arrived at the class,I was talking to Yunus.He said his groupmates ditched him so he did some analysis on his own.He didn't wanna present coz he said it would be embarassing to go up front and talk about something completely alien from the research carried out by groupmates.His turn finally came and he presented coz his groupmates gave him a paper with the parts he had to present.

Something funnier happened later after the class was over.My groupmates told me that Yunus was arguing with a girl outside the class.What happened was that he got offended by that girl coz she was laughing and talking to her friends as he was presenting.Of course it's rude but I didn't think he'd take it that far.Seriously,I think it sucks even more to be performing with my band on stage and there's absolutely not respond from the crowd.

Anywho,that wasn't really the event of the day.Shu found some stuff on the cellphone he's currently using (which is not his coz he lost his cellphone) that turned out to be quite disturbing.So disturbing that I didn't bother to see.He ended up deleting them all since it was such a disturbing experience to have seen such things.I shall not mention names but I'd like to ask this-WHY?! And of course........eeeeuwie!

I'd lie if I said I didn't study

But when it comes to these sort of things........I'd have to be doing the real thing than just reading it from paper..........and as my gut told me since last night,my task today was to set the engine valves.That meant either very low or no marks for me at all coz of all the practical classes I missed was that particular one and the last thing I could ever do even if my life depends on it would be reading and memorizing automotive tasks without looking at the engine.

Of course,theoretically,I would know that valves involves pistons and combustion but to set it and to somehow know what BDCT meant and still not able to convince my groupmates that we've been doing it all wrong is just a bit hard to believe.Doesn't matter,it's all done now.I'm just gonna have to study for the theory test next week.........same time,same place..........will be missing the workshop...... :/

not my problem,our problem

It sucks to think of the fate of people who go through the toughest crap and still not get any form of justice from anyone anywhere.To think that the problems we face here and now are as tough as any other crap we have gone through whereas other people have bigger problems which may seem like there is no way out but still,these people are the ones who'd carry on living through every second given to them only because hope is the only thing left.At least for them it is.

I personally know single parents (mothers mostly) who gives up more than half of their lives for their children and get the crappiest deals and treatments from social services and the employers they work for.Why aren't any of their problems justified at all?Because we are people who are only concerned with our lives and our problems and that the rest of the world is none of our business?What about people who'd have to work 2 or 3 jobs just so that their kids can live another day?

Then again,maybe these people aren't working hard enough.I dunno.......it's always easier said than done.Working harder than you already can.What would I know?I'm just a student.I don't pay taxes.I don't earn a living.I just observe and hopefully,I'll learn.

Dear Tech Support,

Last year I upgraded from Boyfriend 5.0 to Husband 1.0 and noticed a distinct slowdown in overall system performance -- particularly in the flower and jewellery applications, which operated flawlessly under Boyfriend 5.0
In addition, Husband 1.0 uninstalled many other valuable programs, such as Romance 9.5 and Personal Attention 6.5 and then installed undesirable programs such as AFL 5.0, The Ashes 3.0, and Golf Clubs 4.1.
Conversation 8.0 no longer runs, and Housecleaning 2.6 simply crashes the system. I've tried running Nagging 5.3 to fix these problems, but to no avail. What can I do?

Signed, Desperate
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Dear Desperate:

First keep in mind, Boyfriend 5.0 is an Entertainment Package, while Husband 1.0 is an Operating System.
Please enter the command: 'http: I Thought You Loved Me.HTML and try to download Tears 6.2. Don't forget to install the Guilt 3.0 update.
If that application works as designed, Husband 1.0 should automatically run applications Jewellery 2.0 and Flowers 3.5.
But remember, overuse of the above applications can cause Husband 1.0 to default to Grumpy Silence 2.5, Happy Hour 7.0 or Beer 6.1.
Beer 6.1 is a very bad program that will download the Snoring Loudly Beta. Whatever you do, DO NOT install Mother-in-law 1.0 (it runs a virus in the background that will eventually seize control of all your system resources). Also, do not attempt to reinstall the Boyfriend 5.0 program.
These are unsupported applications and will crash Husband 1.0.
In summary, Husband 1.0 is a great program, but it does have limited memory and cannot learn new applications quickly. You might consider buying additional software to improve memory and performance.
We recommend Food 3.0 and Hot Lingerie 7.7.

Good Luck,
Tech Support

sangkut

Haih.......and you call yourself a cat?!
Got home and couldn't find Kecik anywhere in the house.He was nowhere outside either.I thought he was just out and about but looking at the time,it was Kecik's afternoon nap time.Then,we heard a cat crying outside.Went outside and saw Kecik on the balcony of our nextdoor neighbour.He got up there but couldn't find a way down.

I managed to get Kecik to step out and guided him to get closer to the gate so that we (either Shu or I) can grab him without having to climb over our neighbour's gate.Unfortunately,Kecik wasn't brave enough to jump down.Ash ran into the house to get a ladder.In the meantime,Shu and I tried to get Kecik to get onto the other neighbour's roof so that we'd have a better chance to getting him down.

Finally,Ash got the ladder.Shu climbed up and managed to grab Kecik by the collar.All us went back home and the first thing Kecik did was to make a run for the litter tray.After that,he ate like he's been starving for a week.That was funny.I wonder how long he was stuck up there.

furui

I always said being sick is the worst feeling in the world.I'm right.It does suck.As much as I don't wanna depend on meds,I have to.Eventhought its not anything serious like drugs,they're still pills.This happened before.I wonder if my whole idea about not eating chicken and beef (and mutton) has got anything to do with it.

I know that eversince I've become a junkaholic which means eating less food and more junk,my immunity system has gone down so much lower than before.I am aware of that.I think that because I haven't gotten around to repairing such damage,my entire system is slowly deteriorating.

Having said that,it also doesn't help that I am addicted to J.Co's Chocomint freeze!Damn it!They cost a bomb and they taste ever so good!I am not upset so much from having to be deprived of sugar,I'm just having a hard time adjusting to the ice-blended-free drinks.Or rather,ice-free drinks thanks to my swollen tonsil.

