PCTFD

Ya know......with all the elections coming up and stuff,I feel like I get more and more annoyed by FB. I mean yeah I am aware that when it comes to elections, campaigning is definitely something unavoidable but when it gets a bit too much, it gets annoying.

Here's how I see it. This event affects everyone coz it could make a drastic change especially when it comes to helping out the needy and of course, knowing that our tax is well spent. I have my stand and I know which direction I would want my country to head to. And yes, I do talk about it with my family and all but let's just  face it, even within a family, not all of us are looking at this the same way and its fine coz I respect their opinions and point of views.

And yes, we have supporters who are campaigning online and stuff. I totally think that its definitely a step up from how it's been done before. Kudos for that. Yey! And again, not everyone is seeing eye to eye on this which is cool coz that's what makes us all different anyways.

What I don't get is that (typically) when rivals come head to head, they each have their own goals and stuff. It's up to us to either accept it or not. Having said that, I can't seem to make sense of it all when the supporters from both sides begin behaving just as bad as the other. So you say A is not a good at ruling coz he's done all this crap and so on and so forth, well, OK, it is time for a change then. But how the hell would that statement convince me when you are behaving the same damn way A is behaving!

The changes you propose are supposed to make things better but it ain't lookin' no better when you start dissing the same way.Not cool AT ALL.It's like we're deciding between 2 sides of the same coin.WTF?!

Again,it's probably a mentality issue.A major issue most Malaysians are facing. I honestly do not have anything against the candidates but I do hope that they can just tell their supporters to CALM THE FUCK DOWN! We're all in this and we're all rooting for a change and we've all been paying our taxes the same way so just please,let's not get things out of control and stay calm.

I do wonder if there would ever be a major change where social problem is concerned. Just trying to do what's best for my kid :)

random shenannigans

I haven't been quite myself lately.
I don't know if it's coz I have nothing much to do or if I have a bit too much on my mind.
Either ways,I have been drowning my so called "lost" self into playtime and bath time and feeding time with Yusuf.
He brings much joy to me.
He speaks now.........in a language which only I can understand.
He's currently in a phase where he is testing his screams. It gets pretty loud. He recently discovered that screaming in small spaces such as in a vehicle or in a department store is fun to do. Of course it is!
And he also discovered that playing with drool is so much fun especially when he is able to tilt his head forward and let his drool get all over his shirt and the arm of the person who holds him and best of all,the floor.
Sometimes, I'd feed him and at some point, he'd play around and later starts choking on his saliva and milk. Of course, I'd have to bring him upwards and pat his back till he is able to breathe again.
He loves bath time and splashing around in the tub.
He loves getting all his clothes off except for his diapers and mittens and booties.
I can tell that once he is able to get up (crawl or walk or run) I may need to put a bell on him.

death

On Sunday night,on our way back from my aunt's place in Subang,we stopped by for some food at some gas station. All of a sudden, my husband received a call from one of the guys at work. He asked where my husband was and what he was doing at the time. He asked if my husband had read the WhatsApp message he sent. It turned out that one of the boys at his workplace had passed away that evening.

It was a shocking news to not just my husband but to me as well.I still remember my husband's reaction at the time. He was out of words. He may not have been the best of friends with the boy who died but I could tell that he couldn't accept the news very well.I may not know this boy but everytime my husband comes home and talks about work,he never fails to mention this boy regardless if its a negative or a positive note.

He was only 23. He rode on his superbike on Saturday night on his way back from dinner with his friends. The accident happened on Jalan Mahameru.It was reported that a white Myvi ran into him and drove off.It was a nasty accident as the Myvi's bumper broke and one of the half of the bumper was on the road.The impact was so hard that the boy was thrown on to the road on the other side where the traffic was heading from the opposite direction. He failed to get off the road coz another  car crashed into him.

His injuries was irreparable. His right leg almost came off. His internal organs were not working that what ever the medical officers tried to put into his system did not get through.His body rejected everything-water,blood,medication.At the time,the boy remembered his father's phone number. He was taken to HKL. He couldn't survive and at almost 7pm on Sunday,he died.

Yesterday,my husband and his manager went over to see his parents and returned all of the boy's belongings. My husband said his parents were still crying.It was even sadder when his mom saw the box with her late son's name on it.I cannot imagine the pain she was going through.It was a sad,sad moment and I can't help but feel like his death was not a justified death. I know that as a Muslim,we must accept fate but I am sad.Truly sad for what's happened to the boy.

being parents

My husband once said "Usually,whenever I walk in a mall and I see parents....they're always doing weird things.But now that I am a dad,I am doing just the same weird things........." And then,when we were on the hunt for the right stroller for Yusuf,we began to realize that there are just so many kids on strollers being pushed around the mall. My husband once accidentally pushed Yusuf and his stroller into a pillar coz he was too busy looking at this one chomel baby in a stroller. What's even weirder was that I was walking ahead of them at the time and I too was looking at that same chomel baby.

Haha.........

Having a baby is like a dream.The pregnancy seemed like forever and when we (Yusuf and I) finally meet,it's like we've been the best of friends since forever.We have our own way of communicating.We understand eachother and now that Yusuf is beginning to see his surroundings,it's hard to not look at his reaction to everything.It's hard to be apart when I spend my every waking (and sleeping) moment with him.My whole world has changed from my sleeping and waking hours to my decision with work.I am constantly looking out  for him and listening extra careful (whenever I am outside while he is asleep in the bedroom) to him just to make sure he is alright.

This is by far the biggest responsibility I have ever had to carry and honestly,I've never been much of the type of person who is up for any form of responsibilities.Seriously, I am like fixated on Yusuf.I wonder if most parents are like this with their first baby.

planning ahead

We've been having a lot of talks about a second child.Well,I am in the mode of preparing myself for a second child.Not in the near future but we know for sure that Yusuf cannot be an only child.It won't be fun.

Anywho,we're praying for a girl.We already have a name for her.But in case we get a boy,we've ruled out a few names for him too ^_^

It's April!

I've recently sent in my resignation. I did it coz I can't seem to get the hang of things with my baby just yet. He needs me an awful lot and I can't seem to get as much milk out of myself as he requires if that makes any sense at all. Well,the deal is,in order for me to be away from him in long hours is that I need to have some milk pumped and stored for him till I get home and I can't seem to do that. He drinks a lot. A LOT.

People tell me coz baby boys just are that way. I can't say really coz he's only my first child.Anywho,I'll be jobless for a few months or so until I am able to get things under control. In the meantime, I am using up all my leaves.I mean ALL of it.

The other reason for my leaving is that my account is closing.It's actually more technical than that but to put it into casual words,it is closing down.That would mean that all of us shall be deployed into other accounts since it is the company policy.Having said that,it would and could mean that I might have to go back into shifts which isn't really a problem. My only concern is that I won't be able to work night shifts anymore after this.My son is my priority.

So,the best thing for me to do is to leave.

On that note,I've also began to realize a lot of things having to do with the people I work with or rather,their mentality.I don't know if my husband and I are the only 2 people I know who sees this but when we go to work,it really is just work and nothing more.But the people I work with are a bit strange in the sense that they feel like if we work together,we are considered friends.

Haha........seriously? I may have very few friends but I have my reasons.So anyway,these so called people I work with would have activities I keep having to decline invitations to coz my off days are spent with my family and that is how I like it.It's nice of them to keep me in the loop but really,I have my family.

Sometimes there would be a slight fuss about why I never join in.After a while,I guess it stops.Then,something unexpected happens.I started working a different time doing different things.Yet again,that caused another inconvenience I guess since my job no longer had anything to do with the rest of the team.I began to be the spot of bother to the mass.

Most people began speculating as to what my job role was and why I was doing what I was doing and not doing what I was doing before and so on.The best part is when they'd start complaining.It starts with A complaint. Then,it turns into a huge whining session. "Why haven't I been called up to work at this other department?" "Why doesn't the manager let me transfer?" "Why?" "Why haven't I bothered trying for the post the department is offering?"

WHY?WHY?????

Because........you guys are fucking idiots.Do I look like the manager to you?!Do I look like I am the right channel? DO I LOOK LIKE YOUR BLOODY COUNSELOR?!

