It's been a long while since I managed to sit down and just write. It's been a very VERY busy several months. It was Ramadhan and then Syawal and the travelling. The funny thing is, Yusuf seems to not mind.
We spent 6 days in Terengganu. It was fun. Hari Raya there is always fun. It does get tiring at some point but I guess we don't feel it much coz that would be the only "balik kampung" journey for us. We got home and chilled for a bit. Met up with my family and all. And then, we decided to go see my grandma at my dad's hometown coz one of my aunts haven't met Yusuf. It was all good fun but you can see that everyone is getting older and although we do pretty much the same thing we do every time we head down south, it's different this time around. We are no longer the "kids".
Anywho, our trips down south would always mean we would make a stop at the Johor Premium Outlets before heading back. Managed to get Yusuf some clothes. After that, we headed over to Malacca. The initial plan was to stop by for some Assam Pedas Daging Tetel . But of course, since Shu was on a long leave, we decided to go into Malacca town instead and looked for a real restaurant to have this signature dish.
It was my first time eating assam pedas and it was seriously pedas. I am not into spicy food but Shu is the exact opposite. He chews chillies. The food was great but the time we spent looking for restaurant was not as expected because Shu asked someone he knows for directions. The dude said "It's not that far. It's just around the corner" which was actually about 1 kilometer of walking distance from where we parked. It was dark sooner than we thought and before we realized it, Yusuf needed to be fed and bathed. Shu's back up plan was to spend the night in Malacca town.
The funny thing about the plan was that only Yusuf and I had extra clothes. Shu and Mar needed to get new ones. Luckily, there was a thrift store just across the street from our hotel so we did a little last minute shopping just to survive that night and the day after. It was fun. We visited a museum. Did some sightseeing. Snapped some photos. It was fun.
Shu eventually extended his leave which was great timing because the following week, Yusuf turned 7 months old and Shu turned 28 years of age. We had some nice dinner on Shu's birthday. Oh yeah, that very same week was the time we visited Aquaria just because I wanted to see the sharks. Yusuf seemed to like the tiny, fast swimming fishes. It was a good week.
Yusuf's energy level has increased tremendously that I am having a hard time keeping up with him. He's practicing to sit and he can move around really, REALLY quickly. We actually got him an inflatable pool just so that he can sit around in the lounge area knowing that he won't injure himself when we have things to do in the kitchen. His crib can no longer contain him. His legs would come popping out from the sides every now and then.
All and all, I am glad that he is not a passive baby. I am an active person. Growing up, I had always been an active person. Shu is also an active person. Someday, we hope that we can start playing badminton or tennis or squash with Yusuf...........or go running!!!!! I still have my skateboard. My dad gave us his old fishing rod. We should all probably get scuba lessons someday..............the list goes on and on.
P.S. The Aquaria trip this time actually helped me figure out how to counter my fear of fish ^_^
Tuesday, September 03, 2013
Saturday, July 20, 2013
君だけを
For a while, my routine was sim-ing and then,it was ps3 gaming and then, it was anime watching........and drawing and writing in between but then.......it has now some to just browsing and liking fb statuses since I no longer have the luxury of doing anything else only because I make it so. I don't want to not spend my every waking hour without Yusuf when he is awake.
He'll be 6 months old on the 21st and he is getting to be quite the drama king. He has preferences. He knows who he wants to hang out with. He knows what he wants to do and what he wants to see. We can't leave him alone on the bed AT ALL coz he'd get from one end to the other in a matter of seconds. Yes, he has a crib but he still sleeps with us on the bed. He's been sleeping with us on the bed since forever. I made him that way. At some point I am beginning to doubt if the queen size is gonna hold the 3 of us at all.
I spend my days rolling with him on the bed. Sometimes, I'd take him out for walks around the neighborhood. Sometimes, I'd carry him around the house. I've tried getting him acquainted with felines but he's not there yet. He's fascinated by lights and sounds. We've already started feeding him since he's always drooling watching us eat at the dining table. The only problem is he prefers his biscuits over his rice porridge.
I've been having his leftover food for breakfast several times this week alone coz he refuses to eat. There are times when he'd finish up 2 biscuits at a time. Other times, he'd fight and struggle trying to not eat or drink. I don't force him. The only thing I have been worrying about him since he first came into this world is his temper. He gets it from both me as well as Shu. I hope he won't embrace that as much as he gets older.
He'll be 6 months old on the 21st and he is getting to be quite the drama king. He has preferences. He knows who he wants to hang out with. He knows what he wants to do and what he wants to see. We can't leave him alone on the bed AT ALL coz he'd get from one end to the other in a matter of seconds. Yes, he has a crib but he still sleeps with us on the bed. He's been sleeping with us on the bed since forever. I made him that way. At some point I am beginning to doubt if the queen size is gonna hold the 3 of us at all.
I spend my days rolling with him on the bed. Sometimes, I'd take him out for walks around the neighborhood. Sometimes, I'd carry him around the house. I've tried getting him acquainted with felines but he's not there yet. He's fascinated by lights and sounds. We've already started feeding him since he's always drooling watching us eat at the dining table. The only problem is he prefers his biscuits over his rice porridge.
I've been having his leftover food for breakfast several times this week alone coz he refuses to eat. There are times when he'd finish up 2 biscuits at a time. Other times, he'd fight and struggle trying to not eat or drink. I don't force him. The only thing I have been worrying about him since he first came into this world is his temper. He gets it from both me as well as Shu. I hope he won't embrace that as much as he gets older.
Monday, July 15, 2013
July
Ramadhan is so far so good. Tarawikh prayers would always depend on Yusuf and how he is coz he doesn't have a pattern. He's sometimes asleep and he sometimes need me around. His right eye got bitten by an unknown insect this morning. Just under his outer brow is red and swollen a little. The doctor said its definitely an insect bite but its external. I hope it heals quickly.
Yusuf has recently began eating and its funny how he prefers the rusks over the rice porridge. We have to feed him immediately or he will refuse to eat. There was this one time when my mum fed him and he got angry coz my mum didn't give him enough. The food he refuses to eat from time to time are usually eaten by myself :p
We recently went back to Terengganu. It was an awesome 4 days.Finally, Yusuf was awake and we took him on the beca. It. Was. AWESOME. Hahahaha!!!!
We need to move away from the city ^_^
Monday, June 24, 2013
prayers
This year has been a very trying year. First the heat, and then the haze (which isn't seem to be getting any better).
But of all the things that has been going on, there are 2 babies who desperately needs our help (prayers).
One baby (whose name is not allowed to be mentioned) was recently diagnosed with cancer. He's only 8 months old (if I am not mistaken) I was crushed when I heard the news. I've been crying a lot when ever I think of him. I've never met him though but the thought that he has to go for chemotherapy at a very VERY young age always gets to me. I hope he isn't in any pain. He's just a baby.
The other baby is a 2 year-old girl who was adopted but her paperworks were never done properly. At the age of 2,she still does not have a birth certificate. To make it worse, it turns out that she had a bit of an accident with hot water some time ago and I discovered that her foster parents did not take her to the hospital because she doesn't have a proper record here in Malaysia. I hope she's ok. I hope she'd find better people who are more responsible to care for her.
On the brighter side of things, my sister came home last week and she brought her recently converted friend with her. He's a nice guy and is good with kids. He seems to get along well with Yusuf. He's finally spoken to my mum about marrying my sister. I hope things will go well for the both of them.
In fact, I pray and hope that things will go well for everyone.
I'm also praying for it to rain. I hope it would rain for a few days to help with the haze. My house has been all closed up because I don't want Yusuf to inhale any of it since he was born with frail lungs. Although he's strong now, I don't want him to get sick because of this.
But of all the things that has been going on, there are 2 babies who desperately needs our help (prayers).
One baby (whose name is not allowed to be mentioned) was recently diagnosed with cancer. He's only 8 months old (if I am not mistaken) I was crushed when I heard the news. I've been crying a lot when ever I think of him. I've never met him though but the thought that he has to go for chemotherapy at a very VERY young age always gets to me. I hope he isn't in any pain. He's just a baby.
The other baby is a 2 year-old girl who was adopted but her paperworks were never done properly. At the age of 2,she still does not have a birth certificate. To make it worse, it turns out that she had a bit of an accident with hot water some time ago and I discovered that her foster parents did not take her to the hospital because she doesn't have a proper record here in Malaysia. I hope she's ok. I hope she'd find better people who are more responsible to care for her.
On the brighter side of things, my sister came home last week and she brought her recently converted friend with her. He's a nice guy and is good with kids. He seems to get along well with Yusuf. He's finally spoken to my mum about marrying my sister. I hope things will go well for the both of them.
In fact, I pray and hope that things will go well for everyone.
I'm also praying for it to rain. I hope it would rain for a few days to help with the haze. My house has been all closed up because I don't want Yusuf to inhale any of it since he was born with frail lungs. Although he's strong now, I don't want him to get sick because of this.
Thursday, May 23, 2013
sunlight
We took Yusuf to his follow up (check up) at HKL yesterday.The appointment was set at 2pm but we got there earlier coz we weren't sure where the building was and what we had to do.Shu dropped us off at the pediatric building and parked the car elsewhere coz the place was PACKED. He parked all the way at IJN :p
I got Yusuf registered and weighed and measured and then we waited for our turn. There were so many people but there were a lot of doctors on duty and plenty of room for everyone. It turns out that the doctor who checked Yusuf was the doctor who came to see him the morning after he arrived at HKL.She was aware of Yusuf's condition and she thought Yusuf seemed very healthy. Alhamdulillah.
However, we asked her about what Yusuf's pediatrician said to us last week about Yusuf's head growth. There a growth chart used by the hospital in Bangi and HKL have their own chart. So after doing a bit of measurement and comparison, we decided to get Yusuf's head scanned anyways just to be safe. We were referred to the radiology department to get an ultrasound scan done on Yusuf's soft head.
Alhamdulillah, everything seemed alright eventhough Yusuf was crying so loud and hard through it all coz he was sleepy and in shocked when we placed him onto the hospital bed. After the scan, we headed back to the clinic area to get the printed photos sorted out and explained.
While waiting, I was distracted by the babies and toddlers around me. There were 2 sets of twins and a very tiny 4 month old baby. Yusuf seemed rather big compared to the 4 month old baby beside me.The doctor said its coz he is fully breastfed so he is healthy and strong. Then again, Shu said the baby I was looking at looked small but he/she weighed just 1kg less than Yusuf's current weight :p
After 2 hours, we finally were able to leave. I just so thankful to know that Yusuf is alright :)
I got Yusuf registered and weighed and measured and then we waited for our turn. There were so many people but there were a lot of doctors on duty and plenty of room for everyone. It turns out that the doctor who checked Yusuf was the doctor who came to see him the morning after he arrived at HKL.She was aware of Yusuf's condition and she thought Yusuf seemed very healthy. Alhamdulillah.
However, we asked her about what Yusuf's pediatrician said to us last week about Yusuf's head growth. There a growth chart used by the hospital in Bangi and HKL have their own chart. So after doing a bit of measurement and comparison, we decided to get Yusuf's head scanned anyways just to be safe. We were referred to the radiology department to get an ultrasound scan done on Yusuf's soft head.
Alhamdulillah, everything seemed alright eventhough Yusuf was crying so loud and hard through it all coz he was sleepy and in shocked when we placed him onto the hospital bed. After the scan, we headed back to the clinic area to get the printed photos sorted out and explained.
While waiting, I was distracted by the babies and toddlers around me. There were 2 sets of twins and a very tiny 4 month old baby. Yusuf seemed rather big compared to the 4 month old baby beside me.The doctor said its coz he is fully breastfed so he is healthy and strong. Then again, Shu said the baby I was looking at looked small but he/she weighed just 1kg less than Yusuf's current weight :p
After 2 hours, we finally were able to leave. I just so thankful to know that Yusuf is alright :)
Monday, May 20, 2013
never growing up?
Oh Hello Avril! Never thought I'd see you again the way I first did back when I was 16 ^_^
Friday, May 17, 2013
waka waka
I've been fasting. Replacing and trying and hopefully succeeding at puasa sunat. So far,it's been 3 days. I skipped a day. So far so good. I still have a long way to go. Gosh! I think I have been trying to repay and replace debts (with God) since forever! This just shows what kind of person I have been :-/
It's been so hot. I know that eventhough 33 degrees Celsius isn't as bad as most other places in the country, I do feel it coz I keep getting thirsty throughout the day.I almost drank this morning forgetting that I was fasting. Yusuf hasn't been able to cope with the heat.