I am the sickest person living in my home at the moment and my dad doesn't know it AT ALL.Haha!

low blood pressure:round 2

Been sick these past few days.It's quite annoying.Was at the clinic yesterday.My tonsil is swollen again.Told the doctors to give me some antibiotics.Today Shu took me to the clinic again coz I'd get lightheaded everytime I get up in the morning and I'd get nauseous when I'm in the car.Only lately this happens.I figured its got something to do with my blood pressure.I was right.My bp was super low.It was 90/50.The doctor gave me some iron pills.

Strange,this happened a few years ago when I used to not eat........hurmm.......

carbu-what?

The carburetor......ya know,the thing that blends fuel with air for internal combustion in the engine?The creation of fuel injections almost wipe it out completely.Almost..........Nevermind.........

I am just trying to be prepared for tomorrow's presentation.We're not given topics.Instead,we have to choose a topic ourselves.One that is NOT taught in class.Hence,the carburetor.With the help of my groupmates who are engineering students.Hehe.......

I wasn't trying to be the smartypants who chose this topic.I just thought it makes an interesting topic since most cars run on fuel injection engines these days.Besides,everyone said the topic is alright......

Been sick today.....this morning.......couldn't get up.Didn't get up till about 11:48am-ish.That's almost noon.But I got up anyways.Didn't get much work done.In fact,I didn't get any work done at all.Can't think properly with this headache.

throbbing

Mum left with Azim and Qarim at about 6:30 this morning.They probably had just arrived in Stockholm (I think).They're on their way to Michigan to see Eno-san.After all the problems Qarim went through in getting his VISA,he's finally on his wy there already.His SPM results is coming out tomorrow (I think).

In the meantime,I am stuck with classes (still).Will be at home with my dad and Shu till they (mum,Q &A) come back.My grandma will be around the house in the afternoons till about 10pm.Kak Yah comes in the morning and leaves at about 5pm like she always does.My sister and Rashid will be home during the weekends.

I have a band meeting on Saturday at about 4pm over at Ayie's workplace.No idea if there'll be any jamming sessions.

Anywho,my head had been throbbing since morning.I think its migraine.I usually don't get migraines.Maybe its coz I got up superearly this morning (5:30am-ish) and I haven't been able to sleep since my mum left.Managed to get myself to class on time this morning but because my head's been throbbing off and on,I just couldn't go on with classes.Shu is also sick.He's been sick for a few days now.

Sorry,sir.Traffic was horrible.......

It didn't help that I had to drive a different car today (one that is slightly underpowered) and very basic.It didn't matter.It got me to class safely (but late) and it got me home through the rain and the traffic which was caused by idiots who have no idea how to drive in the rain.

*sigh*

Was gonna talk about my band instead.We went jamming last weekend.Rashid was late coz he was stuck in a traffic jam on his way back from the movies with my mum and my other brothers.Shu and I met up with Ayie and Kamal at the studio about 10 minutes before jamming.

The first thing Kamal asked Shu was "do you know how to play the drums?" Nope.Shu is very much a bassist and a guitarist and he doesn't play the drums.I do but I can't play coz I had to sing and having the rythm guitar is important (for me) for timing purposes.

While waiting for Rashid-san,Ayie and Kamal took turns at the drums.Ayie couldn't keep a consistant tempo while Kamal couldn't play along with the high hat.Also,the song was cut short coz Kamal wasn't at his guitar to fill up the guitar solos.

Rashid arrived half and hour later and was slightly pissed off with the movie.He went straight at the drumset and started jamming our playlist.Shu then took pictures with Ayie's DSLR to be posted at our site.We have yet to schedule a proper photoshoot.

Next meeting,4pm,Saturday at Ayie's workplace........makan free???Maybe?

gearbox failure

Nothing scares the shit outta me more than reading "gearbox failure" on the indicator screen while driving!Yes,yes.....it's hard to go about with machines which are smarter than you even when they're not designed in such ways.

*sigh*

Was on my way to class this morning.Shu drove while Ash was in the back seat.We got to the toll house at about 9:35am-ish and just as we passed the booth,the indicator beeped and read out "gearbox failure".That meant that the car wouldn't let us shift into any other gears including setting it to neutral.

*double sigh*

Shu managed to pull over on 2nd gear.There was no way (IN HELL) that we would be able to reset the gearbox (coz Fiat would lose their customers otherwise) and even if we do know how to do it,we might risk resetting the entire system.

So there we were stranded on the roadside from 9:45am all the way to 11:30am.Called my mum coz I didn't wanna risk damaging the car.She was trying to get our mechanic to get a tow truck.Since the car is a regular front wheel drive and it's locked in 2nd gear,we had to wait for a tow truck that could pull the car up instead of having to push it up onto the platform.

Amin Reza decided to cover for me for the quiz this morning.I owe him one.Missed my EAP class at 2pm coz I was getting sick from my empty stomach and the heat and all.Shu was sick and Ash decided to ditch his 2pm class since everyone else voted to have brunch and rest at home till about 2:30pm.

I didn't get much sleep coz I promised my lecturer I'd present my project today.Got a pretty good bashing for about an hour of class time.I worked my ass off (with Shu's help) for that project and it still wasn't good enough.Maybe I failed to cover all the flaws.Maybe I just didn't see the whole thing the way my lecturer did.Oh well.......

Hung around with Shu for a bit.We saw some pretty awesome mini guns which loads on ballbearings!I'd opt for the 0.25mg ballbearings over the 0.12mg!To be fair,both Shu and I shall have to use the same gun.We opted for the AK-47 mini!Yey!New toys to be added to our wishlist!And who are we planning to shoot?.........hehehe.........

P.S.:I think Kecik is still a bit upset with what I did to him this morning.Hopefully,he'll get over it and start hanging out like always again ;)

what now?

Strange how I feel like I haven't gotten anywhere in life.I have obviously exceeded about 7 years of my life now (and counting).I don't know if it's because I just wanna do a whole lot of things but haven't quite got the time to do it or I'm simply not given the chance to do them.Either ways,I think my ultimate issue would be my I-Don't-Give-A-Damn attitude.I just couldn't give a fuck about some shit and no matter how hard people try to make me change my mind about it,I just can't.I'll do what I want,when I want to and I don't care what you say coz if I don't wanna do it then I ain't gonna do it.