I've been dealing with my manager directly all this while and I have gotten the answers I was looking for regardless if they were what I wanted to hear.......or not.At first, I played the nice person who would just sit back and listen.After a while,it gets really tiring.Same shit over and over.I kept asking why they wouldn't just go to the right people to talk about this.Hah! The answer(s) to that question would be along the lines of "Oh they won't listen" or "They'd just turn it back around against us"

Wow! I am quite surprised that I managed to put up with all that for 2 whole years! So yes,I am resigning for the sake of my son and my sanity.It's not about the money,it's not about what I do.It's the people I have to put up with.No wonder my husband almost went crazy the first day he had to deal with managing people! Of course,he is a much stronger person than I am and he is not the type to be all diplomatic about things.

I just wish I had the guts to tell them all that the answer to all of their WHY questions was "becoz.........YOU SUCK" HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!

what time is it?

Iiiiiiiit's AADVENTURE TIME!!!!!!

I admit it. I am an addict.

Still.......why doesn't my cellphone have a voice recorder? Weird.......

Random. I know.......

Pointless? A little......

I miss home :-/

I am in need of a little change. I am feeling creative and I need to channel it out or I will self destruct. Hahahahahahahahahaha!!!!! I just need to channel it all out ;)

run baby run

Things have been moving pretty fast these days. Yusuf is stronger now. Heavier. So much more that I can hardly hold him up to feed him. He is longer. He can now fit into the bigger clothes he's had since he was born. He knows how to differentiate his parents from other people. He reacts to sounds and lights. Give him a bit more time and he will be able to control his head and limbs. He doesn't sleep as much as he used to. All he wants to do is get up but he can't do it on his own. He prefers sleeping on the bed with us rather than being all alone in his crib.

We have yet to shave his hair and cut his nails.I don't think he can fit his newborn baby diapers much anymore. I mean he still fits into them but it won't be long till his size changes to bigger ones. His new sleeping time has helped me get back into my old sleeping routine. I no longer stay up at night and sleep in the day.

I will miss him a lot once I start working. I really don't want to be away from him especially when he is growing up so fast :'(

Yusuf-ness

This entry will be full of pictures...............................

When Yusuf was born.This was taken in the labor room after he was cleaned.

Yusuf in the MNICU in HKL. We weren't allowed to hold him but we could clean our hands and touch from outside the incubator.

Yusuf's first day outside the nursery. Spent his first night with me in the open ward with other mothers and babies.

Shu holding Yusuf. This is their first picture together.

Yusuf's first picture with his eyes opened.

Yusuf at home, on the bed with us.

My view whenever I feed him.

Sleepin' like a baws.........

Sleeping..........

Sleeping........

BOO!

Yusuf is abah's little boy.

The day we met........

Frozen, I held my breath 
Right from the start
I knew that I'd found a home for my heart.......

I was allowed to hold Yusuf for the very first time on January 28th of 2013. That was exactly a week after he was born. I was the happiest person in the galaxy. I've been waiting for him for so long. I was longing to breastfeed him for so long. It was funny because he and I were trying to adjust to each other.He had never felt my arms before and I was learning to hold on to a newborn.

I stayed at the hospital that night because the hospital wanted me to learn how to cope with him once he gets home. It was quite an experience because I was constantly waking up whenever I heard a baby crying. It wasn't always Yusuf coz there were other babies in the ward. Other babies who were not as lucky as him coz they were all under the UV light despite being able to be with their mothers.

Yusuf recovered. Shu had been going back and forth from TTDI to HKL every single day.Our prayers were answered and Yusuf was discharged, finally. He spent his first night in TTDI and then we moved to Bangi coz my mum's house is full of cats and it may be a problem for Yusuf as he is recovering from lung infection.

My God! I remembered crying so much the night on the day I gave birth. I was so worried about my baby and all I thought about was how it was all my fault. Yusuf came out at 36 weeks of pregnancy. Most babies come out between 38 to 40 weeks. The doctor said he pooped in the womb which may have caused the lung infection in the first place.Babies would only poop in the womb before their due date coz they are stressed.

Anywho, Shu and I are just glad that Yusuf is back home with us now. We spend every single minute of the day watching him sleep and talking to him when he is awake. Shu will spoil him :) I can guarantee that.

birth

I gave birth to a baby boy named Yusuf on January 21st  2013. It was the most beautiful experience. The pain was excruciating at first but as soon as I heard his cry, all the pain was gone. My mum was right. The feeling is indescribable.

Unfortunately, Yusuf was unable to come back home with us. It turns out that he has lung infection and had to be brought to a hospital with equipment that can help him breathe. After making several phone calls, Yusuf's pediatrician was able to get Yusuf a place in HKL. He was rushed with an ambulance there at 2am in the morning. Shu followed him because I was still held back at the hospital.

Yusuf had tubes all over him. His oxygen intake was low. He couldn't even get 80% of oxygen into his body without the help of the machine. I spent the entire night crying. Shu did too. It was horrible because I was waiting for the nurses to bring Yusuf into the ward to be breastfed but instead he was taken further away. We didn't even get to hold him.

Before I was transferred into my room back in the labor room, the nurse brought Yusuf to me just for a kiss on the forehead and then he left.

Shu and I had been visiting him in the hospital everyday. Shu spends a lot of time at the hospital as I need to be confined at home. But I do go to the hospital still because I miss Yusuf and I want to spend time with him. I miss him every single day and I cry for him every night.

We've been praying for him and we just want him to be alright so that he can come home.

He's been recovering and his almost done with his antibiotics. I just want him to be ok :'(

Pain is.........

January 19th 2013 marks the day whereby I have proven myself to be an ultimate failure. I failed as a person and I failed as a friend. I was depressed and under a lot of stress and as much as Shu and I saw it coming, it was just a matter of time till we made the move. We sold Pebbles. She is no longer in our lives.

I cried so badly. I tried not to because I knew that we can no longer accommodate the cats. Space is such a problem and I hate the fact that Shu is constantly cleaning the balcony. Pebbles was Shu's best friend. If there was anyone whom she'd sit on and finds comfort in,it's always Shu. She and I are housemates and she understands the house rules. That's about it.

Every morning at about 6:30am, she'd get hungry so after prayers, I'd feed her. Then, she'd sleep the entire day till about 7pm. And then, she'd get hungry again. Sometimes, she tends to get a bit annoying like when she starts running in and out of the house and bringing dirt and dust all over the place. She tends to be noisy too at times especially when she sees bats or insects inside or outside the house.

Today, I finally had the courage to talk to Shu about it. I know that it hurts him more than it hurts me to let Pebbles go. Shu said her new owner has other Persian cats as well and she seemed to have adjusted herself as soon as she walked into her new home. Shu even called the dude up today asking about how Pebbles is doing. So far, she seems to be fine.

 As much as I was sad to have let her go, I was much more disappointed in myself for putting Pebbles through all this. Shu hated the fact that she wasn't treated as well as she deserved to be treated. It's not like we'd get physical with the cats but the fact that we'd lose our temper and start getting all angry at her is just not something she deserves.

I've never yelled at her or touched her when ever she does something wrong but I feel like she deserves a more comfortable home and that we cannot provide her such. If we didn't love her, we wouldn't have spent over a thousand bucks on stuff for her and Georg.

I was thinking to myself that if we had never met, she wouldn't have had to go through all this and I would have been able to spare myself the pain of losing her. It hurts so much more than having someone died. I was so depressed and sad that I couldn't be alone without shedding a tear. I keep seeing her around the house since I spent the last couple of weeks sleeping out in the lounge with her.

I am so sorry, Pebbles.

44 days countdown

Went to see the Gynea yesterday morning. I felt like I was gonna collapse coz I was rushing for the appointment that I didn't bother eating first. So my blood pressure was a bit low. I've put on another 600g. So overall I have actually put on about 6kg. I think the baby weighs about 1.9kg now. He may sound small but he is definitely filling up space in my tummy. I asked my Gynea about the symptoms and pain I have been going through and she said its normal. I am actually considered to be on the luckier side compared to other pregnant women. My hemoglobin count was less so I was instructed to change my supplements just until I give birth. I am after all a bit on the anemic side.