Ok,wait. Yusuf never had been able to cope with heat. He sweats ALL THE TIME and then he'd get restless. He hasn't been wearing socks or bootees and mittens anymore. In fact, he's been wearing minimal clothing to help him not sweat. I've been drinking lots of water to help him. I just wish there was something I could do about the heat.
Shu got the car tinted super dark. The air conditioner in the room doesn't seem to help much. I'd set the aircond temperature at 22 degrees and the room temperature would only go down to about 29 degrees max. Hah! The sun sets in a way whereby the red light of the sun setting would glare directly into my room. This makes the room hotter than its supposed to.
We usually have every possible door and window opened just to get some air flow in the house. After 6pm,the house gets pretty warm coz we'd have to close everything up so that the mosquitoes won't get in. I need to fix some screen doors badly.
The cool thing about this house is that we'd have random insects coming in and out which is also a bad thing coz some of them can sting. I DO NOT LIKE FLYING INSECTS THAT CAN STING! >.<
It's been so hot. I know that eventhough 33 degrees Celsius isn't as bad as most other places in the country, I do feel it coz I keep getting thirsty throughout the day.I almost drank this morning forgetting that I was fasting. Yusuf hasn't been able to cope with the heat.
Ok,wait. Yusuf never had been able to cope with heat. He sweats ALL THE TIME and then he'd get restless. He hasn't been wearing socks or bootees and mittens anymore. In fact, he's been wearing minimal clothing to help him not sweat. I've been drinking lots of water to help him. I just wish there was something I could do about the heat.
Shu got the car tinted super dark. The air conditioner in the room doesn't seem to help much. I'd set the aircond temperature at 22 degrees and the room temperature would only go down to about 29 degrees max. Hah! The sun sets in a way whereby the red light of the sun setting would glare directly into my room. This makes the room hotter than its supposed to.
We usually have every possible door and window opened just to get some air flow in the house. After 6pm,the house gets pretty warm coz we'd have to close everything up so that the mosquitoes won't get in. I need to fix some screen doors badly.
The cool thing about this house is that we'd have random insects coming in and out which is also a bad thing coz some of them can sting. I DO NOT LIKE FLYING INSECTS THAT CAN STING! >.<
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
Yusuf's hospital trip
I don't know how to explain it but I think it's coz my son was born with a condition, Shu and I became very VERY overprotective over him. People always say "It's ok,he's gonna be fine" Well,I don't think we would wanna risk anything. It's hard enough to go through 10 days (or more) after birth without being able to hold him and just watch him from outside the incubator in the NICU. I've decided to not risk anything when it comes to him.
I will take care of him.
I will feed him even when I am tired.
I will entertain him.
I will pray for his well being.
I will learn to understand him in times when we are unsure of what's happening with him.
I had cousins who says things like "Our kids were all born early and spent 6 weeks in the incubator" Well, my son was born with lung infection and there were times when he couldn't breathe. He was constantly on the oxygen support so I don't think that our situations are in the slightest bit similar in any way.
I told Shu that I don't trust daycares and even with a maid, I wasn't about to let her juggle between taking care of Yusuf and doing housework.
I've had times when I would come out in the middle of bathing just to feed him coz he's crying. There were occasions when I'd be praying and he cries so I'd stop and calm him down and then start praying all over again.
I'm not complaining. I'll do it for his sake.Until he is stable enough and strong enough, I'll be on my toes for him.
I will take care of him.
I will feed him even when I am tired.
I will entertain him.
I will pray for his well being.
I will learn to understand him in times when we are unsure of what's happening with him.
I had cousins who says things like "Our kids were all born early and spent 6 weeks in the incubator" Well, my son was born with lung infection and there were times when he couldn't breathe. He was constantly on the oxygen support so I don't think that our situations are in the slightest bit similar in any way.
I told Shu that I don't trust daycares and even with a maid, I wasn't about to let her juggle between taking care of Yusuf and doing housework.
I've had times when I would come out in the middle of bathing just to feed him coz he's crying. There were occasions when I'd be praying and he cries so I'd stop and calm him down and then start praying all over again.
I'm not complaining. I'll do it for his sake.Until he is stable enough and strong enough, I'll be on my toes for him.
Sunday, May 12, 2013
awesome possum
Weekends are usually fun but tiring coz sometimes we'd wake up super early in the morning just to make the most of it and then we'd be out all day and then we'd be home by nightfall. Other times, we'd just laze around at home and play video games or clean the house or maybe just run out to get some groceries.
Speaking of groceries, I am yet again OBSESSED with groceries. It's weird that growing up, my favorite time spent with my mum would always be grocery shopping and I could memorize the items and aisles. Now, I seem to still love doing it but lately, I've began making lists of the price of things we'd buy and compare them between the hypermarkets/supermarkets around.
I used to be obsessed with laundry but eversince we got someone to do it, I kinda not do it much anymore. I should get back into the habit of cleaning my clothes myself. It liberates my soul. Hahahahahaha!!!!!!!
When I was pregnant, I used to have problems sleeping at night and sometimes, my cure or rather thing to do to past time is to clean the toilet floor. It's weird.........
Speaking of groceries, I am yet again OBSESSED with groceries. It's weird that growing up, my favorite time spent with my mum would always be grocery shopping and I could memorize the items and aisles. Now, I seem to still love doing it but lately, I've began making lists of the price of things we'd buy and compare them between the hypermarkets/supermarkets around.
I used to be obsessed with laundry but eversince we got someone to do it, I kinda not do it much anymore. I should get back into the habit of cleaning my clothes myself. It liberates my soul. Hahahahahaha!!!!!!!
When I was pregnant, I used to have problems sleeping at night and sometimes, my cure or rather thing to do to past time is to clean the toilet floor. It's weird.........
Friday, May 10, 2013
wedding bells?
OOOH! LIFE!!!! >.<
Despite the chaos this country has been going through, I do pray that what ever the outcome may be,it is for the best. I firmly believe that everything happens for a reason and I pray that we all have faith in God.
Speaking of everything happening for a reason, I did receive some good news about some people I love getting pregnant. It is wonderful news! I can't begin to express how happy it makes me feel inside!!!
Also, Yusuf recently got a new cousin who is all the way in JB ^_^ Can't wait to see her!
And last but not least, I do pray that this will indeed end well for I always feel that something good such as marriage is a sacred thing to do. I do hope that my parents will find the light in all of this. It is always a happy moment to receive new family members.
Despite the chaos this country has been going through, I do pray that what ever the outcome may be,it is for the best. I firmly believe that everything happens for a reason and I pray that we all have faith in God.
Speaking of everything happening for a reason, I did receive some good news about some people I love getting pregnant. It is wonderful news! I can't begin to express how happy it makes me feel inside!!!
Also, Yusuf recently got a new cousin who is all the way in JB ^_^ Can't wait to see her!
And last but not least, I do pray that this will indeed end well for I always feel that something good such as marriage is a sacred thing to do. I do hope that my parents will find the light in all of this. It is always a happy moment to receive new family members.
Wednesday, May 08, 2013
house hunting?!!
Hahaha! Lately, we've been looking at houses AGAIN. My husband is looking for a house with a bit of land. No, won't be selling off this condo. We would most likely rent it out. Anywho, we were in Nilai the other day just lookin' around thinking that I might have to move for my new job and all. I love some of the houses. They have very unique designs and layouts and DUH it definitely is cheaper than here! But of course, I had my eyes on the 1.3 million Ringgit house :p It comes with a swimming pool!!!!
We're still looking.........and then, we got side tracked........by the idea of getting a bigger car since our current car is all full of stuff. We have Yusuf's stroller occupying 60% of the boot and Yusuf's car seat in the back. I love our current car but then, we thought.......how about getting a Hummer?! WOAH!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! Insanity strikes! I ain't payin a 6 liter SUV road tax! The idea of a bigger car is a good plan but not the Hummer.
It's been weird for me lately especially since I began getting attached to a certain TV Show. I watch cartoons and animes. Not TV Shows. Waiting for a new season sucks. It's like being stuck in space until the new season is released. How the hell did I get here?!!!!
I FINALLY managed to get a haircut!!!!! I thought it would take forever that my hair would end up all over the place when ever I walk around the house.It's short now. Also, the post pregnancy hair loss is annoying me.
It's been really, really, really warm these days. Lately may not be as warm as before but it is warm and it just so happens that my son does not do well in warm weather. He's all red and sweaty and he'd get all annoyed. He bathes 3 times a day and just before bed, we'd have to make sure he is wiped clean with warm water before getting his last diaper change for the day.
The past few weeks have been pretty tiring and fast moving. I hardly leave the house on weekdays. Oh wait, I never leave the house on weekdays.My life is basically revolved around my son.And yet again, I am being spoiled by Mar.She makes sure I eat rice at least once a day coz I have to feed Yusuf. I must say, breastfeeding has motivated me to eat healthier food these days. I'm still a junkaholic but not as bad as before.
I was hanging out with one of my husband's nieces back when we were in Terengganu. She likes Yusuf a lot and they converse with another from time to time.She said she wanted to trade Yusuf with her youngest brother so that she can eat Yusuf. It was funny. She was doing a bit of writing with me. Maybe next time I should bring a whole lot of papers and some toxic-free crayons and we can all have a good doodle time together. Me and all of Yusuf's cousins. Yeah, we should do that...........
We're still looking.........and then, we got side tracked........by the idea of getting a bigger car since our current car is all full of stuff. We have Yusuf's stroller occupying 60% of the boot and Yusuf's car seat in the back. I love our current car but then, we thought.......how about getting a Hummer?! WOAH!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! Insanity strikes! I ain't payin a 6 liter SUV road tax! The idea of a bigger car is a good plan but not the Hummer.
It's been weird for me lately especially since I began getting attached to a certain TV Show. I watch cartoons and animes. Not TV Shows. Waiting for a new season sucks. It's like being stuck in space until the new season is released. How the hell did I get here?!!!!
I FINALLY managed to get a haircut!!!!! I thought it would take forever that my hair would end up all over the place when ever I walk around the house.It's short now. Also, the post pregnancy hair loss is annoying me.
It's been really, really, really warm these days. Lately may not be as warm as before but it is warm and it just so happens that my son does not do well in warm weather. He's all red and sweaty and he'd get all annoyed. He bathes 3 times a day and just before bed, we'd have to make sure he is wiped clean with warm water before getting his last diaper change for the day.
The past few weeks have been pretty tiring and fast moving. I hardly leave the house on weekdays. Oh wait, I never leave the house on weekdays.My life is basically revolved around my son.And yet again, I am being spoiled by Mar.She makes sure I eat rice at least once a day coz I have to feed Yusuf. I must say, breastfeeding has motivated me to eat healthier food these days. I'm still a junkaholic but not as bad as before.
I was hanging out with one of my husband's nieces back when we were in Terengganu. She likes Yusuf a lot and they converse with another from time to time.She said she wanted to trade Yusuf with her youngest brother so that she can eat Yusuf. It was funny. She was doing a bit of writing with me. Maybe next time I should bring a whole lot of papers and some toxic-free crayons and we can all have a good doodle time together. Me and all of Yusuf's cousins. Yeah, we should do that...........
Friday, May 03, 2013
PCTFD
Ya know......with all the elections coming up and stuff,I feel like I get more and more annoyed by FB. I mean yeah I am aware that when it comes to elections, campaigning is definitely something unavoidable but when it gets a bit too much, it gets annoying.
Here's how I see it. This event affects everyone coz it could make a drastic change especially when it comes to helping out the needy and of course, knowing that our tax is well spent. I have my stand and I know which direction I would want my country to head to. And yes, I do talk about it with my family and all but let's just face it, even within a family, not all of us are looking at this the same way and its fine coz I respect their opinions and point of views.
And yes, we have supporters who are campaigning online and stuff. I totally think that its definitely a step up from how it's been done before. Kudos for that. Yey! And again, not everyone is seeing eye to eye on this which is cool coz that's what makes us all different anyways.
What I don't get is that (typically) when rivals come head to head, they each have their own goals and stuff. It's up to us to either accept it or not. Having said that, I can't seem to make sense of it all when the supporters from both sides begin behaving just as bad as the other. So you say A is not a good at ruling coz he's done all this crap and so on and so forth, well, OK, it is time for a change then. But how the hell would that statement convince me when you are behaving the same damn way A is behaving!
The changes you propose are supposed to make things better but it ain't lookin' no better when you start dissing the same way.Not cool AT ALL.It's like we're deciding between 2 sides of the same coin.WTF?!
Again,it's probably a mentality issue.A major issue most Malaysians are facing. I honestly do not have anything against the candidates but I do hope that they can just tell their supporters to CALM THE FUCK DOWN! We're all in this and we're all rooting for a change and we've all been paying our taxes the same way so just please,let's not get things out of control and stay calm.