The whole "you HAVE TO" or "you MUST" shit doesn't quite work on me.Unless of course,I'm getting cash everytime I do it.Haha!It's just unfair ain't it?Life,I mean.There's just so many things we CANNOT DO and so many things that we HAVE TO DO but the bottom line is,it doesn't really change anything to begin with.So why bother?

anywhere everywhere

Was checking out this new mall over at PJ called Tropicana Mall (or something) yesterday.It's a new mall and they haven't even started charging for parking lots.That was cool.Shu and I just had trouble looking for a place to eat.

Today was a rather long-ish day.Had class this morning which ended at 11am.Shu and I managed to have brunch and then we had to get back to campus coz I had a meeting at 1pm for my automotive skills presentation.It was quite frustrating coz we're not quite sure who our group members are and only 3 of us turned up-Intan,Atikah and I :/ That didn't take long.

We headed straight to Bangi later on to get the program (which Shu REALLY3 NEEDS) from one of Shu's classmates.Transferred it and all and we headed home.We had to get home in time for our assignment tonight which was to send some stuff over to my aunt's place.

That plan changed as well.We ended up taking Kecik with us all the way to a restaurant near my aunt's place to meet up with my uncle,my aunt and my cousin who went out for dinner.After that we headed over to my aunt's place.Kecik was introduced to my aunt's little kitten (who is not a male!)

Kecik hates that kitten!Hahahaha!We had a good laugh watching those 2 felines going about with one another..........

Oh yeah,Xaibo aka Asyraq called me yesterday.He wanted to know if I'll be at home this weekend coz he wants to come over to pass something to my mum for Eno.We have a lot of catching up to do.I was shocked to find out that he's broken up with his girlfriend.He was shocked to hear the news that Shu and I are getting married.

It's funny talking to Xaibo coz he and Eno are batchmates (back in KYSM) and Shu was their senior back in school.Since Xaibo was quite close to Eno-san,he knew and heard a lot about me especially after Shu and I got together.My gawd!I am sure to be seeing a whole bunch of ex-KYSM students at my wedding!Here's the worst part,I probably don't know most of them as much as they know me!

KERO!

so this is how it feels to let it go to let it fall apart

Here's the truth about everything that's been going down in the last couple of months.I am slowly deteriorating.Very soon,I might just self destruct.I can't do this anymore.It's hard to talk to myself or to talk to Kecik for that matter.He doesn't say anything.He probably doesn't know what's been happening.

I am not paying attention in classes.Well,except for Arabic coz its a language subject.I can't think of writing my EAP paper eventhough I already have an outline with drafts and stuff.I am failing some subjects for midterms and quizzes.I have trouble paying attention especially to stuff which aren't really comprhendable.

I am alone and I don't know where I'm going.I wish to say goodbye for good.I can't stand this world I live in.There's too much pain and I cannot do anything to stop it.I can't even make my own pain go away.I too am counting down the days till this world finally breaks apart.I hope I won't live long enough to have to live through that.I have enough on my back as it is.

I don't know why I keep trying so hard at a lot of things.I can't do it.I should have known.I am not as strong as I thought I was.I am not as smart as I always hoped to be.I can't keep up.I keep getting stuck and talking to other people makes me feel like I am speaking a different language altogether.One that no one understands.

project total annihilation

I often wonder why is it that I despise human beings so much.I am ashamed to say that I am one.It's annoying coz for a being designed.......created with a lot of advantages,we pretty much messed up BIG TIME.

Firstly,we can't live in peace with one another.Always finding eachother's faults and flaws and killing eachother and always trying to make the other person fall.We are a whole bunch of destructive creatures living together.When we're done destroying one another,we'd destroy Mother Earth until there's nothing left.

Yesterday,my lecturer said he doesn't like rain because it causes flood and destroys a lot of things.There is absolutely nothing wrong with rain.It's what people have done to nature that causes flood and stuff.It's called nature for a reason.Duh!

Apart from being destructive and all,we can't help but not progress in life.We become less and less intelligent as time goes by.I think the minds of people in general are deteriorating.There's no advancement at all.Because we are shallow in thinking,we only look at progress in the light of physical development and nothing more.

The mind is a very powerful tool.We tend to forget that.So instead of thinking of issues that matters where living is concerned,we think we are being advanced by building and creating things which doesn't benefit us much.Most of the time,it just costs a lot.Yeah you'd probably feel a wee bit more intelligent.Truth is,you're not that far ahead in life.

We are human beings.We destroy.

sunrays through the clouds

Another rainy day.Another time getting soaked in the pouring rain from having to run to the car.Another lepak session with Lina-san after Mazlan-sensei's class.

It was funny how I bumped into Israr and asked if it's safe to run to the car with all the lightning and stuff.I don't trust my slippers (coz I doubt if the bottoms are rubber) I might have been the perfect conductor for the highly charged electricity to earth!

No,I was NOT struck by lightning and condemned to doom!

WTF?!

I am officially screwed.NOT LITERALLY!Got up this morning and felt like the whole world is gonna come down on me.It didn't.Except for the part where I realized how crappy my performance is for certain classes,I think my day turned out pretty well.

For starters,Mazlan-sensei did NOT kill me for NOT showing up for class last week!I have a particularly good reason for that.NOT an excuse!

I enjoyed Nadia's presentation.I don't have the guts to do what she did for her presentation!Kudos to Nadia-san! ^_^ No,I did NOT volunteer to present for next class.Not up for it.And NO,I do NOT volunteer.It takes too much effort.

Haha!

Was talking to Lina about men and infidelity and how stupid they are when it comes to doing what's right. *sigh* It's hard to speak to people who haven't the slightest idea what they are talking about.With weak understanding and poor arguements,they can never make me understand what it is they learn and what they fail to comprehend. *more sighing*

And then,my mum was crying after watching the clip of that 15-year old kid who got beat-up by his seniors in school.Keywords:unbecoming,uncivilized,lack of civic consciousness.Failure in education system?Maybe.But what exactly shapes the mentality of the society?How do you educate people who cannot be taught anymore?

For example,the difference between someone who is educated and someone who is not,someone who wants to be educated and someone who refuse to be educated.Upbringing.The word justification is very subjective.Maybe different people have different ways in justifying themselves.