I still have problems eating red meat and eggs but so far chicken is alright. I have been desperately trying to change my sleeping routine back to the way it was because in the last couple of weeks, I have been sleeping at about 3am and waking up for Subuh prayers and then falling back asleep till just before Zuhr prayers. I am eating much less portions of food but much more frequently throughout the day.I can't sleep on the bed anymore so I have been pretty much on the couch most of the days and nights.

I think if my bodyaches don't go away after giving birth, I may need to schedule an appointment with a chiropractor :-/

35 it is!

Shu and I were in the car and as usual we were looking at random cars on the road and commenting on them. We'd usually begin with how they sound -looking at their exhaust pipes- and then guessing their engine specs and so on. What happened tonight was Shu decided to pass another "mid-life crisis" remark.

SO......what I said next was "I would like to see what you (Shu) would be driving when you hit 30 onwards" And his comeback was "I won't have such problems coz I dress my age........." His theory is that people with mid-life crisis are often people who try to grow up or rather dress up older than they are and halfway through  the growing up process, they decided that they wanted to dress like a younger person again.

A theory is a theory. We have time to see how this will turn out. Haha! I admit to being a bit of an eccentric but at least I am consistent about being eccentric and yes, maybe at some point I may turn out a bit weird to some people but we'll just see how you would turn out ok,Love ;)

53 days and counting

My tummy isn't that huge according to most people but I feel like I am gonna pop real soon. I've heard stories from friends and family about how they did not see the baby coming and the next thing they know, they were rushing to the hospital. I kinda like to not panic or freak out coz I know myself better than anyone and when I do freak out, things could get messy.

My butt hurts. Maybe its coz my pelvic is expanding and so my bones are moving, making way for the coming baby. I am estimating the baby would weigh about 2.5-3kg. I read that the bigger they are, the more pain. Well, labor is pain. It is said to be the most painful of all pain one could ever imagine. I try not to think about it.

I have been trying to keep myself occupied with small chores around the house like cleaning the dishes and doing laundry and ironing clothes. On better days, I would vacuum the floor. I have problems sleeping at night in the last couple of weeks.I can't sleep on the bed anymore so I have been pretty much falling asleep on the couch. My legs hurt when I sleep on beds. No idea why.

I've been watching a lot of animal documentaries lately. They keep me happy. I have been missing my cats. Georg, especially. He's always doing something funny. Pebbles does a lot of strange things. Speaking of cats, we saw 2 kittens downstairs under the abandoned car near the dump area of our house. They look really cute and they must be cold and hungry. Maybe I should bring some food down the next time I ever go down. God knows when that would be.

Anywho, I am still obsessed with laundry and it frustrates me when my clothes does not dry when I want them to :-/

I need to get the baby clothes washed and packed by next week. I should get my overnight bag ready just as much. I have a check up next week and it MIGHT be my last. I am just bracing myself and hoping for the best.

2 years of growing up

I was just talking to Shu the other night about how much the 2 years of being married has changed us and made us grow up eventhough in our minds we are the 16-year-olds we were when we first met. We fought and cried and many things happened to get us to where we are today and yet, our lives are still in the midst of changing again real soon.

Shu managed to not only change himself but changed me as well. I learned what it is to be a wife and to be a Muslim. I have more family members who love me and care for me. I have in-laws who are always looking out for us. I have new siblings who are constantly checking on how we are doing and providing us advice for issues we require some help with. I have family members who are constantly praying for us.

Shu has opened me up to the world of mosques. We can be anywhere and when it is time to pray, we would visit mosques which is something I was not used to. I wasn't sure how to perform certain prayers and he taught me how it is done. He's exposed me to so many ways of learning the religion from scratch.

I made the decision to cover myself up this year only because I realize just how much I love Shu and that the last thing I would ever want to do is to have him suffer more from my sins. We are not perfect and we make mistakes and for as long as we live, we will keep making mistakes but I just want to make sure that if he has to suffer at all, it is not caused by me.

update ^_^

• I have loads of mosquito and insect bites on my arms and legs that I am beginning to look like a leopard.
• I am back to my insomniac self. Actually, I can't sleep due to my inability to breathe properly when I sleep in certain positions. The cramps I get from my legs also wake me from my sleep from time to time which suck.
• I got myself another massage slot today. It's only my second time. I was desperate. The pain from my hips are killing me and it's been creeping up all the way to my neck.
• I met my sister-in-law who is one month (pregnant) ahead of me and her gynea tells her she may have to be induced within the next few weeks. I have about 68 days to go and I am nervous as hell.
• I am about 7 months +- pregnant now and I put on about 6kg. I read that I am supposed to be putting on at least 10kg by the end of my pregnancy but since the gynea says that my baby is fine and is growing according to schedule, I am guessing that things are OK.
• Managed to do a bit more shopping for the baby. I hope we have everything. Someone once told Shu that we have 9 months to prepare ourselves mentally and physically for the arrival of the baby. Once the baby is born, there is no excuse for not being able to adjust ourselves. He has a point.

change

As we get older, our views towards a lot of things change. Most of the time, we hope its for the better. Many years ago, my sister and I would sit somewhere (probably a mamak) and just chat away about our views and opinions about many things pertaining to our lives. We were always in agreement with one another eventhough it may not be up to the same degree. She had always been the humanitarian and I've been an animal lover all my life.

We'd talk about our brothers, our parents, our family and the people that we love. I remember us talking about comfort zones and how difficult it is for one to change and eventually leave one part of their lives in order to move on into the unknown. We were young and still living with our parents and having to sell the house and my dad losing his job was the biggest change we'd ever had to go through because it was all that we've ever known. Alongside that was also the issue of the world of politics which was constantly pestering us as we don't share the same political views with our parents. Either ways, we've always had each other.

Years later, I got married and moved out and started living a completely different life. I was adjusting to a lot of things in the last couple of years and so was my sister. It's funny how I always thought she'd be the first one to marry and not me. Anywho, her decision to further her studies in Australia separated us for a bit and when I got pregnant, I felt like it wasn't the same when I'd go to my mum's and have pregnancy chats and she's not around. Little did I know was that in the couple of years whereby I was busy getting myself adjusted to my new life and all, she too was going through a spiritual path.

When she came back last week, we finally met up and just chatted at a nearby cafe. Yes, we were talking about the changes we were going through. Yes, we are still on the same page. We just have much more difficult problems at hand. Delicate problems. But we are willing to work together on sorting things out for the sake of our family.

The last thing we talked about before calling it a day was how good Shu had been to me as a husband and as great support. She liked the idea that I married my best friend and that marriage didn't change our friendship and instead, it made us open up to one another even more. I hope she'll find someone who will share her dreams and views and would take good care of her ^_^ I love my sister.

for dear life

I am aware that mortality is something we can never fight or predict and should the world end before we'd ever get to meet, I just want to tell you that we had been waiting for you for so long that it feels like forever.
I am willing to go through the pain just to know that you are alright and that I would do anything for you.
We love you with all our hearts even though our brief meetings had only been in dreams.

4D scan

Went for our 6th month check up today. Got a Tetanus shot. My gynea laughed at me for being so blur. Later on, we headed over to a polyclinic in SK to get a 4D scan done. It was exciting! ^_^

moments

• Before I discovered I was pregnant, I thought I was putting weight and that I couldn't fit into my jeans anymore :p
• As my tummy grow bigger, I feel funny whenever I realize that I can't see my toes anymore.
• I have awkward sleeping position issues now that my tummy is so much bigger than before.
• When I first felt the baby kicking, I was sitting on the single chair in the house in Bangi watching TV. I thought my tummy was popping like gastric.
• My baby kicks the hardest when I am about to relax or doze off to sleep.
• Shu has only felt the baby kicking once. It was a really strong kick.
• I cried when I first heard the baby's heartbeat during an ultrasound while I was hospitalized.
• The baby was jumping all the time during the first few times I had an ultrasound.
• My first trimester didn't go too well but everytime I thought I was dying and went to the hospital to check on the baby, he is jumping and fine.

saying goodbye

2 years is most probably the most commitment I have ever given when it comes to work. All seems good on the surface but I am slowly decaying of boredom. I don't know if I did it all myself or if it is someone else's fault but I just need to get away from all this and do something completely new. I feel like my mind cannot expand being there. The same people I encounter would be talking about the same old things no matter how many times I've suggested solutions for them even though I didn't have to.