I do wonder if there would ever be a major change where social problem is concerned. Just trying to do what's best for my kid :)
Here's how I see it. This event affects everyone coz it could make a drastic change especially when it comes to helping out the needy and of course, knowing that our tax is well spent. I have my stand and I know which direction I would want my country to head to. And yes, I do talk about it with my family and all but let's just face it, even within a family, not all of us are looking at this the same way and its fine coz I respect their opinions and point of views.
And yes, we have supporters who are campaigning online and stuff. I totally think that its definitely a step up from how it's been done before. Kudos for that. Yey! And again, not everyone is seeing eye to eye on this which is cool coz that's what makes us all different anyways.
What I don't get is that (typically) when rivals come head to head, they each have their own goals and stuff. It's up to us to either accept it or not. Having said that, I can't seem to make sense of it all when the supporters from both sides begin behaving just as bad as the other. So you say A is not a good at ruling coz he's done all this crap and so on and so forth, well, OK, it is time for a change then. But how the hell would that statement convince me when you are behaving the same damn way A is behaving!
The changes you propose are supposed to make things better but it ain't lookin' no better when you start dissing the same way.Not cool AT ALL.It's like we're deciding between 2 sides of the same coin.WTF?!
Again,it's probably a mentality issue.A major issue most Malaysians are facing. I honestly do not have anything against the candidates but I do hope that they can just tell their supporters to CALM THE FUCK DOWN! We're all in this and we're all rooting for a change and we've all been paying our taxes the same way so just please,let's not get things out of control and stay calm.
I do wonder if there would ever be a major change where social problem is concerned. Just trying to do what's best for my kid :)
Thursday, May 02, 2013
random shenannigans
I haven't been quite myself lately.
I don't know if it's coz I have nothing much to do or if I have a bit too much on my mind.
Either ways,I have been drowning my so called "lost" self into playtime and bath time and feeding time with Yusuf.
He brings much joy to me.
He speaks now.........in a language which only I can understand.
He's currently in a phase where he is testing his screams. It gets pretty loud. He recently discovered that screaming in small spaces such as in a vehicle or in a department store is fun to do. Of course it is!
And he also discovered that playing with drool is so much fun especially when he is able to tilt his head forward and let his drool get all over his shirt and the arm of the person who holds him and best of all,the floor.
Sometimes, I'd feed him and at some point, he'd play around and later starts choking on his saliva and milk. Of course, I'd have to bring him upwards and pat his back till he is able to breathe again.
He loves bath time and splashing around in the tub.
He loves getting all his clothes off except for his diapers and mittens and booties.
I can tell that once he is able to get up (crawl or walk or run) I may need to put a bell on him.
I don't know if it's coz I have nothing much to do or if I have a bit too much on my mind.
Either ways,I have been drowning my so called "lost" self into playtime and bath time and feeding time with Yusuf.
He brings much joy to me.
He speaks now.........in a language which only I can understand.
He's currently in a phase where he is testing his screams. It gets pretty loud. He recently discovered that screaming in small spaces such as in a vehicle or in a department store is fun to do. Of course it is!
And he also discovered that playing with drool is so much fun especially when he is able to tilt his head forward and let his drool get all over his shirt and the arm of the person who holds him and best of all,the floor.
Sometimes, I'd feed him and at some point, he'd play around and later starts choking on his saliva and milk. Of course, I'd have to bring him upwards and pat his back till he is able to breathe again.
He loves bath time and splashing around in the tub.
He loves getting all his clothes off except for his diapers and mittens and booties.
I can tell that once he is able to get up (crawl or walk or run) I may need to put a bell on him.
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
death
On Sunday night,on our way back from my aunt's place in Subang,we stopped by for some food at some gas station. All of a sudden, my husband received a call from one of the guys at work. He asked where my husband was and what he was doing at the time. He asked if my husband had read the WhatsApp message he sent. It turned out that one of the boys at his workplace had passed away that evening.
It was a shocking news to not just my husband but to me as well.I still remember my husband's reaction at the time. He was out of words. He may not have been the best of friends with the boy who died but I could tell that he couldn't accept the news very well.I may not know this boy but everytime my husband comes home and talks about work,he never fails to mention this boy regardless if its a negative or a positive note.
He was only 23. He rode on his superbike on Saturday night on his way back from dinner with his friends. The accident happened on Jalan Mahameru.It was reported that a white Myvi ran into him and drove off.It was a nasty accident as the Myvi's bumper broke and one of the half of the bumper was on the road.The impact was so hard that the boy was thrown on to the road on the other side where the traffic was heading from the opposite direction. He failed to get off the road coz another car crashed into him.
His injuries was irreparable. His right leg almost came off. His internal organs were not working that what ever the medical officers tried to put into his system did not get through.His body rejected everything-water,blood,medication.At the time,the boy remembered his father's phone number. He was taken to HKL. He couldn't survive and at almost 7pm on Sunday,he died.
Yesterday,my husband and his manager went over to see his parents and returned all of the boy's belongings. My husband said his parents were still crying.It was even sadder when his mom saw the box with her late son's name on it.I cannot imagine the pain she was going through.It was a sad,sad moment and I can't help but feel like his death was not a justified death. I know that as a Muslim,we must accept fate but I am sad.Truly sad for what's happened to the boy.
It was a shocking news to not just my husband but to me as well.I still remember my husband's reaction at the time. He was out of words. He may not have been the best of friends with the boy who died but I could tell that he couldn't accept the news very well.I may not know this boy but everytime my husband comes home and talks about work,he never fails to mention this boy regardless if its a negative or a positive note.
He was only 23. He rode on his superbike on Saturday night on his way back from dinner with his friends. The accident happened on Jalan Mahameru.It was reported that a white Myvi ran into him and drove off.It was a nasty accident as the Myvi's bumper broke and one of the half of the bumper was on the road.The impact was so hard that the boy was thrown on to the road on the other side where the traffic was heading from the opposite direction. He failed to get off the road coz another car crashed into him.
His injuries was irreparable. His right leg almost came off. His internal organs were not working that what ever the medical officers tried to put into his system did not get through.His body rejected everything-water,blood,medication.At the time,the boy remembered his father's phone number. He was taken to HKL. He couldn't survive and at almost 7pm on Sunday,he died.
Yesterday,my husband and his manager went over to see his parents and returned all of the boy's belongings. My husband said his parents were still crying.It was even sadder when his mom saw the box with her late son's name on it.I cannot imagine the pain she was going through.It was a sad,sad moment and I can't help but feel like his death was not a justified death. I know that as a Muslim,we must accept fate but I am sad.Truly sad for what's happened to the boy.
Wednesday, April 17, 2013
being parents
My husband once said "Usually,whenever I walk in a mall and I see parents....they're always doing weird things.But now that I am a dad,I am doing just the same weird things........." And then,when we were on the hunt for the right stroller for Yusuf,we began to realize that there are just so many kids on strollers being pushed around the mall. My husband once accidentally pushed Yusuf and his stroller into a pillar coz he was too busy looking at this one chomel baby in a stroller. What's even weirder was that I was walking ahead of them at the time and I too was looking at that same chomel baby.
Haha.........
Having a baby is like a dream.The pregnancy seemed like forever and when we (Yusuf and I) finally meet,it's like we've been the best of friends since forever.We have our own way of communicating.We understand eachother and now that Yusuf is beginning to see his surroundings,it's hard to not look at his reaction to everything.It's hard to be apart when I spend my every waking (and sleeping) moment with him.My whole world has changed from my sleeping and waking hours to my decision with work.I am constantly looking out for him and listening extra careful (whenever I am outside while he is asleep in the bedroom) to him just to make sure he is alright.
This is by far the biggest responsibility I have ever had to carry and honestly,I've never been much of the type of person who is up for any form of responsibilities.Seriously, I am like fixated on Yusuf.I wonder if most parents are like this with their first baby.
Haha.........
Having a baby is like a dream.The pregnancy seemed like forever and when we (Yusuf and I) finally meet,it's like we've been the best of friends since forever.We have our own way of communicating.We understand eachother and now that Yusuf is beginning to see his surroundings,it's hard to not look at his reaction to everything.It's hard to be apart when I spend my every waking (and sleeping) moment with him.My whole world has changed from my sleeping and waking hours to my decision with work.I am constantly looking out for him and listening extra careful (whenever I am outside while he is asleep in the bedroom) to him just to make sure he is alright.
This is by far the biggest responsibility I have ever had to carry and honestly,I've never been much of the type of person who is up for any form of responsibilities.Seriously, I am like fixated on Yusuf.I wonder if most parents are like this with their first baby.
Tuesday, April 09, 2013
planning ahead
We've been having a lot of talks about a second child.Well,I am in the mode of preparing myself for a second child.Not in the near future but we know for sure that Yusuf cannot be an only child.It won't be fun.
Anywho,we're praying for a girl.We already have a name for her.But in case we get a boy,we've ruled out a few names for him too ^_^
Anywho,we're praying for a girl.We already have a name for her.But in case we get a boy,we've ruled out a few names for him too ^_^
Friday, April 05, 2013
It's April!
I've recently sent in my resignation. I did it coz I can't seem to get the hang of things with my baby just yet. He needs me an awful lot and I can't seem to get as much milk out of myself as he requires if that makes any sense at all. Well,the deal is,in order for me to be away from him in long hours is that I need to have some milk pumped and stored for him till I get home and I can't seem to do that. He drinks a lot. A LOT.
People tell me coz baby boys just are that way. I can't say really coz he's only my first child.Anywho,I'll be jobless for a few months or so until I am able to get things under control. In the meantime, I am using up all my leaves.I mean ALL of it.
The other reason for my leaving is that my account is closing.It's actually more technical than that but to put it into casual words,it is closing down.That would mean that all of us shall be deployed into other accounts since it is the company policy.Having said that,it would and could mean that I might have to go back into shifts which isn't really a problem. My only concern is that I won't be able to work night shifts anymore after this.My son is my priority.
So,the best thing for me to do is to leave.
On that note,I've also began to realize a lot of things having to do with the people I work with or rather,their mentality.I don't know if my husband and I are the only 2 people I know who sees this but when we go to work,it really is just work and nothing more.But the people I work with are a bit strange in the sense that they feel like if we work together,we are considered friends.
Haha........seriously? I may have very few friends but I have my reasons.So anyway,these so called people I work with would have activities I keep having to decline invitations to coz my off days are spent with my family and that is how I like it.It's nice of them to keep me in the loop but really,I have my family.
Sometimes there would be a slight fuss about why I never join in.After a while,I guess it stops.Then,something unexpected happens.I started working a different time doing different things.Yet again,that caused another inconvenience I guess since my job no longer had anything to do with the rest of the team.I began to be the spot of bother to the mass.
Most people began speculating as to what my job role was and why I was doing what I was doing and not doing what I was doing before and so on.The best part is when they'd start complaining.It starts with A complaint. Then,it turns into a huge whining session. "Why haven't I been called up to work at this other department?" "Why doesn't the manager let me transfer?" "Why?" "Why haven't I bothered trying for the post the department is offering?"
WHY?WHY?????
Because........you guys are fucking idiots.Do I look like the manager to you?!Do I look like I am the right channel? DO I LOOK LIKE YOUR BLOODY COUNSELOR?!
I've been dealing with my manager directly all this while and I have gotten the answers I was looking for regardless if they were what I wanted to hear.......or not.At first, I played the nice person who would just sit back and listen.After a while,it gets really tiring.Same shit over and over.I kept asking why they wouldn't just go to the right people to talk about this.Hah! The answer(s) to that question would be along the lines of "Oh they won't listen" or "They'd just turn it back around against us"
Wow! I am quite surprised that I managed to put up with all that for 2 whole years! So yes,I am resigning for the sake of my son and my sanity.It's not about the money,it's not about what I do.It's the people I have to put up with.No wonder my husband almost went crazy the first day he had to deal with managing people! Of course,he is a much stronger person than I am and he is not the type to be all diplomatic about things.
I just wish I had the guts to tell them all that the answer to all of their WHY questions was "becoz.........YOU SUCK" HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!
Thursday, March 14, 2013
what time is it?
Iiiiiiiit's AADVENTURE TIME!!!!!!
I admit it. I am an addict.
Still.......why doesn't my cellphone have a voice recorder? Weird.......
Random. I know.......
Pointless? A little......
I miss home :-/
I am in need of a little change. I am feeling creative and I need to channel it out or I will self destruct. Hahahahahahahahahaha!!!!! I just need to channel it all out ;)
I admit it. I am an addict.
Still.......why doesn't my cellphone have a voice recorder? Weird.......
Random. I know.......
Pointless? A little......