Some people feel like violence is a solution.Some people don't.At one end,my sister and I thought boarding schools are fucked up coz the kids are pressured into getting themselves "disciplined" but actually they are not.That isn't entirely true.I came from a day school.The kids are still fucked up.

I remember my disciplinary teacher back in school told us all that we are a bunch of cowards for having to bring our "gang" along when it comes to confrontations and shit like that.Why risk getting yourself and your future for one stupid minor problem?Why not make an everlasting impact to that other person?Why not call upon Hell Girl?<---NOT a solution.

I think the objective of getting even is to come out as the winner WITHOUT losing anything.I am almost done thinking of all the shit that goes about in this world I live in.Like the other day in the news when all these so called "rempits" beat the shit out of a dude.Having to deal with such creatures,you have to at least try to see things the way they do.I can't.I am not one of them and I refuse to see what they see.To me,they are as unbecoming as any human being can be.I am not helping at all.I know.

On the not-so-brighter side of the world,went to see Kamal at the hospital but he was alseep so my mum,my brothers and I just left the tin of bicuits with a note at his side and left.I hope he gets better SOON!RadioEdit CANNOT afford to lose THE guitarist!

theater fest@UNITEN

I am really not up for classes.Especially with the results I got today.I've been studying but maybe I didn't study hard enough.Maybe I read all the wrong things.Maybe I got confused.Who knows.


I'm really tired and sleepy now.


Got up earlier than usual for class today.Started the day off by helping Shu catch Kecik.He crossed the road and almost got hit by a car.My mum was wondering why Shu was running across the road.Should have known better.That little orange furball has knowledge of the world across the road now!It wouldn't be so worrying if he's actually careful when crossing roads.The thing is,he's not.He is completely oblivious!And cars on that road would speed like crazy.


Anywho,Shu ended up not going to class coz it turns out that he hasn't got any.Except for that lab session he missed this morning coz he couldn't get up on time.He had trouble sleeping last night.He called me up on my cellphone while I was asleep at about 1am.Gave him a wake up call at 6:45am and he was already up.Apparently,Kecik woke him up at 6:30am-ish coz he wanted to go out.Thinking that he sounded wide awake,I went back to sleep and got up at 8am.There were no messages on my cellphone.I assumed Shu fell asleep.He did.He just got out from the shower when I went downstairs to iron some stuff.


Had breakfast with my folks for a bit and then Shu,Ash and I left for campus.It's pretty cool to be early for classes again.I've been trying to get out from the whole mess with the finance unit.I don't ever wanna have to go through that shit ever again!

Didn't miss any classes today!Sugoi ne?!

Hung around with Shu and helped him clean up his place while waiting for nightfall<---kikikiki (laughing like Kururu) The play began at 8:15pm-ish but since it was raining......well,with the lightning and all,we decided to stay in till the weather subsided.Had dinner at UP10 and then Shu escorted me home till the KJ lrt station,then we went our seperate ways *sob sob*

Funny news I got from mum when I got home.Kamal had been admitted to the hospital near my house.He didn't tell anyone.Not even Aunty Intan coz he said he didn't want to worry his mum :/ He actually went through a surgery!No wonder he didn't reply my text messages yesterday.Well,until he recovers,there won't be any basking or jamming sessions for RadioEdit.

Walkürie

Went to watch Valkyrie.I must say,I love the movie (especially the dude who portrayed Adolf Hitler!) I love the suspense build-up.I love the plotting and all......the setting,the costumes.........everything was just awesome.I was a wee bit disappointed with the fact that the actors did NOT speak Deutsch.Ok,Cruise did say some stuff in Deutsch at the beginning of the movie but he spoke with his American accent!Meanwhile,the other actors spoke with an English accent!They are SUPPOSED TO BE GERMANS!At LEAST have a Deutsch accent eventhough they don't speak the language!

Oh yeah,we (Shu and I) watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button after my class this morning.I am not a fan of Fitzgerald but the movie was not bad.Some parts are a bit slow but it was nice.

I love the fact that we finally got time out to watch those 2 movies coz we've been wanting to watch them since they first came out but we were swarmed with work.It doesn't feel so bad to not do anything work-related sometimes.

Was at my aunt's place for dinner.My uncle found a kitten in a drain somewhere near my aunt's place while we were hanging out at the porch.It must be less than a month old.Maybe slightly more.He (I assume it's a male kitten) was hungry and cold so we brought him in and fed him a little.He got comfortable when we left.That's a good sign.Hopefully,he'll stick around.I call him Hitler coz he has a white face but there's this black line under his nose which looks like a moustache ^_^ He's chomel!

7 facts you may not know about me

• I wrote my first song when I was 15 or 16 years old.
• I'd go with my acoustic guitar over the electric guitar anytime.
• I fell in love when I was 17 and I am ever so thankful to be given a second chance to carry on loving this person now and insyallah for many years to come.
• I am an animal lover.
• I was suppose to have another sister (apart from Wani) but my mum had a miscarriage.
• I am afraid of heights and small spaces.
• I love doing my own thing (on my own) than going along in groups (big or small).

7 things that scare me

• losing the people I love
• heights
• small spaces
• things that can sting
• playing a show and my guitar string snaps in the middle of the show.DAMN IT!I hate it when that happens during jamming sessions!
• not being able to do the things I like
• losing my freedom

7 songs that I like most

• 7 is way too few to be narrowed down.I'm a music lover.Can't select songs coz all songs are different and unique in their own way.........

7 phrases that I say the most

• What The FUCK?!
• Move bitch,get outta my way! (when I'm driving)
• Whatcha dooooin'?
• Kiotsuke!Me wo kuishibare!
• Pekopon-JIN/Pekopon!
• Baka!
• Kore wa KANTOI desu!

7 of my precious things

• my guitar
• my band
• my music files
• my cables
• my distortion pedal
• my notebook
• cars (in general regardless if I drive them)

7 memorable first times

• the first time I met Shu
• my first date with Shu
• my first kiss
• my first jamming session in a band
• my first time playing a song I wrote in public
• my first time driving
• my first time watching Avril Lavigne LIVE IN KL (with SHU!)