I seem to have that effect on people. Everyone just stops by at my cubicle and start talking to me about their problems regardless if its work related or personal. At times, I really don't mind but if you come back over and over with the same problem, it tends to get annoying. If a lot of other people have managed to move on, why can't you? I must admit, getting sick and getting things done from home has given me a lot of space for myself and not have to get engaged with annoying conversations anymore.

Again, I am not sure if my decision to leave is solely based on my boredom of working in an office environment or if it is caused by other individuals. Sometimes the lines are blurry. I have my own problems to think about and I just refuse to be found. Hahahaha..........Does that even make sense?

All I know is at this point, I can clearly see that I have absolutely no interest in the world of IT and computers. Most of the time, I know the things regarding computers only because they relate to the things that I do. I am just not interested in getting certificates like ITIL or CCNA. If I was interested in them, I would have gone ahead and spend the last 6 years of my life getting a degree in IT :-/

quench my thirst with gasoline

It's weird how I started playing the guitar back when I was 13 and my influences were mostly pop bands like Hanson and The Moffatts. After that there were Blink 182 and Sum 41 and Greenday and Sugarcult.

When I started going for guitar lessons, I found that my guitar teacher loves Metallica. I'm not talking about just one of my guitar teachers. I'm saying all of them. I mean it's not like we were constantly covering Metallica all the time. There were times we'd play Deep Purple and sometimes some random single from some random band.Well, I like Iron Maiden as well but depending on who my band mates are at the time, I wouldn't be able to play metal music all the time.

Anywho, my world was opened to Metallica when I saw S&M on tv. I was thinking that hey,that's not a bad song at all. Then I got hooked for good. Of course, I discovered other bands along the way like Coheed and Cambria which I super love!!!! Oh! And then, there was Justin Hawkins and The Darkness! After that there were Franz Ferdinand and Black Tide. Woah! I love Black Tide! Not to forget Red Hot Chilli Peppers and Korn and Limp Bizkit and System of a Down and Incubus.........

Baby name

Although we have already thought of the baby name(s) long before I got pregnant, last weekend, Shu's family finally found out what our baby's name is ^_^ and everyone loves it.

South Bound

Shu and I were on the verge of going insane so we decided to take a trip down south. I have relatives there and there are new things to do and explore at the same time. We took leaves on Thursday and Friday and stayed on till Saturday.
We arrived in Johor at about 6pm and checked in to our hotel. Cleaned up and rested a little and headed out for food. Then a little later, we drove around trying to look for roads for where we were heading the next day. We eventually lost our way and headed back to town. We ended up hanging around Danga Bay having drinks while watching everyone else eating and walking and just going on and off the colorful rides nearby. Danga Bay is calmer on week nights compared to weekends. After that we headed back to our hotel and slept.
The next morning we got up early and had breakfast. Then we got ready to head over to Legoland. I knew that I wasn't gonna be allowed on a lot of rides since I'm pregnant and all but we just wanted to take a look and what the hype was all about. Legoland wasn't far at all. I would suggest parking your cars at the Medina Mall parking area rather than having to walk all the way from the other end of the parking area just to get to the entrance.
Legoland was fun but it would be funner if we already had our son and that he's about 3 years of age coz then, he'd be able to enjoy the kiddie rides and playgrounds all over the park. It was a great experience and we had a blast walking all over the park.The rides we tried were fun and unique.It would have been funner if my sister-in-laws were to join in with their kids.
Anywho, at about 3 in the afternoon we were done with the park and headed back to the hotel.The plan that night was to meet up with my cousins and aunties.There was a breakdown in communication so we ended meeting only half the people we were supposed to have met that night.It was pretty fun though.
We got up the next day,had breakfast and packed up and checked out. Then we headed over to my grandmother's house to see her and my aunty.Stayed for a bit and then we headed out to the Johor Premium Outlet which was all the way out in the middle of nowhere.
We just wanted to see what it was all about but we didn't shop much coz we weren't planning on getting anything at the time.Yes,the things are cheap.We ended up having drinks and a slice of cheese cake over at the Coffee Bean. Then we headed back to KL.
We stopped by at Machap R&R for lunch and prayers. The surau there is nice. Our next stop was very near Cyberjaya. We just needed to stop for prayers and then we headed back to Bangi.Had something to eat and then went home.
It was fun ^_^
Oh yeah,I was at my mum's yesterday and we got to meet Fluffy who is the kitten my dad rescued from the drain in front of our house. She's so small and fluffy and playful. She and Kutip and Chomel and Persky are now the best of friends.

things

I'm liking:-

• baby clothes coz they are so colorful! ^_^
• baby cribs and playpens coz they are so colorful! >_<
• pashminas
• Yankees Hut's fried mushrooms
• sleep and beds
• TV Al-Hijrah coz I find a lot of their programs helpful and informative
• Upin & Ipin tv series- betul betul betul!!!
• plain water-cold or warm
• CHOCOLATES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
• tummy rubs
• ironing and laundry
• spying on Georg and other cats

>.<  I LOVE SHU!!!!! 

Baby stuff survey and pre-shopping

It's been a strange transition overall. I have to suddenly get myself updated with all these things for maternity and nursing and baby care. I am slowly getting used to it. Slowly. Shu's sisters and my friends have been great help and a lot of people have been providing a lot of information based on experience and stuff.I just need to narrow down the important things first when the baby arrives. I know it's a bit early but you can never be too sure.I might accidentally miss some things out.

Well, yeah. Baby things are all so colorful and yummy looking. My mum has been keeping a lookout on playpens and strollers although,I don't think a stroller is necessary yet.A colleague of mine have been helpful about breastfeeding tips.A friend of mine gave me loads of info about being in confinement and things the baby will need.

I still can't believe I have a baby in my tummy and that I am going to be mom! O_o

Husband

My husband and I have known eachother since we were 16.It's insane to think how far back that was looking at where we are now.I admit to being a pain in the ass. I was back then,I still am now although not as often (hopefully).He's always supportive of me no matter what I do but the best thing about him is that he is constantly steering me into the right direction (considerating the fact that I tend to get insane and make decisions in the spur of the moment).
Yes,we fought a lot in the last couple of years of being married and even before that.I would say most of our fights are over the tiniest things which I can hardly remember.Other times,we fight over things to make things better for the both of us.I am childish,I'll admit that.
He's been taking really good care of me especially now that I am pregnant and all.My parents told me that I would never find someone who would take care of me as much as he does.It's true.I can hardly take care of myself and I wouldn't know what I would do without him.
Honestly,I cannot imagine myself being married to anyone else.

Pregnancy and being pregnant

Before I discovered I was pregnant, I really thought I was probably putting on weight starting with my tummy area. It's usually flat unless I have gastrict or something. I just couldn't figure out why it was bulging out the way it did. It wasn't obvious but because I know my body so well, I knew that something was wrong. Luckily, I did a pregnancy test first before jumping into my running shoes or I could have lost the baby.

So yes,it just after our second year anniversary and I discovered I was pregnant.We were so psyched! I was partially freaking out.I still am.I wasn't sure what to expect.I wasn't sure what needed to be done.One thing I did realize was that I suddenly realize how badly I took care of myself health wise.I was thin not because I was healthy but because I was constantly neglecting my needs especially where food is concerned.I just wasn't big on eating and it wasn't something I was much interested in.

When I got into my first trimester, I was sick.My hormones were changing drastically and I was sick. I was constantly throwing up.I couldn't eat the food I used to like.Things which had the scents that I like made me so sick that I would throw up.I hardly use perfume anymore coz they make me sick.I hate the smell of that Ambi Pur we hang in our cupboards.I can't wear anything with the slightest smell of that.