I miss home :-/
I am in need of a little change. I am feeling creative and I need to channel it out or I will self destruct. Hahahahahahahahahaha!!!!! I just need to channel it all out ;)
Friday, March 08, 2013
run baby run
Things have been moving pretty fast these days. Yusuf is stronger now. Heavier. So much more that I can hardly hold him up to feed him. He is longer. He can now fit into the bigger clothes he's had since he was born. He knows how to differentiate his parents from other people. He reacts to sounds and lights. Give him a bit more time and he will be able to control his head and limbs. He doesn't sleep as much as he used to. All he wants to do is get up but he can't do it on his own. He prefers sleeping on the bed with us rather than being all alone in his crib.
We have yet to shave his hair and cut his nails.I don't think he can fit his newborn baby diapers much anymore. I mean he still fits into them but it won't be long till his size changes to bigger ones. His new sleeping time has helped me get back into my old sleeping routine. I no longer stay up at night and sleep in the day.
I will miss him a lot once I start working. I really don't want to be away from him especially when he is growing up so fast :'(
We have yet to shave his hair and cut his nails.I don't think he can fit his newborn baby diapers much anymore. I mean he still fits into them but it won't be long till his size changes to bigger ones. His new sleeping time has helped me get back into my old sleeping routine. I no longer stay up at night and sleep in the day.
I will miss him a lot once I start working. I really don't want to be away from him especially when he is growing up so fast :'(
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
Yusuf-ness
This entry will be full of pictures...............................
When Yusuf was born.This was taken in the labor room after he was cleaned.
Yusuf in the MNICU in HKL. We weren't allowed to hold him but we could clean our hands and touch from outside the incubator.
Yusuf's first day outside the nursery. Spent his first night with me in the open ward with other mothers and babies.
Shu holding Yusuf. This is their first picture together.
Yusuf's first picture with his eyes opened.
Yusuf at home, on the bed with us.
My view whenever I feed him.
Sleepin' like a baws.........
Sleeping..........
Sleeping........
BOO!
Yusuf is abah's little boy.
Sunday, February 10, 2013
The day we met........
Frozen, I held my breath
Right from the start
I knew that I'd found a home for my heart.......
I was allowed to hold Yusuf for the very first time on January 28th of 2013. That was exactly a week after he was born. I was the happiest person in the galaxy. I've been waiting for him for so long. I was longing to breastfeed him for so long. It was funny because he and I were trying to adjust to each other.He had never felt my arms before and I was learning to hold on to a newborn.
I stayed at the hospital that night because the hospital wanted me to learn how to cope with him once he gets home. It was quite an experience because I was constantly waking up whenever I heard a baby crying. It wasn't always Yusuf coz there were other babies in the ward. Other babies who were not as lucky as him coz they were all under the UV light despite being able to be with their mothers.
Yusuf recovered. Shu had been going back and forth from TTDI to HKL every single day.Our prayers were answered and Yusuf was discharged, finally. He spent his first night in TTDI and then we moved to Bangi coz my mum's house is full of cats and it may be a problem for Yusuf as he is recovering from lung infection.
My God! I remembered crying so much the night on the day I gave birth. I was so worried about my baby and all I thought about was how it was all my fault. Yusuf came out at 36 weeks of pregnancy. Most babies come out between 38 to 40 weeks. The doctor said he pooped in the womb which may have caused the lung infection in the first place.Babies would only poop in the womb before their due date coz they are stressed.
Anywho, Shu and I are just glad that Yusuf is back home with us now. We spend every single minute of the day watching him sleep and talking to him when he is awake. Shu will spoil him :) I can guarantee that.
Right from the start
I knew that I'd found a home for my heart.......
I was allowed to hold Yusuf for the very first time on January 28th of 2013. That was exactly a week after he was born. I was the happiest person in the galaxy. I've been waiting for him for so long. I was longing to breastfeed him for so long. It was funny because he and I were trying to adjust to each other.He had never felt my arms before and I was learning to hold on to a newborn.
I stayed at the hospital that night because the hospital wanted me to learn how to cope with him once he gets home. It was quite an experience because I was constantly waking up whenever I heard a baby crying. It wasn't always Yusuf coz there were other babies in the ward. Other babies who were not as lucky as him coz they were all under the UV light despite being able to be with their mothers.
Yusuf recovered. Shu had been going back and forth from TTDI to HKL every single day.Our prayers were answered and Yusuf was discharged, finally. He spent his first night in TTDI and then we moved to Bangi coz my mum's house is full of cats and it may be a problem for Yusuf as he is recovering from lung infection.
My God! I remembered crying so much the night on the day I gave birth. I was so worried about my baby and all I thought about was how it was all my fault. Yusuf came out at 36 weeks of pregnancy. Most babies come out between 38 to 40 weeks. The doctor said he pooped in the womb which may have caused the lung infection in the first place.Babies would only poop in the womb before their due date coz they are stressed.
Anywho, Shu and I are just glad that Yusuf is back home with us now. We spend every single minute of the day watching him sleep and talking to him when he is awake. Shu will spoil him :) I can guarantee that.
Sunday, January 27, 2013
birth
I gave birth to a baby boy named Yusuf on January 21st 2013. It was the most beautiful experience. The pain was excruciating at first but as soon as I heard his cry, all the pain was gone. My mum was right. The feeling is indescribable.
Unfortunately, Yusuf was unable to come back home with us. It turns out that he has lung infection and had to be brought to a hospital with equipment that can help him breathe. After making several phone calls, Yusuf's pediatrician was able to get Yusuf a place in HKL. He was rushed with an ambulance there at 2am in the morning. Shu followed him because I was still held back at the hospital.
Yusuf had tubes all over him. His oxygen intake was low. He couldn't even get 80% of oxygen into his body without the help of the machine. I spent the entire night crying. Shu did too. It was horrible because I was waiting for the nurses to bring Yusuf into the ward to be breastfed but instead he was taken further away. We didn't even get to hold him.
Before I was transferred into my room back in the labor room, the nurse brought Yusuf to me just for a kiss on the forehead and then he left.
Shu and I had been visiting him in the hospital everyday. Shu spends a lot of time at the hospital as I need to be confined at home. But I do go to the hospital still because I miss Yusuf and I want to spend time with him. I miss him every single day and I cry for him every night.
We've been praying for him and we just want him to be alright so that he can come home.
He's been recovering and his almost done with his antibiotics. I just want him to be ok :'(
Unfortunately, Yusuf was unable to come back home with us. It turns out that he has lung infection and had to be brought to a hospital with equipment that can help him breathe. After making several phone calls, Yusuf's pediatrician was able to get Yusuf a place in HKL. He was rushed with an ambulance there at 2am in the morning. Shu followed him because I was still held back at the hospital.
Yusuf had tubes all over him. His oxygen intake was low. He couldn't even get 80% of oxygen into his body without the help of the machine. I spent the entire night crying. Shu did too. It was horrible because I was waiting for the nurses to bring Yusuf into the ward to be breastfed but instead he was taken further away. We didn't even get to hold him.
Before I was transferred into my room back in the labor room, the nurse brought Yusuf to me just for a kiss on the forehead and then he left.
Shu and I had been visiting him in the hospital everyday. Shu spends a lot of time at the hospital as I need to be confined at home. But I do go to the hospital still because I miss Yusuf and I want to spend time with him. I miss him every single day and I cry for him every night.
We've been praying for him and we just want him to be alright so that he can come home.
He's been recovering and his almost done with his antibiotics. I just want him to be ok :'(
Monday, January 21, 2013
Pain is.........
January 19th 2013 marks the day whereby I have proven myself to be an ultimate failure. I failed as a person and I failed as a friend. I was depressed and under a lot of stress and as much as Shu and I saw it coming, it was just a matter of time till we made the move. We sold Pebbles. She is no longer in our lives.
I cried so badly. I tried not to because I knew that we can no longer accommodate the cats. Space is such a problem and I hate the fact that Shu is constantly cleaning the balcony. Pebbles was Shu's best friend. If there was anyone whom she'd sit on and finds comfort in,it's always Shu. She and I are housemates and she understands the house rules. That's about it.
Every morning at about 6:30am, she'd get hungry so after prayers, I'd feed her. Then, she'd sleep the entire day till about 7pm. And then, she'd get hungry again. Sometimes, she tends to get a bit annoying like when she starts running in and out of the house and bringing dirt and dust all over the place. She tends to be noisy too at times especially when she sees bats or insects inside or outside the house.
Today, I finally had the courage to talk to Shu about it. I know that it hurts him more than it hurts me to let Pebbles go. Shu said her new owner has other Persian cats as well and she seemed to have adjusted herself as soon as she walked into her new home. Shu even called the dude up today asking about how Pebbles is doing. So far, she seems to be fine.
As much as I was sad to have let her go, I was much more disappointed in myself for putting Pebbles through all this. Shu hated the fact that she wasn't treated as well as she deserved to be treated. It's not like we'd get physical with the cats but the fact that we'd lose our temper and start getting all angry at her is just not something she deserves.
I've never yelled at her or touched her when ever she does something wrong but I feel like she deserves a more comfortable home and that we cannot provide her such. If we didn't love her, we wouldn't have spent over a thousand bucks on stuff for her and Georg.
I was thinking to myself that if we had never met, she wouldn't have had to go through all this and I would have been able to spare myself the pain of losing her. It hurts so much more than having someone died. I was so depressed and sad that I couldn't be alone without shedding a tear. I keep seeing her around the house since I spent the last couple of weeks sleeping out in the lounge with her.
I am so sorry, Pebbles.
I cried so badly. I tried not to because I knew that we can no longer accommodate the cats. Space is such a problem and I hate the fact that Shu is constantly cleaning the balcony. Pebbles was Shu's best friend. If there was anyone whom she'd sit on and finds comfort in,it's always Shu. She and I are housemates and she understands the house rules. That's about it.
Every morning at about 6:30am, she'd get hungry so after prayers, I'd feed her. Then, she'd sleep the entire day till about 7pm. And then, she'd get hungry again. Sometimes, she tends to get a bit annoying like when she starts running in and out of the house and bringing dirt and dust all over the place. She tends to be noisy too at times especially when she sees bats or insects inside or outside the house.
Today, I finally had the courage to talk to Shu about it. I know that it hurts him more than it hurts me to let Pebbles go. Shu said her new owner has other Persian cats as well and she seemed to have adjusted herself as soon as she walked into her new home. Shu even called the dude up today asking about how Pebbles is doing. So far, she seems to be fine.
As much as I was sad to have let her go, I was much more disappointed in myself for putting Pebbles through all this. Shu hated the fact that she wasn't treated as well as she deserved to be treated. It's not like we'd get physical with the cats but the fact that we'd lose our temper and start getting all angry at her is just not something she deserves.
I've never yelled at her or touched her when ever she does something wrong but I feel like she deserves a more comfortable home and that we cannot provide her such. If we didn't love her, we wouldn't have spent over a thousand bucks on stuff for her and Georg.
I was thinking to myself that if we had never met, she wouldn't have had to go through all this and I would have been able to spare myself the pain of losing her. It hurts so much more than having someone died. I was so depressed and sad that I couldn't be alone without shedding a tear. I keep seeing her around the house since I spent the last couple of weeks sleeping out in the lounge with her.
I am so sorry, Pebbles.
Friday, January 04, 2013
44 days countdown
Went to see the Gynea yesterday morning. I felt like I was gonna collapse coz I was rushing for the appointment that I didn't bother eating first. So my blood pressure was a bit low. I've put on another 600g. So overall I have actually put on about 6kg. I think the baby weighs about 1.9kg now. He may sound small but he is definitely filling up space in my tummy. I asked my Gynea about the symptoms and pain I have been going through and she said its normal. I am actually considered to be on the luckier side compared to other pregnant women. My hemoglobin count was less so I was instructed to change my supplements just until I give birth. I am after all a bit on the anemic side.
I still have problems eating red meat and eggs but so far chicken is alright. I have been desperately trying to change my sleeping routine back to the way it was because in the last couple of weeks, I have been sleeping at about 3am and waking up for Subuh prayers and then falling back asleep till just before Zuhr prayers. I am eating much less portions of food but much more frequently throughout the day.I can't sleep on the bed anymore so I have been pretty much on the couch most of the days and nights.
I think if my bodyaches don't go away after giving birth, I may need to schedule an appointment with a chiropractor :-/
I still have problems eating red meat and eggs but so far chicken is alright. I have been desperately trying to change my sleeping routine back to the way it was because in the last couple of weeks, I have been sleeping at about 3am and waking up for Subuh prayers and then falling back asleep till just before Zuhr prayers. I am eating much less portions of food but much more frequently throughout the day.I can't sleep on the bed anymore so I have been pretty much on the couch most of the days and nights.