7 friends to tag

• Shu
• you readers (maybe more than 7 peeps huh? ;p)

thanks to 2nd Class Private Foxburr-san...........

My long fought battle with the finance division is over.I swear that they need a major make over of their system.It's completely fucked up.Not to mention the trouble they caused me (a hundreds of other students).To think that they have the cheek to say crappy shit like "oh,she's a 4th year student.She should already know how to go about this" Here's the thing,if I have to pay 5 times the minimum rate of being blocked/barred from pre-registering my subjects,doesn't it seem a bit screwed up that they waited till the amount came up to 5 times the minimum amount of getting blocked?

5 TIMES THE MINIMUM AMOUNT!

Of course,things like how the hell am I supposed to withdraw such a HUGE amount of cash in a day just to get my name cleared off never crossed their minds.........

*sigh*

So,after hanging around not being able to do anything at all at about 11am this morning,my mum finally called me and changed the plan completely.Shu and I headed home to get the cash from my mum.Banked in the stash and we could only get started on settling the entire mess at 2pm onwards coz the Finance Unit closes for lunch break at 12:30pm.

*more sighing*

Shu actually helped me by getting a headstart at lining up at the finance unit.I had a class at 2pm for crying out loud!Have they no idea how many classes I have sacrificed in order to get this crappy mess out of my head?!Bakara Pekopon-jin!

Thank you so much for helping me out today,Foxburr-san!

de arimasu!

after much deliberation.........

I shall die with honor in Mazlan-san's class tomorrow........de arimasu!..........or maybe not.Hahaha!I've had a rather funny semester.It was my first time taking Arabic classes and of all things to do,I had to do Arabic 2 without doing the 1st Arabic class all coz I couldn't get into the damn class.Later on,I found out that Dr. Wejdan is also teaching the Arabic 1 class :/

Anywho,there are only 8 of us in that class.Well,before this there were about 13 of us.2 got kicked out for certain reasons.1 dude just disappeared after about half a month of classes.Dr. Wejdan's sarcasm is just awesome!Also,he'd sometimes blurt out funny things only coz my classmates are a bunch of goof.

Earlier in the semester,I thought EAP was gonna be the ultimate highlight coz I really suck at writing academic stuff.Dr. Salim is actually pretty laid back.He doesn't really pressure us with work.Instead,he'd be telling us a whole bunch of stories in class.

My Fiqh class are on Mondays,Wednesdays and Fridays.10am till about 11am.I've never taken classes with Dr. Affandi before.Turns out,he is one funny dude.He draws a lot and he loves placing bets when it comes to answering questions in classes.Usually,he'd bet on things he knows we aren't really sure of.His drawings are usually completed with names and fine details.

The other class I'd usually miss is Dr. Chuah's Methods of Da'wah.I think it's coz it drags on till about 1:20pm and I have Arabic at 2pm on the same day.

As much as it sucks to get up super early on Saturday mornings,I really3 lurve going for my Automotive Skills class.I've learned so much in that class and I never regret asking questions about cars coz I'd never know otherwise.My instructors are superkool people and I am getting quite comfortable around the Engineering Workshop ^_^

Anywho..........Qarim's VISA might not get clearence coz he's not in school and he's not working.He might get left behind and my mum will be leaving on March 12th with Azim.That would really suck!

i'm not rajin........

I'm just slowly slacking off.Sorta.Was dead tired this morning so I decided to sleep-in a little longer.Missed 2 classes this morning.Can't miss Arabic later at 2pm.Anxious and eager both at once.

Hahaha!

I don't think I'll be sticking around for the gathering.I have to get home and start working.

Yes,the invasion on Pekopon has begun!Watch your backs,Pekopon-jin!

just as I was about to look forward to a calmer week.......

I have to attend a mass gathering at 5pm tomorrow and it's compulsory!Leh mo kao cho ah?!!!!!!!I'm planning to just turn up for a while and head home......or something..........

Hah!After all the headache I went through last weekend doing all the work and presentation and studying for Monday and Tuesday,I have to brace myself for more work to come in the coming week T_T

It doesn't help that while doing my Arabic midterm,I had the Keroro Gunsou song playing over and over in my head!I don't do well when it comes to thinking without scribbling on some paper........couldn't do that on the Arabic question paper coz we had to write our answers in it and then pass it up.Still,I think I scribbled a bit of hiragana here and there.........and probably some one-word questions in romaji!

This morning,I was trying to write the groupwork paper properly but the voice of Hang Tuah (Stephen-Rahman Hughes) from PGL The Musical kept playing over and over in my head coz I woke up with the song he sang throughout the Malacca theme..........NVM............

I really need to get Keroro's voice out of my head!Tamama's too!

Gunsou-SAN!!!!!!!!!!

gomene......

Tried to sleep-in this morning.Couldn't do that.Had so much to do.Shu was up early eventhough he's been studying all night right up till 4am.He helped me a lot today.Got my Computer Applications homework done.Studying Arabic every now and then in between doing my other assignments.I have a midterm tomorrow and I have a presentation at noon.Good luck to me.I have a good mind to not turn up for class on Tuesday.I would.Believe me,I would.

I'm worried about Shu's condition.He said he pulled a muscle while playing badminton the other day.Then,today he said he can't put pressure on his right leg.He looks so much in pain when ever he walks so I keep telling him to sit down.Funny thing is,I was the one who played badminton with bare feet.He couldn't have possibly cracked a bone coz his leg isn't swollen.I just hope he'll get better.

We're both suffering from a severe back pain thanks to sitting at the computer all day trying to finish off work and stuff.My work,mostly.

Oh yeah,my uncle called me and told me to head over to my aunt's place ASAP coz Aunty Maz was home alone and she said she saw some people trying to break into the house and that she was scared.Shu and I headed over to my uncle's place to get him and then we went to my aunt's place.By the time we got there,my aunt was already home from work and Aunty Maz said that the police had already checked the place and left.

Thank God nothing happened........

Kecik has finally learned the art of climbing over the walls and the gate.Now,he spends his nights climbing the tree outside.I just hope he won't get stuck.His eyes have turned gold-ish now and sooner or later,he won't be so kecik anymore.Ezuan says that he's fat now.He's long-ish and bigger but probably not fat eventhough he eats so much more than the other cats in the house./

pekopon-jin!