Then,I got hospitalized several times due to dehydration from all the throwing up.My body wouldn't let me drink plain water.I couldn't eat pretty much anything.It was horrible.But throughout it all,I was constantly praying and hoping that my baby would be ok.And he was.In fact,he was jumping everytime we had an ultrasound scan.I was almost in tears when I first heard his heartbeat.He seems like a happy baby.I hope he is.

Now I am 16 weeks into my pregnancy.I am not throwing up as much as I used to although,my gastrict problem is still pretty severe.I have to constantly feed myself which is a bit hard to do.I have also been losing weight instead of putting on weight and because of that,my baby is about a week smaller than the size he ought to be.I'm trying to feed him and myself but it's just not that easy.My gastrict needs to be tamed in order for me to get my diet back on track.

back on xanga

it's just funner there ^_^

www.xanga.com/quellegondiel

rant

How would you justify the shit I am in right now..........no wait, the shit I deal with and have been dealing for over a year?

I have been dealing with this shit and it is high time I put my foot down. If I had it my way,I would have had them both fired. Sure,we'll be a bit shorthanded but haven't we been this way all this while? What difference would it make anyways?

Firstly,I would propose the idea of getting of the both of them. Then,I would recommend solutions.This would mean,I would either need to suggest new members or find ways to dealing with the short-handedness.

When I say too many variables makes things complicated,this is what I meant.I'm not saying quantity is not a good thing.If the quantity can ensure productivity and progress,it is most definitely a good thing.Seriously,in the reality of it all this is highly unlikely.

I personally do NOT recommend hiring students because they are unreliable.ENTIRELY.

I am currently dealing with 4 students right now and I seriously do NOT want them in the team.

I suggest that we get rid of them once and for all and hire people who may not have skills YET but at the very least shows up for work.

It's all about the attitude.

funny purring sounds

Georg and Pebbles have been getting it on a little too much these days. They have been driving us insane. Us, the people they live with. Us, the only 2 human beings in this house!

AAAAARGH!

I didn't think mating season would be so difficult to deal with!

There's fur all over the place! The make a whole lot of noise! Sometimes to the extent of us not being able to fall asleep AT ALL!

I sure hope the neighbors won't start complaining or both of them kittehs will have to hit the road!

either pregnant or just fat

I have this bump on my tummy. I don't know if its a baby bump or just fat that I cannot get rid of. I have my usual ways to get rid of tummy indigestion but this is something else. I have also been craving for things I usually wouldn't eat. I can't sleep properly at night.

The worst part is that the test kits still shows negative.

the big P

Shu and I have been trying to get me pregnant. No luck so far. I want a baby boy named Yusuf.
Shu wants a baby girl...........or boy........Either ways..........we have names already....
I tested negative again.
Will keep trying.

My Avril Tribute: Her vidz I love over the years

Complicated

Sk8er Boi

I'm With You

Mobile

My Happy Ending

He Wasn't

The Best Damn Thing

Hurmm.........I guess I really don't like her newer vidz and songs.

Been a fan since she first came out. Still a fan but only of her songs. Not all her vidz are as they used to be.

I still sing her songs. All of them.

Winning Eleven on the Ps3

Shu switches games from time to time but this game is the funniest I've seen him play so far. I'm not a soccer fan but he is so annoyed when he is right in front of the goal and misses the shot.

Oh well......

I've been super sick. It sucks to be coughing like this especially during an interview. It just sucks to coughing so badly when it makes it hard for you to breathe. It sucks to be waking up in the middle of the night to just cough about 15 minutes straight and then try so hard to fall back asleep.

I am getting rid of my tonsils once and for all.

So long tonsils! You are irreparable and have caused me so much pain and suffering. It is time for you to be gone for good.

my dad

My dad called my cellphone and called Shu's phone but it was either we were asleep or we were cooking at the time so we didn't pick up. Thinking that there was an emergency, I called him back after maghrib. Since we couldn't get through to his phone, I called my mum instead.

As usual, my mum would answer my call by saying, "Hey baby. Is everything ok?" Then I asked her why my dad called us,she said "oh" and passed the phone to him. Then my dad said "Listen to this!" He puts the phone down and plays Oh Carol. His guitar sounded different.

After that he picked up the phone again and I asked him what that was. He happily said he got himself a ukelele. HAH! First he saw a ukelele book for beginners at the shop when he sent my brother to his drums class. He read the book and finally decided to try it on my sister's ukelele she got from being the best speaker in Hawaii some years ago. Later, he discovered that that wasn't a real ukelele so he decided to get himself a proper one.

He picked up a brand new ukelele at about MYR250 inlcuding a hard case and a CD guide. HAH!He taught himself to play the ukelele in just 2 days!

officially sold

We managed to sell off the Kelisa. I liked that car and we only kept it for a year. It has a new paint job and we changed the suspensions and it has an awesome pair of windshield wipers. I am gonna miss that car :'(

Anywho,hopefully all goes well after this.

P.S.:- My aunt is getting married in December and I am super psyched about it! ^_^

here comes the sun

Met up with some of my schoolmates at one of schoolmate's wedding last weekend. It's strange and funny at the same time coz thinking that we've drifted apart and stuff, we were all in the same school and we are all living in TTDI (most of us still do).It was fun ^_^

USS

Universal Studios Singapore was AWESOME! You have to be there and experience it yourself!

The Singapore trip was tiring but it was super fun!

The currency exchange was a bit painful but you gotta keep it out of your head to enjoy yourself. The best way to deal with it is to change the amount of cash you are planning to splash there and everything else will fall into place.

I know,shopping at the duty free airport with my mum and aunt and uncle went way overboard but it was super fun to do. Especially when we splurged on chocolates!Hahahaha!

Oh yeah,Shu got me a new pair of Charles & Keith. UBER NICE! I've always wanted a pair of heels like those! My husband has an awesome taste when it comes to shoes! I SUPER LURVE IT!

My cousin's wedding we attended was fun. Met up with my family and everyone had a blast.

drawing again

It's been quite some time since I last had my pencil sharpened and pulled out a fresh page on my drawing book. I could be sick and alone but once I start drawing, I can't tell when I'd stop. And I sometimes go to the extent of pausing videos and stuff just so that I could either draw what I see or get some new inspiration from what ever it is I see.

Psycho.

I think this is what stress does to me.

I'll take over the world someday. For now, I'll draw ^_^

chilling out

I love spending weekends and off days at home. A lot of things can be done and we get to clean up the place. I love the weekly floor mopping sessions. I am addicted to the floor cleaner scent. Not sure if it's a good thing.

I've been spending way too much time these days getting into little fights with Georg.He wants to take on me standing on his two hind legs.He's insane!He'd attack me every now and then whenever I pass by.He'd step onto the book while I am reading and pretends that he hasn't done anything wrong.

Speaking of Georg,he hasn't bath this week due to the rain.He's been scratching himself all over. The problem with having a feather duster-like cat is that he tends to trap every spec of dust in the house.And it doesn't help when he rolls around on the balcony outside coz that's where most of the dust comes from :/

Anywho, I am looking forward to the leave in October ^_^

some people

Some people are just ungrateful. It's hard to deal with people like these coz they tend to block out everyone else's views and only want to believe theirs. They complain. Complain. And complain. Are they doing anything about it? I don't think so. And when people offer a second opinion or just a point of view, they would reject it. Ok. No harm in trying. The best is for these people to just isolate themselves and just live away from people including their families coz even their families are not able to keep to their standard of living it seems. Strange, these people are still just people. They have wants. When you have wants, you have to work for it or towards it. It's not gonna come to you out of nowhere. It doesn't take a genius to figure that out.

Anywho, as I was saying, it's probably best to avoid these people. They are stubborn coz they refuse to change or make a change for that matter. They are selfish coz they are unable to think of anything or anyone else but themselves. Shallow coz they cannot seem to budge from where they are due to lack of the ability to change. And on top of it all, they are just ungrateful for everything that they have. They fail to see that there are people in far worse situations. There are people who have to work and provide for their families and at the same time not being able to complete their studies or get married for that matter. There are people who don't even have a house to live in. So, I would suggest that these people take a step back and look at everything around them and realize just how lucky they are.