I think if my bodyaches don't go away after giving birth, I may need to schedule an appointment with a chiropractor :-/
Sunday, December 30, 2012
35 it is!
Shu and I were in the car and as usual we were looking at random cars on the road and commenting on them. We'd usually begin with how they sound -looking at their exhaust pipes- and then guessing their engine specs and so on. What happened tonight was Shu decided to pass another "mid-life crisis" remark.
SO......what I said next was "I would like to see what you (Shu) would be driving when you hit 30 onwards" And his comeback was "I won't have such problems coz I dress my age........." His theory is that people with mid-life crisis are often people who try to grow up or rather dress up older than they are and halfway through the growing up process, they decided that they wanted to dress like a younger person again.
A theory is a theory. We have time to see how this will turn out. Haha! I admit to being a bit of an eccentric but at least I am consistent about being eccentric and yes, maybe at some point I may turn out a bit weird to some people but we'll just see how you would turn out ok,Love ;)
SO......what I said next was "I would like to see what you (Shu) would be driving when you hit 30 onwards" And his comeback was "I won't have such problems coz I dress my age........." His theory is that people with mid-life crisis are often people who try to grow up or rather dress up older than they are and halfway through the growing up process, they decided that they wanted to dress like a younger person again.
A theory is a theory. We have time to see how this will turn out. Haha! I admit to being a bit of an eccentric but at least I am consistent about being eccentric and yes, maybe at some point I may turn out a bit weird to some people but we'll just see how you would turn out ok,Love ;)
Thursday, December 27, 2012
53 days and counting
My tummy isn't that huge according to most people but I feel like I am gonna pop real soon. I've heard stories from friends and family about how they did not see the baby coming and the next thing they know, they were rushing to the hospital. I kinda like to not panic or freak out coz I know myself better than anyone and when I do freak out, things could get messy.
My butt hurts. Maybe its coz my pelvic is expanding and so my bones are moving, making way for the coming baby. I am estimating the baby would weigh about 2.5-3kg. I read that the bigger they are, the more pain. Well, labor is pain. It is said to be the most painful of all pain one could ever imagine. I try not to think about it.
I have been trying to keep myself occupied with small chores around the house like cleaning the dishes and doing laundry and ironing clothes. On better days, I would vacuum the floor. I have problems sleeping at night in the last couple of weeks.I can't sleep on the bed anymore so I have been pretty much falling asleep on the couch. My legs hurt when I sleep on beds. No idea why.
I've been watching a lot of animal documentaries lately. They keep me happy. I have been missing my cats. Georg, especially. He's always doing something funny. Pebbles does a lot of strange things. Speaking of cats, we saw 2 kittens downstairs under the abandoned car near the dump area of our house. They look really cute and they must be cold and hungry. Maybe I should bring some food down the next time I ever go down. God knows when that would be.
Anywho, I am still obsessed with laundry and it frustrates me when my clothes does not dry when I want them to :-/
I need to get the baby clothes washed and packed by next week. I should get my overnight bag ready just as much. I have a check up next week and it MIGHT be my last. I am just bracing myself and hoping for the best.
My butt hurts. Maybe its coz my pelvic is expanding and so my bones are moving, making way for the coming baby. I am estimating the baby would weigh about 2.5-3kg. I read that the bigger they are, the more pain. Well, labor is pain. It is said to be the most painful of all pain one could ever imagine. I try not to think about it.
I have been trying to keep myself occupied with small chores around the house like cleaning the dishes and doing laundry and ironing clothes. On better days, I would vacuum the floor. I have problems sleeping at night in the last couple of weeks.I can't sleep on the bed anymore so I have been pretty much falling asleep on the couch. My legs hurt when I sleep on beds. No idea why.
I've been watching a lot of animal documentaries lately. They keep me happy. I have been missing my cats. Georg, especially. He's always doing something funny. Pebbles does a lot of strange things. Speaking of cats, we saw 2 kittens downstairs under the abandoned car near the dump area of our house. They look really cute and they must be cold and hungry. Maybe I should bring some food down the next time I ever go down. God knows when that would be.
Anywho, I am still obsessed with laundry and it frustrates me when my clothes does not dry when I want them to :-/
I need to get the baby clothes washed and packed by next week. I should get my overnight bag ready just as much. I have a check up next week and it MIGHT be my last. I am just bracing myself and hoping for the best.
Thursday, December 13, 2012
2 years of growing up
I was just talking to Shu the other night about how much the 2 years of being married has changed us and made us grow up eventhough in our minds we are the 16-year-olds we were when we first met. We fought and cried and many things happened to get us to where we are today and yet, our lives are still in the midst of changing again real soon.
Shu managed to not only change himself but changed me as well. I learned what it is to be a wife and to be a Muslim. I have more family members who love me and care for me. I have in-laws who are always looking out for us. I have new siblings who are constantly checking on how we are doing and providing us advice for issues we require some help with. I have family members who are constantly praying for us.
Shu has opened me up to the world of mosques. We can be anywhere and when it is time to pray, we would visit mosques which is something I was not used to. I wasn't sure how to perform certain prayers and he taught me how it is done. He's exposed me to so many ways of learning the religion from scratch.
I made the decision to cover myself up this year only because I realize just how much I love Shu and that the last thing I would ever want to do is to have him suffer more from my sins. We are not perfect and we make mistakes and for as long as we live, we will keep making mistakes but I just want to make sure that if he has to suffer at all, it is not caused by me.
Shu managed to not only change himself but changed me as well. I learned what it is to be a wife and to be a Muslim. I have more family members who love me and care for me. I have in-laws who are always looking out for us. I have new siblings who are constantly checking on how we are doing and providing us advice for issues we require some help with. I have family members who are constantly praying for us.
Shu has opened me up to the world of mosques. We can be anywhere and when it is time to pray, we would visit mosques which is something I was not used to. I wasn't sure how to perform certain prayers and he taught me how it is done. He's exposed me to so many ways of learning the religion from scratch.
I made the decision to cover myself up this year only because I realize just how much I love Shu and that the last thing I would ever want to do is to have him suffer more from my sins. We are not perfect and we make mistakes and for as long as we live, we will keep making mistakes but I just want to make sure that if he has to suffer at all, it is not caused by me.
Wednesday, December 12, 2012
update ^_^
- I have loads of mosquito and insect bites on my arms and legs that I am beginning to look like a leopard.
- I am back to my insomniac self. Actually, I can't sleep due to my inability to breathe properly when I sleep in certain positions. The cramps I get from my legs also wake me from my sleep from time to time which suck.
- I got myself another massage slot today. It's only my second time. I was desperate. The pain from my hips are killing me and it's been creeping up all the way to my neck.
- I met my sister-in-law who is one month (pregnant) ahead of me and her gynea tells her she may have to be induced within the next few weeks. I have about 68 days to go and I am nervous as hell.
- I am about 7 months +- pregnant now and I put on about 6kg. I read that I am supposed to be putting on at least 10kg by the end of my pregnancy but since the gynea says that my baby is fine and is growing according to schedule, I am guessing that things are OK.
- Managed to do a bit more shopping for the baby. I hope we have everything. Someone once told Shu that we have 9 months to prepare ourselves mentally and physically for the arrival of the baby. Once the baby is born, there is no excuse for not being able to adjust ourselves. He has a point.
Monday, November 26, 2012
change
As we get older, our views towards a lot of things change. Most of the time, we hope its for the better. Many years ago, my sister and I would sit somewhere (probably a mamak) and just chat away about our views and opinions about many things pertaining to our lives. We were always in agreement with one another eventhough it may not be up to the same degree. She had always been the humanitarian and I've been an animal lover all my life.
We'd talk about our brothers, our parents, our family and the people that we love. I remember us talking about comfort zones and how difficult it is for one to change and eventually leave one part of their lives in order to move on into the unknown. We were young and still living with our parents and having to sell the house and my dad losing his job was the biggest change we'd ever had to go through because it was all that we've ever known. Alongside that was also the issue of the world of politics which was constantly pestering us as we don't share the same political views with our parents. Either ways, we've always had each other.
Years later, I got married and moved out and started living a completely different life. I was adjusting to a lot of things in the last couple of years and so was my sister. It's funny how I always thought she'd be the first one to marry and not me. Anywho, her decision to further her studies in Australia separated us for a bit and when I got pregnant, I felt like it wasn't the same when I'd go to my mum's and have pregnancy chats and she's not around. Little did I know was that in the couple of years whereby I was busy getting myself adjusted to my new life and all, she too was going through a spiritual path.
When she came back last week, we finally met up and just chatted at a nearby cafe. Yes, we were talking about the changes we were going through. Yes, we are still on the same page. We just have much more difficult problems at hand. Delicate problems. But we are willing to work together on sorting things out for the sake of our family.
The last thing we talked about before calling it a day was how good Shu had been to me as a husband and as great support. She liked the idea that I married my best friend and that marriage didn't change our friendship and instead, it made us open up to one another even more. I hope she'll find someone who will share her dreams and views and would take good care of her ^_^ I love my sister.
We'd talk about our brothers, our parents, our family and the people that we love. I remember us talking about comfort zones and how difficult it is for one to change and eventually leave one part of their lives in order to move on into the unknown. We were young and still living with our parents and having to sell the house and my dad losing his job was the biggest change we'd ever had to go through because it was all that we've ever known. Alongside that was also the issue of the world of politics which was constantly pestering us as we don't share the same political views with our parents. Either ways, we've always had each other.
Years later, I got married and moved out and started living a completely different life. I was adjusting to a lot of things in the last couple of years and so was my sister. It's funny how I always thought she'd be the first one to marry and not me. Anywho, her decision to further her studies in Australia separated us for a bit and when I got pregnant, I felt like it wasn't the same when I'd go to my mum's and have pregnancy chats and she's not around. Little did I know was that in the couple of years whereby I was busy getting myself adjusted to my new life and all, she too was going through a spiritual path.
When she came back last week, we finally met up and just chatted at a nearby cafe. Yes, we were talking about the changes we were going through. Yes, we are still on the same page. We just have much more difficult problems at hand. Delicate problems. But we are willing to work together on sorting things out for the sake of our family.
The last thing we talked about before calling it a day was how good Shu had been to me as a husband and as great support. She liked the idea that I married my best friend and that marriage didn't change our friendship and instead, it made us open up to one another even more. I hope she'll find someone who will share her dreams and views and would take good care of her ^_^ I love my sister.
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
for dear life
I am aware that mortality is something we can never fight or predict and should the world end before we'd ever get to meet, I just want to tell you that we had been waiting for you for so long that it feels like forever.
I am willing to go through the pain just to know that you are alright and that I would do anything for you.
We love you with all our hearts even though our brief meetings had only been in dreams.
I am willing to go through the pain just to know that you are alright and that I would do anything for you.
We love you with all our hearts even though our brief meetings had only been in dreams.
Thursday, November 08, 2012
4D scan
Went for our 6th month check up today. Got a Tetanus shot. My gynea laughed at me for being so blur. Later on, we headed over to a polyclinic in SK to get a 4D scan done. It was exciting! ^_^
Thursday, October 25, 2012
moments
- Before I discovered I was pregnant, I thought I was putting weight and that I couldn't fit into my jeans anymore :p
- As my tummy grow bigger, I feel funny whenever I realize that I can't see my toes anymore.
- I have awkward sleeping position issues now that my tummy is so much bigger than before.
- When I first felt the baby kicking, I was sitting on the single chair in the house in Bangi watching TV. I thought my tummy was popping like gastric.
- My baby kicks the hardest when I am about to relax or doze off to sleep.
- Shu has only felt the baby kicking once. It was a really strong kick.
- I cried when I first heard the baby's heartbeat during an ultrasound while I was hospitalized.
- The baby was jumping all the time during the first few times I had an ultrasound.
- My first trimester didn't go too well but everytime I thought I was dying and went to the hospital to check on the baby, he is jumping and fine.
saying goodbye
2 years is most probably the most commitment I have ever given when it comes to work. All seems good on the surface but I am slowly decaying of boredom. I don't know if I did it all myself or if it is someone else's fault but I just need to get away from all this and do something completely new. I feel like my mind cannot expand being there. The same people I encounter would be talking about the same old things no matter how many times I've suggested solutions for them even though I didn't have to.
I seem to have that effect on people. Everyone just stops by at my cubicle and start talking to me about their problems regardless if its work related or personal. At times, I really don't mind but if you come back over and over with the same problem, it tends to get annoying. If a lot of other people have managed to move on, why can't you? I must admit, getting sick and getting things done from home has given me a lot of space for myself and not have to get engaged with annoying conversations anymore.