Last night was a blast!Shu and I got tickets to the 3rd season of PGL The Musical about a month ago,the night finally came and inspite my crazy schedule and all the crappy things that's been going on about school,I am just glad that we both enjoyed ourselves ^_^

I went to watch the musical last year but I sat higher up at the balcony.This time around,Shu picked some suh-weet spots for us.Got to to watch the play up- close.I could actually see (and hear) the musicians play live music throughout the entire show!And of course,I saw every single detail of the costumes and props!

Got home at about midnight and I think I finally got some sleep at about 1am.Got up at 6:45am this morning for my automotive skills class at 8am.Now,I am studying for the midterm paper tonight.Maybe I should sleep-in for a bit tomorrow morning and then start studying for my other midterm paper on Monday.......then again,I do have a presentation at noon on that same day.Hmm......I guess I'll be kissing that sweet ol' sleep-in goodbye!

Oh yeah!And that DVD assignment is due on Tuesday!

Watashi wa penat desu!

troublemaker:framed

Rashid's cellphone ended up on the roof outside his room window.He suspect that it was Kecik's doing.As much as I doubt it,it is a possibility because Kecik has been biting and dragging Ravi all over the house so he might have tried doing the same thing with Rashid's cellphone.Who knows.Kecik has anger management problems and he has a different personality when the sun goes down.God knows if he is actually a cat to begin with!

I used to have time to observe and then think over the things I see

I just have way too many things to do these days and they are mostly school-related.As much as I want to just not care about them,I know I just can't........

Then again,one of the other reasons I just couldn't bring myself to be serious about the things around me anymore is because watching or reading news would either annoy the shit outta me or it would just ruin my day.

For example,my mum and I were at the bank tonight and when we stepped out,a boy gave us salam.He's only 14 and he's from a school all the way in Port Dickson.He was there trying to sell us some balm in order to help him get money for his school or something.When my mum asked,he said his teacher was coming to get him and he has school in the morning.I don't know about my mum but I felt really sorry for the poor kid.

I often wonder what I could do to prevent kids from having to do such things regardless if they are orphans (or not).I just think it's completely unfair for the kids.And then,I saw some kids doing some street dance thingy on TV while I was at Aunty Intan's.Kids who probably have nothing else better to do.Ok,dancing in public places is harmless.But I do wonder if that is all they ever do coz I've seen some kids younger than those on that show who are working so hard to earn a living.

I don't like watching kids having to do things they aren't supposed to do like begging or doing odd jobs when they are supposed to be in school.Why are there still kids out there living at a minimum and having to pay a price for something which is not their fault to begin with?Most kids don't have a choice but to work I suppose while other kids just give up either coz they already have what they need or simply because they just don't care.

ki o tsuke!me o kushibare!

I had a blast today.Went to class as usual.Had lunch with Lina and Diba over at Calypso.It was a long lunch.We were laughing and chatting and laughing.Diba is superfunny.Then,I headed back to campus coz I had to go see Mazlan-san about my homework.On my way there,I bumped into Akmal and Naimah.They sang me a birthday song at the corridor!

Anywho,headed over to UNITEN after that.Shu made plans for the evening and he had already requested for permission from my folks about a month ago.He said that his plans were only supposed to begin at about 7:30pm-ish but since there were last minute changes,we met up at about 4pm.

We didn't do much in the day but at about 6pm,we headed over to Mutiara Damansara.Shu took me to Bubba Gump Shrimp Co. for dinner.I've never been there.The food was supernice!Oh yeah,their traditional birthday celebration may not exactly be like Uncle Chillies or TGIF but I still had to stand on a chair and shake my booty!I'll upload a video soon........hik hik hik<---laughing like Kururu

kerokerokerokerokerokerokerokerokerokerokerokerokerokerokerokerokerokero

what a thing to do the moment the clock hits 12!

I was getting annoyed by Kecik who now conveniently comes into my room as and when he pleases.He was doing some really weird things like sniffing and licking the floor.Then,he started sniffing my guitar case.After that,he started messing up my room,toppled over the laundry basket and stuff.I got annoyed so I sent him out.He cleverly pushes the door open and makes his way right back into my room.I decided to put him a little further than before but as soon as I drop him onto the floor,he runs back into my room before I could get to the room door!

Shu said it's probably a way for him say Happy Birthday to me.Thanks!

Shu was the first to call to wish me the moment it turned February the 17th.LinZy and Stitch text me right after that but my damn network has expired so I can't reply any text messages nor can I make any calls!DAMN!My sister called at about 12:40am.She has a paper in the morning.

I had a fun but very tiring day.Went to classes as usual.Didn't miss any of them and I didn't miss out on anything from missing classes last week.Also,my arabic lecturer didn't mind that I missed his class last week.Seriously,I had a severe headache.I went straight to bed the moment I got home.

Anywho,went over to Cyberjaya with Shu to get LinZy.Her apartment is nice.The thing is,there a loads of nice apartments there which is selling at a quite reasonable price.It's just that Cyberjaya is all the way at one end of the universe so I'd probably get cut off from the rest of the world and if I were to go to the city for gigs or whatever,I'd have to pay tolls and more tolls.If and unless I work there in the future then I probably would consider living there.

Oh yeah,got LinZy-san and since she got her first paycheck already,she belanja-ed Shu and I for late lunch.The food was good!We headed back to campus to catch the Nusantara Theater Week's first play.Ash was part of the cast.Shu and I couldn't stay long coz I wanted to make sure that there are still trains for Shu to take back to his place.

I'm tired now but I have some things to do finish before going to bed.........Kecik is still acting weird and scaring the shit outta me!

ai kotaba wa!afro gunsou!

AFRO!GUNSOU!3!2!1!FIRE!

Today must be Kecik's worst day ever!Early this morning,he was scolded for climbing up onto the dining table and then spilling a whole cup of coffee.Shu said my sister was the one who freaked him out.Still,mum wasn't happy with what happened.