HOME

I understand now what people mean when they say home is where the heart is. I love my home. In fact, I love it so much that I just wanna go home even when I'm at work. I live with 2 beings I love most in the entire world ^_^ and they make my home better everytime I hangout with them. Something about being at home makes me want to just lay back and say "we made the right choice".

Gone are the days when we used to have to deal with landlords and rents. No more people calling us telling us to give our hard earned cash to them.

We need a sofa................... I know, random. But we need one. Hahaha!

smoking cigar on the hotel balcony

Hahahahaha!

If only we had weed!

Raya was fun while it lasted. The whole week is over now. Work starts tomorrow. I have a whole new list of things to do and get. Strange. I usually don't make lists. Then again, I don't smoke either. Hahaha! I just told Shu that I have never smoked a cigar before so he decided to stop by at the convenient store and got one of those Cuban cigars and we gave it a shot. It was fun. I was coughing so much and laughing.

Speaking of which, I was laughing so hard in the car a while ago thinking about Shu's mishaps for Friday prayers and random prayer times.

Oh yeah, the other day, I saw Shu's niece laughing out loud so hard about random things which made me laugh out loud too and the irony of it all was that everyone was trying to get her to be quiet. I couldn't help it. She was laughing so hard and it made me laugh out hard too :p

Anywho, Shu's folks are the nicest people I have ever met ^_^ and I had fun. The BBQ session my brother-in-laws had for us all was fun too. I had a blast.

Georg: The silly kitten

Georg is still a baby. Attention seeker. Clumsy. Silly. Extremely grumpy around other cats.

Kit Kat used to want to play with him but he hated her. She's dead now. Georg is back to his happy self.

He knows we're not usually at home. He knows when we are up when we are in the bedroom. He likes to play tag with me.

Georg is also clumsy for a cat. He injured himself once and we left him at home IN the house. The vets think he's just being a drama king around Kit Kat. I think he's a wee bit clumsy.

Once, he was hanging around the lounge with us. He jumped onto the bean bag. All of a sudden, he fell to the floor. Weird.

Silly cat!

Foxburr's residence: Officially Moved

We have moved into our new home and this time, it's our home so there won't be any plans on moving anymore in the near future.Georg and Kit Kat loves the new place.I know that we've been putting them through a bit of hell since we were going in and out of cars and houses.We are officially at OUR home baby! All we need is to get it more organized and definitely decorate it.

Of course, more shopping for Georg and Kit Kat to prevent them from having to live in boarding hotels whenever we travel.


I super love our new bed.We're gonna need to get slighly bigger sheets after this.We still need to get the dry kitchen top fixed though.It will bug us.We need to completely get rid of what ever left overs left in the house which are not ours.It's just taking up space.

Anywho,it now takes us approximately 4 minutes to get to HP Campus.This is uber kool.

We're gonna keep touching up the place everynow and then.Planning on getting some hangout chairs to put out at the balcony.I was sitting out there this morning with Shu just talking.It is very peaceful.

I am loving our home ^_^

moving forward

I am not fasting anymore..........and here I was trying to fast a full month PLUS not missing ANY Tarawikh prayers. Owh.....haha! Now, I am stuck with Georg and being the only 2 beings at home whom are not fasting :/

Period pain hurts! BIG TIME!

Still looking for a friend for Georg. He's insane. He's driving Shu and I insane. He and I play tag around the house and keeps bugging Shu whenever he's lying down on the couch watching TV. Georg has issues. I fell asleep today on the floor in the lounge and Shu was on the couch. I got up about an hour later to Georg's meowing calling to me. He was IN MY FACE! He wanted to cuddle so I cuddled with him as we both fell asleep on the floor. Later, he climbed up to Shu's legs and started pushing his way between the couch and Shu. Funny. Shu always has this problems with the cats we have.

Anywho, we decided to take him out for a ride later in the day. He was insane! He hates that cat outside the house who keeps meowing for food. He hates the fact that we feed that cat too even though she doesn't come into the house. He was staring out at the lights and the cars and even people.

Anywho, I can't wait to get started on the new house. Our bed should be arriving soon too. We need to fix the kitchen ASAP so that we can have our things moved into the place in time for Raya!

Yeyness!

^_^

approved

Baby,
if you wanna get that Honda CBR600.
I approve
^_^
It is such a BEAUTY!

weekenders

Ravin was looking at the pictures in my phone and she (said this so many times already) said that Shu and I are either really3 bored or we just simply do not have much to do. I can't tell really. We work on weekdays and we're never home on weekends. We just got back from Johor last weekend. Went swimming and all. * OMG! I love swimming! *

I like how I thought I was going to die halfway through the week and now the week is finally ending. As much as I know it's gonna start over sooner than I think, I like taking my time knowing that I don't have anything to rush for ^_^

Anywho, I am SO LOOKING FORWARD TO NEXT MONTH'S PAY!

I am also in major need of focus since I do have a test......exam.......what ever it may be.....coming in the first week of August.

I also CANNOT wait to move into our new house!

My car is going to get some things fixed. My in-laws have been pushing Shu to get a new car.Haha! We will get a new car,we're just surveying still since a lot of cars are AT. I hate AT cars! We're keeping my car since it is so fuel efficient but I would really like to get Shu a car. I just want to get him a good,comfortable car.

And a scooter.........and a superbike (later in the future) and when he gets a superbike, I shall get myself one of them good old dirt bikes! YEAH!

I love swimming.......I cannot begin to explain just how much I love it ^_^

Georg

Shu found him on an ad on Mudah.my. We were kitten hunting AGAIN. We tend to get insane when it comes to kittens. No idea why. We've resorted to carrying a cage in the car going around the neighbourhood looking for ANY cats which we think would fall for our trap once. Shu said he's gonna buy a cat for me this time.

I think he knew about my devastation over 2 kittens I found on petfinder.my. The fosterer had a point. We are about to move into our own place which is not a grounded house. She was worried if the kittens wouldn't have the space to run around :/ I kinda figured she wouldn't have wanted to let them go anyways since I first mentioned that we won't be living in a grounded house.

That's when Shu decided to google for kittens for sale and he came across Georg. He is mixed persian about 3 months old. He looks like a walking feather duster. The fact that he's so curious and playful just makes us love him so much more. We spent quite a lot on him apart from paying for him. It's all worth it.

I am planning to convert one of the rooms at our new place into his room so that he can have his space ^_^

Metallica

That was what Foxburr-san talked to me about when he first called me back when we were 16.

Now,far from where we were back then,we'd still sing out loud and headbang at times in the car when we pop in the Metallica CD.

I love you Foxburr-san ^_^

temporary move out

We've manage to move all our things out in less than 3 hours.Got the movers and packers to come over and pack all our stuff to Bangi.We're gonna stay there till our house is ready to be moved into ^_^

So yeah,we are temporary freeloaders for now.A HUGE house with just 2 people whom are ALWAYS stuck close with one another :p We have yet to get Shu's car from Cyberjaya.We didn't have the car keys with us yesterday.

Bangi isn't so bad since we're always there whenever we need substantial food.Non-junk based.

I have yet to visit Ili who is about to give birth to a baby girl end of this month.I am so happy for her!The only babies I've been busy with is my Sims' :s

it's been a crazy weekend.......

Left of Johor on Wednesday. Got to the hotel at about 7pm. Checked-in and made ourselves comfy for a bit.My aunt called us later that night to meet up.Gathered at my aunt's place and then went out for supper with my dad and my 2 cousins,Finaz and Lyn.Got back to the hotel and slept till about 8am.

The next day, our plan was to go hang around town.We ended up doing nothing and going nowhere so we headed over to my grandma's house.It was fun coz our intention was to go visit her and my aunt before they leave for Haj.And then,later that day.......we fell into a deep sleep.Got up the very next morning...........

Went to the Zoo for a bit.The art gallery was closed and the museum wasn't open.It's only going to be launched next year :/ Went around town again and finally had dinner with my aunts and my cousins and my uncle and my dad and my grandma.There were a bunch of guys singing at the place we had dinner.We were singing and laughing and losing our minds.I think it was the food.