Again, I am not sure if my decision to leave is solely based on my boredom of working in an office environment or if it is caused by other individuals. Sometimes the lines are blurry. I have my own problems to think about and I just refuse to be found. Hahahaha..........Does that even make sense?
All I know is at this point, I can clearly see that I have absolutely no interest in the world of IT and computers. Most of the time, I know the things regarding computers only because they relate to the things that I do. I am just not interested in getting certificates like ITIL or CCNA. If I was interested in them, I would have gone ahead and spend the last 6 years of my life getting a degree in IT :-/
I seem to have that effect on people. Everyone just stops by at my cubicle and start talking to me about their problems regardless if its work related or personal. At times, I really don't mind but if you come back over and over with the same problem, it tends to get annoying. If a lot of other people have managed to move on, why can't you? I must admit, getting sick and getting things done from home has given me a lot of space for myself and not have to get engaged with annoying conversations anymore.
Again, I am not sure if my decision to leave is solely based on my boredom of working in an office environment or if it is caused by other individuals. Sometimes the lines are blurry. I have my own problems to think about and I just refuse to be found. Hahahaha..........Does that even make sense?
All I know is at this point, I can clearly see that I have absolutely no interest in the world of IT and computers. Most of the time, I know the things regarding computers only because they relate to the things that I do. I am just not interested in getting certificates like ITIL or CCNA. If I was interested in them, I would have gone ahead and spend the last 6 years of my life getting a degree in IT :-/
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
quench my thirst with gasoline
It's weird how I started playing the guitar back when I was 13 and my influences were mostly pop bands like Hanson and The Moffatts. After that there were Blink 182 and Sum 41 and Greenday and Sugarcult.
When I started going for guitar lessons, I found that my guitar teacher loves Metallica. I'm not talking about just one of my guitar teachers. I'm saying all of them. I mean it's not like we were constantly covering Metallica all the time. There were times we'd play Deep Purple and sometimes some random single from some random band.Well, I like Iron Maiden as well but depending on who my band mates are at the time, I wouldn't be able to play metal music all the time.
Anywho, my world was opened to Metallica when I saw S&M on tv. I was thinking that hey,that's not a bad song at all. Then I got hooked for good. Of course, I discovered other bands along the way like Coheed and Cambria which I super love!!!! Oh! And then, there was Justin Hawkins and The Darkness! After that there were Franz Ferdinand and Black Tide. Woah! I love Black Tide! Not to forget Red Hot Chilli Peppers and Korn and Limp Bizkit and System of a Down and Incubus.........
When I started going for guitar lessons, I found that my guitar teacher loves Metallica. I'm not talking about just one of my guitar teachers. I'm saying all of them. I mean it's not like we were constantly covering Metallica all the time. There were times we'd play Deep Purple and sometimes some random single from some random band.Well, I like Iron Maiden as well but depending on who my band mates are at the time, I wouldn't be able to play metal music all the time.
Anywho, my world was opened to Metallica when I saw S&M on tv. I was thinking that hey,that's not a bad song at all. Then I got hooked for good. Of course, I discovered other bands along the way like Coheed and Cambria which I super love!!!! Oh! And then, there was Justin Hawkins and The Darkness! After that there were Franz Ferdinand and Black Tide. Woah! I love Black Tide! Not to forget Red Hot Chilli Peppers and Korn and Limp Bizkit and System of a Down and Incubus.........
Monday, October 15, 2012
Baby name
Although we have already thought of the baby name(s) long before I got pregnant, last weekend, Shu's family finally found out what our baby's name is ^_^ and everyone loves it.
Monday, October 08, 2012
South Bound
Shu and I were on the verge of going insane so we decided to take a trip down south. I have relatives there and there are new things to do and explore at the same time. We took leaves on Thursday and Friday and stayed on till Saturday.
We arrived in Johor at about 6pm and checked in to our hotel. Cleaned up and rested a little and headed out for food. Then a little later, we drove around trying to look for roads for where we were heading the next day. We eventually lost our way and headed back to town. We ended up hanging around Danga Bay having drinks while watching everyone else eating and walking and just going on and off the colorful rides nearby. Danga Bay is calmer on week nights compared to weekends. After that we headed back to our hotel and slept.
The next morning we got up early and had breakfast. Then we got ready to head over to Legoland. I knew that I wasn't gonna be allowed on a lot of rides since I'm pregnant and all but we just wanted to take a look and what the hype was all about. Legoland wasn't far at all. I would suggest parking your cars at the Medina Mall parking area rather than having to walk all the way from the other end of the parking area just to get to the entrance.
Legoland was fun but it would be funner if we already had our son and that he's about 3 years of age coz then, he'd be able to enjoy the kiddie rides and playgrounds all over the park. It was a great experience and we had a blast walking all over the park.The rides we tried were fun and unique.It would have been funner if my sister-in-laws were to join in with their kids.
Anywho, at about 3 in the afternoon we were done with the park and headed back to the hotel.The plan that night was to meet up with my cousins and aunties.There was a breakdown in communication so we ended meeting only half the people we were supposed to have met that night.It was pretty fun though.
We got up the next day,had breakfast and packed up and checked out. Then we headed over to my grandmother's house to see her and my aunty.Stayed for a bit and then we headed out to the Johor Premium Outlet which was all the way out in the middle of nowhere.
We just wanted to see what it was all about but we didn't shop much coz we weren't planning on getting anything at the time.Yes,the things are cheap.We ended up having drinks and a slice of cheese cake over at the Coffee Bean. Then we headed back to KL.
We stopped by at Machap R&R for lunch and prayers. The surau there is nice. Our next stop was very near Cyberjaya. We just needed to stop for prayers and then we headed back to Bangi.Had something to eat and then went home.
It was fun ^_^
Oh yeah,I was at my mum's yesterday and we got to meet Fluffy who is the kitten my dad rescued from the drain in front of our house. She's so small and fluffy and playful. She and Kutip and Chomel and Persky are now the best of friends.
We arrived in Johor at about 6pm and checked in to our hotel. Cleaned up and rested a little and headed out for food. Then a little later, we drove around trying to look for roads for where we were heading the next day. We eventually lost our way and headed back to town. We ended up hanging around Danga Bay having drinks while watching everyone else eating and walking and just going on and off the colorful rides nearby. Danga Bay is calmer on week nights compared to weekends. After that we headed back to our hotel and slept.
The next morning we got up early and had breakfast. Then we got ready to head over to Legoland. I knew that I wasn't gonna be allowed on a lot of rides since I'm pregnant and all but we just wanted to take a look and what the hype was all about. Legoland wasn't far at all. I would suggest parking your cars at the Medina Mall parking area rather than having to walk all the way from the other end of the parking area just to get to the entrance.
Legoland was fun but it would be funner if we already had our son and that he's about 3 years of age coz then, he'd be able to enjoy the kiddie rides and playgrounds all over the park. It was a great experience and we had a blast walking all over the park.The rides we tried were fun and unique.It would have been funner if my sister-in-laws were to join in with their kids.
Anywho, at about 3 in the afternoon we were done with the park and headed back to the hotel.The plan that night was to meet up with my cousins and aunties.There was a breakdown in communication so we ended meeting only half the people we were supposed to have met that night.It was pretty fun though.
We got up the next day,had breakfast and packed up and checked out. Then we headed over to my grandmother's house to see her and my aunty.Stayed for a bit and then we headed out to the Johor Premium Outlet which was all the way out in the middle of nowhere.
We just wanted to see what it was all about but we didn't shop much coz we weren't planning on getting anything at the time.Yes,the things are cheap.We ended up having drinks and a slice of cheese cake over at the Coffee Bean. Then we headed back to KL.
We stopped by at Machap R&R for lunch and prayers. The surau there is nice. Our next stop was very near Cyberjaya. We just needed to stop for prayers and then we headed back to Bangi.Had something to eat and then went home.
It was fun ^_^
Oh yeah,I was at my mum's yesterday and we got to meet Fluffy who is the kitten my dad rescued from the drain in front of our house. She's so small and fluffy and playful. She and Kutip and Chomel and Persky are now the best of friends.
Wednesday, September 26, 2012
things
I'm liking:-
- baby clothes coz they are so colorful! ^_^
- baby cribs and playpens coz they are so colorful! >_<
- pashminas
- Yankees Hut's fried mushrooms
- sleep and beds
- TV Al-Hijrah coz I find a lot of their programs helpful and informative
- Upin & Ipin tv series- betul betul betul!!!
- plain water-cold or warm
- CHOCOLATES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- tummy rubs
- ironing and laundry
- spying on Georg and other cats
>.< I LOVE SHU!!!!!
Friday, September 07, 2012
Baby stuff survey and pre-shopping
It's been a strange transition overall. I have to suddenly get myself updated with all these things for maternity and nursing and baby care. I am slowly getting used to it. Slowly. Shu's sisters and my friends have been great help and a lot of people have been providing a lot of information based on experience and stuff.I just need to narrow down the important things first when the baby arrives. I know it's a bit early but you can never be too sure.I might accidentally miss some things out.
Well, yeah. Baby things are all so colorful and yummy looking. My mum has been keeping a lookout on playpens and strollers although,I don't think a stroller is necessary yet.A colleague of mine have been helpful about breastfeeding tips.A friend of mine gave me loads of info about being in confinement and things the baby will need.
I still can't believe I have a baby in my tummy and that I am going to be mom! O_o
Well, yeah. Baby things are all so colorful and yummy looking. My mum has been keeping a lookout on playpens and strollers although,I don't think a stroller is necessary yet.A colleague of mine have been helpful about breastfeeding tips.A friend of mine gave me loads of info about being in confinement and things the baby will need.
I still can't believe I have a baby in my tummy and that I am going to be mom! O_o
Wednesday, September 05, 2012
Husband
My husband and I have known eachother since we were 16.It's insane to think how far back that was looking at where we are now.I admit to being a pain in the ass. I was back then,I still am now although not as often (hopefully).He's always supportive of me no matter what I do but the best thing about him is that he is constantly steering me into the right direction (considerating the fact that I tend to get insane and make decisions in the spur of the moment).
Yes,we fought a lot in the last couple of years of being married and even before that.I would say most of our fights are over the tiniest things which I can hardly remember.Other times,we fight over things to make things better for the both of us.I am childish,I'll admit that.
He's been taking really good care of me especially now that I am pregnant and all.My parents told me that I would never find someone who would take care of me as much as he does.It's true.I can hardly take care of myself and I wouldn't know what I would do without him.
Honestly,I cannot imagine myself being married to anyone else.
Yes,we fought a lot in the last couple of years of being married and even before that.I would say most of our fights are over the tiniest things which I can hardly remember.Other times,we fight over things to make things better for the both of us.I am childish,I'll admit that.
He's been taking really good care of me especially now that I am pregnant and all.My parents told me that I would never find someone who would take care of me as much as he does.It's true.I can hardly take care of myself and I wouldn't know what I would do without him.
Honestly,I cannot imagine myself being married to anyone else.
Tuesday, September 04, 2012
Pregnancy and being pregnant
Before I discovered I was pregnant, I really thought I was probably putting on weight starting with my tummy area. It's usually flat unless I have gastrict or something. I just couldn't figure out why it was bulging out the way it did. It wasn't obvious but because I know my body so well, I knew that something was wrong. Luckily, I did a pregnancy test first before jumping into my running shoes or I could have lost the baby.
So yes,it just after our second year anniversary and I discovered I was pregnant.We were so psyched! I was partially freaking out.I still am.I wasn't sure what to expect.I wasn't sure what needed to be done.One thing I did realize was that I suddenly realize how badly I took care of myself health wise.I was thin not because I was healthy but because I was constantly neglecting my needs especially where food is concerned.I just wasn't big on eating and it wasn't something I was much interested in.
When I got into my first trimester, I was sick.My hormones were changing drastically and I was sick. I was constantly throwing up.I couldn't eat the food I used to like.Things which had the scents that I like made me so sick that I would throw up.I hardly use perfume anymore coz they make me sick.I hate the smell of that Ambi Pur we hang in our cupboards.I can't wear anything with the slightest smell of that.
Then,I got hospitalized several times due to dehydration from all the throwing up.My body wouldn't let me drink plain water.I couldn't eat pretty much anything.It was horrible.But throughout it all,I was constantly praying and hoping that my baby would be ok.And he was.In fact,he was jumping everytime we had an ultrasound scan.I was almost in tears when I first heard his heartbeat.He seems like a happy baby.I hope he is.
Now I am 16 weeks into my pregnancy.I am not throwing up as much as I used to although,my gastrict problem is still pretty severe.I have to constantly feed myself which is a bit hard to do.I have also been losing weight instead of putting on weight and because of that,my baby is about a week smaller than the size he ought to be.I'm trying to feed him and myself but it's just not that easy.My gastrict needs to be tamed in order for me to get my diet back on track.