Then,Shu and I took him to the park to go get Azim from his archery class.We let Kecik run around for a bit but when he got super insane all of the sudden and ran under a car,we picked him up.Shu said he has to take a bath coz he messed up his fur and his feet was covered with mud.

Shu went ahead and bathed the little furball.He wasn't very pleased with that.Then,as Kecik was happily cleaning and drying his fur,he got another shock coz my dad's friend started his huge bike that made Kecik jump.

irashimase!

Was on campus at 8am this morning only to find out that no one was at the automotive skills booth.The group leaders fail to inform us to head over to the workshop to get some tools and car parts before going to straight to the booth.It doesn't matter.All my instructors were there anyways.Managed to help out a little.There was games and all but by noon-ish,I got super tired,hungry and sleepy so Shu and I headed out to get food and went home.

Shu shot some arrows at the archery club booth.We saw some performance by the wataniah club.It was kinda weird and funny but it was entertaining.Of course,I enjoyed watching the performance by the gamelan club.Well,it wasn't a gamelan performance but the same people performed music using all those traditional musical instruments.Shu and I tried to climb up the ladder tower thingy built by the scouts but after on step,I decided to go back down coz I do have problems with heights.Shu then totally nailed the ps2 car racing game back at my booth but we had to leave anyways so after the preliminaries.

I slept from 4pm-ish all the way to about 6:30pm.I couldn't sleep last night.I don't know whether it was because it was too hot or whatever but as soon as I was about to doze off,Rashid called me asking me to open the house door.It was 12:50am.He got back from jamming.Shu was already fast asleep.

Well,getting up at 6:30am wasn't so bad after all.I think my day went pretty well.Too bad I couldn't stay on till the end of the whole event on campus today.

bakara PEKOPON!

Couldn't get to class this morning.The roads were closed.I think it was because of the stupid Le Tour crap.Just because a bunch of people are competing over something that hardly makes a difference in the lives of other people,a whole bunch of other people who has to go to work or school are held up on the roads coz the traffic police closed almost every single exit.WTF?!

Oh yeah,Shu and I are gonna give Kecik a piece of our minds later!He ran to the roadside and almost got knocked down by a car.......or some cars for that matter.Cars move really2 fast on the road opposite my house and for Kecik to pull a stunt like that,he was lucky that the first car slowed down coz he would have been gone.Shu and I shall put up a signboard on the roadside that says "PLEASE SLOW DOWN.CATS CROSSING"

attention world!

SPCA has loads of new kitties up for adoption!Very chomel too ^_^ Please go check them out and give them a proper place to live.They really3 need your support.It doesn't take a lot to help save a life.Also,they'd make good company ;)

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seeing shades of sakura pink

It's such a beautiful flower and it is definitely the perfect theme!

I've been designing......thingys........invitation cards.......rings.........haven't gotten around to the clothes yet............

Fell asleep on my bedroom floor in the afternoon.I've been supertired and supersleepy.I am getting a bit sick of campus these days.Finally picked up the acoustic guitar and worked on some new tunes.

Shu's friends told him they enjoyed our performance and our songs the other night.That's good.We've been wanting to hear what people have to say about our songs rather than watch us perform only coz we're playing music.WE NEED a BLOODY DEMO!Actually,I was thinking of getting an EP out but our songs are a wee bit too hard to choose in order to be put into an EP coz every song is different.We'll sort that out later in the week.

I am on duty to look after the automotive skill booth on Saturday.8am-1pm.Since we only have 2 time slots to choose from,I figured that Sunday nights are always meant for jamming sessions.It's good enough that we were given a choice.I'm really trying to help out my mates.I just don't get those who'd use midterms as excuses.WTF?!Everyone has midterms and important things to do as well!

jakun FidZy!

Yey!So this is what Mazlan was talking about when he said getting wired to the university network in my car on campus!How cool is that?!Well,cool but not cool coz only some parts of the campus grounds has good signals......

I haven't been getting enough sleep and I am constantly doing research on something pertaining to the huge bulk of assignments I have get done ASAP!

Joke of the week:(introducing my bandmates on stage while performing the other night)On lead guitar,Kamal.......Rashid on the drums.....both are from UiTM.......only Shu is from UNITEN........and I am from........(long pause) somewhere........

In-sanity person/cat of the week:Still Kecik........

I need to get my head straightened out today.Can't go on like this.I have a month and a half more till the semester ends!Damn it!

sometimes......everything is just too much to take......

For me it is.I feel like the things that I wanna do in life are simple.The fact that they intertwine with other things.......related things which supposedly we could do without in order to not make things complicated exist and that we may have to depend on it coz we're made to do so just fucking pisses me off.

I am talking about a very specific thing here.Still,it could be applied to most other things we go through.

I'm sick of crying and still unable to make things better.I try so hard to just brush them aside and pretend that it doesn't bother me but I can't.Coz it does bother me and for as long as I cannot just learn to adapt and compromize,I can't move from this spot.It kills me.A lot.I can't imagine what it's gonna be like after this.

I don't want to take action over something really huge just because I have to.I wanna do it coz I want to.Right now,I know I want to but there's just so many things I would have to consider........and probably reconsider.

Is this what growing up does to a person?Drives them mad coz of things which cannot be avoided?

Mazlan's class never fails to make me laugh

I was on the verge of skipping his class today but Lina said I shouldn't coz I had no reason to do so.True.I was just exhausted beyond words.Haven't slept properly since yesterday coz I kept thinking about homework and midterms.Then again,Mazlan-san never fail to amuse me and that keeps me going.Just as we handed in our assignment,he gave us our second assigment which I must say......is rather difficult to comprehend.Lina and I already see ourselves heading over to his office every other day we can (with or without anything for him to check) ;)

Had a good lepak session with Lina today.It was raining super heavily and I was freezing the whole time.Cold weather takes up a whole lot of energy coz the body is trying its very best to keep us warm.That's why I love running in the rain........

Anywho,I've been thinking about a lot of things and so many things gets messed up in my head.I was trying so hard to find a way to convey these mixed thoughts and feelings I've been keeping to myself for so long.I finally sorted them all out into words.The timing was just perfect.I was talking to the right person at the right time and that lead me to asking so many more other questions about where I'm headed with all these big decisions I am making or I am about to make.I wouldn't say I've got it cleared out already.I am still trying to find the best solution for this particular emotional landslide.