Anywho,we were supposed to attend a wedding the very next morning but at 5am,I was sick.So sick that Shu had to drive me to the hospital.I was on drips for about an hour and then got discharged later.Slept for a bit back at the hotel.Got up in time to check-out and headed to Skudai for Ikhwan's wedding.Yes,he is FINALLY married to Siti!

Later on,we headed to Malacca but we didn't get there in time for Izzat Agilent's wedding so we headed straight to the hotel.We hung around the mall looking for a wedding gift for the dude which we eventually did.We actually did some shopping ourselves.Got us a pari of tennis racquets and some tennis balls.Yes,I am finally trying out tennis.Yey!

Anywho,we went all around Malacca looking for Izzat's wedding location.Finally,we got there and a bunch of Shu's colleagues were there as well.Had some food and talked and laughed for a bit.Then, we headed back.Izzat is a fuhney dude and Agilent is most definitely NOT his name.

We did a bit of sightseeing before heading home the next day.Went on the kereta lembu ^_^ and then went for the offroad buggy ride.And then,we headed over to the crocodile farm and the Orang Asli museum.Then we got hungry so we had lunch and then headed back to Cyberjaya.

That was an awesome break.We were just a wee bit disappointed for not getting our dose of jetski :(

speak up and make a difference

It's almost impossible to understand what's happening sometimes. I really think that maybe if people started speaking up,you'd actually get somewhere.Even if it means that it's gonna take time to actually change anything,at the very least,you've let someone know this.Most importantly,you've talked to someone with the power to help you change things for the better.

If you talk among each other,among people with the same point of view,the same group of people who just keeps saying the same thing again and again but doesn't really make a move to change things,you're just gonna be stuck there,the same place,facing the same problems,being in the same position,annoyed and tired.

I'm not perfect.I'm not smart.I'm just a push over with too much pride to not be able to make it through.I can work hard if I must.I can do it if I want to.With the right attitude and mindset,I can be the best I can.

somewhat prepared?..........maybe.......I think.......

The badminton tournament draw is tomorrow and we've only started practicing Saturday morning.We spent 2 and a half hours in the HP badminton court playing random sets with random people.Tassa finished work at 8am and she cameby at about 8:45am coz she wanted to keep Add company.Izzat finished work at about 9am along with the rest of the Agilent gang.

We played badminton till about 11am-ish and headed for some breakfast with Tassa.

Sunday started out pretty weird coz we ended up falling asleep at about 3pm on Saturday coz we were playing Sims 3 Medieval all day.We got up at about 3am on Sunday.Headed out for some food.Eventually,fell asleep at about 11am.

We got back up at about 3pm.Headed over to Damansara's Vichudda for lunch or something.Then,we headed to TTDI.Promised my dad a badminton game.We played till about 7:25pm.It was exhilarating coz I ran for a bit in between games.It was awesome!I've been wanting to do that for sometime.Oh and there was a backhoe at the park coz they were upgrading some parts of the park.I got onto it and thought "OH MY GAWD!" I've been wanting to know what it feels to be in one of those things for so long!HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Anywho,Kong texted us saying that my car is as good as new!YEY!!!!! ^_^

shoppin'

It's been a while since Shu and I splurged out (like REALLY SPLURGED) on stuff.Got up early this morning.Had brunch at Yellow Cab in KL.Shu took me to Sephora (Star Hill Gallery).I was there to get a few things.One was to get a birthday gift for my sister.The other stuffs were random things I've been wanting to try.

I managed to pick out something for my sister and for the longest time I spent in the store,I was looking for the Benefit 10.They had a benefit aisle but that particular item was not in stock.I then walked around looking for other things.I ended up trying out a dry shampoo and got ourselves a tub of body scrub.

After that,we headed over to Pavillion across the street.We walked in and out of shops and after a while,we somehow ended up going into Parkson.There was a Carolina Herrera booth out front and Shu headed straight for it.The promoter sprayed on the EDTs on us (masculine and feminine).I honestly did not like the new EDT for girls one bit.Shu however,kinda liked the one for guys but it wasn't the one he's been looking for.We spent some time trying to figure out whether or not to get the promotional set and stuff.Finally,we decided to get the 212 MEN.The smell is AWESOME.

As we walked in on our way to the cashier,we stopped by at the Benefit counter.I insisted on looking for the Benefit 10.The promoter sprayed on some of the new scent by Benefit onto my right wrist.I told her I wasn't looking for a perfume.I had something specific in mind.I asked her about the product I wanted.Then,before getting the product behind the counter for me,she took out the Bene-Tint and put some onto my right cheek.She said "This is a liquid blusher.It matches any skin tone" I was annoyed.

Firstly,she put something onto my cheeks without first informing me.Secondly,she only put it onto one of my cheeks.She blended the product out and it did give me some blush instead of looking all pale the way I usually would.But again,I wasn't looking for a liquid blush!Then,she put it onto my lips and put a gloss on it.I was a bit irritated coz I did tell her wasn't gonna buy that stuff.And the worst part was that she didn't even take out a fresh wand to put those testers onto my skin.She applied them directly with the same applicator from the bottle!WTF?!

I then told her,those items are awesome but I really just wanted the Benefit 10.She took one out for me and I headed for the cashier.Oh yeah,about the product I got.......after applying the liquid blushers onto my cheeks and lips,the promoter then applied some of the bronzer onto my face.Wait,more like ALL OVER my face!WTF?!!!I ended up looking a whole lot tanner than my usual skin tone!WTF?!

Anywho,we managed to get stuff we wanted.Later on,we headed to TTDI.Our initial plan was to hang around my folks' place for a bit and catch a movie later in the evening.We then got tired so we hungout at a mamak with my siblings-Qarim,Wuh-Ney and Azim-and headed straight home.

The movie can wait.We have a long day tomorrow ^_^

to-do list

We sent my car to the workshop this morning.Shu knows this guy in Kajang/Semenyih so we drove there after work today.Shu drove my car with the broken front bumper and I drove his car.When we got there,the shop was still closed so he parked my car and we drove off for a bit looking for breakfast.We ended up in Nasi Ulam.Been a fan of that place in the last couple of weeks.Got back to the shop and decided on what to do with my car.Got a quotation and we agreed with whatever.

Left for home.Got home and cleaned up for a bit.Fell asleep at about noon.Got up about 12 hours later.I have no idea why we were so damn tired but we were.Got ready and headed out to get some food.We ended up in Kampung Baru again this week.After that,we drove over to BK in Mutiara Damansara coz I wanted them yummilicious Hershey's Sundae Pie.Hung out around The Curve area for a bit.It was passed midnight at the time.

Got home at about 2am-ish.Now,we're trying to find a good movie to download ^_^

Need to follow up on what's happening with our house coz as far as we are concerned,we've done all the paperwork we needed to do.Will have to call up that real estate agent first thing Monday morning.Shit,we've got loads to do on Monday! -_-*

weekend at home

Haven't done this in a while.It's weird to be here around this time of the night.

Hahahahaha!!!!

It's been a long week.The training yesterday night ended the week nicely especially after that idiot who stopped in the middle of the road cost my front car bumper!My husband said this would be THE time to make my car over.

We finally picked up his car from the office parking lot.His car was covered in spider web and there was a huge beetle on his wiper.I tried to move it by poking it but it hissed at us so we let it stay there.We drove to Sri Kembangan to service the car.Managed to repair the tire.

I have a report to prepare and more materials to improve the training content.

slowing it down

I sometimes think I grew up too fast. I sometimes feel like I'm not old enough to do a lot of things,forgetting how old I really am. I sometimes remember things that happened way back when I was kid as though they happened just yesterday. I sometimes feel like things are too complicated when they're not supposed to be. I sometimes wonder why we have to do the things we do when we didn't have to do it at all before this. I just want it all to be.........simple.......the way they used to be,before I discovered how things really work in the world. Maybe I don't want to take over the world the way I always say I do. Maybe I just do things to pass time,not knowing where exactly I'm going. Maybe I'm clouded by how things are supposed to be according to the world and for doing that,my actions are blurry.

craziness in Chevronville

Its been a long crazy week and the worst is over.I no longer have to worry or anticipate anything.All should go back to normal from here on.