So yes,it just after our second year anniversary and I discovered I was pregnant.We were so psyched! I was partially freaking out.I still am.I wasn't sure what to expect.I wasn't sure what needed to be done.One thing I did realize was that I suddenly realize how badly I took care of myself health wise.I was thin not because I was healthy but because I was constantly neglecting my needs especially where food is concerned.I just wasn't big on eating and it wasn't something I was much interested in.
When I got into my first trimester, I was sick.My hormones were changing drastically and I was sick. I was constantly throwing up.I couldn't eat the food I used to like.Things which had the scents that I like made me so sick that I would throw up.I hardly use perfume anymore coz they make me sick.I hate the smell of that Ambi Pur we hang in our cupboards.I can't wear anything with the slightest smell of that.
Then,I got hospitalized several times due to dehydration from all the throwing up.My body wouldn't let me drink plain water.I couldn't eat pretty much anything.It was horrible.But throughout it all,I was constantly praying and hoping that my baby would be ok.And he was.In fact,he was jumping everytime we had an ultrasound scan.I was almost in tears when I first heard his heartbeat.He seems like a happy baby.I hope he is.
Now I am 16 weeks into my pregnancy.I am not throwing up as much as I used to although,my gastrict problem is still pretty severe.I have to constantly feed myself which is a bit hard to do.I have also been losing weight instead of putting on weight and because of that,my baby is about a week smaller than the size he ought to be.I'm trying to feed him and myself but it's just not that easy.My gastrict needs to be tamed in order for me to get my diet back on track.
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Friday, December 02, 2011
rant
How would you justify the shit I am in right now..........no wait, the shit I deal with and have been dealing for over a year?
I have been dealing with this shit and it is high time I put my foot down. If I had it my way,I would have had them both fired. Sure,we'll be a bit shorthanded but haven't we been this way all this while? What difference would it make anyways?
Firstly,I would propose the idea of getting of the both of them. Then,I would recommend solutions.This would mean,I would either need to suggest new members or find ways to dealing with the short-handedness.
When I say too many variables makes things complicated,this is what I meant.I'm not saying quantity is not a good thing.If the quantity can ensure productivity and progress,it is most definitely a good thing.Seriously,in the reality of it all this is highly unlikely.
I personally do NOT recommend hiring students because they are unreliable.ENTIRELY.
I am currently dealing with 4 students right now and I seriously do NOT want them in the team.
I suggest that we get rid of them once and for all and hire people who may not have skills YET but at the very least shows up for work.
It's all about the attitude.
Thursday, December 01, 2011
funny purring sounds
Georg and Pebbles have been getting it on a little too much these days. They have been driving us insane. Us, the people they live with. Us, the only 2 human beings in this house!
AAAAARGH!
I didn't think mating season would be so difficult to deal with!
There's fur all over the place! The make a whole lot of noise! Sometimes to the extent of us not being able to fall asleep AT ALL!
I sure hope the neighbors won't start complaining or both of them kittehs will have to hit the road!
Sunday, November 27, 2011
either pregnant or just fat
I have this bump on my tummy. I don't know if its a baby bump or just fat that I cannot get rid of. I have my usual ways to get rid of tummy indigestion but this is something else. I have also been craving for things I usually wouldn't eat. I can't sleep properly at night.
The worst part is that the test kits still shows negative.
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
the big P
Shu and I have been trying to get me pregnant. No luck so far. I want a baby boy named Yusuf.
Shu wants a baby girl...........or boy........Either ways..........we have names already....
I tested negative again.
Will keep trying.
Shu wants a baby girl...........or boy........Either ways..........we have names already....
I tested negative again.
Will keep trying.
Friday, November 11, 2011
My Avril Tribute: Her vidz I love over the years
Complicated
Hurmm.........I guess I really don't like her newer vidz and songs.
Been a fan since she first came out. Still a fan but only of her songs. Not all her vidz are as they used to be.
I still sing her songs. All of them.
Winning Eleven on the Ps3
Shu switches games from time to time but this game is the funniest I've seen him play so far. I'm not a soccer fan but he is so annoyed when he is right in front of the goal and misses the shot.
Oh well......
I've been super sick. It sucks to be coughing like this especially during an interview. It just sucks to coughing so badly when it makes it hard for you to breathe. It sucks to be waking up in the middle of the night to just cough about 15 minutes straight and then try so hard to fall back asleep.
I am getting rid of my tonsils once and for all.
So long tonsils! You are irreparable and have caused me so much pain and suffering. It is time for you to be gone for good.
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
my dad
My dad called my cellphone and called Shu's phone but it was either we were asleep or we were cooking at the time so we didn't pick up. Thinking that there was an emergency, I called him back after maghrib. Since we couldn't get through to his phone, I called my mum instead.
As usual, my mum would answer my call by saying, "Hey baby. Is everything ok?" Then I asked her why my dad called us,she said "oh" and passed the phone to him. Then my dad said "Listen to this!" He puts the phone down and plays Oh Carol. His guitar sounded different.
After that he picked up the phone again and I asked him what that was. He happily said he got himself a ukelele. HAH! First he saw a ukelele book for beginners at the shop when he sent my brother to his drums class. He read the book and finally decided to try it on my sister's ukelele she got from being the best speaker in Hawaii some years ago. Later, he discovered that that wasn't a real ukelele so he decided to get himself a proper one.
He picked up a brand new ukelele at about MYR250 inlcuding a hard case and a CD guide. HAH!He taught himself to play the ukelele in just 2 days!
As usual, my mum would answer my call by saying, "Hey baby. Is everything ok?" Then I asked her why my dad called us,she said "oh" and passed the phone to him. Then my dad said "Listen to this!" He puts the phone down and plays Oh Carol. His guitar sounded different.
After that he picked up the phone again and I asked him what that was. He happily said he got himself a ukelele. HAH! First he saw a ukelele book for beginners at the shop when he sent my brother to his drums class. He read the book and finally decided to try it on my sister's ukelele she got from being the best speaker in Hawaii some years ago. Later, he discovered that that wasn't a real ukelele so he decided to get himself a proper one.
He picked up a brand new ukelele at about MYR250 inlcuding a hard case and a CD guide. HAH!He taught himself to play the ukelele in just 2 days!
Friday, October 21, 2011
officially sold
We managed to sell off the Kelisa. I liked that car and we only kept it for a year. It has a new paint job and we changed the suspensions and it has an awesome pair of windshield wipers. I am gonna miss that car :'(
Anywho,hopefully all goes well after this.
P.S.:- My aunt is getting married in December and I am super psyched about it! ^_^
Anywho,hopefully all goes well after this.
P.S.:- My aunt is getting married in December and I am super psyched about it! ^_^
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
here comes the sun
Met up with some of my schoolmates at one of schoolmate's wedding last weekend. It's strange and funny at the same time coz thinking that we've drifted apart and stuff, we were all in the same school and we are all living in TTDI (most of us still do).It was fun ^_^
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
USS
Universal Studios Singapore was AWESOME! You have to be there and experience it yourself!
The Singapore trip was tiring but it was super fun!
The currency exchange was a bit painful but you gotta keep it out of your head to enjoy yourself. The best way to deal with it is to change the amount of cash you are planning to splash there and everything else will fall into place.
I know,shopping at the duty free airport with my mum and aunt and uncle went way overboard but it was super fun to do. Especially when we splurged on chocolates!Hahahaha!
Oh yeah,Shu got me a new pair of Charles & Keith. UBER NICE! I've always wanted a pair of heels like those! My husband has an awesome taste when it comes to shoes! I SUPER LURVE IT!
My cousin's wedding we attended was fun. Met up with my family and everyone had a blast.
Monday, September 26, 2011
drawing again
It's been quite some time since I last had my pencil sharpened and pulled out a fresh page on my drawing book. I could be sick and alone but once I start drawing, I can't tell when I'd stop. And I sometimes go to the extent of pausing videos and stuff just so that I could either draw what I see or get some new inspiration from what ever it is I see.
Psycho.
I think this is what stress does to me.
I'll take over the world someday. For now, I'll draw ^_^
Monday, September 19, 2011
chilling out
I love spending weekends and off days at home. A lot of things can be done and we get to clean up the place. I love the weekly floor mopping sessions. I am addicted to the floor cleaner scent. Not sure if it's a good thing.
I've been spending way too much time these days getting into little fights with Georg.He wants to take on me standing on his two hind legs.He's insane!He'd attack me every now and then whenever I pass by.He'd step onto the book while I am reading and pretends that he hasn't done anything wrong.
Speaking of Georg,he hasn't bath this week due to the rain.He's been scratching himself all over. The problem with having a feather duster-like cat is that he tends to trap every spec of dust in the house.And it doesn't help when he rolls around on the balcony outside coz that's where most of the dust comes from :/
Anywho, I am looking forward to the leave in October ^_^
I've been spending way too much time these days getting into little fights with Georg.He wants to take on me standing on his two hind legs.He's insane!He'd attack me every now and then whenever I pass by.He'd step onto the book while I am reading and pretends that he hasn't done anything wrong.
Speaking of Georg,he hasn't bath this week due to the rain.He's been scratching himself all over. The problem with having a feather duster-like cat is that he tends to trap every spec of dust in the house.And it doesn't help when he rolls around on the balcony outside coz that's where most of the dust comes from :/
Anywho, I am looking forward to the leave in October ^_^
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
some people
Some people are just ungrateful. It's hard to deal with people like these coz they tend to block out everyone else's views and only want to believe theirs. They complain. Complain. And complain. Are they doing anything about it? I don't think so. And when people offer a second opinion or just a point of view, they would reject it. Ok. No harm in trying. The best is for these people to just isolate themselves and just live away from people including their families coz even their families are not able to keep to their standard of living it seems. Strange, these people are still just people. They have wants. When you have wants, you have to work for it or towards it. It's not gonna come to you out of nowhere. It doesn't take a genius to figure that out.
Anywho, as I was saying, it's probably best to avoid these people. They are stubborn coz they refuse to change or make a change for that matter. They are selfish coz they are unable to think of anything or anyone else but themselves. Shallow coz they cannot seem to budge from where they are due to lack of the ability to change. And on top of it all, they are just ungrateful for everything that they have. They fail to see that there are people in far worse situations. There are people who have to work and provide for their families and at the same time not being able to complete their studies or get married for that matter. There are people who don't even have a house to live in. So, I would suggest that these people take a step back and look at everything around them and realize just how lucky they are.
Anywho, as I was saying, it's probably best to avoid these people. They are stubborn coz they refuse to change or make a change for that matter. They are selfish coz they are unable to think of anything or anyone else but themselves. Shallow coz they cannot seem to budge from where they are due to lack of the ability to change. And on top of it all, they are just ungrateful for everything that they have. They fail to see that there are people in far worse situations. There are people who have to work and provide for their families and at the same time not being able to complete their studies or get married for that matter. There are people who don't even have a house to live in. So, I would suggest that these people take a step back and look at everything around them and realize just how lucky they are.
Wednesday, September 07, 2011
HOME
I understand now what people mean when they say home is where the heart is. I love my home. In fact, I love it so much that I just wanna go home even when I'm at work. I live with 2 beings I love most in the entire world ^_^ and they make my home better everytime I hangout with them. Something about being at home makes me want to just lay back and say "we made the right choice".
Gone are the days when we used to have to deal with landlords and rents. No more people calling us telling us to give our hard earned cash to them.
We need a sofa................... I know, random. But we need one. Hahaha!
Gone are the days when we used to have to deal with landlords and rents. No more people calling us telling us to give our hard earned cash to them.
We need a sofa................... I know, random. But we need one. Hahaha!
Monday, September 05, 2011
smoking cigar on the hotel balcony
Hahahahaha!
If only we had weed!
Raya was fun while it lasted. The whole week is over now. Work starts tomorrow. I have a whole new list of things to do and get. Strange. I usually don't make lists. Then again, I don't smoke either. Hahaha! I just told Shu that I have never smoked a cigar before so he decided to stop by at the convenient store and got one of those Cuban cigars and we gave it a shot. It was fun. I was coughing so much and laughing.
Speaking of which, I was laughing so hard in the car a while ago thinking about Shu's mishaps for Friday prayers and random prayer times.
Oh yeah, the other day, I saw Shu's niece laughing out loud so hard about random things which made me laugh out loud too and the irony of it all was that everyone was trying to get her to be quiet. I couldn't help it. She was laughing so hard and it made me laugh out hard too :p
Anywho, Shu's folks are the nicest people I have ever met ^_^ and I had fun. The BBQ session my brother-in-laws had for us all was fun too. I had a blast.