Either ways,I'm gonna have to come to a decision in the end.I am still going to be the one to call the shots at the end of the day.I just can't decide now.I'm tired and my mind is still full of thoughts from Lina and my mum as well as the judgements I've made.

laughing out loud alone

Hahahahahaha!

In case you were wondering (Mr Foxburr) THIS was what I've been laughing at all night long :D

I am,yet again,at the verge of insanity.It's only Monday for crying out loud!Let's not talk about work shall we?.........

I have the purrfect subject in mind:Kecik! aka Little Psycho........

Of all the cats that's been living here at my house,he is the first and probably the only one who likes water.It's weird.He'd jump right in whenever he sees any bathroom doors opened in the house!And (like myself) he lurves getting soaked in the rain.It's no wonder he smells really bad compared to Fei Mao!

And he tends to get all crazy at times.He's so out of his mind that you can't even touch him without getting bitten or scratched!There are times when he'll be chasing his tail and wrestling with it all around the floor.That's just funny.He gets scary when he grabs Ravi (his stuffed dog toy) and drags him all around and attacks it again and again like it's some sort of anger management therapy.

Anywho,I can't imagine him doing his own little lion dance........oh wait a minute......I can........

99.5% there! ;)

I am supertired right now.Got up really late this morning.I think Shu called me 6 times but I didn't get up.Finally,at about 11:30am,my mum unlocked my room door and told me to get out of bed.

The thing is,of all things for me to do on Saturday mornings is having to get up at 6:45am and hit the shower!And of all things to happen during class yesterday was having to squeeze in 2 lessons at one go.I don't mind the part where I had to get under the car to take out the rear absorbers.Actually,I don't mind having automotive classes at all.I just got tired later in the day.

Took my aunty out to the mall coz she wanted to get her PC and she (like myself) has no time to do leisurely things during the week days.A promise is a promise.Shu and I took her to the computer store and finally she got herself the computer she wanted at a reasonable price (thanks to Shu's negotiating technics ;)

She then insisted on having a drink with us.So we did.After that we rushed back to clean ourselves up and get ready in time for the kenduri over at Aunty Intan's place.It ended at about 11pm-ish........well,we (Shu,myself as well as my brothers) helped clean up where ever that needed cleaning up.

Anyways.......got up and finally got dressed at about noon-ish today.Headed straight for aunty's place coz she needed help setting up her PC.At the same time,we had to get there before she left for the airport coz Anas Bananas was leaving for Penang at about4pm-ish.

After a quick lunch with my aunty,Anas and Aunty Maz,Shu and I decided to head over to Gloria Jean's at The Curve coz Lin's sister-Yan,is working there.I thought I should just go over to say hey to her.Spent some time there on my notebook,getting some work done.Then,we were gonna just stroll a little bit before going home but something happened..........I heard drumming and cymbals.........there was a lion dance performance!I grabbed Shu and ran straight for the stage area!It was awesome!Later on,as we walked some more,we heard more drumming upstairs.Yamaha BeatSpot had some blessing ceremony going on in front of the shop so we stayed on to watch.We headed over to Ikano for a bit.Got into a card designing shop.Hah!We got some pretty good ideas on our wedding invitations cards from there :p

Anywho,we walked some more and heard drums and different form of cymbals.There was a Dragon dance/blessing ceremony happening upstairs.That was fun.I've never seen a Dragon dance before.
I'd say my Chinese New Year isn't so bad this year..........well,not as bad I supposed.We did get home in time to catch a breather before the jamming session at 8:30pm.Ayie shall not be performing with us looking at his father's condition.We agreed that he should prioritize him more than anything should he is not able to carry on anymore.In the meantime,Shu will be our sessionist for the grad night which by the way,shall be happening this Friday at
Palace of The Golden Horses!

I am so very worked up on this show coz eventhough we know our songs well,anything can happen and we must all take really careful steps in getting there.We'll be jamming over at LabRat in Shah Alam on Thursday night.
Until then,hopefully all goes well with everyone..........may the year of the Ox open some new doors for us all ;)

happy birthday Aunty Intan

It's been 2 years since Izwan passed on.Aunty Intan still cries remembering him.She cried still during the kenduri tonight while we recited the Yasin.Kamal,Farah and Faizal just won't show how much they miss their littlest late brother.Seeing all those familiar faces of my juniors from school reminds me of the day Izwan died.Minus the part where Kamal was sitting alone outside on the couch staring blankly into space.I still see Izwan in my head.When he's hanging out with us.With his guitar at the studio.When I picked him up from his house that morning for him and Rashid's band's BOTB soundcheck.I didn't see him before they burried him.I'm glad I didn't.I want to remember as how he was back then.Alive and happy and living life the way any teenager would.

back at xanga now ^_^

www.xanga.com/quellegondiel

I just wanna scream and lose control

Throw my hands up and let it go
Forget about everything and runaway

I am trying so hard to get by this but I can't.I'm gonna have to face it.If not now,maybe later.I can't keep running away like this forever.I can't keep avoiding from having conversations or discussions regarding this matter.I AM PART OF IT.This is big.Especially for my folks.I don't know why I am so afraid.Maybe I'm just nervous.The clock is ticking and a lot of things need to be done.Maybe I just can't cope with the pressure.All I did was make a really huge decision and now,I have more little decisions to make.And it is all accumulating into one huge lump and it is causing me a whole lot of headache!

at a kopitiam somewhere in Bangi.......

Take a WILD guess which kopitiam I'm at lah!Hahahahahahaha!!!!!!


I doubt if I have fully recovered from my fever.Turned up for Arabic class and Hariz was making us all laugh out loud.My lecturer didn't.He actually asked if Hariz found the Arabic language funny and he said yes.I'm still doing alright in that class.I think Dr. Wejdan kicked Raqib out.I pity the dude (Raqib).He's gonna graduate and he's having all these problems still.


I am counting the scratches on my hands and legs (maybe even my neck!).Thanks to Kecik,I was screaming out loud when Shu sprayed the anticeptic onto the cut on my finger coz the pain went all the way down to the nerves.Shit!That was painful!