There has been some things that may have freaked me out and I might have overreacted at some things in some ways.After a good weekend away from things at work,I should be able to start work on Monday fresh.Not default.Just reset :p

I just want to have fun.I don't like worrying.I don't like not liking what I do.

We should rock the way we always do ;)

Rock on!

Khurafat movie rant

This is probably one of those movies where we'd go "THANK GOD WE DIDN'T GO TO THE CINEMA TO WATCH THIS CRAP!"

Overall,I think the storyline for the movie is alright.I mean,like every story,there is probably a thing or two you can learn from the events that occur in the movie.My issue was more on the script of the movie.It irritated the shit outta me to the extent that I was constantly waiting for a moment in any of the scenes in the movie where someone would come to their senses and crack a joke.

Seriously,it was like watching a movie with characters who literally speaks a language from a school textbook! WHAT THE HELL?!

Anywho,it kinda good that we watched it anyways........on YouTube!

LOL!

most of the time.......

I'm pretty much in control of what I do or where I go.Now,I can hardly tell who I am anymore.I feel like I've drifted off not knowing which way to go.I don't even know if this is what I want to do anymore or if I'm only doing this because I am doing it.Some part of myself have completely faded out into being what the world has shoved into my face.

I've probably lost touch of the things that used to drive me.I find motivation in the stupidest things these days.I don't know if it is in fact genuine at all.I've been here before.It's just not the same this time around.Maybe being contented and tranquil isn't me.Maybe I'm not used to it.Maybe I've just been lazing around too much that I haven't bothered to set my goals anymore.

I don't know what I am to do anymore...........

tired of being nice

The past few weeks had been fun but sometimes,I get tired of being nice or hardworking.I'm tired of being the one who'd do just about anything coz I can only do so much.Sometimes,I'd step back and think "what about them?what are they doing about this?" This may not be as important to me as it is to most other people around me but I sure act like my life depends on it.Its strange coz I'm not like this and now I am.It's ironic how I am the person I once said I never wanted to be.

I never believe in limitations but I can only take so much of this.

If nothing changes in the near future,I'm gonna have to put my foot down.

JPJ bribery

I have been putting off in getting my road tax renewed because it's so difficult to find time when the previous owner of my car and I can meet up and go to the damn JPJ to get the car registered under my name once and for all.I work night shifts and I come home in the morning and she works in the day and comes home later in the day.We've gotten everything done but the road tax renewal coz it's becoming more and more complicated each day.

Anyways,forgetting about the road tax issue,my husband and I drove 20 minutes to the international airport to see my brother off.On our way home,there was a road block.It was a JPJ road block.Actually,they were checking cabs which were taking passengers without the airport permission.I know.It's a stupid reason to getting cash but they are what they are they do what they do.I mean,what's wrong with letting the cabs get a few bucks into their pockets?It's they're job to pick people up and sending them to where they wanna go.It's not a crime.

Anywho,they come to realize that my road tax has not been renewed.I was aware of the fact that I was at fault.So I thought.......ok,hand me the ticket and we'll be on our way.My husband went down and I realy thought he was filling up forms and stuff.He wasn't.The JPJ officers told him that he could write us a ticket and get our car towed but it wouldn't have to be that bad if we paid them off.SERIOUSLY?

I was getting pissed coz I was fucking late for work and we were held back just so that they can get cash into their pockets?Are they not getting enough pay?Hello?Fuck that.We don't take shit like that coz admitting we were wrong,we were willing to pay the fine.Then,my husband told me that there was nothing at the booth.No summon books,no tow trucks.NOTHING.That pissed me off coz they were trying to get cash from us.US!We love our cash!I love our cash!It's our hard earned cash and they think they can just take it away like that?FUCK them!

I will and shall find out who they are and I shall make sure they lose their jobs.I don't give a shit if you have financial issues.If you think you are not getting enough pay,get a new job!

Of course,if the country really is trying to stop bribery once and for all,they would easily identify these types of so called "officials" and blacklist them from ever getting a job elsewhere.Then,companies would think twice or three time before hiring them.That will definitely put an end to this.

I'm a muslim and I don't practise bribery!

Tapai

When I was little (we were staying in Shah Alam at the time),I had a little cat which I called Kittey.My mum looked at the cat and decided to call her Tapai instead.I was not pleased.Not one bit.I can't remember what happened to that cat.I think it disappeared after a while.

Today,one more cat has decided to stay at our house in TTDI.I don't know why but cats just love to come by and make themselves at home at our place.We don't mind.The more the merrier ^_^

Anywho,the latest addition to the 10 cats who are already living at our home is a male version of Apple called Tapai.He looks exactly like Apple.Slightly plumper.He's so manja and chomel.We love him just as much as the rest of the cats at home ^_^

AL approved!

Can't wait for this weekend!YEYNESS!!!!!!

My brother is back from the states.I only met him for a hang out for good few hours.We went out for a lepak session at a mamak.Yesterday,Shu's family came by to the house for lunch.We didn't cook coz we haven't gotten our gas tank installed yet.Haven't been cooking at all.

Been needing to go out to get stuff.........to my disappointment,the MUFE Rock For Ever limited edition collection is not here YET!I wonder if it would ever come coz that's the sucky part about being at this part of the world.And then......I forgot that I wanted to get a whole lot of other stuff from them :/ Yes,I am a sucker for Make Up For Ever!HELL YEAH!

Got an eyeliner from MAC last week.It's not water proof *sob sob*

Anywho,Shu got me a top.I got meself a book:Abraham Lincoln:Vampire Hunter ^_^ I'll be doing some reading since I don't have any games to play in the office.We had a party last week.Shit loads of pizzas.I can't eat much.Spent the entire 9 hours doing nothing but surfing the net.It was Christmas eve!

This year had been a blast!Looking forward to what's installed for the new year :D

I'm afraid of airplanes but I really wanna go for the trip coz........well..........it's a break we are in much need of ^_^

insured

My car is insured now.Paid almost a thousand bucks for it coz I wanted to get my wind screen insured as well ;) Still...........I haven't gotten around to getting the damn road tax renewed coz it is such a hassle to get all the paperwork done so I've been pretty much driving around with a dead road tax :p I know......it's been a month already.

If I ain't so busy working,I'll be sick.I was on MC for so long and eventually,my mum and Shu threatened to get me hospitalized coz my cough went on for more than a week.I am so sick of cough mixtures.I hate gargling the stupid throat medicine coz I tend to choke on it.I hate pee-ing coz it smells aweful from all those antibiotics I've been taking.It's been a pretty miserable week.My throat still have not recovered but I'm trying to ignore it.

House cleaning and laundry are still my favorite weekend past time ^_^

bleeding tonsil and dying fishes

It started with a minor flu.........I was sneezing every now and then.Weird.I usually don't have a sensitive issue when it comes to allergies.Maybe it was the aircond right above my head at my cubicle.Since I start work at midnight,I'd usually bring along and wear a hoodie.I guess this time the hoodie wasn't good enough.I was sneezing and then I had a minor case of runny nose and then I started coughing.Just a little bit.My throat got worse.I asked my SME for some time off coz I needed to get myself checked.Now,I'm grounded at home with bad fever every now and again.My sleeping time is off and I can hardly fall asleep when I am supposed to.

My throat itches which causes bad coughs would keep me up all day.Sometimes,I can't even breathe and sometimes it hurts so much that my whole body aches.I really want to get better soon coz I can't seem to get much done in this condition.It's gonna be the weekend and I really don't want to be the reason my husband has to stay home coz our usual weekends consists of a 10-hour outing.This is not looking good.

I left my car at my workplace the way I usually would during emergencies like last month when I started throwing up so much within 4 hours of working time.My husband rushed me to the hospital and I left my car at the office.I think I left it there for almost 2 days.Well,I left my car on Wednesday morning at about 4am coz that's usually my lunch break.I only went to get it some time in the afternoon today.

Oh yeah,we are very concerned about sudden many deaths of our guppies.WTF went wrong?!