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Georg: The silly kitten
Georg is still a baby. Attention seeker. Clumsy. Silly. Extremely grumpy around other cats.
Kit Kat used to want to play with him but he hated her. She's dead now. Georg is back to his happy self.
He knows we're not usually at home. He knows when we are up when we are in the bedroom. He likes to play tag with me.
Georg is also clumsy for a cat. He injured himself once and we left him at home IN the house. The vets think he's just being a drama king around Kit Kat. I think he's a wee bit clumsy.
Once, he was hanging around the lounge with us. He jumped onto the bean bag. All of a sudden, he fell to the floor. Weird.
Silly cat!
Kit Kat used to want to play with him but he hated her. She's dead now. Georg is back to his happy self.
He knows we're not usually at home. He knows when we are up when we are in the bedroom. He likes to play tag with me.
Georg is also clumsy for a cat. He injured himself once and we left him at home IN the house. The vets think he's just being a drama king around Kit Kat. I think he's a wee bit clumsy.
Once, he was hanging around the lounge with us. He jumped onto the bean bag. All of a sudden, he fell to the floor. Weird.
Silly cat!
Saturday, August 13, 2011
Foxburr's residence: Officially Moved
We have moved into our new home and this time, it's our home so there won't be any plans on moving anymore in the near future.Georg and Kit Kat loves the new place.I know that we've been putting them through a bit of hell since we were going in and out of cars and houses.We are officially at OUR home baby! All we need is to get it more organized and definitely decorate it.
Of course, more shopping for Georg and Kit Kat to prevent them from having to live in boarding hotels whenever we travel.
I super love our new bed.We're gonna need to get slighly bigger sheets after this.We still need to get the dry kitchen top fixed though.It will bug us.We need to completely get rid of what ever left overs left in the house which are not ours.It's just taking up space.
Anywho,it now takes us approximately 4 minutes to get to HP Campus.This is uber kool.
We're gonna keep touching up the place everynow and then.Planning on getting some hangout chairs to put out at the balcony.I was sitting out there this morning with Shu just talking.It is very peaceful.
I am loving our home ^_^
Of course, more shopping for Georg and Kit Kat to prevent them from having to live in boarding hotels whenever we travel.
I super love our new bed.We're gonna need to get slighly bigger sheets after this.We still need to get the dry kitchen top fixed though.It will bug us.We need to completely get rid of what ever left overs left in the house which are not ours.It's just taking up space.
Anywho,it now takes us approximately 4 minutes to get to HP Campus.This is uber kool.
We're gonna keep touching up the place everynow and then.Planning on getting some hangout chairs to put out at the balcony.I was sitting out there this morning with Shu just talking.It is very peaceful.
I am loving our home ^_^
Wednesday, August 03, 2011
moving forward
I am not fasting anymore..........and here I was trying to fast a full month PLUS not missing ANY Tarawikh prayers. Owh.....haha! Now, I am stuck with Georg and being the only 2 beings at home whom are not fasting :/
Period pain hurts! BIG TIME!
Still looking for a friend for Georg. He's insane. He's driving Shu and I insane. He and I play tag around the house and keeps bugging Shu whenever he's lying down on the couch watching TV. Georg has issues. I fell asleep today on the floor in the lounge and Shu was on the couch. I got up about an hour later to Georg's meowing calling to me. He was IN MY FACE! He wanted to cuddle so I cuddled with him as we both fell asleep on the floor. Later, he climbed up to Shu's legs and started pushing his way between the couch and Shu. Funny. Shu always has this problems with the cats we have.
Anywho, we decided to take him out for a ride later in the day. He was insane! He hates that cat outside the house who keeps meowing for food. He hates the fact that we feed that cat too even though she doesn't come into the house. He was staring out at the lights and the cars and even people.
Anywho, I can't wait to get started on the new house. Our bed should be arriving soon too. We need to fix the kitchen ASAP so that we can have our things moved into the place in time for Raya!
Yeyness!
^_^
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Friday, July 22, 2011
weekenders
Ravin was looking at the pictures in my phone and she (said this so many times already) said that Shu and I are either really3 bored or we just simply do not have much to do. I can't tell really. We work on weekdays and we're never home on weekends. We just got back from Johor last weekend. Went swimming and all. * OMG! I love swimming! *
I like how I thought I was going to die halfway through the week and now the week is finally ending. As much as I know it's gonna start over sooner than I think, I like taking my time knowing that I don't have anything to rush for ^_^
Anywho, I am SO LOOKING FORWARD TO NEXT MONTH'S PAY!
I am also in major need of focus since I do have a test......exam.......what ever it may be.....coming in the first week of August.
I also CANNOT wait to move into our new house!
My car is going to get some things fixed. My in-laws have been pushing Shu to get a new car.Haha! We will get a new car,we're just surveying still since a lot of cars are AT. I hate AT cars! We're keeping my car since it is so fuel efficient but I would really like to get Shu a car. I just want to get him a good,comfortable car.
And a scooter.........and a superbike (later in the future) and when he gets a superbike, I shall get myself one of them good old dirt bikes! YEAH!
I love swimming.......I cannot begin to explain just how much I love it ^_^
Saturday, July 09, 2011
Georg
Shu found him on an ad on Mudah.my. We were kitten hunting AGAIN. We tend to get insane when it comes to kittens. No idea why. We've resorted to carrying a cage in the car going around the neighbourhood looking for ANY cats which we think would fall for our trap once. Shu said he's gonna buy a cat for me this time.
I think he knew about my devastation over 2 kittens I found on petfinder.my. The fosterer had a point. We are about to move into our own place which is not a grounded house. She was worried if the kittens wouldn't have the space to run around :/ I kinda figured she wouldn't have wanted to let them go anyways since I first mentioned that we won't be living in a grounded house.
That's when Shu decided to google for kittens for sale and he came across Georg. He is mixed persian about 3 months old. He looks like a walking feather duster. The fact that he's so curious and playful just makes us love him so much more. We spent quite a lot on him apart from paying for him. It's all worth it.
I am planning to convert one of the rooms at our new place into his room so that he can have his space ^_^
I think he knew about my devastation over 2 kittens I found on petfinder.my. The fosterer had a point. We are about to move into our own place which is not a grounded house. She was worried if the kittens wouldn't have the space to run around :/ I kinda figured she wouldn't have wanted to let them go anyways since I first mentioned that we won't be living in a grounded house.
That's when Shu decided to google for kittens for sale and he came across Georg. He is mixed persian about 3 months old. He looks like a walking feather duster. The fact that he's so curious and playful just makes us love him so much more. We spent quite a lot on him apart from paying for him. It's all worth it.
I am planning to convert one of the rooms at our new place into his room so that he can have his space ^_^
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Metallica
That was what Foxburr-san talked to me about when he first called me back when we were 16.
Now,far from where we were back then,we'd still sing out loud and headbang at times in the car when we pop in the Metallica CD.
I love you Foxburr-san ^_^
Now,far from where we were back then,we'd still sing out loud and headbang at times in the car when we pop in the Metallica CD.
I love you Foxburr-san ^_^
Saturday, June 11, 2011
temporary move out
We've manage to move all our things out in less than 3 hours.Got the movers and packers to come over and pack all our stuff to Bangi.We're gonna stay there till our house is ready to be moved into ^_^
So yeah,we are temporary freeloaders for now.A HUGE house with just 2 people whom are ALWAYS stuck close with one another :p We have yet to get Shu's car from Cyberjaya.We didn't have the car keys with us yesterday.
Bangi isn't so bad since we're always there whenever we need substantial food.Non-junk based.
I have yet to visit Ili who is about to give birth to a baby girl end of this month.I am so happy for her!The only babies I've been busy with is my Sims' :s
So yeah,we are temporary freeloaders for now.A HUGE house with just 2 people whom are ALWAYS stuck close with one another :p We have yet to get Shu's car from Cyberjaya.We didn't have the car keys with us yesterday.
Bangi isn't so bad since we're always there whenever we need substantial food.Non-junk based.
I have yet to visit Ili who is about to give birth to a baby girl end of this month.I am so happy for her!The only babies I've been busy with is my Sims' :s
Thursday, June 02, 2011
it's been a crazy weekend.......
Left of Johor on Wednesday. Got to the hotel at about 7pm. Checked-in and made ourselves comfy for a bit.My aunt called us later that night to meet up.Gathered at my aunt's place and then went out for supper with my dad and my 2 cousins,Finaz and Lyn.Got back to the hotel and slept till about 8am.
The next day, our plan was to go hang around town.We ended up doing nothing and going nowhere so we headed over to my grandma's house.It was fun coz our intention was to go visit her and my aunt before they leave for Haj.And then,later that day.......we fell into a deep sleep.Got up the very next morning...........
Went to the Zoo for a bit.The art gallery was closed and the museum wasn't open.It's only going to be launched next year :/ Went around town again and finally had dinner with my aunts and my cousins and my uncle and my dad and my grandma.There were a bunch of guys singing at the place we had dinner.We were singing and laughing and losing our minds.I think it was the food.
Anywho,we were supposed to attend a wedding the very next morning but at 5am,I was sick.So sick that Shu had to drive me to the hospital.I was on drips for about an hour and then got discharged later.Slept for a bit back at the hotel.Got up in time to check-out and headed to Skudai for Ikhwan's wedding.Yes,he is FINALLY married to Siti!
Later on,we headed to Malacca but we didn't get there in time for Izzat Agilent's wedding so we headed straight to the hotel.We hung around the mall looking for a wedding gift for the dude which we eventually did.We actually did some shopping ourselves.Got us a pari of tennis racquets and some tennis balls.Yes,I am finally trying out tennis.Yey!
Anywho,we went all around Malacca looking for Izzat's wedding location.Finally,we got there and a bunch of Shu's colleagues were there as well.Had some food and talked and laughed for a bit.Then, we headed back.Izzat is a fuhney dude and Agilent is most definitely NOT his name.
We did a bit of sightseeing before heading home the next day.Went on the kereta lembu ^_^ and then went for the offroad buggy ride.And then,we headed over to the crocodile farm and the Orang Asli museum.Then we got hungry so we had lunch and then headed back to Cyberjaya.
That was an awesome break.We were just a wee bit disappointed for not getting our dose of jetski :(
The next day, our plan was to go hang around town.We ended up doing nothing and going nowhere so we headed over to my grandma's house.It was fun coz our intention was to go visit her and my aunt before they leave for Haj.And then,later that day.......we fell into a deep sleep.Got up the very next morning...........
Went to the Zoo for a bit.The art gallery was closed and the museum wasn't open.It's only going to be launched next year :/ Went around town again and finally had dinner with my aunts and my cousins and my uncle and my dad and my grandma.There were a bunch of guys singing at the place we had dinner.We were singing and laughing and losing our minds.I think it was the food.
Anywho,we were supposed to attend a wedding the very next morning but at 5am,I was sick.So sick that Shu had to drive me to the hospital.I was on drips for about an hour and then got discharged later.Slept for a bit back at the hotel.Got up in time to check-out and headed to Skudai for Ikhwan's wedding.Yes,he is FINALLY married to Siti!
Later on,we headed to Malacca but we didn't get there in time for Izzat Agilent's wedding so we headed straight to the hotel.We hung around the mall looking for a wedding gift for the dude which we eventually did.We actually did some shopping ourselves.Got us a pari of tennis racquets and some tennis balls.Yes,I am finally trying out tennis.Yey!
Anywho,we went all around Malacca looking for Izzat's wedding location.Finally,we got there and a bunch of Shu's colleagues were there as well.Had some food and talked and laughed for a bit.Then, we headed back.Izzat is a fuhney dude and Agilent is most definitely NOT his name.
We did a bit of sightseeing before heading home the next day.Went on the kereta lembu ^_^ and then went for the offroad buggy ride.And then,we headed over to the crocodile farm and the Orang Asli museum.Then we got hungry so we had lunch and then headed back to Cyberjaya.
That was an awesome break.We were just a wee bit disappointed for not getting our dose of jetski :(
Thursday, May 19, 2011
speak up and make a difference
It's almost impossible to understand what's happening sometimes. I really think that maybe if people started speaking up,you'd actually get somewhere.Even if it means that it's gonna take time to actually change anything,at the very least,you've let someone know this.Most importantly,you've talked to someone with the power to help you change things for the better.
If you talk among each other,among people with the same point of view,the same group of people who just keeps saying the same thing again and again but doesn't really make a move to change things,you're just gonna be stuck there,the same place,facing the same problems,being in the same position,annoyed and tired.
I'm not perfect.I'm not smart.I'm just a push over with too much pride to not be able to make it through.I can work hard if I must.I can do it if I want to.With the right attitude and mindset,I can be the best I can.
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